Fabric of my life
unfolding. unravelling
fracturing
fragmenting
fabric rarely caught in the wind
unknown
I can't get hold of it
the threads tie me down, unbearably
I can't get hold of them
I can't break free from them

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@3bsandabook
Fabric of my life
unfolding. unravelling
fracturing
fragmenting
fabric rarely caught in the wind
unknown
I can't get hold of it
the threads tie me down, unbearably
I can't get hold of them
I can't break free from them
resonance
resonance. RESONANCE
VIOLENCE
the melody
of misery
what Harmony
echoing
bones reverberating
shaking
memory
memory?
And the Choir sings in tandem with my soul
The song in me
the choir sings
and the earth
and the air
shiver
my heart is aching and I can never make it small enough
Sometimes I feel for the bones beneath my skin
it seems so strange that there is something to touch
I will break open your beautiy from torso to spine
peel layer from layer
because you are mine
cut flesh from bone
and sinew from joint
take your form and reshape it
until you are right
sometimes I watch
the bugs crawling on the walls of my room
and I envy them.
they know what they are
Only in my room. on my own.
The ticking clock.
The air, my breath, laden with lead.
Numb, so numb outside.
A steady flow of tears, down the gutter.
One day I'll overflow.
Not tonight.
once again the night takes hold.
the silence, defeaning
blanketing, cold
and I wish for a spark of warmth
and color
alone in my room.
a blade, a cut deep, and swift
lifting the weight off the world
off my mind.
heat soaking my blankets and pillow
i drift
away.
bright crimson on full display
a halo in red
a vibrant spread
around.
myself, gone
hoping i have found
my way.
beyond.
overflowing
overfeeling
reign it in
I cannot let my heart
be this
be reeling
from imaginings
apart
from what reality permits
reality
the real life
the life i can touch
always insistent
that whatever
I feel
is too much
but the cuts, the scars
are real
I can see them
the pale skin rising
when will I allow myself
to feel
what i can’t touch
end of a year
aggravates introspection
sending out tendrils
of online connection
you ask yourself
“what did I do?
where did I go?
Did I go far enough?
Did it count?
to the indefinable masses around?”
What else have we got?
Who else to turn to?
If you dont trust your own judgement
how can you trust
the judgement
of indefinite strangers
meaningless faces
images meaning nothing to you
given meaning because everyone says you’re supposed to
care
for yourself.
care
care for those you love
a billion people may judge
but if you want to live with yourself
care for the people
around you
a comfort,
a halo
for an angel never touched
never known
the desire inside my chest
gripping at my ribs
my lungs
the sinews of my heart
ripping
tearing
breaking apart.
the desire to be unknown
unnamed
incorporeal
untamed
by what life demands.
to be but an entity
free of society
free of connection
expectation
inrospection;
to flay
all the skin
and spray
all the blood
of the ones who have wronged you
and the ones you love.
they should pay.
to be free
to invoke revenge
to say
all that you can.
and in the end no one
not one
to stop you
and to confine
the infinite wires
of your mind.
liberated
to ravage
to tear apart
anyone
you desire
to start
the momentum
you require
to be.
just to be
a streetlight
at night
a streak of silvery white
in the dark
a delight
for a slipping mind
bugs in my periphery
wasps for the most part
black and dark
my hands not my own
the mirror a window to somone
I dont know
they smile
im alone
am I?
I hope
static in my ears
snowscreen
a demon inside me
if i claw it out i die
to fall in love! what a privilege, what a joy to feel so strongly, so deeply, that your heart may burst! to feel so alive!
someone tear the stitches off me where I tried to mend I cannot It hurts too much the bleeding stains my every touch please someone make it end