As you can see in my bio, I'm a 31-year-old 🇧🇷Brazilian gay guy. I work in architecture and interior design and live in a small town, located about 1 hour and 30 minutes (by car) from Sao Paulo, one of the largest cities in the world.
I'm autistic, ADHD, and #BIID (or #BID), a condition that basically makes me not recognize parts of my body as actually being mine. In my case, I feel that my feet and part of my legs are "intruders" and that I shouldn't have them. In short, I feel that I will only be complete when I am a bilateral amputee below the knees (#DBK). That's how I should be.
Okay, reading this is bizarre for those who don't understand and/or feel the same way, I understand that.
The only social network where I talk about this topic is here, unfortunately anonymously. Nobody I interact with in real life knows about my #BIID condition. This is the biggest secret I carry inside me. This condition is still a very complex subject and doesn't make sense to most people. Because of this, I'm afraid of the negative reaction and the possible loss of important people in my life, especially my boyfriend.
He's the only person I think about revealing this secret to someday, but I don't feel ready yet. My boyfriend is wonderful, he's so open-minded and non-judgmental about anything, but even so, I still don't know how to approach this subject with him. I first have to deal with the fear and insecurity that exist within me.
I think that's all for now. I'll leave here a real photo of my legs. Next to it, I asked the AI to edit how I would look if I had DBK amputation.
Thank you for reading this far, and I'll be back soon to talk more about it.
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