#21
It's 3.00 a.m. and I can't hardly get asleep. We've been arguing for the past 2 hours and.. I'm reaching the conclusion, finally. A story about The Gift. The Gift. Yes, The Gift. The Gift, God's given which taught many things about life. It's taught me about loving and caring someone else. I learned to put someone's first and to love someone unconditionally. It's like a treasure Sinbad's looking for, or like the boy Fatima, the desert woman, is waiting for. I got one in the unanticipated time. The Gift helped me in understanding how good God's been to me. The Gift helped me in taking care of someone more than myself. It's also taught me about how to experience reciprocated feelings, to feel more about being loved. Experiencing new sensation of being loved would never be so bad. I got crazy about learning The Gift. I fell into tears, laughs, happiness, sadness, jealousy. I cursed them most of the time. I really wanted The Gift to be my own. I put a wall against negative things which could destroy my relationship with it. It's so precious until I forgot about the importance of The Gift. The Gift given by God is also effected by the matter of time. It has an expiry date. God will pass The Gift to anyone's in needed. Maybe, the one who needs The Gift more than me. So, I've decided to break the surrounding wall. God reminds me to return The Gift soon. He also reminds me that the happiness of The Gift is also important, because The Gift can taste the sensation of love too. Thank you The Gift for everything you've given to me. Thank you for ears to listen to my stories, for arms to provide hugs, for eyes to keep me out of my clumsiness, for everything. Let's do this naturally. Maybe just maybe, God will give me additional time to be with you, or give me some warnings that this moment will be ended soon. I won't regret a thing. Because time I've enjoyed the most won't never be wasted. I also won't hold a thing. Time will tell, won't it? Thank you and thank You for making me understand that I'm capable to love someone, wholeheartedly. Love, ANR












