blog of nations

fuckin bloggGG ing up ihhn here mptherfucker kawaii af bro dont jack the system bro got it all figured out man chill with me bro or u can get hte f out here ME ya here me lol

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2018

fall in love and if you don't do it instantly let it be

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Sophomore year of college

-fuck it

-no more mourning

-roll

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See and since June 1st 2016 I've been mourning every single month besides july, April, and September and I really don't wanna drown in the past another trip around the moon

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ah fuck ok

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This blog is doomed but art is not

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feral catholic vol. 1

and i only had the feral catholic for 2 weeks and 3 days, about. and i needed the catholic and i also didnt. the ctaholic taught me that i am excellent the way i was, in growing and with women and with myself and my friendships, with my future, the universe. the catholic taught me that people, men, are deserving of respect when they give it. freshmen year was a lot about giving an amount of respect to men and receiving none back. the feral catholic couldn’t have been more far from the norm. how could 2 weeks change me so much? 

the catholic saw an agnostic existentialist, a compendium of dynamics, and saw beauty. the catholic reminded me that there is beauty in opposition, and more so in respect for it. feral catholic, thank you for saving the life of the hopeless romantic inside of me. 

how that person had withered. 

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words aren’t real

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i was in a food location the other night and i didn’t realize until then how trigger words actually worked and im sitting there and this one word was said and i like basically had a panic attack right there and HOLY SHIT trigger words are a thing and that wasn’t even like bad it was just i don’t ea

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things i need

-drugs

-rock and roll baby

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super confused at like the content that ive been creating or not creating recently and idk how to make content that is me or wear things that are me you know so now im just stuck in a kind of boring weird limbo where i have the drive to create and fuck my life up but i just don’t and im stuck and making decisions that are bad and being self-destructive in ways that are usually considered self care and you know what haha hahaha a ahhaha aw ow w

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ghoulrave was a weird time but im back to my true form but updated

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And im in a hella weird pt in time bc antisquid isnt me anymore and ghoulrave isnt either and so now im messy and dont know where to shitpost Do i pick sqd back up again? Ghoulrave isnt me. Doesnt fit

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Somewhere jack black is Himself found, perchance bound, he, Dismal jack, salt eyes

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i DONT FUNKCING UNDERSTAND

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pound the alarm; talking to temple Friend abuout Coaches

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…….             egg         .?

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WHERE R MY NOODLE BOYS AT