Brain Rewires

A name is given to us, we weren't given a choice. I chose who I am. At life, I run and race against wind, At Tumblr, I enjoy art, poetry. Afterlife, I will be dancing on clouds. Ask me anything

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“All people are clever at resolving other’s problems”

And I can’t solve mine I’m trying to find the nearest exit This fire could eat you before time There’s nothing left here for you If this falls it could hurt How can you run

You need to continue you can’t be gone I’m looking around trying to figure out Where would be the nearest exit How would I make it behind this Outside is the only way to breathe It’s like I’m being choked Before I’m allowed to speak Now it’s just trying to stay As long as I’m here anything could happen

At any second this could fall Or this This can catch me and burns a skin I need to run it’s not even hot it’s hell I will try to walk slowly but I can’t Staying here longer doesn’t make sense So here’s a plan Step one Make sure the door is not locked When you see it falling Don’t waste time Step two Gather yourself Say goodbye to what’s left Move in careful foot steps Smile as if everything is fine Leave out of the door as fast as you can Don’t look behind When you are in the fresh air You can look behind Just remember There’s no way of going back Sometimes it’s just so hard Should you run with what you need Or what you can.

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"Like a star in the sky- lost in the clouds"

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Three days ago I told a friend I need silence Isolation from everyone- abstention from speech Maybe locking the doors and hide behind the walls of my room I’m just worried about food What if my mom asked me, hey son don’t you want lunch?

Can I respond in sign language when someone asks me to go out with them How could I explain to friends I just can’t see no one I just don’t want to speak I just feel like staying by myself For long I wanted to do this Until I miss everyone or I just be happy with being away from everyone I need to figure out myself

I look at my palms and think: What else could be there? Why are all these lines? They are too much I can’t focus I need to look at myself again What does it mean to be trapped within yourself This society driving me crazy I mean what the heck why can’t I choose who I am This is a serious a question and apparently I can’t answer this

Here is a dangerous place: Everyone have to be the same, Everyone have to pray In the same direction everything is moving and nothing has changed It’s been a thousand years since we locked our minds Look at me now I look the same This sand is so blond.

This girl with black hair looks astonishing We had this love for long enough Now everything is fine too In the past I was so free To love you was a bless To be loved by you was a win-win You see I’m back to where everything started It just feels like walking by a poem backwards Don’t attempt It wasn’t meant to be anyway Don’t just let it be though Make a plan It doesn’t matter how many miles as long as it makes you feel good, Look good- let it be, and Run.

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You have told me so many quotes and verses, but I haven’t hear you speak

You ask me to hold the rope that leads to the past- but I’m walking forward

I have seen good and bad in your heaven lights

In your Idol a human trying to make a better life

Never a slave to thoughts for we have seen servants of Gods- but not many for humankind

Target heaven - my dear - and I will stand with those in earth -serving living mind.

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In The Middle of a Dance.

It has been a long time since I ever wrote something. It's not that I had no feelings, or I became a cold person. I'm still warm in this cold. But somehow it's dark. And I have been bodycuffed. Trapped into a drawn line. You, one, moved something in me again, tonight. I would like to fall in love, I would like to kiss and hug. I'm. Just feeling pale- I'm. If you know the hands that try to reach me. You won't stop praying. You won't leave the temple without a tear and God left behind.

By time- I got allergy in my eyes. It's nothing, it just feels too dry. I still can see though. I'm trying to reach you again. It's sad you have stopped asking. Maybe that's good, better for you, and me- I'm okay. Every time I say it to someone I feel I'm lying. And I ask myself, why do I lie? Because people, these people don't need to know. Or maybe because people don't want to know. Or maybe, because I'm just tired of saying I'm tired. Because in fact, I'm not tired. Am I depressed?

I don't think so, although last time I talked about it with a friend. They say to be thankful cause it could be worse. Yes, I know. But I don't look down, and I won't but look up and forward. Because it can be better too, so why not. And I'm not really tired. I'm just.

I don't know. This is a breaking point. Everything could change, or stop. Let’s not stop now. Let it be a season, that will be great to wait for the next season- like I have been waiting for long for game of thrones. This sounds ironic now, with regard to where I'm at this point- game of thrones. Oh I want to curse but let's not mention that. But really it's. Heroes could die and the ones you don't expect could be gone at a flash of a sword. You know like what happened to Robb Stark was so unexpected. Life could stab anyone like that

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Have you played a note, And heard, something else?

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You had your faith all settled down: Music, a cup of tea, And all your secrets drawn Ink on paper.

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You see their smile, And hear their laughs, Thinking: Their life so perfect, You are so jealous, Have you seen the blue inside?

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When I’m feeling very low I need you

When I’m feeling very sad I think of you

There’s a hundred person in my life And I only miss you.

-I need you

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Can you unlove a person?

Depends actually. For me, i could only find someone who I will love greater.

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I love this thought,

You can’t unlove someone, you can only find someone whom you would love greater

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Abs Belt

Yes, I have abs belt on my heart All I got is soul trying to escape Falling in love Falling off love Each is an exercise I have been growing Strong, it hurts Just one more Set, free Breathe Don’t give up I’m falling strong I’m in love Lost.

It’s not easy, I don’t know why I’m keeping on.

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So I decided to pick myself up From bed I didn't know where to put So I stayed hanging Between floor and roof I felt nothing Like a feather falling Missing the days of flying Heart used to be bright Hug, swinging I love you Too beautiful morning You open your eyes to love. What a beautiful moment When you were next to me Life is perfect Are you okay Did you sleep well Simple questions From the lips that gives you life Life is perfect When you are on my side Life is perfect With our flaws We are in love.

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When sleep is tasteless, And the night is long, The house is empty, Your heart alone.

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When sleep is tasteless, And the night is long, The house is empty, Your heart alone.

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Love, when I write about you.

When I write about you It doesn’t mean I want you back It means I’m going through you With all the pain it takes to write.

When I write about you I think to myself several times Do I really want you back

When I write about you I know I still love you And I know I have to let go

When I write about you I know it will only hurt me more To be back with you will be beautiful Night or day but it will hurt as you fade

When I write about you I realize how much I have lost And you have lost as much more A novel we could have been.

When I write about you I imagine you singing my words My guitar dances on minor notes

When I write about you I realize you hurt me much And I know you loved me though By hands your love have been killed.

When I write about you I let go of my feelings I tear about us in letters My heart aches

When I write about you Everything fall, ink to paper Pen in despair to the ground Pale smile.

When I write about you, I remember reasons I shouldn’t be back And I list reasons worth your sight But the pain aches and the hurt wins.

-When I write about you.

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Your Number, Memories

I had your number memorized Like a second name I call unconsciously under the spills Falling on the ground, broken By your name I swear,

I had your number memorized, I’m always afraid to call you again, What gain would be other than pain I’m so afraid to love you again

I had your number memorized I wanted to let go of all about us I played games three seven six Or seven six three or maybe I lost the memory of your name

I had your number memorized And that’s all left I couldn’t burn My brain cells insisting it’s three Seven zero, I had your number erased.

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Awe

I know why you left. You realized everything is real. And you were so weak. You were unable to love.