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this blog is now dedicated to shitting on my abusive ex joseph "jojo" g

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Still totally unhappy with my life and hearing you scream at me all the time. My boss can't help me get over it anymore. Pathetic.

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The men using me against my will treat me better than you did.

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No matter what I always hear you screaming at me. Now people are valuing me for more than my holes and I don't think I can appreciate that. Being someone's fuck toy is all I know. I have to make up for misbehaving with sexual favours though, so maybe I am still seen as just holes. I will never know because I will never meet a genuine man.

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Even if I try to say I moved on, I am like my mother in the sense that I am a vindictive cunt. Lets see if the constant abuse will work out well for me. So far all it has done is make me hate anyone who asks for my trust. Thanks for that. "it would be stellar if you didn't go @ him" It would have been stellar if I was being helped instead of shamed and constantly being treated like a dog. But. I never saw that happen, so why try.

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Well, its been almost a year, its been a long time and a lot of vengeful shit said. I've said everything on my mind just about. Part of the healing process so I can let the fuck go. Better to let it out than hold it in ya? Not gonna say no hard feelings because they are and will always be there, but man. Its outta my system. Be glad. Comfy lyfe soon coming, moving to be with someone who won't treat me like fucking garbage. Don't treat your next person how you did me or you'll see the worst in people more than you already have.

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Even the autist who sent my father my camshows treated me better than you did. What a fucking awesome thing to realize.

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WE COULD HAVE MADE IT TO TWO YEARS, THEN YOU HAD TO GO NUMB *GOOD FUCKING JOB KATIE*

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I STILL FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WATCHING ME EATING AND WATCHING ME PEE IF ANYONE ASKS ME TO I JUST GO OFF ON THEM GOOD JOB FOR BEING SO FAR UP MY ASS THAT ANYONE WHO ACTS LIKE YOU OR DOES SHIT LIKE YOU BRINGS OUT THE CUNT IN ME

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NO MEANS YES IM NOT IN THE MOOD MEANS IM CHEATING ON YOU I CAN’T GET WET MEANS I GOT BLACKED

I NEVER LOVED YOU BUT YOU FUCKED ME UP SO BAD I CAN’T WAIT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF BECAUSE I CAN’T RECOVER FROM THE DAMAGE YOU DID TO ME

DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT FUCKING IRRITATES ME TO KNOW A MAN I NEVER LOVED HAS SUCH LEVERAGE OVER ME JUST BECAUSE HE TREATED ME LIKE SHIT FOR ALMOST TWO YEARS

MY FUCKING MOM DOESN’T HAVE THIS MUCH IMPACT ON ME AND SHE ABUSED ME FOR FOURTEEN YEARS

I REMEMBER EVERY WORD YOU SAID TO ME AND EVERY ACTION AND OVERREACTION YOU TOOK AGAINST ME, I CAN’T WAIT FOR YOU TO FUCKING DIE DUDE

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HAHAHAHAHAHA HOLY FUCK I CAN'T EVEN FUCK OTHER PEOPLE OR WANK BECAUSE IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD ALL I HEAR IS YOU FUCKING YELLING AT ME LMAO I CAN'T WAIT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF OR HAVE YOU DEAD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO FORM A RELATIONSHIP OR FRIENDSHIP BECAUSE I CAN ONLY THINK OF YOU FUCKING SCREAMING AT ME AND CUTTING YOURSELF OVER SHIT THAT DIDN'T EVEN MATTER I FUCKING SOLD MY BODY LAST WEEK TO CONFIRM I WAS FINE AND I DIDN'T HEAR YOU YELLING AT ME ANYMORE WHILE HE WAS INSIDE ME ALL I HEARD WAS YOU CRYING ABOUT HOW THERE'S ALWAYS SOMEONE ELSE ITS ALWAYS ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE I CAMMED A FEW MINUTES AGO, ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS YOU ASSUMING I WAS CHEATING WHENEVER I WASN'T IN THE MOOD AND I DRIED UP INSTANTLY I HEAR YOU YELLING AT ME EVERYWHERE I GO AND WITH EVERYTHING I DO, I CAN'T DO ANYTHING BUT ABUSE SUBSTANCES TO GET YOU OUT OF MY STUPID NIGGER HEAD I HOPE YOUR ABUSE WAS WORTH IT TO YOU I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS I HOPE YOU READ THIS AND SMILE BECAUSE IM FUCKING MISERABLE AND WAITING TO SEE YOUR NAME ON THE NEWS

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I have come to terms with the fact that nobody will give a fuck about me. But just because people don't care about me doesn't mean they'll all constantly treat me like shit. ☺☺☺

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I don't know why I defended you and said I loved you. After many men treated me like shit and I defended them, I realized it wasn't normal to say you love someone who screams at you and makes you cry regularly. But I was wrong about you back then. Now I know that I don't deserve to be treated like shit and I'm not going to stay around for it. It only took years and years of taking beatings to realize. You can call me trash, you can call me a whore, those words all may be true, but once you treat me like shit I'm gone. I'm not having any of that anymore. I am currently in a rut. I'll find someone who loves me and doesn't try to fuck me over or make me cry. I don't expect to find any because that's all the men I choose seem to be good at. But I will get there. And I will get over this eventually. Just never come back into my life.

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The girl you tried to make me jealous about you with is in communities with me. Glad she doesn't really remember me. God. I can't go anywhere without some retard linked to you showing up.

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WE COULD HAVE MADE IT TO TWO YEARS THEN YOU HAD TO GO AND BE NUMB GOOD FUCKING JOB KATIE The amount of time I spent on the ship doesn't mean it makes it better. Plenty of people married for like sixty fucking years hate each other. It doesn't change anything if we spend four seasons or four hundred seasons together. I still would have faked being numb to cut it off. I wish I cut it off faster.

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Thank god tinder is a thing. I wonder how many people will pay though. Its not like I'm worth money anyways, so I don't even need payment. (-^〇^-)

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I AM JUST LIKE MY MOTHER THANKS FOR PROVING IT

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SELLING ASS ONCE AGAIN, COME GET YOUR ROUNDS ON THIS PIECE OF FUCK MEAT I SWEAR I WILL FUCK SOMEONE FOR A SLICE OF BREAD AT THIS POINT GIVE ME VALUE BY GIVING ME YOUR CUM MY VALUE IS WHAT MEN SEE IN ME MY VALUE IS JUST MY HOLES HE AND OTHERS TAUGHT ME THIS SO WELL, IT WOULD BE WRONG TO GO AGAINST WHAT I AM I AM HOLES