Well, I don’t know what kind of poetic, experimental thing that I can write here. Because I can only say that this whole research was experimental poetry.
The video was actualized without intention. Even the long shot that my sister took was not even a plan. She has it, I used it. Also music (I gained new skills) I found the main beat (I made) and then I experimented with the session, then I realized it was possible to open all my layers at AL and boom, I have a chance to mix my own mix XD
Of course, editing was experimental. Overlapping scenes were there coincidentally and I said to myself ‘why not’...
So in short, this is the result without needing more explanation,
I walked around the village, and encountered an old, abandoned house and an elementary village school. There were variety of moldy furnitures like desks, closets, posters that show weathers…
I felt it is where the time is frozen, where everything stands still or hanged in the air in order to survive until the time slips everything away.
Emptiness was the declaration of the things that were there once but not anymore. I thought how strange that what is missing is so visible to eye, how strange to name it, to acknowledge it.
There were also dead, rotting small animal corpses, like a tiny bird which was passed away not long ago. When I look at it, I saw the vulnerability of it but it wasn’t possible for it to get hurt anymore. It was already gone as if affirming the cycle of nature.
Flesh in contrast to inanimate objects have a shorter life span while they are rotting. It is tend to hang in the space shorter which is similar to my position, as a living being. I as a visitor and an observer of the memory from past in that moment, was not able to stay still for a long time there. Also probably I stayed there no more than 10 minutes.
Maybe because, living cannot get along with death so long -two different worlds- A moment to equalize existence, I can stay there or a pure curiosity can make me stroll around without actually giving myself to it. I cannot imagine to stay there longer… Can I stay frozen in time?
Is it possible to make a peace between what is on motion and what is on hold..? Or in another way, is it possible to find balance between the speed of different timings in a moment?
Well that’s what I am researching right in this moment…
Keywords from B’s book: effortless delicacy / non-predictability / parallelity of other & I
other also sees me and affects me by his/her presence >> relationship of mixing/outlines are blurred
letting go > being aware of response = shaping in > receptive to form
active/passive = there is no separation
life demands improvisation because no possibility to know everything
Fog: sis havada kalmış yağmur dalması / yağamayan yağmur
A moment of not finding a meaning
A vast emptiness of space
A holding, a letting go
A state of in-betweenness
A moment before a storm, a moment after a chaos
Insight: My drawings mostly have an outline, that can be an indication that I mostly felt detached from other… an imaginary line between me and other… an attempt to separate myself from the other
Years after I initiated this blog for my research laboratory of movement, I finally fermented to activate my purpose.
I didn’t want to erase my first two posts from 2014. I barely wipe stuff out from the archive of my personal experiences, works, any data. I appreciate seeing how things changed and grew in time. So here I am!
With the quarantine days that we all are experiencing in different shades of this collective experience, I started to go back so that I can move further in a lighter way. For me, there are lots of inner changes happening. Maybe also because my 30th birthday just intersected with all these happenings.
I don’t want to turn this post into a long journal entry so I will slowly elaborate my inner dialogues besides my improvisation sessions throughout the following days/posts.
Basically, what I am aiming is to research and record my movement exploration. Currently, I am in the village that is located in the northeast side region of Turkey. I am surrounded by nature and lots of interesting, organic structures. I am aiming to use this environment and time.
On a regular basis (that I don’t know the frequency) I am planning to add my videos besides my insights. On this path, I will get benefit from valuable sources, reading materials, and I will share them here as well.
My insights will exhibit my starting/anchor points that I focused on my every session. Plus I want to elaborate on what improvisation and performance mean to me in this progressive period.
Well, if you read so far, be ready to watch my first video, it is 10 minutes, and I just flowed without taking any focus on my attention. The most tempting part was to get relaxed while moving in front of the camera without trying ‘ACT’ for it. The feeling of ‘being watched’ by an eye that memorizes everything made me a little bit unbalanced. However, it was good to feel how I release this idea and focus on the flow.
Another playlist flowed while I dance, so song in the video is to break the silence, lower or turn off the sound if you like!
Today I visited DeStilte Dance Company and watched the Classes about Jack Gallagher. Here is some info:
Jack Gallagher has been an avid reader of art criticism, theater studies, relational aesthetics, philosophy and performance theory.
He makes conceptualties with dance and dance analysis from an interdisciplinary knowledge base, seeing as how contemporary dance performance is transcending and subverting typical genre and discipline distinctions. His first formal text accompanied Ruby Edelman's choreographic contribution to the Scapino Ballet's performance “Twools 3” in 2000.
From 2009-2011, he was a research fellow at the Danslab in Den Haag. Within the context of art practice as research, Jack choose to investigate the Performative Speech Act Theory(PSAT) and the Actor Network Theory(ANT).
In 2011, Jack Gallagher along with Jette Schneider, Managing Director of the Danslab den Haag initiated and organized an open research studio C.L.O.U.D. In Den Haag. C.L.O.U.D. is a artist curated research studio and a test case for a new type of entrepreneurial self-organizing model for classes, research and outreach to local community.
