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the thing about phone in bed is that it's so awesome. almost makes you feel like betraying & destroying yourself for nothing isn't all so bad
Good Hands
Simon 'Ghost' Riley x f!Reader
Part One of Two
CW: angst, canon-typical violence, hurt/comfort, references to suicide, injured Simon, eventual smut, military inaccuracies
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When Soap gave you Simon’s address, you thought you’d end up in some dodgy building with flickering lights and the pungent smell of piss.
You expected sleazy neighbours, creaky old doors, and grime-crusted flooring: he is a clean man, sure—pathologically so, you’d like to add, since his barracks back at HQ look like an OR—but he absolutely adores his privacy. You wouldn’t put it past him to move somewhere other people would never go for their safety, even if it meant tiptoeing around pools of unidentified fluids and used condoms.
Instead, as your GPS pings your arrival, you find yourself in front of the loveliest house you’ve ever seen.
Uneven bricks, ochre and grey, cloaked by a pitched roof and tiles laced with moss and ashen lichen. A chimney peeks from the top left, darkened right around the top. There’s a stone path leading from the gravel where you parked your car to the front door—sturdy hardwood thing, painted a deep dark chocolate with bronze trims all around. Wooden fixtures for the windows, worked and etched in that way that makes them look old, but they clearly aren’t. Thick glass, maybe to isolate sounds—as if it’s needed.
This house is as pretty as it is lonely. Lost in the middle of nowhere.
At least you were right about one thing. Not even God would go this far to look after His disciples.
Out of four hours, you spent half driving through unpaved roads, with your car jumping over fat roots and potholes. Got lost once. Almost ended up in a ditch twice.
However, the landscape they led to is gorgeous as few. Worth the money that you’ll surely have to splurge on new shock suspenders.
It’s autumn, so there’s the occasional tree popping golden amongst an emerald ocean extending behind the cottage, farther than the eye can see. In front of the house, there’s a small grove. It rustles with the wind, coos with birds and owls, runs with squirrels and wildlife clawing up the trees. Evergreen bushes with the occasional pop of colour, whether red or pale orange, lean against the trunks. The sun is setting behind it, painting the landscape with the shadows of the fronds and a soft golden glow.
It's quiet, in that way only nature can be.
If you hadn’t been worried down to the bone marrow, you’d have lit a cigarette and smoked it with your ass on the trunk of your car while basking in the last shafts of sunlight of the day.
Alas, you’re not here for sightseeing.
You turn off your car and jump out of the seat. Gently, you stretch your arms; your shoulders pop, your back cracks like a fucking glowstick. Your knees aren’t faring better, clicking when you stand up fully.
With a withering sigh, you walk to the back of the car and open the bonnet.
There are groceries for a lifetime stacked in there. Four bags from Tesco, two smaller ones from the chemist’s. Pain killers, vitamins, paracetamol, supplements, benzodiazepines, citalopram, escitalopram, and all the fucking prams the pharmacy had to offer. The list was long; you eyed Johnny worriedly when he gave it to you, but knew better than to ask.
You’re tired. Tired beyond measure. You went to work at the crack of dawn and then jumped in the car when you couldn’t take it anymore. Dropped everything, apologised to Kyle for leaving him to fend for himself with the diplomatic envoy, and when Price scrunched his nose disappointedly, you apologised to him as well and promised to do double the job once you were sure he was alright.
Because you hadn’t heard from him in days.
Not a phone call, not a text, not a sign that he was using his phone at all. Not a sign that he was alright, that he was still grumbling about the growing prices of groceries, that he was still nursing a nightcap in the evenings—that he was alive.
He used to tell you.
They don’t get it—Johnny, Kyle, Price. They don’t know about the texts, the calls, the photos, the messages sent in the middle of the night, the ones left just shy of dawn, just to wish each other a good day.
Your little secret, that. Your little something soft, developed in the ruthlessness of your job. Something amicable and familiar stuck in between the horrors of cold-blooded murder, of dead bodies scattered in your lives, and endless stacks of paperwork.
You’d send him pictures of your pale tea—too much milk, if you asked him. Of your pies baked during downtime, of the Christmas decorations you’d hang on the ceiling. He’d send you those of birds landing on the hood of his car, cats he’d find along his walk that would nuzzle his calf.
SR: Don’t know why.
LT: they think you’re snow white
LT: because you’re pale and you have the sweetest big brown eyes
SR: Wouldn’t say sweet.
LT: in fact i said sweetest :)
SR: Flattery won’t work on your lieutenant.
LT: ha! but im a lieutenant too. you can’t pull rank on me
SR: I’m your L.T.
SR: You’re my second lieutenant. Under my command.
LT: technicalities
SR: You’re L.T. too
SR: L.Too
SR: L2
L2: oi
SR: Haha
L2: rude
SR: Alright, L2.
They don’t get it.
SR: Sleeping?
L2: are you keeping tabs on me?
SR: You’d be surprised.
L2: won’t ask
SR: Shouldn’t.
L2: Fancy a chat?
And your phone would ring.
“L2,” he’d greet.
“Not funny anymore.” But it was.
“Reckon it’s bloody hilarious.”
“Been too long. It’s losing its charm.”
“Charm?” He’d breathe a laugh. Almost. “Right, then—El.”
Midnight, midday, seven AM, four AM, six PM. On and off the job. Christmases and birthdays and Easters and early Sundays and late-night Mondays—
His touch, secretive and fleeting. Warm hands on the hollow of your spine as he walks by, fingers tightening the straps of your vest, adjusting the holsters on your thighs. Watchful eyes chasing your shadow in the crowd, following your fingers as they deftly work through cables and buttons. Burning holes on the back of your hands as you aptly defuse an IED. His huff of relief, his palm warm on your shoulders. A pat, a caress.
“Good job, L2.”
“Fuck off with that,” you’d laugh. “Spooky fucker.”
“That’s my El.”
They don’t get it.
Or maybe they do.
Price wrinkled his nose, but didn’t stop you. Kyle took over your shift. Johnny gave you the means to reach him.
Maybe they saw it—your eyes softening whenever he walked into a room, his shoulders unravelling whenever your voice crackled over comms. Two peas in a pod, birds of a feather. The moon and the fucking sun. Lieutenant Riley and his 2nd lieutenant.
LT and L2. Ghost and El.
On the seventh day of no contact, you couldn’t take it anymore. You raided Tesco, you begged Johnny to give you his address (and thankfully, he was just as worried as you were—you’d have hated pulling rank on him), and he secretly passed you Simon’s medical file so you could pop by the chemist too.
Now, you find yourself properly hauling your own weight in groceries along the stone path leading to his cottage. You drop them with a grunt in front of his door.
On your side, his car is parked. Second-hand. Onyx black. Bird shit on the roof, windows grainy with soil and opaqued with rain tracks.
Unused for a while. Normal, in a way. It’s not like he can drive in that state. For any amenities, a nurse would come by, provided by the SAS. Sometimes he’d open and be cordial enough. Sometimes he would just tell them to leave groceries and whatnot at the door.
The nurse told Price it had been days since Simon even answered his phone calls, never mind open the door. Price told the team, but not you. Kyle passed you the intel with the same secrecy as a mole working for the enemy.
Gooseflesh crawls up your spine as you look at the weathered bronze of the doorknob. There’s no doorbell that you can see.
You knock.
“Lieutenant.”
Nothing.
The wind grazes your ears, ruffles the fronds as it intersects with the leaves. You dry the pearls of sweat on your forehead with the back of your hand, and knock again.
“L.T.,” you say, trying to sound chirpy. “Special delivery!”
Silence.
You lean to the side and try to peek through an overgrown bush into one of the windows, but the curtains are drawn shut. You bring your thumb to your lips and nibble at a cuticle.
Knock.
“Lieutenant!” Again. Worry seeps through the cracks. “It’s me! It’s lieutenant—”
You chew on your name. It dies on your tongue.
“It’s L2!” You yell instead. “It’s El!”
Blood beads on your thumbnail, bitten short.
Knock knock.
“Please open the door?” You venture. Your heart pounds in your ears. “I’m so fucking—so fucking tired and worried.”
Knock knock knock.
“Where the fuck do you live anyway, uh?” You sniffle. Your nose stings. “Was right, wasn’t I? You are fucking Snow White.”
Nothing.
Loudest silence you’ve ever heard.
You hate it. You want to fill it with more knocks, with more yells, with the sound of his footsteps, with the gravel of his voice, the crackle through comms, the clicking of his ankle when he rests his weight on it for too long, the burn of his cigarette in the coldest nights, the breath of a laugh he wants to swallow but doesn’t manage.
“Lieu—” You gulp. “Simon? Please.”
On the far right, there’s a bench whose greyish paint is chipping away. Old wood rots in the centre because of rain and constant humidity. Even though you sat in that godforsaken car for the past four hours and some, you feel your knees buckling the more you keep standing.
So, you carry yourself over there. Drop down. The bench creaks. As predicted, it’s wet and it seeps through your jeans. You sigh.
“Alright,” you slam your palm on the wood.
“I’m gonna sleep right—” Thud. “Fucking—” Thud. “Here, then.”
There’s no sound.
You look at the groceries.
“I brought you food!” You go on, “And if you don’t open the door I’m gonna eat it. Everything. Even your stupid chocolate biscuits—I’m gonna gobble them up in one sitting.”
The milk will go bad if you don’t put it in a fridge. The ice cream will melt.
“The bourbon too,” you yell. “Gonna drink it all. Gonna get comatose on your stupid bench in this—in this fucking fairy grove you live in.”
The fruit will start softening. The meat will start rotting and smelling. And flies will run to it, conquer it, eat it raw, and lay their eggs inside. Their buzz will drive you insane, and you’ll lose your mind on this bench, in the middle of nowhere.
“And I’m gonna sleep here until you open that fucking door, you hear me?” Your voice cracks. “And I’m gonna get sick and—and it’ll be your fault, because you didn’t open the bloody door.”
You wonder whether you’d smell the same thing if you broke it down. If the buzz would be heavier, more persistent. If it would be something else driving you insane.
The image flashes bright and real. Smells like you have it within reach, before you, hanging from a chandelier, drowning in a crimson bathtub, or melting on the bed, stomach filled with pills and nothing else.
Your heart plummets at your feet. You feel claustrophobic, boxed in a square of cement that pushes in your shoulders and compresses your chest.
“Simon!” You yell, voice cracking. Droplets stain your jeans. It’s not raining. “You fucking cunt open the fucking door!”
Elbows on your knees, you drop your head in your hands. You’re so tired. You don’t even know if you can drive back home, especially now that the sun is setting. You’d gladly sleep in your car—fuck, you’d sleep on this bench if it meant finding him at the door the next morning, looking all cranky and grumbling about the mess you made.
All you can do is plead quietly, a breathy prayer you hope he can hear, even if only whispered.
“Please open the fucking door, please open the fucking door—"
Are you strong enough to break it down? You’re special forces, but you’re not a battering ram. You don’t have the tools that would help—you didn’t think you were gonna need them.
Stupid.
Are you brave enough to open the door? To find what’s inside? Should you call the police? An ambulance?
The thought makes you retch. You cover your mouth and bite on your palm.
“This fucking idiot—” You whisper. Swallow thick. Your throat stings as bile rises. “I swear to God you selfish bastard, you better not. You better fucking not, Simon, I will—”
“Which bourbon?”
Your head snaps.
His shoulders, wide and hunched, fill the doorway, open enough for you to see him entirely. A grey shirt hangs loose around his torso. He’s got his hands stuffed in the pockets of his joggers, but there’s a strain in his arms. Corded and rigid, tied in a way that shows in his neck, too.
A scar runs thick down the side of his head, starting from the centre of his forehead and tipping at the shell of his ear, following a curved line clearly left by a surgeon. Bulbous near his temple, where the flesh was too soft and took longer to heal.
Darkness blossoms under his eyes, swollen and sunken at the same time; puffy with sleep, hollow with tiredness. He’s paler than usual, his cheeks are gaunt, and he’s so much fucking thinner.
But he’s alive.
His chest rises. His blood runs.
You blink.
A tear threatens to stream down your cheek, but you anticipate it, drying its path with the back of your hand. Your bones soften, muscles unclenched. Clumsily, you take a trembling breath, and it feels like it’s the first time you’ve ever done it.
“I-I don’t know,” you stutter. “Don’t drink the stuff. Asked the clerk for his favourite and he just—just tossed it in there.”
“Mh.”
His eyes look for the bottle amongst the mountain of food and drinks stuffed in the bags.
“You better like it.” You sniffle and nod at the bags. “Fifty-five quid just for that thing.”
He snorts. Sighs. “Good enough then.”
You exchange looks.
Then, he nods his head inside.
“Help me out?” He drawls.
Dizzy, you nod. Your legs tingle as if they’ve just been awakened, your stomach rumbles like you haven’t eaten in days. The world turns upside down—relief so visceral and thick you feel like it’s drowning you.
You stumble to the doorway. Your guts squeeze and thrash. You might throw up, but you don’t, swallowing the tightening feeling clawing up your throat.
You stuff the smaller pharmacy bags inside the Tesco ones.
Simon leans in too, taking his hands out of his pockets.
You hadn’t seen the aftermath yet.
He’s missing the last two fingers on his left hand. Surgery scars run along the back of both, slicing the tattoo on his forearm in a cobweb of thick, ruddy lines. That is, where the flesh isn’t rubbery and burnt, convoluted as if yearning to weld itself back together in the aftermath of being torn apart.
They shake—fiercely, like he’s experiencing an earthquake inside his body; unfolding before your eyes, shattering his bones.
You look at them. Transfixed. At the mangled flesh sewn back together, at the tremble that runs through his veins and tips at his nails. The strain of his muscles clawing up his arms, taut to the point of pain—like he’s putting all his effort to keep them still, to exert control over them.
Control he lost.
When you lift your eyes again, you meet his face.
Stone cold. Dreadfully frigid.
“The bags are heavy,” you croak.
“Carried worse,” he replies flatly, and his hands curl around the handles of two.
His fingers tighten, knuckles painted white. Nails bite his palms, but he perseveres. Swallows a groan of pain that rumbles in his throat and lifts the groceries off the floor.
The plastic bags crackle like a gale is blowing furiously through them. The glass of the bottles clinks. You see, as he walks inside, the tension in his gait: forcing his legs to cooperate, to work by themselves, as he focuses exclusively on the stability of his hands.
Without looking back, he leaves the door open for you to follow.
You stand frozen stock still, arms down your sides, and eyes brimming with guilt.
Carried worse, he said.
Carried you, months ago, when the bomb went off.
Six Months Earlier
Intel’s rarely faulty when the source is the police themselves.
Granted, even in these cases, one should always take statistics into consideration: a mole, a diversion, the original source. However, things sometimes are so obvious that statistics fall flat.
Because in front of you, right now, there’s a big, fat bomb. No doubt about it.
A squared box, half as tall as you. It’s raggedly painted black, as if someone decided to spray the colour on the metal slabs at the last minute. Rust gathers at each corner, likely due to the humidity building up in this underground tunnel, which is also chipping away at the paint and leaving ruddy streaks scattered down the sides.
It’s not much different from the ones you’ve dispensed of already, at least at first sight. There’s no timer, not a visible one at least. Though from the looks of it, you don’t think this one is timed at all. If you’re fortunate, it needs to be manually detonated on site. Worst-case scenario, it can be set off remotely.
Thank fuck you’re wearing sturdy PPE, then.
With a huff, you flop on your knees before it. There’s a soft puff as the pressure pushes air out of your suit—a big, cumbersome thing that safely cradles you from head to toe.
“Captain,” you call through comms. “You sure it’s off, yeah?”
The static preceding his voice buzzes softly through your ear, before John’s usual rasp fills the helmet shielding your head.
“Local bomb squad’s had a look already,” he says. “Said it’s old.”
Though the bomb in front of you looks untouched by the deft hands of a demolition specialist. You wonder how they concluded that the device is too old to be active, since there doesn’t seem to be a sign that it has been studied at all.
“Doesn’t look like they did anything, though,” you offer.
John grunts. “Don’t shoot the messenger.”
“Right.”
His voice rumbles even through the distortion of the radio. “Just passing it on, L2. They want us to check it before they move it.”
You roll your eyes at the nickname. You knew it would stick—Simon’s convincing like that—though it is the first time John actually uses it.
You let it slide.
“And why’s that?”
“Signed by Konni.”
You tilt your head and easily spot the mark of Konni group sprayed on one side, dried red paint drawing a path downwards from where it dripped.
“Always nice to see an old friend, isn’t it?”
“Keep us updated, yeah?”
“On it.”
You squeeze your eyes through the visor of your helmet, focusing on possible entry points. Each breath you take is measured and quiet as you clear your mind to steady yourself.
“Alrigh’?”
Though considering the questioning drawl coming from beside you, you’d wager the suit is amplifying not only your voice, but also the heaviness of your panting.
It’s fucking hot in this thing.
“You shouldn’t be here.” You give him a sidelong glance. He’s not wearing an EOD, only his usual uniform with an added clunky helmet, a bulletproof vest, and his stupid skull mask. “Especially not naked like that.”
“Naked, uh?” He snorts. “Better get a good look, then.”
You bite down a smile and return your eyes to your job. “Captain, the lieutenant is padding around in his birthday suit.”
Price’s voice crackles through the comms in your ear. By his tone, you can practically see the tight set of his jaw and the roll of his eyes.
“Ghost, either wear the EOD or leave the premises, for fuck’s sake. Don’t fancy scraping you off the walls.”
Simon gently kicks the side of your boot. “Rat.”
You turn your head around just enough to stick out your tongue at him.
“I asked the second lieutenant a question an’ she ain’t answered yet,” he drawls with his usual dispassionate tone. “Permission to kick her off the team?”
“You won’t hear a single fuckin’ word she says if you’re ground meat, Simon,” Price’s voice rasps. “Wear the bloody PPE and then we’ll talk.”
Static replaces John’s orders as communication cuts off on his part.
Only then does Simon pitch in.
“I asked you a question.”
You sigh, but it’s neither weary nor exasperated.
“Yeah, I’m alright,” you huff, already tinkering with your toolbox. “Why aren’t you wearing the gear?”
“I’m in good hands.”
“Thanks, I’m immensely flattered,” you quip. “Please go wear it now.”
“Thought it was too old to still be active.”
You don’t have time to roll your eyes, because as soon as he mutters his thoughts, you notice a familiar indented square in one of the panels. A carefully hidden entry point that, once popped open, will show you the intricacies inside the device. It’s like spotting an oasis in the desert.
You reach for a flat tip in your toolbox at your knees. Carefully, you wedge it in the embrasure.
It only takes a few tries, and it unhinges seamlessly. Metal clinks as you gently place the lid on the ground.
There’s no need for you to look his way—his presence is like a heavy blanket wrapped around your shoulders. A shadow sewn to your own.
“I won’t support your suicidal tendencies, so please, for the love of Christ, listen to the engineer—” you point at yourself with the screwdriver, “—and go wear the bloody bomb suit.”
Simon stays silent for a handful of seconds, only filled with the tinkering of metal of your tools.
“Worried ‘bout me, are ya?”
You huff. No use pretending, when he can see right through you. “Plenty.”
“Good heart.”
“Chop chop, Riley.”
“Aye aye, El.”
With a gentle squeeze of your shoulder, Simon turns on his heel. His footsteps become distant until the soft thud finally vanishes behind the creaky door that first led you down here, slamming shut behind you.
You don’t turn around, too focused on studying the wires wrapped around each other in the panel you just opened. There’s an entire bundle crossing the opening diagonally and so shrouding most of the circuit board in the back. They’re held together by a couple of cable ties that look awfully cheap, like the rest of the device.
“Weird,” you mumble to yourself.
“What is?” John pitches in.
You flinch, not expecting an answer to your musings.
“Uhm, uh—” You shake your head to recollect yourself. “The bomb—it looks quite cheap. Not their usual MO.”
John hums. “Could be one of Konni’s earliest works. Disposal said it’s old, innit?”
“Yeah,” you huff. “I don’t trust a single word those fuckers said.”
“Right,” he grunts, though you recognise that hint of agreement in it. “Do what you can with it. Keep me updated.”
“Roger that, captain.”
Back on track. First thing to do is get rid of those ties to isolate the cables.
You work quietly for a while, removing your gloves to minimise errors while doing such minute movements. The flush cutters are sturdy but the blades are small, and the thickness of the cable ties is stupidly non-existent. You want to avoid cutting things you shouldn’t.
However, you can’t quite ease the knot of doubt forming in your guts.
This device has literally nothing preventing you from disposing of it. Everything is poorly put together. The control centre was placed under a thin slab of metal, which you simply popped off using the flat tip of a screwdriver. There are corner store-level cable ties keeping together a bundle of wires. Each cable isn’t isolated, but either overlaps with others or knots on itself.
This is amateurish.
And you know, with utmost certainty, that Konni isn’t. The same Konni group that blew up an entire airport wouldn’t DIY a bomb and spray paint their signature on a slab of metal like a mere local gang of criminals.
Unless—
“El? You with us?”
Simon’s voice snaps you out of it. He sounds muffled and echoey, as if he’s speaking from behind a glass. You recognise that distortion: he put on the bomb suit.
Relief floods through you.
You shake your head to clear your mind. Sweat collects on your forehead. You feel each drop brewing on your skin, only to then slowly make its way to your brow, then your eye.
Your fingers close around the cutters, and the first tie snaps off.
Then, you squeeze your eyes to get rid of the burn.
“Yeah,” you huff. “They should invent more comfortable suits for us in demo. It’s fucking sweltering in here.”
Price’s voice crackles once more. “We’ll hire a fashion designer.”
Simon snorts.
“Look at you, captain,” you croon. “Providing jobs for the youth.”
You’re sure he’s rolling his eyes. “Do yours or you’ll lose it.”
But you know it’s an empty threat. Jokes tossed around to defuse the tension as you defuse your bomb. High stress situations require ways to destress in order to keep your mind clear and at ease, even as your life is on the line.
“Aye aye.”
And from then on, silence lingers, only interrupted by Simon shifting his weight on his feet behind you. The crinkle of the suit folding as he moves, the tap of his fingers against the pack he must be holding in his hands. There’s the occasional clink of metal when you drop a tool in its box, or the snap of plastic as yet another tie comes off.
And finally, you manage to isolate the cables from one another. Carefully you pinch one between two fingers and shift it to the side, only so you can have a broader vision of the circuit board in the back.
It’s entirely dead. Singed in places, the lights are off, no sounds fill your ears unless it's the ones you’ve already recognised as familiar. The blasting cap has an old serial number on it, different from the most recent ones you came across. The base was once attached to a couple of red cables that have been cut from their root.
You exhale, emptying your lungs in a single, long breath.
“It’s dead.”
John huffs through comms. “Thank Christ, eh. Sending Garrick over. ETA 20.”
But you stay put, staring holes through the jungle of wires that intersect and crisscross like vines in front of you, draped on the circuit board.
Simon shifts from behind you and comes to crouch by your side. The same puff of air exhales from his suit. You turn your head to look at him, though with the helmet it’s hard to have a good view of his face.
He’s taken off the skull mask to favour the protective gear placed around his head. His eyes aren’t poised on the bomb, though; they’re on your face. He must pick up on something there that doesn’t reassure him, because he knows you better than he should.
“Hang on, Price,” he rumbles.
You stall for a moment.
It’s only a hunch that spurs you to negate certainty. You’re special forces, an engineer—sixth sense isn’t enough to support evidence.
But Simon believes in it. He trusts that tiny spark he sees in your eye, the tautness of your fingers as they curl into fists atop your knees. You hear him sniff, shift on his knees to get closer.
“El?” He whispers, perhaps not wanting the radio to pick up on it.
Your stomach lurches.
“I mean—” You gesture vaguely at the device. “It looks dead. The circuit board is gone, and the wires have been cut from the detonator. Some of this shit could be older than me—"
John cuts through your conversation. He sounds irritated, and in turn, it irritates you, too.
“Get to the point.”
You stare at the dead circuit board. The main piece of this puzzle. It doesn’t take an engineer like you to recognise that it’s long gone, but in a very peculiar way that you don’t know how to explain without sounding like a lunatic, it looks too long gone.
You smack your lips. “Something’s wrong. It feels—”
“Don’t care how it feels, lieutenant. Is it dead or not?”
“Listen, John, I’m not here to fucking play—"
“Need to have another look at it, boss,” Simon cuts in. “Give us a minute, will ya?”
“Roger.”
You sigh. You wish you could scratch your forehead. Your scalp stings as sweat collects on it. Each tiny, uncomfortable thing happening to you is amplified, including the knot in your guts.
“I hate him with passion each time he acts like—”
“He can still hear ya.”
“Good.”
If John can actually still hear you, he doesn’t voice it. Thankfully, you think, because if he pitches in again with some more of his caustic sarcasm, you might just say things before your mind can properly filter them.
You take a couple of seconds to recollect your thoughts, guiding your eyes to study the device. It’s composed of rusted metal plates welded together and protecting the bomb inside. You’d need a plasma cutter to breach the plate, but the heat could set the thing off if it’s live. In fact, there are no entry points aside from a small, squared panel that you’ve opened with unexpected ease.
Considering how the rest of the thing is protected, however, it feels out of place. Conveniently put there for you to declare that the device is gone, when it actually isn’t.
A hunch isn’t enough to negate evidence, that is true, but it’s there, and you won’t allow it to gnaw at your guts.
Easy is never the right answer, not with Makarov.
“Pass me the snake cam.”
You hold your hand out to Simon, palm up, without sparing him a glance.
Your ears pick up on sounds even if you’re entirely wrapped in protective gear, even if your heart pounds madly up your throat. A zipper being opened, a cable as it unfolds. His hands are warm when they place the cold wire in your palm, steady when they close your fingers around it.
“Get it in,” he says. “I’ll hook it up.”
In the corner of your eye, pale hands reach inside the pack at his knees to pull out a pad. It blinks to life as he taps his fingers on it.
Gently, you insert the tip of the snake cam into the opened panel, carefully steering the camera underneath the knotted bundle of cables and behind the seemingly dead circuit board.
“Got anything?” You ask Simon.
“Too dark.”
“Turn on the flash.”
The pace of your heart matches the rapid tap of fingertips running across the pad. In a blink, a soft glow fills the darkness behind the board.
Simon hums.
“Got something.”
You inhale sharply. Your eyes flicker around, sifting through your thoughts as if you can see them, rushing unrestrained with endless possibilities. You squeeze them shut, clearing out the sting of sweat as it builds up on your brow and fogs up your sight.
“Fuck. Let’s switch.”
Simon shifts until he’s kneeling behind you. The rustle of his suit precedes his arms as they come around your head, carefully taking the cable from your fingers.
“Got it.”
Ever so slowly, you remove your hands, shuffling on your knees and ducking your head to leave the shelter of his body. With no minimal effort, considering the weight of your blast suit, you manage to stumble to where he once sat, grabbing the pad he left lying on the ground.
As he said, there’s something. The flash clearly highlights a darkened silhouette, bulky and squared, but the quality of the camera doesn’t allow you to make out much more of it.
Only one thing stands out.
A light.
“Jesus fucking Christ.”
“Thought so,” he spits. “Fucking Makarov.”
You don’t have time to curse him as well, though you quietly share the sentiment.
“John.”
Like lightning, his voice crackles in your ear. “Send over.”
“We got something.”
“Details.”
“In a sec. Stay on.”
You look at Simon. He’s perfectly still, not a tremble in his fingers, exactly as you’d expected. He’d make an incredible demo specialist, though you know he’s an even better sniper.
“Gentle, Simon,” you murmur. “Need you to go south.”
He follows your orders, sliding the cable down inside the box.
“Gentle,” you repeat. “Slower.”
And without a single word, he heeds you. Trusts you. Lets the camera cover each corner, bit by bit, moving his muscles imperceptibly as he snakes the camera through the jungle of wires.
Now closer to the device, you can better make out its details on the screen. It’s not old nor rusted, not singed nor dead. It sits attached to one side of the box, each cable perfectly isolated and running on sinuous curves around the circuit board. One that blinks red, then green, then red again—beating like a heart, shifting its colours inside the darkness.
Stacks of white rubber are slathered around it, bulky and thick. You curse under your breath.
“C4.”
Simon clicks his tongue. “Christ.”
“John, tell the local authorities to clear out the area now,” you order steadily. “Add that they’re a bunch of lazy cunts, too.”
“Will do.” Then, quietly, “good work, lieutenant. Stay safe, both of you.”
“Roger.”
The static on the radio goes dead. There’s only your heart pounding in your ears, falling in rhythm with the switch of colours on the screen.
Red, green. Red, green.
Simon’s voice reaches out to you. “See a blasting cap?”
“Yeah.” You tongue your cheek. “South. Then move to the right.”
He follows suit, once again trusting you entirely. As the camera moves, you try to take stock of each tiny detail you can make out. The quality is poor, but you’re starting to have a general idea of what you’re working with. The serial number stamped on the blasting cap matches those of more recent detonators, causing the theory of the local bomb squad to completely crumble.
Red, green. Red, green.
While you can’t make out the logo on the circuit board, you recognize the finish immediately: factory-made, not cobbled together in some basement workshop. New. Polished clean. A pale square chip mounted against the green lacquer of the board.
Red, green. Red, red, green.
You blink.
“Stop.”
Simon falls still.
Red, green. Red, red, green.
There. Blinking in the shadows, off to the side.
“Right. Go to the right. Quick.”
Simon doesn’t put up a fight, though you can see the uncomfortable shift of his knees. Imperceptible and yet conveying the same nervousness festering in your eyes as they fly across the screen. He is quick with his hands to find the source of the light.
It ticks, ticks, ticks.
“Shit—Simon, drop it!”
And if the clock is right, it will tick only for two minutes more.
“Drop that shit and run!”
Simon bolts on his feet, awfully quick considering the bomb suit clinging to him. You hadn’t accounted for that. Fuck, you hadn’t accounted for any of this.
You told him to wear it. You put that extra weight on him. He would’ve been out of the place and far away enough to be safe if you hadn’t insisted, if you’d let the overwhelmingly stupid trust he had in you to win, for once.
“Fuck—” You drop the pad and stand up. Your knees buckle under the cumbersome weight of your suit and the sudden dread gripping your stomach.
“It’s timed, John!” You bellow. Your yell echoes inside the EOD helmet, ringing in your own ears. “We’re leaving—no time to defuse it. Less than two minutes and it goes off!”
An old, singed circuit board as a decoy to mask the real bomb ticking away just beneath its surface. Only a demolition specialist like those in the UKFS would’ve thought of venturing further inside the device.
Makarov knew it.
He knew the local authorities would have called the anti-terrorism unit as soon as they saw the Konni group mark. Makes sense that he signed the device so clearly, like a fucking amateur.
He wanted John’s team there.
He knew those bastards wouldn’t be arsed to check further. Why would they take on the burden when they could leave it in the good hands of better-trained professionals.
Call the big guns and then call it a day.
“Run. Don’t look back and run, both of you.”
He doesn’t need to tell you twice. You’re already panting, forcing your legs to move against the strain put onto them by the suit—not protection anymore, but a cage. Your knees don’t bend as they should, your feet struggle to hold you up. The sting in your eyes, the heart in your ears.
Simon’s ahead of you as you trudge behind him. But he’s faster, stronger—able to carry the added kilograms of his blast suit as if it’s only a mere annoyance to him.
Though he must hear you—or rather, he must feel the lack of you by his side.
He halts in his steps and looks behind to find you.
“Fuck—faster, El!”
“I know!” You’d like to yell at him to shut the fuck up, but that would be a waste of precious breath that you need to focus on using to run.
“Go!” Your voice cracks. “Fucking run, Riley!”
Though he’s been standing still for so long that you’re now by his side.
You stagger past him, grabbing his hand to tug him with you—though that’s one arduous thing, rooted on the ground as he is.
“We got one minute at most—run ahead for fuck’s sake!”
It’s like you can hear it, now—each ticking breath exhaled by the device behind you. You wonder if it had always been there, signalling his presence as you knelt next to it, but you were acting too cocky to notice it.
Your fault. Your fault. Your fault—
Your rushing thoughts recede to a trickle the moment you feel Simon’s hand slipping away from yours. As it does, he takes your own heart with him, as you feel it skip a beat inside your chest.
The momentum of your run makes it hard to stop, and you almost stumble on your own feet as the weight of the suit drags you forward. Thankful for a wall next to your side, you slam your palm against it to avoid falling face-first into the ground.
Though when you turn, it’s your stomach that touches it.
Simon’s already pulled at the quick-release cord hanging from the front of his jacket.
“What—”
The contraption strapped around his torso unlatches from the back. While he struggles with it, he’s impressively steady as he rips at the sleeves to take it off, shimmying his shoulders out of it with ease—chest plate and all, until everything falls on the floor at his feet.
Initially, your eyes widen in shock. Then, your face morphs into a mask of unadulterated rage.
“Are you fucking mad?!”
But he’s taking his helmet off, too. The thud of it as it hits the ground is deafening, echoing ominously in the otherwise quiet underground tunnel you’re stuck in.
“Simon what the fuck!”
“Come ‘ere an’ shut yer mouth.”
He charges forward, running much faster as most of the extra weight that was hindering him now lies uselessly on the floor. He bends at the waist, using gravity to his advantage, and reaches towards you with his arms.
You don’t have time to think as breath is knocked out of you. His arm wedges between your legs, and the world turns upside down. Darkness and grey bricks swivel and roll before your eyes as the air catches in your lungs.
Your stomach curves around his shoulders. He holds your leg with one arm, curled around your knee, and your opposite sleeve with his offhand.
He stumbles at first, trying to find his balance.
“Simon—”
“Keep still.”
And then, he runs.
There’s a rasp in his breathing that makes it sound as if his chest is being crushed. The gravel of debris crunches under his boots, stomping heavily down the tunnel. Each sound is amplified, but you’re unsure of what is real and what isn’t.
He trembles. Groans fiercely for each step he takes, baring his teeth as if to scare an invisible monster ahead of him.
“I’m slowing you down!” You yell, hoping the chaos won’t mask your voice too much. “Put me down! I—I have the bomb suit on, I’m going to be fine!”
Though that’s a lie. He knows it, and you do as well. If the tunnel collapses, no miracle can bring you back.
But at least your head would be protected, giving you a chance. Your chest, too. Your legs. A minuscule, tiny possibility to have a minute more to breathe as you wait for Search and Rescue.
A chance he doesn’t have, not with half of his suit now lying uselessly on the floor.
However, Simon doesn’t answer, just runs. Runs and runs and runs, towards the exit at the end of the tunnel. It’s close, maybe another handful of meters, and yet now it feels like an endless chasm ready to suck you in.
A black hole hidden underground.
You don’t know how much time you have left before the bomb goes off. Your breathing picks up, hand reaching around to fist his shirt around his collar to make him please, please listen.
“Please Simon, please!”
His eyes are fixed ahead, feet as quick as can be considering the weight he’s carrying—yours, his own, the suits. He stumbles, pace naturally slowing down due to the effort, but it doesn’t deter him. Hits walls with his shoulders, slams your helmet and your boots against corners, but he never stops.
He just looks ahead, drunk on adrenaline and ignoring the unfathomable strain he’s putting on his body.
Your eyes sting with panic and tears. His face is red with exertion and lucid with sweat as it beads on his forehead. Then his run turns into a stagger, trembling legs forcing themselves ahead.
Simon bursts through the door. Your helmet knocks against it.
At the same time, the tunnel’s darkness turns blinding white.
18+ Big scary men who let you slap them during sex.
He’s massive beneath you — broad chest, thick arms, powerful thighs that could easily pin you down if he wanted. But right now he’s on his back, letting you ride him however you want. His hands rest on your hips, not guiding, just holding you steady as you sink down on him.
You lean forward, bracing one hand on his chest, and bring the other down hard across his cheek. The sound is sharp. His head snaps to the side with the force of it. A low, guttural groan rumbles out of his chest as he twitches hard inside you. “Fuck… do it again,” he rasps, voice wrecked.
You slap him again, harder this time, watching the way his eyes flutter and his jaw clenches. His hips buck up sharply, driving deeper into you. The sting on his cheek blooms red against his flushed skin, but he doesn’t stop you. If anything, he looks drunk on it. “Harder, baby,” he begs, voice hoarse. “I can take it.”
You ride him faster, grinding down on him while you slap him again and again. Each hit makes him groan louder, his grip on your hips tightening as he lets you use him. His eyes stay locked on yours the whole time, dark and hazy with lust.
When you finally come, clenching hard around him, you slap him one last time, right as your orgasm hits. That’s what breaks him. He groans deep and filthy, hips stuttering as he spills inside you, thick and hot, pulsing with every slap you land.
Afterward, he’s breathing hard, cheek bright red, but he pulls you down against his chest and kisses you soft and attentively. His hand strokes your back gently, almost apologetically, like he’s the one who should be sorry.
“Again next time?” he murmurs against your lips, voice still rough.
You smile and kiss the reddened mark on his cheek.
“Only if you ask nicely.”
predator x prey kink with a man who you practically had to beg to participate, only for him to end up taking it way more seriously than you expect once you begin….
I love neighbor!simon. itll get me every time amen
Giving ghost a portal pussy thinking you might finally get that rough, brutal sex you always crave while he's gone...
Only for him to spend his time making out with your cunt like it's your lips. Peppering sweet kisses to your clit, licking into you slow and warm, almost longing. Ghost is horribly sappy when he's away from you and just wants to give you kisses. He could spend hours with the portal pressed to his lips and a hand squeezing his bulge.
Half the time he doesn't even make you cum, or only takes you out to give you a quick peck. It's absolutely torture and the second he gets home you're tying him up in retaliation.
Pussy Eating Smut 18+
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Simon Riley eats pussy with a feverish desperation, a grip so rough on your thighs that it borders on some fucked up kind of intimacy when he goes down on you after hardly getting to know you at the bar. Barely even making it on the bed before your pants are gone and he kneels before you, staring up with his burnt honey eyes.
Starved, maybe even maniacal. All you know is his lips connect to your mound, dripping from just imagining this hunk of a man fucking you into next week, and suddenly the world just stands still. A thick, long tongue slurps at your cunt like it hadn't had a taste of liquid in weeks, rubbing against your clit so your sweet juices flowed more freely. Calloused fingers stroke along your pink hole, sinking in only when you feel a puddle between your legs.
Thighs trembling, ass up and face smushed into his pillow as he fucks three fingers into you, revelling at how your tight hole managed to swallow all of them whole like he hadn't pulled orgasm after orgasm from your twitching body. It's all cotton in your head, static in your ears, the sweet gush of liquid spraying onto his clothed thighs nothing more but a deafening ring of pleasure that kept echoing.
When he does finally feed his cock into you, you're long incoherent. Blows a load into the condom almost immediately once sunk into that squelching, gushy mess of a pussy and you're grateful for that. Somehow he keeps fucking you, his cock hardening back up inside you, your legs nothing more than decoration.
Safe to say that pair of jeans of his won't hit the washer for a long time.
i never know how to caption stuff 😭
beef.
Simon doesn’t get why you hate him so much. simon riley x sergeant!reader who hates(?) his guts tags/cw: nsfw 18+, explicit sexual content, afab!reader, simon kind of corners you for a sec so a smidge of dubcon but there’s verbal consent right after!, male masturbation, light masochism, sexual tension, brat kink, degradation kink, sparring as foreplay, hate sex (kind of), dirty thoughts & dirty talk, teasing, oral, orgasm denial, unprotected sex, creampie, FEELINGS, just hear me out okay. [5k words] based off of this request!
Simon doesn’t get why you hate him so much.
Doesn’t understand why you’re perfectly polite with Price and the others but look at him like fresh shit smeared on your boot’s sole.
Not that he cares; it’s only mildly irritating to have to listen to you talk shit whenever he’s busy tracking a target down his scope.
Better not miss, Lt.
Would be a really big mess to clean if you fuck this up, Lt.
Don’t tell me you’re getting rusty, Lt?
A right anklebiter, you are. It gets worse when you’re both on base– when the verbal pettiness turns physical.
You’re both on the running track, doing your morning runs at the same time.
“On your right,” Simon grunts, just loud enough for you to hear. He pivots just a bit to your right so he can pass.
But then you also slide a bit to your right, speeding up on the way so that you’re still in front and blocking his way. When he tries going to the other way, you zig zag with him. Left, right, left, left, more left, right.
In the end, you stop when he stops. You turn towards him, eyeing him like a moldy meal you forgot to throw out.
“Oh. Hi, Lt.,” you say. “Didn’t see you there.”
“I told you to move, Sergeant,” he mutters.
“Sorry, Lt., what was that?” You cup your ears. “Couldn’t hear you over my music.”
You’re not even wearing any earbuds.
He turns on his heels and leaves with his fists clenched tight.
It’s been like this since you first joined. He remembers it as clear as day-- a younger, somehow more stubborn-looking you. Plucked fresh from whatever unit you were in before them. You had greeted them— Price, Garrick, Johnny— with respect: a salute, a handshake, and a smile to boot.
But then you hear his name, see his mask, and it’s like hell freezes over on your face.
Lieutenant Riley, nice to meet you– like it was the exact opposite, like it caused you physical pain to even say his name.
Johnny makes fun of him for it. Dae ye know 'em? Face looked like ye curbstomped a bairn or something.
You drop the filter entirely once you settle into the team months later. Tongue gets looser, no pulled punches, thinly veiled contempt slipping into pure snark.
He needs to grab something from a cabinet you’re in front of? Your hand shoots out, waggling your fingers. Five quid and I’ll move, Lt.
Helping him bandage up on an op? He grunts when your fingers dig just a tad too deep into his skin and wrap the wound just a tad too tight. Maybe if you didn’t get hit in the first place, Lt.
It’s infuriating.
But you don’t stop because there are never any consequences.
No matter how many looks Price shoots him when the old man overhears the blatant disrespect.
No matter how many times other soldiers stare at you like you’re out of your goddamn mind (you are) for saying the shit you do.
Why?
Because the reason Simon never writes you up for insubordination is the same reason he's fisting his leaking cock in bed like some horny fucking teenager.
It's the same reason he lets you snark in his ear over comms, quietly grinding his rock-hard erection into cold dirt, and grunts to hide the pleasure that shoot down his spine when your nails dig into bloody skin.
It's the only thing he can think about when he's like this— your nails tracing the muscle of his back and gripping his cock until his spunk gets all over you.
Simon doesn't remember when it started. Doesn’t remember when the want became a need.
Maybe it was the time you sassed him in front of the others, or maybe it was when you looked him straight in the eye and told him 'you look like a cosplayer, Lt.' Or maybe it was since the beginning, on your very first day.
The one thing he is sure about is how much he wants to fuck you.
Simon wants to fuck you until you're all babbles and wails— bend you over in his bed until you can't think straight and all you can muster is how you want more of his stupid, stupid cock.
He wants you to want him as much as he wants you. But he doesn't want to fuck the fight out of you though, no.
Yeah, a part of him still wonders why you hate him so much, but he doesn't mind you sticking to whatever fucked-up preconceived notions you have of him.
Your fire is what makes it fun, and Simon loves to burn.
He cums like that, mind flush with the thought of you fucking yourself on his cock while telling him how much you can't fucking stand him.
When the haze of pleasure finally recedes, he's stuck with one goal in his mind,
—getting you in his bed.
Your lieutenant's acting strange.
Ever since he walked away from you on the track, Ghost has been... accommodating. Moreso than before.
It's suspicious as fuck.
You're not an idiot. You know your behavior should've gotten you sacked ages ago. Even though Ghost might let it slide for whatever reason, it's still highly disrespectful to your CO. (But you have your reason, as petty as it is. He deserves it.)
So it's strange when he starts acting almost-nice to you.
Exhibit A.
Standing up for you.
The 141 is respected amongst operators and soldiers alike; this is fact. But there's always bound to be a green recruit who thinks, I can do it, I'm special, why not me?
These are the ones you encounter most as the most recent and youngest addition to the 141. It's something you had to grow new skin for, but that doesn't mean it isn't fucking annoying to deal with.
"I bet I could take them in a fight. They don't even look that tough," the recruit prattles. "Do you think the captain will let me into 141 if I beat them?"
The group of soldiers he’s posturing to snicker and laugh. They don’t seem to care that you’re standing ten feet away, or that you can very visibly hear their conversation.
You're about to tell them to drop and give you fifty when a big hulking man steps towards the group.
"Think you got what it takes, corporal?" Your lieutenant drawls, staring down at the recruits who look like they're all going to piss their fatigues.
"L-lieutenant! No--yes, I mean, I--"
Ghost jerks his head towards the training mats.
"Let's see how good you are then."
The recruit gets dropped within ten seconds.
Your lieutenant mutters something to him before barking at the rest of the group. Get your asses on the field. You lot are runnin' laps until you know what it means to respect your betters.
Does he even know how hypocritical he’s being?
Later on during dinner, the recruit who insulted you walks up to 141's table, still ruffled from the nasty takedown and sweaty from running around base. He barely manages to squeak out an apology to you, shooting the smallest glance at your lieutenant before running away with his tail tucked.
(How do you grapple with the way your heart turns?)
Ghost doesn't react, doesn't even look up. Only sips his tea like nothing ever happened.
Exhibit B.
Since when did Ghost start talking back to you on comms?
"If you let me die tonight, I'm going to haunt you and your bloodline forever, Lt."
An undercover mission. Infiltrating some invite-only bourgeoisie gala that's an alleged meeting place for many, many VIPs. Coincidentally, 141's newest target happens to be invited and you are the one who's thrown into the lions' pit.
"My bloodline? Not happening."
He's somewhere out there, watching. On the roof of a nearby building probably.
There’s a sense of comfort in that. You may not like his guts, but you’ve never doubted him on overwatch.
"Why? Got no game, Lt.?"
"Got plenty," he says.
The soft rumble of his voice tickles your ear. It's unusual-- weird-- to hear him banter with you over comms like this. He usually only ever does it with Soap.
"Well, make it happen then," you mumble.
A waiter passes by with a tray of champagne. You smile politely, shaking your head ‘no’.
It’s not the highest risk mission, but the amount of armed guards you’re seeing is a bit annoying. That, and your target is still nowhere to be found.
If you have to send another flirty smile to another grimy man while waiting, you're telling Ghost to aim the crosshair at you instead. And then you're going to haunt him.
"You volunteerin'?"
Your brain short-circuits.
What?
Your mouth bobs open, then shut, and then open again. Hoping to whatever deity out there that your lieutenant's scope isn't actively trained on you right now.
Shit hits the fan fast before you can gather your thoughts.
Screams ring out through the ballroom as windows shatter and gunfire fills the air. Chaos quickly spreads through the masses as people run for cover. Ghost's voice flickers in over the noise.
"Sergeant, take cover, now! Go!"
You don't need to be told twice.
There'll be time to think about what he said later, when you aren't actively in danger of being hole-punched.
And then, Exhibit C.
This is how it culminates.
Outside, on the fields with your fellow sergeants and Ghost. The four of you toss sticks to decide sparring partners; it's sheer dumb misfortune that you end up pairing with Ghost.
You've sparred with him before. He's relentless. There's always a bruise or two on your body when he's done with you. Never once have you won against him; you don't expect this time to be any different.
“Let’s see if you’ve improved, Sergeant,” Ghost taunts.
“I swear I won’t accidentally kick your balls, Lt.,” you reply.
The two of you grapple at each other, swiping and pushing, body on body. Ghost is wearing a tight compression shirt today. You'd be lying if you said it wasn't somewhat distracting with the way it hugged the planes of his muscles— no! Keep focusing! It's never easy to wrestle a man as big as him. But you have to try.
Your hands can barely wrap around his biceps, but you use what you have to your advantage. Nails nearly break skin as you dig deep. He grunts, grip tightening on your arms.
A man's strength can sometimes be his undoing.
You let your weight shift, using his hold on you as an anchor. Tilting back, you let your legs swing forward, grappling around his waist. The momentum has Ghost stumbling back, and you make your final move.
Ghost lets out a surprised grunt as you let go of his arms and force your way through his grip. You push through, pressing your forearms against his throat until his whole body tilts and falls back onto the mat.
Oh, you're gasping out breaths. Holy shit.
You did it.
Ghost is, like you, breathing hard through his nose, eyes lidded. His hands no longer wrap around your arms. Instead, they're settled on your hips, holding you firmly in place.
It occurs to you then the position you're in.
Legs spread over his waist, sitting right on his belly. You're bent forward, hands splayed across his chest and next to his head. Practically laying on top of him.
He's so warm.
An involuntary jolt rolls through your body as you jerk backwards, an attempt to get some distance from his face.
Big mistake.
Holy fuck, this is not happening right now.
You feel it beneath your ass. Unmistakably big, undeniably hard.
A shiver makes it's way down your spine. Your legs clench tight, squishing his abdomen and grinding deeper against him. With the way Ghost's fingers dig into the meat of your thighs, you know he feels it too.
There's a fog closing in on your mind. The sight of your lieutenant under you shouldn't turn you on like this— and yet, the growing dampness between your legs tells you otherwise.
Panicked, you rip yourself off of him and get on your feet. A look over at Soap and Gaz, but they're still in a grapple of their own. It's only a temporary relief that runs over you when you realize they hadn't seen what happened.
"Sergeant," your lieutenant calls out. He's propped up on his arm; you look anywhere but him.
"Sorry, Lt. Feeling a little sick," you say, licking your lips. "Going to freshen up a bit."
You don't wait for him to dismiss you before you're jogging back to your quarters.
Standing in front of your little bathroom sink, you splash cold water onto your burning face. It barely helps.
How did you end up here?
Was it when he started being nice to you, even though you were never anything but rude? Was it when he defended you against egotistic recruits?
Or has it been doomed since the start, when he first looked at you through his stupidly long lashes, like he was trying flip you inside out with his stare?
You weren't lying when you told him you felt sick.
It's a creeping feeling in your gut that's been burning low for a while now. Don't want to call it denial, but what else could it be?
(Betrayal, maybe. You shouldn't feel anything else. Shouldn’t be feeling anything but spite for your lieutenant. It isn't fair to your friend who—)
Knock knock.
The sound breaks you away from thought. A part of you dreads opening it, because you know who stands behind the heavy door. The other part of you is who turns the knob.
Ghost stands there, towering over you.
"Alright, Sergeant?"
His composure is unfair. It's like before never happened. You take a deep breath before replying.
"Yes, sir," you say. It comes out all crackly and rough. "Nothing to worry about."
The silence that falls between you is unsettling.
“If that’s all.” You start to close the door, but his hand catches it.
“Need to talk to you ‘bout something,” he says.
You feel your heart drop somewhere into hell. “Sir, there’s nothing—”
He pushes the door back, pressing into your room. “D’you have a problem with me, Sergeant?”
Eyebrows scrunched, you back up into the wall behind you. “What?”
“I repeat, do you have a problem with me?”
Ghost tilts your chin up. His hand feel like a brand on your skin. Your gaze moves back and forth from his eyes to where his lips shift under the mask, all of a sudden taken back to the picture of him lying beneath your legs. He follows your stare, searching.
“Yes or no, Sergeant?”
His voice is all guttural and deep, like he’s holding himself back from something.
“…N-no, I—”
“Good,” he hums. “Won’t have a problem with this then.”
He moves faster than you can process. Hand slipping his balaclava up, just enough to expose thin scarred lips and a crooked nose. You blink, and suddenly they’re pressing against yours.
Any semblance of self-control melts away after that.
He kisses you like a man deprived of oxygen. Feels more like he's eating you up rather than kissing you. Like he's trying to drink up the air you breathe and more.
But after all he's been doing these past few weeks, the contact feels like a deep reprieve in your bones— a relief you don't want to admit to needing.
You chase him when he pulls back.
“Do you hate me?” He asks, thumb tracing your swollen lips.
"I just let you kiss me," you say, breathless and incredulous. "And you're asking me if I hate you?"
He smirks-- it's stupidly attractive seeing a real expression on him.
"Can't be sure when it comes to you, Sergeant."
You furrow your brows, annoyed. "What's that supposed to mean— mmph!"
Ghost cuts you off with another kiss, hands moving down to your hips. You yelp when he pulls your legs up to wrap around his waist, hauling you up by your ass.
"Arms around me, love," he grunts between pecks.
Once your arms wrap around his shoulders, he pushes off the wall and carries you over to the bed. With surprising care, he drops you on the mattress and settles on top of you.
"Tell me to stop," Ghost growls against your neck. "And I will."
You should say no. No to fraternization, no to betraying your morals.
Stand strong in the face of evil temptation!
"More," you plead instead, because the devil lives inside you. "Want more, Lt."
He groans into your skin. It excites you infinitely more. Leaning back, he pulls his shirt off, revealing firm muscles and a soft belly.
Fuck, he’s so stupidly hot. Your own top and pants comes off a moment later, left forgotten on the floor.
The two of you are a mess of tangled limbs in your little bed made for one.
Ghost kisses down your body, latching onto your soft skin and sucking bruises down your chest. He says things that make you burn a fever pitch— fuckin’ gorgeous, sergeant, knew you needed me, isn't tha' right?
It’s unbearable how turned on you are.
Whines bleed through clenched teeth as you paw at his body. He bites, eliciting a sharp flinch from you.
Always pissin’ me off with tha’ smart mouth of yours, he mutters. Makin' me go wank off like a fuckin' teen.
Your mind is blur— everything is happening too fast, too hot, to process what he's saying to you.
Ghost moves down your body, giving your chest a rough fondle before settling in between your shaky legs.
When he drags your underwear down, your pussy is glistening with how utterly wet you are.
"All f' me?" He asks, pupils blown at the sight of his prize. "Fuckin' drippin'."
You squirm, cheeks searing hot. "Shut up—"
He doesn't let you finish, burying his face between your thighs in one smooth motion.
If Ghost kisses like a man starved, then he eats pussy like it's the only thing keeping him alive.
He pulls you close in his arms and drinks you up like the slick dripping from your pussy is his own personal ambrosia. Moans and groans like it's some divine providence to have his mouth on your cunt.
Your hands claw at his neck and shoulders, but it only spurs him on with more fervor. You feel it simmering into a boil in your belly; the telling signs of your orgasm building.
"Hah—Fuck, Lt., I'm gonna—," you moan, squeezing your eyes shut in anticipation.
But then he stills.
Just stops completely as his mouth leaves your pussy cold and shaking. You lift your head to look down at him, eyes in a frenzy from a ruined climax.
"W-why'd you stop—,"
"Never answered my question, love." He blows cold air on your clit, teasing.
"Huh?"
"Tell me why you hate me," Ghost says, staring at you through soft lashes. "Tell me why you act like such a fuckin' brat, and I'll let you come."
Your breath hitches. “You’re such a fucking asshole—“
You try to kick your leg at him, but he's strong and there's nothing you can do with them pinned down. He nips at your clit, making you yelp out in shock.
"Answer the question, Sergeant."
Ghost shifts his arm, bringing his hand over while still holding your leg down. It's sinful to watch it happen-- his tongue flicking out, licking two of his fingers until they're shimmering with saliva, petting your pussy from the clit down to your pulsing hole.
"Mmhh—"
The stretch of his fingers in your pussy makes you tremble with anticipation. But he doesn't move them the way you want. Only teases you slowly and gently.
"Please, Lt.—"
"Not fuckin' you 'til you tell me, pet."
And isn't that simply the most aggravating thing to hear?
You let out a frustrated whimper. Mind running back and forth over what you could possibly say so that he'll make you come. A shock of pleasure flickers through you when he suddenly crooks his fingers inside you.
"C'mon, pet," Ghost encourages you. "Know y'want it."
Keeping your gaze, he flicks his tongue out and drags it slowly, tracing a line from where his fingers fuck into you, all the way up to your clit.
"Promise I'll fuck you right if you tell me."
The words bubble up your throat before you can stop them.
"...myfriendaskedyououtbutyourejectedthemsoI'mobligatedtohateyou— please, let me come, Lt.," you half-beg, half-sob.
It’s embarrassing. Borderline humiliating to say it aloud.
The real reason for why you treat him like trash— how you only really hate him by proxy.
Truthfully, there's never been any real ill intent. Only a sorry moral obligation to be as spiteful as possible for an old teammate who had confided in you after being coldly shot down by the masked lieutenant of 141— the very one that's currently knuckles deep in your throbbing cunt and covered in your juices.
“Wasn’t so hard, was it, love?” Ghost purrs, fingers still slowly pumping in and out of you.
He's still smirking, that fucking asshole. You wriggle your hips, but he keeps you still with an arm and it’s just not enough.
“Fuck you,” you cry out in frustration.
“I will," he hums. "All tha’ sass for what, hm? Someone I don’t even remember?”
He presses his nose into the plush of your thigh and takes a deep inhale.
"Jerk— hngh!"
Broken moans escape you as his lips find your clit once more. This time, he eats you up without mercy, thick fingers curving wickedly into that one spot inside you. A familiar spark beginning its ascent from where it first fell.
You want to tell him that he's mean, a straight jerk for not remembering someone confessing to them. That this was your friend he was dismissing like a nobody.
(Oh, but what would your friend say if they find out you're in bed with the man who rejected them?
It was so long ago though, your mind whispers. Surely, they've moved on by now, right?)
His tongue laps with just the right pressure on your bud, full broad strokes that make you see stars. His fingers work your pussy with focused precision, sinking into the spot that keeps making you cry out in pleasure.
It's all too much for you to take.
When he finally wraps his lips around your sensitive clit and sucks— you come with blinding lights in your vision, hips grinding up into his face uncontrollably.
"Tha's it, just like that, Sergeant," Ghost coos against your clit, sending another jolt through your legs.
He slips his fingers out of you and pulls himself up back towards your neck, nipping and nestling at your throat. His still-clothed cock grinds gently against your pulsating core.
With the crash comes some of your rationality.
"They liked you, you asshole," you accuse softly, boneless.
"Like me?" Ghost says bluntly against your skin. "They don't even know me."
You roll your eyes. "What, like I know you?"
He pulls back, both arms braced at the sides of your head. Something indecipherable in his gaze.
"Don't you?"
Don't you?
Your breath catches in your chest.
And what would it mean to know someone like Ghost?
His name? His face?
Is it to know the same ten jokes he tells on the field? Or how he always makes sure to give his soldiers a once-over before heading out, and is always the last to exfil?
Or maybe it's to know the sound of his voice in your ears, to be able to pick him out from a crowd of blurry faces. To be able to recognize the scarred curve of his lips, the rough callouses on his palms against your skin.
You sink into the deep end when you realize how close the proximity between you and the man-you-tried-to-hate has become.
"You with me, pet?"
Ghost pulls you out of your thoughts with a nibble on your throat.
"Worryin' too much," he nuzzles into your neck, suckling a sensitive spot that makes you whine. "Couldn't care less 'bout your friend."
You frown, opening your mouth to berate him again, but he beats you with a deep kiss.
“Don't care f'anyone else," Ghost utters between kisses. "Copy?"
The thought makes your head go fuzzy. You nod.
"Good, 'cause 'm gonna fuck you now."
Like a switch, Ghost goes back to teasing you. He kisses you hard, still as desperate and hungry as it was before. Your hands slip down his muscly frame, tugging at the hem of his pants.
"—off," you manage to say between breaths.
Ghost obliges, breaking free from you to tug off his pants. You salivate at the sight; you'd felt it before, on the training grounds— knew it would be big.
His cock is fat and heavy on your cunt when he settles back in between your legs. Even against the size of his bulk, he's fucking huge.
"Scared?" He teases.
You break eye contact with his cock to look up at him. The stupid smirk is back on his lips, irritating you in all the right ways. His eyes stare down you, as heavy as his cock feels.
"I've had bigger," you lie.
He tilts his head. "S'that right?"
Grabbing your hand, he pulls it down towards his cock. His own hands guide yours as he drags them up and down his length.
Holy shit, you can barely wrap your hands around him.
He makes you press his cock against your pussy. It squelches with how wet you are, as his cock slides against your lips. Your breath hitches when his fat tip catches on your slick entrance.
"So fuckin' wet f'me," Ghost groans. "Want my cock inside you tha' bad, pet?"
You whine, needy pussy fluttering every time his nudges his cock at your hole. "Please, please—."
"Please what? Use your words." He presses his tip in, just a bit.
"Need you to fuck me, Lt.—," you plead, grinding your hips down in attempt to fuck yourself on his cock.
"Say my name, pet. I know you know it."
Fucking. Asshole!
Frustrated, you dig your nails deep into his arms, earning a pained grunt from him.
"Oh, go fuck yourself, Simon."
You're not ready for the way Ghost absolutely buries his cock deep inside you with a pathetic whimper.
Your own breath is knocked out of you with how fucking big he feels, legs shaking at the sudden intrusion.
"Fuck— so fuckin' tight," Simon grunts out.
His hips shift back just a bit before plunging back into your ruined pussy, drawing a choked moan from you. The stretch is euphoric— combined with the way his tip rubs up against that spot in your pussy, it's all you can do to keep yourself from falling into the haze.
“D'you know—,” he says, sinking again and again into your cunt. “—how much I thought ‘bout this?”
"'Bout fuckin' this pretty cunt—" Thrust.
"Bending you over in my bed—" Thrust.
"Makin' you come over and over—" Thrust.
It's no use; you lose yourself in the pleasure of his cock, eyes rolling back as he repeatedly pounds you further into the bed. His hands squeeze tight around the curves of your ass, pulling you flush against him and stuffing you full with each thrust.
Simon doesn't stop teasing you.
"What's wrong, love? Got nothin' to say?" He taunts you, lifting both your legs over his shoulders and somehow fucking into you impossibly deeper.
"Cock's got your tongue?"
"F-fu-ungh—"
Tears trail down your cheeks as the simmer in your belly grows overwhelming.
He slips a hand between your legs and starts rubbing circles on your clit, coaxing a string of debauched sounds out of you.
"Sound so fuckin' good like this," Simon groans, eyes hazy and looking just as wrecked as you. "Should jus' keep y'here and fuck you forever."
"—mngh, f-fuck... you," you finally managed to choke out, voice raw and scratchy.
It doesn't distract from the way your cunt clenches tighter than before, not with the way you watch his eyes flicker dark.
He bottoms out with a particularly hard thrust at your words, leaving you a sobbing mess as he fucks you relentlessly.
You grasp away at him as your pleasure begins to overwhelm you— now threatening to boil over. Simon, Simon, Simon is all you can muster, but it's enough.
His cock ruts into you with no reprieve, fingers still flittering over your aching clit.
"Come f'me, pet."
And for once in your life, you obey your lieutenant.
Euphoria burns through your nerves as a second orgasm crashes over you from down under. Your cunt pulses in unrelenting waves, the pleasure borderlining too much. Squeezing his cock even deeper as Simon chases his own climax.
When he finally unravels, it's chaotic and frantic. Simon bends you over, covering you with his body and pulling you close as if to keep you under him. His eyes are squeezed shut, panting as sweat drips into the fabric of his mask.
Your pussy flutters one more time— milking his cock dry at the idea of knowing what Simon Riley looks like when he comes balls deep in your pussy.
“I still hate you,” you whisper, once the electricity fizzles out of the air, leaving only faint static remnants.
But there’s no real venom in your voice.
Simon huffs on top of you. You feel it in the way his chest jumps against yours.
“Right.” He relaxes his body onto you, weight squishing the air out of your lungs with a small ‘oof’. “Keep tellin’ yourself that, love.”
You can't describe the silence that falls over the both of you as comfortable, but... it's not bad, either. There's still a lingering sense of guilt in the back of your mind— but it's no longer screaming at you like before.
Simon's head shifts, the mask pulling on your sheets as he turns and mutters into your temple.
"Still plannin' on hauntin' me now that it's gonna be our bloodline?"
You slap his side as best as you can with your pinned arm.
His quiet chuckle rumbles deep in your ear.
Fucking prick.
a/n: first smut how'd i do
Girl, I need more Simon Riley cowboy, I read it last year and I'm still reading it 😭😭😭😭😭
Anon, I apologise heavily for the wait. But without further ado- I present to you- ✨JEALOUS MEAN COWBOY! SIMON RILEY✨😤 (Because - the world could always use more of cowboy Simon- like helloooo- daddy- can I ride youuu😩🤚🏻?)
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Cowboy!Simon Riley
Tags: Heavy smut, Themes of violence, Jealous! cowboy Simon, Mean Dom shenanigans, very rough sex, down bad behavior, he a dog and he might mark you like one
Other fics from the same au : First meet , Domesticated Cowboy Simon uwu
⊹ ࣪ ˖ Preface ⊹ ࣪ ˖
The rowdy towns of the Wild West have two rules.
Don’t cheat at cards. And don’t cross The Ghost.
Most men might risk the first. But never the latter.
Every outlaw knows two things as sure as death itself: Ghost is the reaper they will never outrun… And anyone foolish enough to flirt with his woman won’t live long enough to regret it.
Tonight, the parlour was thick with cigar smoke and cheap perfume.
The air hung heavy with it, sweet, bitter, and cloying all at once, curling beneath the low ceiling like a second layer of fog. Lanternlight stained everything amber; the haze caught the glow and softened the room into blurred shapes of movement and shadow. Somewhere in the corner, an old upright piano clinked out a lazy tune, the player more drunk than talented, missing keys now and again while a pair of girls leaned over the instrument laughing.
Boots scraped against the warped floorboards. Spurs chimed with every step. Glasses knocked together in rough cheers that rolled through the room in waves of laughter.
It smelled like whiskey, sweat, smoke… and despair from money being lost at cards.
You’d only been back in town for a few hours.
Months on the road had left dust in your bones and stories trailing behind you across half the state line, train holdups gone sideways, bounty hunters who’d learned too late who they were chasing, and one particularly memorable night in Amarillo that had ended with a burning stable and three sheriffs too drunk to remember why they’d started shooting in the first place.
The town hadn’t changed much while you were gone.
Same crooked buildings.
Same gamblers pretending luck loved them.
Same fools pretending they didn’t know who ran this land.
You sat at the bar with one elbow propped against the polished wood, swirling the last inch of whiskey in your glass. The amber liquid caught the light as it moved, slow and hypnotic.
Simon was across the room with the boys. Price had one broad hand planted firmly on the table while he argued with the barkeep about the sudden spike in beer prices, his thick mustache twitching every time the poor man tried to defend himself.
“Daylight robbery, this is,” Price barked.
Behind him, Simon only shook his head with a quiet laugh, shoulders shifting beneath the dark weight of his coat. The older man was already halfway to drunk and getting louder by the second.
Soap, meanwhile, had cornered some pretty blonde near the table. His laughter rang out above everyone else’s, too loud, too charming, and undoubtedly attached to a story he’d exaggerated within an inch of its life. The girl hung onto every word, cheeks flushed and eyes shining as if he’d just hung the stars himself.
Gaz stood a little further back near the wall, nursing a single glass of scotch like it might disappear if he blinked too hard. He watched the room instead of the conversation as always, shoulders slightly hunched, posture careful, the way men stood when they knew trouble liked to sneak up behind them.
Which left you alone.
In the most unsafe place in all of town.
Not that anyone here would dare approach you.
Most men in this town knew better.
Most.
At least that was the belief… until you felt the air shift beside you.
It was subtle.
A change in the rhythm of the room.
Then the scent hit…unfamiliar, but not unpleasant.
Smoky wood. Leather. Something sharper beneath it… spice, maybe.
It made your nose twitch faintly.
Your attention drifted.
The man beside you didn’t seem to be informed of the town’s unwritten laws. He slid onto the stool with an easy confidence that felt deliberate like a challenge tossed quietly across the bar. Tall. Broad-shouldered. Sunburnt skin stretched across sharp cheekbones and a jaw that looked carved out of stubbornness. Sandy blond hair pushed back beneath a dust-coated hat, stormy blue eyes that would make weaker women melt clean through the floorboards.
And the smirk he wore looked expensive. Dangerous even.
His revolver rested low on his hip, polished silver catching the lanternlight every time he shifted. But it wasn’t the gun that told you what he was.
It was the confidence. The easy way he carried himself like the room already belonged to him.
You’d heard whispers. A new outlaw drifting through the territory. A man who rode with mercenaries and burned towns when the mood struck him.
Graves.
A fitting name for a man who left little behind but bones and rotting flesh.
“Evenin’, darlin’,” he drawled, voice smooth as smoke over a burning flame. “Didn’t think this hellhole had angels.”
You snorted softly into your whiskey.
“Please tell me that doesn't actually work on women.”
That only made his grin widen.
“Well now,” he said, leaning an elbow onto the bar. “Got a bite to her.”
His eyes drifted over you slowly. The kind of look that would’ve gotten most men shot where they stood.
But you let it linger.
Because earlier that evening Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley had leaned over the barmaid with that same careless charm he slipped into whenever he forgot himself.
He called it healthy. You called it bullshit.
He hadn’t touched her. Not once.
Simon might flirt like with the devil’s charm, but he’d never graze a woman that wasn’t you. Still, the man had a filthy mouth when he felt like using it, and he’d been spewing just enough smooth nonsense to leave the poor barmaid breathless behind the counter.
Old habits.
Like the cigar he lit every night.
Talking up a pretty thing had always been second nature to him. Though these days it wasn’t really about the woman. Now it was more like a weapon he wielded just to watch you react. Simon Riley loved a good fight. Almost as much as he loved the making-up after.
So when the handsome stranger tipped his hat back slightly and said,
“Name’s Philip Graves.”
You didn’t shoo him away, you allowed him to slide closer.
He said it like it ought to mean something. Like men usually paused when they heard it.
You didn’t give him that satisfaction. Instead, you tilted your glass slightly and watched the amber whiskey slide along the rim while you studied him more carefully beneath lowered lashes. The lanternlight softened the sharper angles of his face, catching in the faint dust that clung to the brim of his hat and tracing the lines at the corner of his storm-blue eyes.
“Well,” you said after a moment, voice dry with mild amusement, “Philip Graves… I’d say it’s a pleasure, but I’ve met your type before.” (understatement of a lifetime)
One sandy brow arched upward at that.
“Oh yeah?” he drawled.
The accent wrapped slowly around the words, thick and honeyed in that unmistakably Southern way that seemed designed to slide straight into a woman’s ears and linger there. It was the kind of voice that made people listen even when they didn’t particularly want to.
You set your glass down against the bar with a soft, deliberate tap.
“And I don’t wish to give away anything to men like you.”
His grin didn’t falter at the remark. In fact, if anything, it deepened with a sort of lazy delight, as though you’d just made the evening far more interesting than he’d expected. Graves leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows against the polished wood of the bar while tipping his hat back just enough that the dim light could properly catch in his eyes.
“And what kinda man is that, pretty thing?” he asked.
You didn’t lean away from him, not even when the warmth of his breath brushed faintly across your cheek. It carried the scent of tobacco and something smoky beneath it, oak, maybe.
Instead, you held his gaze steadily.
“A dead man walking.”
For the briefest moment he simply looked at you, the words settling between you both like a coin tossed onto a table.
Then Graves laughed.
It wasn’t the strained chuckle most men offered when a woman got sharp with them, nor the defensive bark of wounded pride. It was a genuine laugh, deep and full and rolling easily from his chest as he leaned back slightly on the stool. The sound of it carried over the hum of the room, and the blue of his eyes brightened with honest amusement.
“Well hell,” he said, dragging a hand down the stubble along his jaw as his grin widened. “Now that’s the best welcome I’ve gotten in this town all week.”
Your lips twitched despite yourself. He noticed the movement immediately.
“You always greet strangers with death threats,” he continued lightly, “or am I just special?”
“That depends,” you replied, reaching for your drink again. “Are you planning on burning my town down before you leave?”
His grin sharpened into something a little more dangerous.
“Only if the company gets boring.”
A small snort escaped you before you could stop it, and that alone seemed to please him immensely.
Graves’ expression softened into a dangerously charming smile as his hand reached for yours where it rested on the bar. The movement was unhurried and confident, not forceful in the slightest, yet carrying the sort of quiet certainty that suggested he rarely expected anyone to pull away.
You could have. Instead, you let him take your hand.
Because the man beside you was not the one you were actually playing with.
Graves lifted your hand slowly, turning it palm-down within his larger one. His thumb brushed briefly across your knuckles, rough with calluses earned from reins and gun grips alike, before he lowered his head and pressed a warm, lingering kiss against the back of your hand.
It was theatrical in a way that felt almost ridiculous, like something pulled from a cheap romance novel about Southern gentlemen.
And annoyingly convincing.
When he lifted his head again, that roguish smirk had softened into something closer to admiration. “Well now,” he murmured, “I suppose this town is worth stayin’ for.”
You tilted your head slightly, studying him with quiet curiosity.
Objectively speaking, the man was irritatingly handsome. He was tall and broad-shouldered with the easy posture of someone who had spent years in the saddle, his sunburnt skin and sandy blond hair giving him the rugged look of a man more familiar with open roads than polished parlours. Those blue eyes were sharp too, quick and calculating behind the charm.
The kind of man who made women do very stupid things. But he wasn’t the man you actually wanted watching you.
He was simply the bait.
And across the room, Simon finally looked up.
It wasn’t even a conscious motion anymore. Somewhere over the past few months he had developed an odd habit, his attention drifting back to you every few minutes as though guided by some quiet instinct he couldn’t turn off.
Just to check.
Just to make sure you were still where you were supposed to be.
Price was still arguing with the barkeep about beer prices, his voice rising steadily as he slurred through his words. Soap’s tongue was halfway down the blonde throat now, hands roaming her curves as his tale seemed to have done the trick as usual. Gaz was on his way to fetch another drink for himself.
Then Simon’s gaze reached the bar.
And stopped.
Because you were smiling.
Not the polite little curve you used when you wanted someone to leave you alone. Not the teasing smirk you gave Simon when you were feeling particularly cruel.
This one was real. Soft. Pretty.
Your head tilted slightly toward the stranger beside you while he kissed your hand like some well-mannered gentleman.
Gaz was the first to notice.
The glass in his hand froze halfway to his mouth.
“Oh… shit.”
Price followed his gaze a moment later, his expression flattening instantly as the scene at the bar registered.
“Oh for the love of—”
Soap blinked between them in confusion as he pulled back from the kiss causing the woman in his arms to whine softly in protest.
“What?”
Neither of them answered.
They were both watching Simon.
Because Simon had gone very still.
The sort of stillness that suggested something violent was currently deciding whether or not it wanted to happen. Then Simon looked back at the bar again just in time to see Graves lean closer and murmur something that made you smile wider.
Something red and ugly slid quietly behind Simon’s eyes.
Price sighed heavily.
“Well,” he muttered into his drink, “that’s unfortunate.”
Soap finally followed their line of sight.
The color drained out of his face almost instantly.
“Ah… hell.”
Johnny had seen Simon angry plenty of times before.
Everyone had. But there was a particular sort of quiet fury that only surfaced every few years, and it never ended politely. Without hesitation, Soap immediately shifted behind the blonde he’d been flirting with, nudging her slightly forward as if she might somehow shield him from the disaster about to unfold.
“Hide me,” he muttered to her. The poor girl blinked in confusion.
Gaz rubbed a hand slowly over his face, “No one’s seen him this pissed in years…”
Even the skull mask couldn’t hide it. That cold itch for violence. That slow, deliberate walk toward murder. Across the room, the parlour didn’t go silent all at once. The noise faded gradually instead, like the wind dropping before a storm finally breaks.
Bootsteps began to cross the wooden floor. Heavy enough that several men glanced up instinctively.
You didn’t look. But Graves did.
His brows lifted slightly as Simon stepped fully into thelight, recognition flickering across his features before settling into something more thoughtful. His fingers drifted lazily toward the grip of his revolver, hovering just above it in the relaxed way of a man who didn’t intend to drawvbut certainly liked knowing he could.
“Well now,” Graves murmured under his breath. “If it isn’t the Reaper himself.”
Simon stepped into the glow like something dragged straight out of hell. He was tall enough that his shadow stretched long across the warped floorboards, his broad shoulders filling the dark lines of his coat. The skull mask covering his face glowed pale beneath the light, the red bone pattern grinning at the room like a warning.
Every outlaw in the county knew that mask. And the stories attached to it.
Behind him came the rest of the 141, Price already wearing the grim expression of a man who expected blood and guts to start flying at any moment. Gaz scanned the room with weary resignation, clearly calculating how much trouble this was about to cause and how plausible it would be to disappear without getting his ass handed over to him. Soap peeked cautiously from behind the blonde, looking like an overexcited golden retriever that had wandered into a bear fight but couldn’t bring himself to leave.
Simon didn’t look at them. His gaze was fixed on you.
More specifically—
On the man sitting far too close beside you. The same man who was still holding your hand. Graves didn’t move away. If anything, the realization seemed to amuse him, and something sharp gleamed in his eyes as the pieces fell neatly into place. Instead of backing off, he leaned even closer to you.
“Didn’t realize the Ghost kept such gorgeous company,” he murmured near your ear.
Your lips curled faintly.
“Who says I’m the one being kept?”
From the corner of your eye, you saw Simon’s shoulders go rigid.
Not tense. Just… rigid. Which was somehow worse.
You calmly lifted your glass and took another slow sip of whiskey, deciding that good entertainment always deserved a proper drink to accompany it.
Graves chuckled softly beside you. “Oh, I like ya more already.”
That was when Simon finally moved.
Three long strides carried him across the floor, his boots striking the wood with heavy authority that made the entire room seem to lean away from him instinctively. His gloved hand came down against the bar beside your glass with a sharp crack that rattled the bottles behind it.
“Stand up.”
He didn’t raise his voice. He didn’t need to. The command carried clearly through the room.
You turned toward him slowly. “What for?”
Graves watched the exchange with open amusement. “Aw,” he said lightly, “didn’t know she came with an owner.”
“I don’t—”
The words left your mouth before you could stop them. The temperature in the room dropped. Simon’s head turned slowly toward Graves, those dark whiskey-colored eyes behind the mask going dangerously cold.
“She’s not talking to you.”
Graves’ grin widened. “Looks like she was.”
You tapped your glass lightly against the bar. “Technically,” you said sweetly, batting your lashes toward Simon, “he’s right.”
Simon’s gaze snapped back to you. Sharp and warning. But you lifted your chin.
“You don’t own me, Ghost.”
The name landed wrong. Heavy and ugly. You had called him many things over the months.
Simon. Love. Honey. Bastard.
But never that.
Ghost wasn’t meant for you. Ghost was the mask. The weapon. The monster men whispered about.
And in that moment every forgiving bone in Simon’s body seemed to vanish. The molten rage burning in his eyes was terrifying. You had only ever seen flashes of it before, usually a second before someone died. Never directed at you. Your heart skipped once in your chest. Still, you refused to show it. Behind you, Graves whistled low.
“Well damn,” he murmured. “This just got interesting.”
Simon’s hand closed firmly around your wrist before you could react. Not painful but completely unyielding.
“Outside.”
You resisted just enough to make the point. “Si-”
“Now.”
The growl in his voice ended the argument. He hauled you to your feet with little effort. Behind you, Graves tipped his hat lazily. “Pleasure meetin’ you, pretty thing.”
Simon stopped walking for a single heartbeat. And for that brief moment every soul in the parlour believed Graves had just signed his own death warrant. Then Simon carried on, dragging you out through the swinging doors and into the cold desert night, where the sharp wind and distant smell of horses replaced the warmth of the saloon.
The door slammed shut behind you and the patrons of the parlour breathed a sigh of relief. The night air was as cruel and unforgiving as the glare Simon pinned you with the moment the doors shut behind you. The warmth of the parlour vanished instantly, replaced by the cold bite of desert wind that carried dust across the road and rattled the loose boards beneath your boots. Light spilled weakly from the doorway behind you, stretching long shadows across the empty street, but Simon dragged you farther into the dark before he finally stopped.
His grip on your wrist never loosened, not until you were halfway to the road. Then he spun around sharply, the movement abrupt enough that the breath left your lungs in a quiet rush. For a moment he simply stared at you. Then his other hand lifted.
The skull mask came off.
Simon dragged it up and over his head with a slow, impatient motion, the fabric catching briefly against the rough stubble along his jaw before he tossed the thing aside onto the ground beside you. The moon light struck his face fully then, and the familiar sight of it still managed to steal the breath from your chest. Simon had never been a gentle kind of handsome. His face was carved from harder things.
A thin scar cut across the bridge of his nose and dragged down along his cheek in a pale, crooked line that caught the light whenever he turned his head. His nose itself had been broken more than once and never quite set properly, leaving it just slightly crooked in a way that only added to the rough brutality of his beautiful features. Dark stubble shadowed his sharp jaw and throat, rough enough that you knew it would scrape if it brushed against skin.
His lips were scarred too, one corner split faintly where an old wound had healed badly, giving his mouth a permanent edge of menace even when he wasn’t speaking.
And his eyes.
God.
Those caramel eyes that usually burned warm when he looked at you had gone nearly black in the low light. The wrath in them was feral.
“What the hell were you doin’?” he demanded.
Your temper flared instantly. “Oh please,” you scoffed, yanking your arm slightly even though he still held it fast. “You flirt with barmaids every other night and I’m supposed to what? Sit quietly in the corner and watch?”
“That ain’t the same,” he shot back immediately.
“Why?” you snapped, frustration sharpening every word. “Because you say so?”
His jaw tightened visibly, the muscle ticking beneath his skin as he fought for patience he clearly did not possess. “You don’t know that man.”
You threw your hands up in disbelief. “What does that even mean?”
The absurdity of it all made your blood boil. Simon could spend half the evening leaning across a bar murmuring sweet nonsense to whatever nameless woman happened to be serving drinks that night, and yet the moment you dared return the favor he was dragging you outside like some territorial mutt.
“You sweet talk random women every other chance you get,” you continued hotly, “and now you’re standing out here preaching to me about it?”. Silence stretched tight between you, the wind tugging faintly at your hair while Simon stared down at you like he was trying to decide whether to throttle you or kiss you senseless.
You crossed your arms stubbornly.
“You don’t get to drag me around like property just because you’re jealous.”
“Jealous?”
You scoffed loudly, rolling your eyes. “Yes, jealous. You’re acting like a petulant child right now and it’s pathetic.”
For a moment Simon simply looked at you. Then he laughed. The sound was soft and humorless, scraping out of his throat like something bitter he’d tried too long to swallow.
“Oh, I’m pathetic?” he repeated, the mockery in his voice thick enough to taste.
Your fingers itched to swing at him, to smack some sense into that infuriatingly thick skull of his, but you forced yourself to stay still. If he wanted a fight tonight, you would give him one but with words.
“Yes, Simon,” you said sharply. “Pathetic. You don’t have any proper claim on me. I don’t wear your ring, and I certainly don’t belong to anyone.”
The second the words left your mouth you knew you had made a mistake.
Something dark shifted in his eyes. Slow. Deadly.
Simon stepped closer. His boots crunched softly against the dirt road as the distance between you shrank until you could feel the heat radiating off his body in the cold night air.
“Run.”
You blinked at him. “What?”
His voice dropped lower, rough and dangerous enough to scrape along your spine.
“Run,” he repeated quietly. “Don’t let me catch you.”
Your pulse skipped in your chest. A challenge. Your lips curved slowly despite yourself. “Or what?”
Simon tilted his head slightly, the dim light of the moon sliding across the harsh planes of his face and catching in the darkness of his eyes. “Run,” he said, voice rough with warning, “or I will fucking hurt you.”
The words sent a sharp thrill down your spine. You took one step backward. Then another. The moment stretched tight between you like a drawn wire. Then you turned and ran.
Your boots pounded across the dirt road as you took off down the street, skirts snapping against your legs while the cold air tore at your lungs. The small barn beside the bar came into view almost immediately, its dark outline looming against the night like a promise of shelter. You veered toward it instinctively.
If you could just reach the door…
A heavy thud sounded behind you. Then another. The unmistakable rhythm of boots hitting the ground hard and fast.
Simon.
Your heart leapt into your throat as you pushed yourself faster, lungs burning while the barn grew closer with every desperate stride. You had miscalculated. Badly.
Simon had never been slow.
The sound of him behind you grew louder with terrifying speed, his strides longer and heavier than yours, the gap between you closing far too quickly. You could practically feel him now. That heat. That relentless presence hunting you down in the dark. Your fingers had just brushed the rough wooden door of the barn when a hand slammed into the wood beside your head with a thunderous crack, blocking your escape.
The force of it rattled the entire frame. Before you could react, Simon’s other arm wrapped around your waist and hauled you back against him with brutal efficiency. Your back collided with his chest.
Hard.
He was breathing heavier now, warm breath spilling against the side of your neck while one powerful hand pinned both your wrists against the barn door above your head.
“Thought I told you to run,” he murmured roughly into your ear.
There was a dangerous edge of satisfaction in his voice.
And you realized, far too late that you had never really stood a chance of escaping him at all.
You quickly found yourself kneeling before him, the rough ground biting into your knees through the thin fabric of your skirt, your back pressing into the old wooden wall behind you. A vivid red handprint bloomed across your cheek, hot and stinging, a testament to his brutal claim over you. Your pulse pounded in your ears as you stared up at him, eyes wide and lips parted in shock, fear and shameless excitement that you couldn’t hide. He towered over you, his tall, muscular frame casting you in shadow.
His eyes, dark and fierce, burned into yours with a hunger that made your blood run cold. Without a word, he fisted his hand in your hair, yanking your head back and forcing you to meet his gaze. His other hand worked at the fastenings of his trousers, undoing them with swift, rough motions. He looked less like a man right now and more like a predator that had finally caught up to its prey.
This wasn’t like him.
The realization struck you with a strange, disorienting clarity as Simon loomed over you. The timber was cold against your back, splintered in places where years of weather had chewed away at the surface, but the man pinning you there felt like the opposite of cold.
Simon was heat. Breath. Weight. You had grown used to a very different version of him.
The Simon you knew was all quiet murmurs and low praises breathed against your skin when no one else could hear them. He was the man who touched you like you were something precious and breakable, rough hands suddenly careful when they traced along your waist or cradled the back of your neck. A man who seemed almost addicted to your reactions, your laughter, the soft sounds he could coax out of you when his voice dipped into that warm, teasing register meant only for your ears.
You knew the man who smirked when you teased him. The one who pressed slow kisses into your palm or your temple when he thought you weren’t paying attention.
But the man towering over you now was something else entirely.
This Simon felt darker.
Harder.
The heat rolling off his body wasn’t gentle warmth, it was the kind of heat that came from something burning too hot and too long beneath the surface.
You barely had time to draw a shuddering breath before he hauled out his thick, hard cock. It jutted out obscenely, long and thick and already glistening at the red tip with angry veins throbbing along its velvety expanse. Your eyes widened as you took in the sheer size of it, it was a wonder that no matter how many times you saw his dick you still felt a flicker of fear shooting through you at the thought of taking that beast inside you.
But your fear was short-lived. In the next moment, he thrust forward, slamming his cock past your lips and into the tight clutch of your throat. A muffled cry escaped you, cut off into a gurgle as he began to face-fuck your mouth with brutal intensity.
“Fuck, look at you," Simon growled, his voice rough and dripping with dark satisfaction as he ruthlessly fucked your face, finally finding a way to sate the ugly green beast clawing inside him. "Kneelin’ so pretty for me, like the desperate little whore you are." He punctuated his words with a sharp thrust, forcing his cock deeper down your convulsing throat. His words as cruel as the ruthless glide of his fat cock down your mouth. "You think you can run your mouth on me, hmm? No, sugar. I won't have it."
His grip on your hair never wavered as he set a ruthless pace, slamming his hips forward again and again. The wet, filthy sounds of his flesh slapping against yours echoed obscenely in the night air. Drool leaked from the corners of your stretched mouth, dripping down your chin and onto your heaving chest. Your eyes watered and tears streamed down your face as he used your throat mercilessly, choking you on his thick cock.
His fingers tightened in your hair, holding you in place as he ground his hips against your face, smearing your lips and chin with your own drool and his leaking precum. "This little mouth belongs to me. Your sweet cunt, your needy throat, that tight little ass ..." His fingers gently combed through your hair, a farce of gentleness that you knew better than to fall for, "It's all mine. I own it."
He pulled out suddenly, just long enough for you to suck in a desperate, gasping breath before slamming back in, his heavy balls slapping against your spit-slicked chin. "Who do you belong to, slut?" he demanded, voice a low, menacing snarl. When you could only gag and choke in response, he yanked your hair harder, forcing you to look up at him.
Simon had always been rough with the rest of the world. Everyone knew that. Violence followed him the way dust followed horses in the desert. But with you he had always been different, controlled, careful in ways that made the contrast almost shocking.
"Say it!" he barked. "Tell me who fucking owns this throat." He rolled his hips, grinding against your face, his thick cock throbbing against your tongue. "Say it, you cock-hungry whore, before I fuck you dumber than you are.”
He pulled out again, only to slap your cheek with his spit-shined dick, leaving it smeared with your own mess.
Your head felt light when you finally managed to lift your gaze. The world swam for a moment before settling back into focus, catching the hard edges of Simon’s face as he hovered over you. His hand was still wrapped around your jaw, thumb pressing firmly beneath your chin to keep you where he wanted it.
Your lips stung. Your throat felt raw.
“Well?” he hissed.
Your voice came out hoarse when you tried to speak. “You’re… insufferable.”
His mouth twitched faintly, though there was no real humor behind it. “That mouth of yours has been runnin’ all night,” he said quietly. “Might be time it learned some manners.”
You glared weakly up at him, though the effort lacked its usual fire. “How dare—”
His fingers tightened slightly against your jaw. “Careful.” The warning slid out low and deliberate. “You don’t get to mouth off right now.”
Your breath caught despite yourself. Simon stroked the imprint of his hand on your cheek with a delicacy that betrayed the aggression that caused it.
“Look at you,” he murmured. The words carried a rough sort of satisfaction. “Talkin’ big five minutes ago. Now you can barely string a sentence together.”
Your cheeks burned “Shut up.”
He chuckled softly under his breath. “Not a chance.”
His thumb brushed briefly over your lower lip, the gesture slow enough to make your stomach twist.
“Say it.”
Your brows knit together weakly. “Say… what?”
His eyes darkened. “Don’t play dumb with me.”
You swallowed.
“No”
“Say. It.”
Each word dropped heavier than the last.
“You’re being ridiculous.”
Simon’s expression hardened immediately.
“Am I?”
The way he looked at you made your stomach flip.
“You were smilin’ at him,” he continued quietly. “Let him hold your hand. Let him think he had a shot.”
Your voice came out rough. “It was a joke.”
“Didn’t look like one.”
“It was to me.”
Simon studied you for a long moment. Then he leaned down until your foreheads nearly touched.
“You want to play games,” he murmured, voice low and dangerous, “fine.”
His fingers slid down from your jaw to the base of your throat, not squeezing, just resting there in a way that made it very clear how easily he could.
Your breath hitched. “Simon—”
Simon hauled you up to your feet, his grip bruising as he wrenched you against the rough wooden wall. Your back slammed against the weathered boards, knocking the breath from your lungs. Before you could regain your footing, he spun you around and bent you over, your palms slapped flat against the unyielding surface. The skin of your hands and the sensitive flesh of your breasts scraped against the coarse wood, sending sparks of painful pleasure shooting through your nerves.
He wasted no time tearing at your clothes, his fingers ripping through the delicate fabric like a man possessed. The sound of rending cloth filled the air as he wrenched your dress off your shoulders, shredding it and leaving you bare. Cool night air kissed your skin, puckering your nipples into stiff peaks. Your undergarments fared no better, torn away with brutal efficiency until you stood there, stripped naked and vulnerable, your body laid bare for his ruthless desire.
"Fuck, look at this body," Simon growled, his large hands gripping your hips with bruising force. He squeezed the flesh of your ass, kneading it roughly as he ground his spit slick erection against the cleft of your ass. "Built for sin, perfect for fucking."
You barely had time to gasp before he raised his hand and brought it down on the rounded globe of your ass with a resounding smack. Pain exploded across your nerve endings, your flesh jiggling from the force of the blow. Before you could process it, he struck again, the burn of his palm searing your skin.
"Simon please!" you cried out, the sound echoing in the empty barn. Tears pricked at your eyes, not just from the pain, but from the overwhelming, addictive rush of sensation. Each stinging slap sent heat flooding your core, your pussy clenching around nothing as your body begged to be filled. Simon wrapped one muscular arm around your waist, hauling you back against his hard, unyielding body. His other hand fisted in your hair, wrenching your head back and forcing you to arch your spine. The brutal position left your throat exposed, your pulse fluttering wildly.
"You're mine," he snarled against your ear, his voice a dark, dominant rumble that sent shivers cascading down your spine. "I don’t care what you think but all of you is mine." He punctuated each word with a vicious thrust of his hips, grinding his cock against the split of your ass, the rough fabric of his jeans rasping deliciously against your bare, sensitive skin. His grip on your hair tightened, forcing you to meet his gaze as he loomed over you, his eyes black with jealous fury and raw, animalistic lust. "Be glad I am choosin’ not go back in there, drag that prick out by his throat, and fuck you senseless in a pool of his blood."
A choked moan spilled from your lips, your cunt clenching desperately around the emptiness, your juices dripping down your thighs as you imagined the depraved, brutal scene. The thought of him marking you, claiming you, fucking you with such vicious, primal intensity in front of a dying man sent a perverse thrill of excitement surging through your veins. But he didn't give you a chance to respond. Instead, he released your hair only to seize your throat in his large hand, squeezing your windpipe with ruthless fingers that threatened to cut off your air supply at any moment.
You glared at him. “I am not yours to own.”
For a moment the only sound between you was the wind rattling softly against the barn walls.
Then Simon laughed under his breath. Low. Disbelieving.
“You’re a terrible liar.”
“I’m not lying.”
His gaze sharpened.
“Then prove it.”
You frowned.
“How?”
His thumb tilted your chin upward again.
“Look me in the eye,” he said softly, “and tell me you’d have walked out of that saloon with him.”
Your throat tightened.
“… I-”
“Go on.”
You hesitated.
His brow lifted slightly.
“Yeah,” he murmured. “That’s what I thought.”
You scowled weakly, “You’re impossible.”
“And you’re stubborn.”
His voice dropped another degree, “But not stupid.”
Your pulse skipped.
“You knew exactly what you were doing tonight.”
“And you knew exactly how you’d react,” you muttered.
His mouth curved faintly, “Damn right I did.”
His gaze burned into yours, “Now quit stallin’.”
Your lips parted, “Simon…”
His grip on your chin tightened just enough to make you focus.
“Who.Do.You.Belong.To?”
Silence stretched between you. Your chest rose and fell unevenly.
Simon waited.
“You really are unbelievable,” you muttered weakly.
His brow lifted, “That wasn’t the question.”
You squeezed your eyes shut for a second before finally muttering something under your breath.
“What was that?”
You glared up at him.
“You heard me.”
“Louder.”
Your jaw tightened.
Then, hoarse and annoyed and very aware of the smug look creeping onto his face, you muttered again. “You.”
Simon’s grin was slow. “Yeah,” he said quietly. “I thought so.”
And if you thought that was all it took to earn his forgiveness the angry twitch of his cock brought you back to reality real quick. You felt the scorching heat of him, the thick, heavy weight of his shaft as he notched the broad crown against your entrance without any preamble.
For a split second, you thought you saw a flicker of guilt in his eyes, a twinge of regret for being so brutal, so ruthless in his lust. But then, like a flash of lightning, you saw it die, because instead of the aching guilt he should feel all his mind could conjure up was the image of another man's hands on you, the way his eyes had lingered on your body, and the guilt was buried before it found a way to breathe, replaced by a surge of dark, possessive fury. He wanted to erase every trace of that other man's gaze, to replace it with his own claiming, his own brand of twisted, obsessed desire.
With a snarl of primitive sound, he thrust forward, plunging his thick cock into your soaked, needy cunt with one single, vicious stroke. Your pussy yielded to his brutal invasion, your slick walls stretching obscenely around his girth as he speared you open on his shaft. The breath left your lungs in a ragged scream, your back bowing, your nails scrabbling against the rough wooden wall as he hilting inside you.
"Fuck, so goddamn tight," Simon groaned, his voice strained with the effort of holding himself back, of not giving in to the primal, animalistic urge to rut into you like a beast. But the restraint didn't last long. Gripping your throat tighter, he began to move, his hips slamming against your ass in a brutal, punishing rhythm. The sound of flesh slapping against flesh filled the empty barn, echoing obscenely off the rough-hewn walls. Your tits bounced with each merciless thrust, the heavy globes jiggling and swaying as he fucked you with the force of a jackhammer.
Your face flushed red as your lungs screamed for oxygen, your heart pounding wildly in your ears as his arm now curled around your throat instead of his large hand. But even as you gasped and choked, your cunt clenched greedily around his cock, drawing him in deeper as he began to fuck you with brutal, animalistic intensity.
"Your cunt’s so fucking tight," he groaned, squeezing your neck harder as his other hand flew down to deliver a mean stinging spank to your ass "Makes me want to fuck a baby right into you." He punctuated his words with a vicious thrust, slamming his cock into your cervix as he grunted in pleasure.
You slumped against him, your body going limp and pliant in his ruthless grip. Your eyes rolled back in your head, your mouth falling open in a silent scream as his pistoning cock rammed into your sweet spot without mercy. Your pussy spasmed wildly, clenching and unclenching as he fucked you into oblivion. Drool leaked from the corners of your mouth, dripping down your chin and onto your heaving tits as he used you mercilessly.
"I'm gonna fucking cum," he snarled, his voice strained and ragged with pleasure. "Gonna pump this cunt so full of my seed. Fill you up for days, let every asshole smell me on you.”
Simon's arm around your neck tightened like a vice as his orgasm approached, his massive bicep flexing against your throat. "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" he roared, slamming his hips forward with brutal force. Your body jerked with each thrust, the wooden wall scraping against your raw, sensitive nipples. "Take it, fucking take it all!"
His cock moved in a blur as he fucked himself into you with a vicious, shuddering climax. The head of his cock swelled and jerked before erupting, painting your insides with thick ropes of his hot, sticky seed. He growled like a wild animal as he came, pumping spurt after spurt of cum into your spasming cunt. His grip on your throat never wavered, squeezing with ruthless, punishing force as he used you like a fuck toy, his personal cunt to empty his balls into as he made your world shatter.
He stayed hilted inside you, his softening cock plugging you up as your mixed juices leaked down your thighs. Finally, he released your throat, letting you suck in a desperate, gasping breath. His arm around your waist tightened, hauling your limp, pliant body against his sweat-slicked chest as he buried his face in your neck, his breath hot and ragged against your skin as his stubble scarped the soft skin, tickling you.
For a long moment after neither of you spoke. The night seemed to settle around the two of you like a quiet witness. The wind rustled faintly through the dry grass near the barn, and somewhere in the distance a horse stamped impatiently in its stall.
Simon finally exhaled, long and slow, like a man trying to force the storm out of his lungs. Then he pulled back, his cock slipping out of you with a wet pop as strings of your mixed release connected the two of you. The silence broken briefly by the soft rustle of clothes, his belt clicked as he tucked himself back in, before reaching for the buttons of his shirt.
You blinked, dazed and reeling from how ruthlessly he fucked you. Without a word, he undid the fabric. And you turned to face him with shaky legs. The sight of him in the dim lantern glow stole the breath straight from your chest.
Simon Riley had never passed off as a small man, but without the shirt the sheer breadth of him felt almost unfair. Hard muscle carved across his chest and shoulders, the kind built from years of fighting, riding, hauling gear, and surviving things most men never walked away from. He wasn’t lean in the way city men were there was solid weight to him, just enough flesh over the muscle to make him look massive rather than sculpted.
Your gaze dipped shamelessly. Down over the firm plane of his chest. Over the ridges of his abdomen. And the scars.
Fuck him, the scars.
Thin white lines from old knife wounds cut across his ribs. A puckered mark near his side spoke of a bullet that had once come too close for comfort. Faint bruises, yellowing and purple, bloomed across his skin from fights that had clearly happened within the last week. A trail of dark blond hair ran down the center of his chest, disappearing beneath the waistband of his trousers.
He looked like something carved out of battle and stubbornness. And entirely, devastatingly man.
You swallowed. Hard.
Simon noticed. Of course he did.
One corner of his scarred mouth twitched faintly as he pushed his messy blond hair back from his face, the motion tired and absent-minded. Then he held out the shirt and you squinted in confusion. With a soft exhale, he stepped closer and gently draped it around your shoulders. The fabric swallowed you instantly, hanging loose and warm against your skin while his large hands carefully worked the sleeves over your arms. The motion was quiet. Almost reverent.
And that was when you noticed it. The tremor. Simon’s hands were shaking. Only slightly, but enough that it made your chest tighten. The truth settled in slowly then, sliding quietly into place behind his earlier anger. For all his growling bravado and rough words, Simon Riley was terrified. Not of the men who hunted him. Not of the law. Not even of death. Those things had chased him for years.
But losing you? That was different.
The fear of death was a constant companion in his life. The fear of losing you to choice was worse. The idea that one day you might simply decide he wasn’t good enough… that the monster everyone else saw when they looked at him was the truth… that you might eventually see it too… That fear lived in his bones.
Which was exactly why the ring sitting hidden in his saddlebag had never touched your hand.
The ring he hadn’t stolen. Hadn’t looted. Hadn’t taken from a corpse like most of the things he owned. He had bought that one. With honest money. And somehow that had made it harder.
Your expression softened.
“Si…” you murmured quietly.
Your voice sounded small in the stillness, “I am… I am sorry.”
The words hung between you, heavy and fragile. For a moment you thought he might turn and walk away.
Instead he suddenly scooped you up into his arms like you weighed nothing. You let out a startled laugh as he carried you a few steps into the barn before dropping down into the loose hay piled along the wall. The dry straw rustled loudly beneath you both as he settled back, one arm automatically curling around your waist to keep you from rolling away.
“No, sugar,” he murmured after a moment, his voice softer now than you’d heard it all night. “I should be the one apologizin’. Shouldn’t have talked to you like that. Shouldn’t have… handled you like that.”
You tilted your head slightly, smiling as you leaned up to press a small kiss against the sharp line of his jaw. “There’s nothing to apologize for,” you said lightly. “If I liked it.”
Simon huffed out a quiet laugh against your hair, the sound rumbling low in his chest. It was your second favorite sound in the world. Right after the steady beat of his heart. For a little while neither of you said anything. The barn smelled faintly of hay and hot wet sex. Your cheek rested comfortably against his bare chest while his fingers absentmindedly traced slow circles along your back.
Then his voice broke the silence.
“Marry me.”
You blinked. Surely you’d heard that wrong.
“What?”
Simon’s arm tightened around you slightly as he looked down, his expression suddenly far too serious for a joke. “Marry me,” he repeated, quieter this time. “Please.”
Your brain stalled completely.
“I… I’d love to have the honor,” he continued carefully, like every word cost him something, “of bein’ the man you call yours.” For the first time in his life, the devil of the wild west sounded like he was begging. You slowly pushed yourself up onto your elbows, staring down at him like you expected the entire scene to dissolve into a dream.
But it didn’t.
Simon Riley lay there in the hay beneath you. No mask. No swagger. No fearsome outlaw.
Just a man.
A scared, stubborn, deeply broken man who looked like he’d tear the world apart if it meant getting one more day beside you. And he was asking.
Your brain finally restarted.
“YES.”
The word exploded out of you.
“OH MY GOD YES—ARE YOU SERIOUS—YES!”
Simon blinked. Before he could even react, you launched yourself at him.
Your arms wrapped around his neck as you tackled him back into the hay with enough enthusiasm to knock the breath clean out of his lungs.
“WHERE IS MY RING?” you demanded wildly between kisses as you grabbed his face and peppered it with them. “YOU CAN’T JUST PROPOSE WITHOUT THE RING—WHERE IS IT—DID YOU LOSE IT—SIMON RILEY IF YOU LOST MY RING—”
“I didn’t lose it—!” He barely got the words out before you planted another kiss directly on his mouth.
“And if you think for one second I’m letting you take that proposal back—”
“I wasn’t plannin’ to—”
“Good!”
You kissed him again. And again. And again.
Simon eventually started laughing beneath you, the sound shaking through his chest while he attempted unsuccessfully to shield his face from your relentless assault.
“Woman,” he wheezed between breaths, “you’re gonna suffocate me.”
“GOOD,” you declared proudly, grabbing his cheeks again. “Then you’ll die happy knowing I said yes.”
His laughter softened into something warm and disbelieving as he finally caught your wrists and looked up at you like you’d just handed him the entire world.
“Hell Sugar,” he murmured, smiling in a way you’d never seen before, “I think I’d have died a happy man if you’d just kept lookin’ at me like that.”
As always, all credits of the images I used go to the original creators. Chat, I went into Cowboy Simon Riley induced psychosis, I wrote so much and I regret nothing. Anyways, someone please leash this man, he is so needy it is not funny anymore ദ്ദി •⩊• )
Girl, I need more Simon Riley cowboy, I read it last year and I'm still reading it 😭😭😭😭😭
Anon, I apologise heavily for the wait. But without further ado- I present to you- ✨JEALOUS MEAN COWBOY! SIMON RILEY✨😤 (Because - the world could always use more of cowboy Simon- like helloooo- daddy- can I ride youuu😩🤚🏻?)
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Cowboy!Simon Riley
Tags: Heavy smut, Themes of violence, Jealous! cowboy Simon, Mean Dom shenanigans, very rough sex, down bad behavior, he a dog and he might mark you like one
Other fics from the same au : First meet , Domesticated Cowboy Simon uwu
⊹ ࣪ ˖ Preface ⊹ ࣪ ˖
The rowdy towns of the Wild West have two rules.
Don’t cheat at cards. And don’t cross The Ghost.
Most men might risk the first. But never the latter.
Every outlaw knows two things as sure as death itself: Ghost is the reaper they will never outrun… And anyone foolish enough to flirt with his woman won’t live long enough to regret it.
Tonight, the parlour was thick with cigar smoke and cheap perfume.
The air hung heavy with it, sweet, bitter, and cloying all at once, curling beneath the low ceiling like a second layer of fog. Lanternlight stained everything amber; the haze caught the glow and softened the room into blurred shapes of movement and shadow. Somewhere in the corner, an old upright piano clinked out a lazy tune, the player more drunk than talented, missing keys now and again while a pair of girls leaned over the instrument laughing.
Boots scraped against the warped floorboards. Spurs chimed with every step. Glasses knocked together in rough cheers that rolled through the room in waves of laughter.
It smelled like whiskey, sweat, smoke… and despair from money being lost at cards.
You’d only been back in town for a few hours.
Months on the road had left dust in your bones and stories trailing behind you across half the state line, train holdups gone sideways, bounty hunters who’d learned too late who they were chasing, and one particularly memorable night in Amarillo that had ended with a burning stable and three sheriffs too drunk to remember why they’d started shooting in the first place.
The town hadn’t changed much while you were gone.
Same crooked buildings.
Same gamblers pretending luck loved them.
Same fools pretending they didn’t know who ran this land.
You sat at the bar with one elbow propped against the polished wood, swirling the last inch of whiskey in your glass. The amber liquid caught the light as it moved, slow and hypnotic.
Simon was across the room with the boys. Price had one broad hand planted firmly on the table while he argued with the barkeep about the sudden spike in beer prices, his thick mustache twitching every time the poor man tried to defend himself.
“Daylight robbery, this is,” Price barked.
Behind him, Simon only shook his head with a quiet laugh, shoulders shifting beneath the dark weight of his coat. The older man was already halfway to drunk and getting louder by the second.
Soap, meanwhile, had cornered some pretty blonde near the table. His laughter rang out above everyone else’s, too loud, too charming, and undoubtedly attached to a story he’d exaggerated within an inch of its life. The girl hung onto every word, cheeks flushed and eyes shining as if he’d just hung the stars himself.
Gaz stood a little further back near the wall, nursing a single glass of scotch like it might disappear if he blinked too hard. He watched the room instead of the conversation as always, shoulders slightly hunched, posture careful, the way men stood when they knew trouble liked to sneak up behind them.
Which left you alone.
In the most unsafe place in all of town.
Not that anyone here would dare approach you.
Most men in this town knew better.
Most.
At least that was the belief… until you felt the air shift beside you.
It was subtle.
A change in the rhythm of the room.
Then the scent hit…unfamiliar, but not unpleasant.
Smoky wood. Leather. Something sharper beneath it… spice, maybe.
It made your nose twitch faintly.
Your attention drifted.
The man beside you didn’t seem to be informed of the town’s unwritten laws. He slid onto the stool with an easy confidence that felt deliberate like a challenge tossed quietly across the bar. Tall. Broad-shouldered. Sunburnt skin stretched across sharp cheekbones and a jaw that looked carved out of stubbornness. Sandy blond hair pushed back beneath a dust-coated hat, stormy blue eyes that would make weaker women melt clean through the floorboards.
And the smirk he wore looked expensive. Dangerous even.
His revolver rested low on his hip, polished silver catching the lanternlight every time he shifted. But it wasn’t the gun that told you what he was.
It was the confidence. The easy way he carried himself like the room already belonged to him.
You’d heard whispers. A new outlaw drifting through the territory. A man who rode with mercenaries and burned towns when the mood struck him.
Graves.
A fitting name for a man who left little behind but bones and rotting flesh.
“Evenin’, darlin’,” he drawled, voice smooth as smoke over a burning flame. “Didn’t think this hellhole had angels.”
You snorted softly into your whiskey.
“Please tell me that doesn't actually work on women.”
That only made his grin widen.
“Well now,” he said, leaning an elbow onto the bar. “Got a bite to her.”
His eyes drifted over you slowly. The kind of look that would’ve gotten most men shot where they stood.
But you let it linger.
Because earlier that evening Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley had leaned over the barmaid with that same careless charm he slipped into whenever he forgot himself.
He called it healthy. You called it bullshit.
He hadn’t touched her. Not once.
Simon might flirt like with the devil’s charm, but he’d never graze a woman that wasn’t you. Still, the man had a filthy mouth when he felt like using it, and he’d been spewing just enough smooth nonsense to leave the poor barmaid breathless behind the counter.
Old habits.
Like the cigar he lit every night.
Talking up a pretty thing had always been second nature to him. Though these days it wasn’t really about the woman. Now it was more like a weapon he wielded just to watch you react. Simon Riley loved a good fight. Almost as much as he loved the making-up after.
So when the handsome stranger tipped his hat back slightly and said,
“Name’s Philip Graves.”
You didn’t shoo him away, you allowed him to slide closer.
He said it like it ought to mean something. Like men usually paused when they heard it.
You didn’t give him that satisfaction. Instead, you tilted your glass slightly and watched the amber whiskey slide along the rim while you studied him more carefully beneath lowered lashes. The lanternlight softened the sharper angles of his face, catching in the faint dust that clung to the brim of his hat and tracing the lines at the corner of his storm-blue eyes.
“Well,” you said after a moment, voice dry with mild amusement, “Philip Graves… I’d say it’s a pleasure, but I’ve met your type before.” (understatement of a lifetime)
One sandy brow arched upward at that.
“Oh yeah?” he drawled.
The accent wrapped slowly around the words, thick and honeyed in that unmistakably Southern way that seemed designed to slide straight into a woman’s ears and linger there. It was the kind of voice that made people listen even when they didn’t particularly want to.
You set your glass down against the bar with a soft, deliberate tap.
“And I don’t wish to give away anything to men like you.”
His grin didn’t falter at the remark. In fact, if anything, it deepened with a sort of lazy delight, as though you’d just made the evening far more interesting than he’d expected. Graves leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows against the polished wood of the bar while tipping his hat back just enough that the dim light could properly catch in his eyes.
“And what kinda man is that, pretty thing?” he asked.
You didn’t lean away from him, not even when the warmth of his breath brushed faintly across your cheek. It carried the scent of tobacco and something smoky beneath it, oak, maybe.
Instead, you held his gaze steadily.
“A dead man walking.”
For the briefest moment he simply looked at you, the words settling between you both like a coin tossed onto a table.
Then Graves laughed.
It wasn’t the strained chuckle most men offered when a woman got sharp with them, nor the defensive bark of wounded pride. It was a genuine laugh, deep and full and rolling easily from his chest as he leaned back slightly on the stool. The sound of it carried over the hum of the room, and the blue of his eyes brightened with honest amusement.
“Well hell,” he said, dragging a hand down the stubble along his jaw as his grin widened. “Now that’s the best welcome I’ve gotten in this town all week.”
Your lips twitched despite yourself. He noticed the movement immediately.
“You always greet strangers with death threats,” he continued lightly, “or am I just special?”
“That depends,” you replied, reaching for your drink again. “Are you planning on burning my town down before you leave?”
His grin sharpened into something a little more dangerous.
“Only if the company gets boring.”
A small snort escaped you before you could stop it, and that alone seemed to please him immensely.
Graves’ expression softened into a dangerously charming smile as his hand reached for yours where it rested on the bar. The movement was unhurried and confident, not forceful in the slightest, yet carrying the sort of quiet certainty that suggested he rarely expected anyone to pull away.
You could have. Instead, you let him take your hand.
Because the man beside you was not the one you were actually playing with.
Graves lifted your hand slowly, turning it palm-down within his larger one. His thumb brushed briefly across your knuckles, rough with calluses earned from reins and gun grips alike, before he lowered his head and pressed a warm, lingering kiss against the back of your hand.
It was theatrical in a way that felt almost ridiculous, like something pulled from a cheap romance novel about Southern gentlemen.
And annoyingly convincing.
When he lifted his head again, that roguish smirk had softened into something closer to admiration. “Well now,” he murmured, “I suppose this town is worth stayin’ for.”
You tilted your head slightly, studying him with quiet curiosity.
Objectively speaking, the man was irritatingly handsome. He was tall and broad-shouldered with the easy posture of someone who had spent years in the saddle, his sunburnt skin and sandy blond hair giving him the rugged look of a man more familiar with open roads than polished parlours. Those blue eyes were sharp too, quick and calculating behind the charm.
The kind of man who made women do very stupid things. But he wasn’t the man you actually wanted watching you.
He was simply the bait.
And across the room, Simon finally looked up.
It wasn’t even a conscious motion anymore. Somewhere over the past few months he had developed an odd habit, his attention drifting back to you every few minutes as though guided by some quiet instinct he couldn’t turn off.
Just to check.
Just to make sure you were still where you were supposed to be.
Price was still arguing with the barkeep about beer prices, his voice rising steadily as he slurred through his words. Soap’s tongue was halfway down the blonde throat now, hands roaming her curves as his tale seemed to have done the trick as usual. Gaz was on his way to fetch another drink for himself.
Then Simon’s gaze reached the bar.
And stopped.
Because you were smiling.
Not the polite little curve you used when you wanted someone to leave you alone. Not the teasing smirk you gave Simon when you were feeling particularly cruel.
This one was real. Soft. Pretty.
Your head tilted slightly toward the stranger beside you while he kissed your hand like some well-mannered gentleman.
Gaz was the first to notice.
The glass in his hand froze halfway to his mouth.
“Oh… shit.”
Price followed his gaze a moment later, his expression flattening instantly as the scene at the bar registered.
“Oh for the love of—”
Soap blinked between them in confusion as he pulled back from the kiss causing the woman in his arms to whine softly in protest.
“What?”
Neither of them answered.
They were both watching Simon.
Because Simon had gone very still.
The sort of stillness that suggested something violent was currently deciding whether or not it wanted to happen. Then Simon looked back at the bar again just in time to see Graves lean closer and murmur something that made you smile wider.
Something red and ugly slid quietly behind Simon’s eyes.
Price sighed heavily.
“Well,” he muttered into his drink, “that’s unfortunate.”
Soap finally followed their line of sight.
The color drained out of his face almost instantly.
“Ah… hell.”
Johnny had seen Simon angry plenty of times before.
Everyone had. But there was a particular sort of quiet fury that only surfaced every few years, and it never ended politely. Without hesitation, Soap immediately shifted behind the blonde he’d been flirting with, nudging her slightly forward as if she might somehow shield him from the disaster about to unfold.
“Hide me,” he muttered to her. The poor girl blinked in confusion.
Gaz rubbed a hand slowly over his face, “No one’s seen him this pissed in years…”
Even the skull mask couldn’t hide it. That cold itch for violence. That slow, deliberate walk toward murder. Across the room, the parlour didn’t go silent all at once. The noise faded gradually instead, like the wind dropping before a storm finally breaks.
Bootsteps began to cross the wooden floor. Heavy enough that several men glanced up instinctively.
You didn’t look. But Graves did.
His brows lifted slightly as Simon stepped fully into thelight, recognition flickering across his features before settling into something more thoughtful. His fingers drifted lazily toward the grip of his revolver, hovering just above it in the relaxed way of a man who didn’t intend to drawvbut certainly liked knowing he could.
“Well now,” Graves murmured under his breath. “If it isn’t the Reaper himself.”
Simon stepped into the glow like something dragged straight out of hell. He was tall enough that his shadow stretched long across the warped floorboards, his broad shoulders filling the dark lines of his coat. The skull mask covering his face glowed pale beneath the light, the red bone pattern grinning at the room like a warning.
Every outlaw in the county knew that mask. And the stories attached to it.
Behind him came the rest of the 141, Price already wearing the grim expression of a man who expected blood and guts to start flying at any moment. Gaz scanned the room with weary resignation, clearly calculating how much trouble this was about to cause and how plausible it would be to disappear without getting his ass handed over to him. Soap peeked cautiously from behind the blonde, looking like an overexcited golden retriever that had wandered into a bear fight but couldn’t bring himself to leave.
Simon didn’t look at them. His gaze was fixed on you.
More specifically—
On the man sitting far too close beside you. The same man who was still holding your hand. Graves didn’t move away. If anything, the realization seemed to amuse him, and something sharp gleamed in his eyes as the pieces fell neatly into place. Instead of backing off, he leaned even closer to you.
“Didn’t realize the Ghost kept such gorgeous company,” he murmured near your ear.
Your lips curled faintly.
“Who says I’m the one being kept?”
From the corner of your eye, you saw Simon’s shoulders go rigid.
Not tense. Just… rigid. Which was somehow worse.
You calmly lifted your glass and took another slow sip of whiskey, deciding that good entertainment always deserved a proper drink to accompany it.
Graves chuckled softly beside you. “Oh, I like ya more already.”
That was when Simon finally moved.
Three long strides carried him across the floor, his boots striking the wood with heavy authority that made the entire room seem to lean away from him instinctively. His gloved hand came down against the bar beside your glass with a sharp crack that rattled the bottles behind it.
“Stand up.”
He didn’t raise his voice. He didn’t need to. The command carried clearly through the room.
You turned toward him slowly. “What for?”
Graves watched the exchange with open amusement. “Aw,” he said lightly, “didn’t know she came with an owner.”
“I don’t—”
The words left your mouth before you could stop them. The temperature in the room dropped. Simon’s head turned slowly toward Graves, those dark whiskey-colored eyes behind the mask going dangerously cold.
“She’s not talking to you.”
Graves’ grin widened. “Looks like she was.”
You tapped your glass lightly against the bar. “Technically,” you said sweetly, batting your lashes toward Simon, “he’s right.”
Simon’s gaze snapped back to you. Sharp and warning. But you lifted your chin.
“You don’t own me, Ghost.”
The name landed wrong. Heavy and ugly. You had called him many things over the months.
Simon. Love. Honey. Bastard.
But never that.
Ghost wasn’t meant for you. Ghost was the mask. The weapon. The monster men whispered about.
And in that moment every forgiving bone in Simon’s body seemed to vanish. The molten rage burning in his eyes was terrifying. You had only ever seen flashes of it before, usually a second before someone died. Never directed at you. Your heart skipped once in your chest. Still, you refused to show it. Behind you, Graves whistled low.
“Well damn,” he murmured. “This just got interesting.”
Simon’s hand closed firmly around your wrist before you could react. Not painful but completely unyielding.
“Outside.”
You resisted just enough to make the point. “Si-”
“Now.”
The growl in his voice ended the argument. He hauled you to your feet with little effort. Behind you, Graves tipped his hat lazily. “Pleasure meetin’ you, pretty thing.”
Simon stopped walking for a single heartbeat. And for that brief moment every soul in the parlour believed Graves had just signed his own death warrant. Then Simon carried on, dragging you out through the swinging doors and into the cold desert night, where the sharp wind and distant smell of horses replaced the warmth of the saloon.
The door slammed shut behind you and the patrons of the parlour breathed a sigh of relief. The night air was as cruel and unforgiving as the glare Simon pinned you with the moment the doors shut behind you. The warmth of the parlour vanished instantly, replaced by the cold bite of desert wind that carried dust across the road and rattled the loose boards beneath your boots. Light spilled weakly from the doorway behind you, stretching long shadows across the empty street, but Simon dragged you farther into the dark before he finally stopped.
His grip on your wrist never loosened, not until you were halfway to the road. Then he spun around sharply, the movement abrupt enough that the breath left your lungs in a quiet rush. For a moment he simply stared at you. Then his other hand lifted.
The skull mask came off.
Simon dragged it up and over his head with a slow, impatient motion, the fabric catching briefly against the rough stubble along his jaw before he tossed the thing aside onto the ground beside you. The moon light struck his face fully then, and the familiar sight of it still managed to steal the breath from your chest. Simon had never been a gentle kind of handsome. His face was carved from harder things.
A thin scar cut across the bridge of his nose and dragged down along his cheek in a pale, crooked line that caught the light whenever he turned his head. His nose itself had been broken more than once and never quite set properly, leaving it just slightly crooked in a way that only added to the rough brutality of his beautiful features. Dark stubble shadowed his sharp jaw and throat, rough enough that you knew it would scrape if it brushed against skin.
His lips were scarred too, one corner split faintly where an old wound had healed badly, giving his mouth a permanent edge of menace even when he wasn’t speaking.
And his eyes.
God.
Those caramel eyes that usually burned warm when he looked at you had gone nearly black in the low light. The wrath in them was feral.
“What the hell were you doin’?” he demanded.
Your temper flared instantly. “Oh please,” you scoffed, yanking your arm slightly even though he still held it fast. “You flirt with barmaids every other night and I’m supposed to what? Sit quietly in the corner and watch?”
“That ain’t the same,” he shot back immediately.
“Why?” you snapped, frustration sharpening every word. “Because you say so?”
His jaw tightened visibly, the muscle ticking beneath his skin as he fought for patience he clearly did not possess. “You don’t know that man.”
You threw your hands up in disbelief. “What does that even mean?”
The absurdity of it all made your blood boil. Simon could spend half the evening leaning across a bar murmuring sweet nonsense to whatever nameless woman happened to be serving drinks that night, and yet the moment you dared return the favor he was dragging you outside like some territorial mutt.
“You sweet talk random women every other chance you get,” you continued hotly, “and now you’re standing out here preaching to me about it?”. Silence stretched tight between you, the wind tugging faintly at your hair while Simon stared down at you like he was trying to decide whether to throttle you or kiss you senseless.
You crossed your arms stubbornly.
“You don’t get to drag me around like property just because you’re jealous.”
“Jealous?”
You scoffed loudly, rolling your eyes. “Yes, jealous. You’re acting like a petulant child right now and it’s pathetic.”
For a moment Simon simply looked at you. Then he laughed. The sound was soft and humorless, scraping out of his throat like something bitter he’d tried too long to swallow.
“Oh, I’m pathetic?” he repeated, the mockery in his voice thick enough to taste.
Your fingers itched to swing at him, to smack some sense into that infuriatingly thick skull of his, but you forced yourself to stay still. If he wanted a fight tonight, you would give him one but with words.
“Yes, Simon,” you said sharply. “Pathetic. You don’t have any proper claim on me. I don’t wear your ring, and I certainly don’t belong to anyone.”
The second the words left your mouth you knew you had made a mistake.
Something dark shifted in his eyes. Slow. Deadly.
Simon stepped closer. His boots crunched softly against the dirt road as the distance between you shrank until you could feel the heat radiating off his body in the cold night air.
“Run.”
You blinked at him. “What?”
His voice dropped lower, rough and dangerous enough to scrape along your spine.
“Run,” he repeated quietly. “Don’t let me catch you.”
Your pulse skipped in your chest. A challenge. Your lips curved slowly despite yourself. “Or what?”
Simon tilted his head slightly, the dim light of the moon sliding across the harsh planes of his face and catching in the darkness of his eyes. “Run,” he said, voice rough with warning, “or I will fucking hurt you.”
The words sent a sharp thrill down your spine. You took one step backward. Then another. The moment stretched tight between you like a drawn wire. Then you turned and ran.
Your boots pounded across the dirt road as you took off down the street, skirts snapping against your legs while the cold air tore at your lungs. The small barn beside the bar came into view almost immediately, its dark outline looming against the night like a promise of shelter. You veered toward it instinctively.
If you could just reach the door…
A heavy thud sounded behind you. Then another. The unmistakable rhythm of boots hitting the ground hard and fast.
Simon.
Your heart leapt into your throat as you pushed yourself faster, lungs burning while the barn grew closer with every desperate stride. You had miscalculated. Badly.
Simon had never been slow.
The sound of him behind you grew louder with terrifying speed, his strides longer and heavier than yours, the gap between you closing far too quickly. You could practically feel him now. That heat. That relentless presence hunting you down in the dark. Your fingers had just brushed the rough wooden door of the barn when a hand slammed into the wood beside your head with a thunderous crack, blocking your escape.
The force of it rattled the entire frame. Before you could react, Simon’s other arm wrapped around your waist and hauled you back against him with brutal efficiency. Your back collided with his chest.
Hard.
He was breathing heavier now, warm breath spilling against the side of your neck while one powerful hand pinned both your wrists against the barn door above your head.
“Thought I told you to run,” he murmured roughly into your ear.
There was a dangerous edge of satisfaction in his voice.
And you realized, far too late that you had never really stood a chance of escaping him at all.
You quickly found yourself kneeling before him, the rough ground biting into your knees through the thin fabric of your skirt, your back pressing into the old wooden wall behind you. A vivid red handprint bloomed across your cheek, hot and stinging, a testament to his brutal claim over you. Your pulse pounded in your ears as you stared up at him, eyes wide and lips parted in shock, fear and shameless excitement that you couldn’t hide. He towered over you, his tall, muscular frame casting you in shadow.
His eyes, dark and fierce, burned into yours with a hunger that made your blood run cold. Without a word, he fisted his hand in your hair, yanking your head back and forcing you to meet his gaze. His other hand worked at the fastenings of his trousers, undoing them with swift, rough motions. He looked less like a man right now and more like a predator that had finally caught up to its prey.
This wasn’t like him.
The realization struck you with a strange, disorienting clarity as Simon loomed over you. The timber was cold against your back, splintered in places where years of weather had chewed away at the surface, but the man pinning you there felt like the opposite of cold.
Simon was heat. Breath. Weight. You had grown used to a very different version of him.
The Simon you knew was all quiet murmurs and low praises breathed against your skin when no one else could hear them. He was the man who touched you like you were something precious and breakable, rough hands suddenly careful when they traced along your waist or cradled the back of your neck. A man who seemed almost addicted to your reactions, your laughter, the soft sounds he could coax out of you when his voice dipped into that warm, teasing register meant only for your ears.
You knew the man who smirked when you teased him. The one who pressed slow kisses into your palm or your temple when he thought you weren’t paying attention.
But the man towering over you now was something else entirely.
This Simon felt darker.
Harder.
The heat rolling off his body wasn’t gentle warmth, it was the kind of heat that came from something burning too hot and too long beneath the surface.
You barely had time to draw a shuddering breath before he hauled out his thick, hard cock. It jutted out obscenely, long and thick and already glistening at the red tip with angry veins throbbing along its velvety expanse. Your eyes widened as you took in the sheer size of it, it was a wonder that no matter how many times you saw his dick you still felt a flicker of fear shooting through you at the thought of taking that beast inside you.
But your fear was short-lived. In the next moment, he thrust forward, slamming his cock past your lips and into the tight clutch of your throat. A muffled cry escaped you, cut off into a gurgle as he began to face-fuck your mouth with brutal intensity.
“Fuck, look at you," Simon growled, his voice rough and dripping with dark satisfaction as he ruthlessly fucked your face, finally finding a way to sate the ugly green beast clawing inside him. "Kneelin’ so pretty for me, like the desperate little whore you are." He punctuated his words with a sharp thrust, forcing his cock deeper down your convulsing throat. His words as cruel as the ruthless glide of his fat cock down your mouth. "You think you can run your mouth on me, hmm? No, sugar. I won't have it."
His grip on your hair never wavered as he set a ruthless pace, slamming his hips forward again and again. The wet, filthy sounds of his flesh slapping against yours echoed obscenely in the night air. Drool leaked from the corners of your stretched mouth, dripping down your chin and onto your heaving chest. Your eyes watered and tears streamed down your face as he used your throat mercilessly, choking you on his thick cock.
His fingers tightened in your hair, holding you in place as he ground his hips against your face, smearing your lips and chin with your own drool and his leaking precum. "This little mouth belongs to me. Your sweet cunt, your needy throat, that tight little ass ..." His fingers gently combed through your hair, a farce of gentleness that you knew better than to fall for, "It's all mine. I own it."
He pulled out suddenly, just long enough for you to suck in a desperate, gasping breath before slamming back in, his heavy balls slapping against your spit-slicked chin. "Who do you belong to, slut?" he demanded, voice a low, menacing snarl. When you could only gag and choke in response, he yanked your hair harder, forcing you to look up at him.
Simon had always been rough with the rest of the world. Everyone knew that. Violence followed him the way dust followed horses in the desert. But with you he had always been different, controlled, careful in ways that made the contrast almost shocking.
"Say it!" he barked. "Tell me who fucking owns this throat." He rolled his hips, grinding against your face, his thick cock throbbing against your tongue. "Say it, you cock-hungry whore, before I fuck you dumber than you are.”
He pulled out again, only to slap your cheek with his spit-shined dick, leaving it smeared with your own mess.
Your head felt light when you finally managed to lift your gaze. The world swam for a moment before settling back into focus, catching the hard edges of Simon’s face as he hovered over you. His hand was still wrapped around your jaw, thumb pressing firmly beneath your chin to keep you where he wanted it.
Your lips stung. Your throat felt raw.
“Well?” he hissed.
Your voice came out hoarse when you tried to speak. “You’re… insufferable.”
His mouth twitched faintly, though there was no real humor behind it. “That mouth of yours has been runnin’ all night,” he said quietly. “Might be time it learned some manners.”
You glared weakly up at him, though the effort lacked its usual fire. “How dare—”
His fingers tightened slightly against your jaw. “Careful.” The warning slid out low and deliberate. “You don’t get to mouth off right now.”
Your breath caught despite yourself. Simon stroked the imprint of his hand on your cheek with a delicacy that betrayed the aggression that caused it.
“Look at you,” he murmured. The words carried a rough sort of satisfaction. “Talkin’ big five minutes ago. Now you can barely string a sentence together.”
Your cheeks burned “Shut up.”
He chuckled softly under his breath. “Not a chance.”
His thumb brushed briefly over your lower lip, the gesture slow enough to make your stomach twist.
“Say it.”
Your brows knit together weakly. “Say… what?”
His eyes darkened. “Don’t play dumb with me.”
You swallowed.
“No”
“Say. It.”
Each word dropped heavier than the last.
“You’re being ridiculous.”
Simon’s expression hardened immediately.
“Am I?”
The way he looked at you made your stomach flip.
“You were smilin’ at him,” he continued quietly. “Let him hold your hand. Let him think he had a shot.”
Your voice came out rough. “It was a joke.”
“Didn’t look like one.”
“It was to me.”
Simon studied you for a long moment. Then he leaned down until your foreheads nearly touched.
“You want to play games,” he murmured, voice low and dangerous, “fine.”
His fingers slid down from your jaw to the base of your throat, not squeezing, just resting there in a way that made it very clear how easily he could.
Your breath hitched. “Simon—”
Simon hauled you up to your feet, his grip bruising as he wrenched you against the rough wooden wall. Your back slammed against the weathered boards, knocking the breath from your lungs. Before you could regain your footing, he spun you around and bent you over, your palms slapped flat against the unyielding surface. The skin of your hands and the sensitive flesh of your breasts scraped against the coarse wood, sending sparks of painful pleasure shooting through your nerves.
He wasted no time tearing at your clothes, his fingers ripping through the delicate fabric like a man possessed. The sound of rending cloth filled the air as he wrenched your dress off your shoulders, shredding it and leaving you bare. Cool night air kissed your skin, puckering your nipples into stiff peaks. Your undergarments fared no better, torn away with brutal efficiency until you stood there, stripped naked and vulnerable, your body laid bare for his ruthless desire.
"Fuck, look at this body," Simon growled, his large hands gripping your hips with bruising force. He squeezed the flesh of your ass, kneading it roughly as he ground his spit slick erection against the cleft of your ass. "Built for sin, perfect for fucking."
You barely had time to gasp before he raised his hand and brought it down on the rounded globe of your ass with a resounding smack. Pain exploded across your nerve endings, your flesh jiggling from the force of the blow. Before you could process it, he struck again, the burn of his palm searing your skin.
"Simon please!" you cried out, the sound echoing in the empty barn. Tears pricked at your eyes, not just from the pain, but from the overwhelming, addictive rush of sensation. Each stinging slap sent heat flooding your core, your pussy clenching around nothing as your body begged to be filled. Simon wrapped one muscular arm around your waist, hauling you back against his hard, unyielding body. His other hand fisted in your hair, wrenching your head back and forcing you to arch your spine. The brutal position left your throat exposed, your pulse fluttering wildly.
"You're mine," he snarled against your ear, his voice a dark, dominant rumble that sent shivers cascading down your spine. "I don’t care what you think but all of you is mine." He punctuated each word with a vicious thrust of his hips, grinding his cock against the split of your ass, the rough fabric of his jeans rasping deliciously against your bare, sensitive skin. His grip on your hair tightened, forcing you to meet his gaze as he loomed over you, his eyes black with jealous fury and raw, animalistic lust. "Be glad I am choosin’ not go back in there, drag that prick out by his throat, and fuck you senseless in a pool of his blood."
A choked moan spilled from your lips, your cunt clenching desperately around the emptiness, your juices dripping down your thighs as you imagined the depraved, brutal scene. The thought of him marking you, claiming you, fucking you with such vicious, primal intensity in front of a dying man sent a perverse thrill of excitement surging through your veins. But he didn't give you a chance to respond. Instead, he released your hair only to seize your throat in his large hand, squeezing your windpipe with ruthless fingers that threatened to cut off your air supply at any moment.
You glared at him. “I am not yours to own.”
For a moment the only sound between you was the wind rattling softly against the barn walls.
Then Simon laughed under his breath. Low. Disbelieving.
“You’re a terrible liar.”
“I’m not lying.”
His gaze sharpened.
“Then prove it.”
You frowned.
“How?”
His thumb tilted your chin upward again.
“Look me in the eye,” he said softly, “and tell me you’d have walked out of that saloon with him.”
Your throat tightened.
“… I-”
“Go on.”
You hesitated.
His brow lifted slightly.
“Yeah,” he murmured. “That’s what I thought.”
You scowled weakly, “You’re impossible.”
“And you’re stubborn.”
His voice dropped another degree, “But not stupid.”
Your pulse skipped.
“You knew exactly what you were doing tonight.”
“And you knew exactly how you’d react,” you muttered.
His mouth curved faintly, “Damn right I did.”
His gaze burned into yours, “Now quit stallin’.”
Your lips parted, “Simon…”
His grip on your chin tightened just enough to make you focus.
“Who.Do.You.Belong.To?”
Silence stretched between you. Your chest rose and fell unevenly.
Simon waited.
“You really are unbelievable,” you muttered weakly.
His brow lifted, “That wasn’t the question.”
You squeezed your eyes shut for a second before finally muttering something under your breath.
“What was that?”
You glared up at him.
“You heard me.”
“Louder.”
Your jaw tightened.
Then, hoarse and annoyed and very aware of the smug look creeping onto his face, you muttered again. “You.”
Simon’s grin was slow. “Yeah,” he said quietly. “I thought so.”
And if you thought that was all it took to earn his forgiveness the angry twitch of his cock brought you back to reality real quick. You felt the scorching heat of him, the thick, heavy weight of his shaft as he notched the broad crown against your entrance without any preamble.
For a split second, you thought you saw a flicker of guilt in his eyes, a twinge of regret for being so brutal, so ruthless in his lust. But then, like a flash of lightning, you saw it die, because instead of the aching guilt he should feel all his mind could conjure up was the image of another man's hands on you, the way his eyes had lingered on your body, and the guilt was buried before it found a way to breathe, replaced by a surge of dark, possessive fury. He wanted to erase every trace of that other man's gaze, to replace it with his own claiming, his own brand of twisted, obsessed desire.
With a snarl of primitive sound, he thrust forward, plunging his thick cock into your soaked, needy cunt with one single, vicious stroke. Your pussy yielded to his brutal invasion, your slick walls stretching obscenely around his girth as he speared you open on his shaft. The breath left your lungs in a ragged scream, your back bowing, your nails scrabbling against the rough wooden wall as he hilting inside you.
"Fuck, so goddamn tight," Simon groaned, his voice strained with the effort of holding himself back, of not giving in to the primal, animalistic urge to rut into you like a beast. But the restraint didn't last long. Gripping your throat tighter, he began to move, his hips slamming against your ass in a brutal, punishing rhythm. The sound of flesh slapping against flesh filled the empty barn, echoing obscenely off the rough-hewn walls. Your tits bounced with each merciless thrust, the heavy globes jiggling and swaying as he fucked you with the force of a jackhammer.
Your face flushed red as your lungs screamed for oxygen, your heart pounding wildly in your ears as his arm now curled around your throat instead of his large hand. But even as you gasped and choked, your cunt clenched greedily around his cock, drawing him in deeper as he began to fuck you with brutal, animalistic intensity.
"Your cunt’s so fucking tight," he groaned, squeezing your neck harder as his other hand flew down to deliver a mean stinging spank to your ass "Makes me want to fuck a baby right into you." He punctuated his words with a vicious thrust, slamming his cock into your cervix as he grunted in pleasure.
You slumped against him, your body going limp and pliant in his ruthless grip. Your eyes rolled back in your head, your mouth falling open in a silent scream as his pistoning cock rammed into your sweet spot without mercy. Your pussy spasmed wildly, clenching and unclenching as he fucked you into oblivion. Drool leaked from the corners of your mouth, dripping down your chin and onto your heaving tits as he used you mercilessly.
"I'm gonna fucking cum," he snarled, his voice strained and ragged with pleasure. "Gonna pump this cunt so full of my seed. Fill you up for days, let every asshole smell me on you.”
Simon's arm around your neck tightened like a vice as his orgasm approached, his massive bicep flexing against your throat. "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" he roared, slamming his hips forward with brutal force. Your body jerked with each thrust, the wooden wall scraping against your raw, sensitive nipples. "Take it, fucking take it all!"
His cock moved in a blur as he fucked himself into you with a vicious, shuddering climax. The head of his cock swelled and jerked before erupting, painting your insides with thick ropes of his hot, sticky seed. He growled like a wild animal as he came, pumping spurt after spurt of cum into your spasming cunt. His grip on your throat never wavered, squeezing with ruthless, punishing force as he used you like a fuck toy, his personal cunt to empty his balls into as he made your world shatter.
He stayed hilted inside you, his softening cock plugging you up as your mixed juices leaked down your thighs. Finally, he released your throat, letting you suck in a desperate, gasping breath. His arm around your waist tightened, hauling your limp, pliant body against his sweat-slicked chest as he buried his face in your neck, his breath hot and ragged against your skin as his stubble scarped the soft skin, tickling you.
For a long moment after neither of you spoke. The night seemed to settle around the two of you like a quiet witness. The wind rustled faintly through the dry grass near the barn, and somewhere in the distance a horse stamped impatiently in its stall.
Simon finally exhaled, long and slow, like a man trying to force the storm out of his lungs. Then he pulled back, his cock slipping out of you with a wet pop as strings of your mixed release connected the two of you. The silence broken briefly by the soft rustle of clothes, his belt clicked as he tucked himself back in, before reaching for the buttons of his shirt.
You blinked, dazed and reeling from how ruthlessly he fucked you. Without a word, he undid the fabric. And you turned to face him with shaky legs. The sight of him in the dim lantern glow stole the breath straight from your chest.
Simon Riley had never passed off as a small man, but without the shirt the sheer breadth of him felt almost unfair. Hard muscle carved across his chest and shoulders, the kind built from years of fighting, riding, hauling gear, and surviving things most men never walked away from. He wasn’t lean in the way city men were there was solid weight to him, just enough flesh over the muscle to make him look massive rather than sculpted.
Your gaze dipped shamelessly. Down over the firm plane of his chest. Over the ridges of his abdomen. And the scars.
Fuck him, the scars.
Thin white lines from old knife wounds cut across his ribs. A puckered mark near his side spoke of a bullet that had once come too close for comfort. Faint bruises, yellowing and purple, bloomed across his skin from fights that had clearly happened within the last week. A trail of dark blond hair ran down the center of his chest, disappearing beneath the waistband of his trousers.
He looked like something carved out of battle and stubbornness. And entirely, devastatingly man.
You swallowed. Hard.
Simon noticed. Of course he did.
One corner of his scarred mouth twitched faintly as he pushed his messy blond hair back from his face, the motion tired and absent-minded. Then he held out the shirt and you squinted in confusion. With a soft exhale, he stepped closer and gently draped it around your shoulders. The fabric swallowed you instantly, hanging loose and warm against your skin while his large hands carefully worked the sleeves over your arms. The motion was quiet. Almost reverent.
And that was when you noticed it. The tremor. Simon’s hands were shaking. Only slightly, but enough that it made your chest tighten. The truth settled in slowly then, sliding quietly into place behind his earlier anger. For all his growling bravado and rough words, Simon Riley was terrified. Not of the men who hunted him. Not of the law. Not even of death. Those things had chased him for years.
But losing you? That was different.
The fear of death was a constant companion in his life. The fear of losing you to choice was worse. The idea that one day you might simply decide he wasn’t good enough… that the monster everyone else saw when they looked at him was the truth… that you might eventually see it too… That fear lived in his bones.
Which was exactly why the ring sitting hidden in his saddlebag had never touched your hand.
The ring he hadn’t stolen. Hadn’t looted. Hadn’t taken from a corpse like most of the things he owned. He had bought that one. With honest money. And somehow that had made it harder.
Your expression softened.
“Si…” you murmured quietly.
Your voice sounded small in the stillness, “I am… I am sorry.”
The words hung between you, heavy and fragile. For a moment you thought he might turn and walk away.
Instead he suddenly scooped you up into his arms like you weighed nothing. You let out a startled laugh as he carried you a few steps into the barn before dropping down into the loose hay piled along the wall. The dry straw rustled loudly beneath you both as he settled back, one arm automatically curling around your waist to keep you from rolling away.
“No, sugar,” he murmured after a moment, his voice softer now than you’d heard it all night. “I should be the one apologizin’. Shouldn’t have talked to you like that. Shouldn’t have… handled you like that.”
You tilted your head slightly, smiling as you leaned up to press a small kiss against the sharp line of his jaw. “There’s nothing to apologize for,” you said lightly. “If I liked it.”
Simon huffed out a quiet laugh against your hair, the sound rumbling low in his chest. It was your second favorite sound in the world. Right after the steady beat of his heart. For a little while neither of you said anything. The barn smelled faintly of hay and hot wet sex. Your cheek rested comfortably against his bare chest while his fingers absentmindedly traced slow circles along your back.
Then his voice broke the silence.
“Marry me.”
You blinked. Surely you’d heard that wrong.
“What?”
Simon’s arm tightened around you slightly as he looked down, his expression suddenly far too serious for a joke. “Marry me,” he repeated, quieter this time. “Please.”
Your brain stalled completely.
“I… I’d love to have the honor,” he continued carefully, like every word cost him something, “of bein’ the man you call yours.” For the first time in his life, the devil of the wild west sounded like he was begging. You slowly pushed yourself up onto your elbows, staring down at him like you expected the entire scene to dissolve into a dream.
But it didn’t.
Simon Riley lay there in the hay beneath you. No mask. No swagger. No fearsome outlaw.
Just a man.
A scared, stubborn, deeply broken man who looked like he’d tear the world apart if it meant getting one more day beside you. And he was asking.
Your brain finally restarted.
“YES.”
The word exploded out of you.
“OH MY GOD YES—ARE YOU SERIOUS—YES!”
Simon blinked. Before he could even react, you launched yourself at him.
Your arms wrapped around his neck as you tackled him back into the hay with enough enthusiasm to knock the breath clean out of his lungs.
“WHERE IS MY RING?” you demanded wildly between kisses as you grabbed his face and peppered it with them. “YOU CAN’T JUST PROPOSE WITHOUT THE RING—WHERE IS IT—DID YOU LOSE IT—SIMON RILEY IF YOU LOST MY RING—”
“I didn’t lose it—!” He barely got the words out before you planted another kiss directly on his mouth.
“And if you think for one second I’m letting you take that proposal back—”
“I wasn’t plannin’ to—”
“Good!”
You kissed him again. And again. And again.
Simon eventually started laughing beneath you, the sound shaking through his chest while he attempted unsuccessfully to shield his face from your relentless assault.
“Woman,” he wheezed between breaths, “you’re gonna suffocate me.”
“GOOD,” you declared proudly, grabbing his cheeks again. “Then you’ll die happy knowing I said yes.”
His laughter softened into something warm and disbelieving as he finally caught your wrists and looked up at you like you’d just handed him the entire world.
“Hell Sugar,” he murmured, smiling in a way you’d never seen before, “I think I’d have died a happy man if you’d just kept lookin’ at me like that.”
As always, all credits of the images I used go to the original creators. Chat, I went into Cowboy Simon Riley induced psychosis, I wrote so much and I regret nothing. Anyways, someone please leash this man, he is so needy it is not funny anymore ദ്ദി •⩊• )
SEBASTIAN STAN CONFIRMED TO PLAY HARVEY DENT IN THE BATMAN: PART 2 MOVIE! WE FUCKING MADE IT! WE EATING SAUR GEWD!!! CMON SEBASTIANNNN!!!
you’re drunk - simon ghost riley
“y’wanna know what stupid looks like?” he mutters, head dropping down until his lips near your jaw. “you, wakin up with my fuckin dog tags round your neck and nothin else.”
repost from my old deleted account tobeholyistobeempty - tispy simon riley x drunk reader. simon is a man of morals, even when you make it very very hard for him to exercise them. 18+. lots of detailed dirty talk.
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it’s honestly not even your fault.
you’ll blame it all on soap, if anyone asks - he’s the one who had a tab open, a devil on his shoulder, and kept pouring shots as if they were free. now you’re blackout-adjacent, stumbling through the hallway with simon’s arm wrapped around your waist in some makeshift tourniquet while everything spins like a goddamn carousel.
simon always gets stuck on clean-up crew. mostly because he’s the only one who can handle their fuckin liquor.
needless to say, he’s used to this by now. used to the way you’ve been rambling on about nothing for the better part of five minutes - doesn’t say much when you stop and get distracted by something stupid for the billionth time. doesn’t complain when you grab his arm and lean a little too hard into his side, as if he’s a lifeline in the sea that is the floor beneath your feet.
he’s tipsy, sure, but somehow still annoyingly steady. classic simon.
“jesussi—you’re big.” it’s slurred and breathless, broken by your own laughter as your head drops lazily onto his shoulder. “like, industrial grade. military-issued big.”
the corner of his mouth tilts. if you were sober you’d see the smirk he’s biting back.
“tha right?”
“mmm. like a fuckin tank,” you hum, fingers kneading the muscle under your palm. it’s involuntary - just like it’s involuntary when he twitches. “or an armoured vehicle. y’should come with airbags.”
simon bites his cheek. the devil in you is dancing in the waves of tension rolling off him.
maybe he’s not as used to this as he thought - because this isn’t just drunk-banter. this is you, murmuring compliments with all that heat behind them. personal. stupidly involuntarily honest.
hes not used to compliments. not ones that sound like that.
“you’re drunk,” he breathes.
you grin. “so’re you.”
“not even half as much as you.”
you let out a giddy little laugh that makes him glance down, at that. it’s quick and brief, the way his eyes flick over you, like he’s checking to make sure you haven’t stripped mid-hallway. it’s just the bickering that gets you. makes you warm inside.
“m’not that drunk,” you lie through your teeth with all the drunken confidence you possess. “i mean—i am, but not like…memory loss drunk. i’m still gonna remember how wide your shoulders are tomorrow.”
it’s only seconds after that and your fingers are moving again, crawling down his arm to where leather edge meets skin.
“..and how insanely big your hands are,” you sigh in continuation, unable to help yourself. “like—biblically destructive. ruin-her-life-in-a-single-night kind of hands. anyone ever tell y’that?”
and that might just be precisely when it starts - the feeling in his gut. brought to life through the filth you’re beginning to feed.
“don’t.” he says, and it’s torn. “not now.”
he’s all but begging you - and however miraculously, his pace doesn’t break. still steady as ever even as you switch from squeezing to tracing his tattoos with your finger. the only response he gives is a devastating clench of his jaw as he keeps you moving - steering past flickering lights and sterile walls.
“y’ever choke a girl out with them?” you press, unfettered. “not like, unconscious, but like. in bed?”
he exhales. slow. almost a growl.
“jesus. stop talkin’.”
“why?” you blink up at him, all wide eyes and flushed cheeks, far too innocent for someone who’s very much not being innocent. “am i makin’ you nervouuus?”
his head tilts just slightly, just enough to peer down at you again.
“no,” he says, and even drunk you hear the grit in it. “you’re makin’ me hard.”
he says it like he hates himself for it. like it slipped out - cut from the meat of some deep place the inebriation in his veins simply won’t let him keep inside.
and you?
you blink slow, lips parting in surprise.
“fuckin’ finally.” you exhale with a smile. slow and crooked and dangerous. “thought i’d have to be on my knees and naked for you to admit that—“
he doesn’t let you finish that thought.
“fuck’s sake, y’little minx.” he’s dragging you now, as if he’s realizing the dangers that are surfacing the more this conversation continues. by this point he’s half-carrying, half-hauling your giggling form down the hall like you weigh nothing. “y’need to stop talkin.”
“you like it,” you slur between unsteady steps. “y’like me like this cause you’re a freakkk—“
his grip tightens. morals in tatters. control evaporating.
“i’d like you more if y’were unconscious.” he huffs, hard. “or duct-taped.”
that makes you giggle more. worse, it eggs you on.
“was that supposed t’be a threat?” you ask, lips glistening. “cause if so, it’s workingggg.”
he grunts - some deep, violent sound in his throat like that one hit a nerve. “bloody hell.”
by the time you make it to your door, he’s breathing heavy. less from exertion and more from sheer fucking restraint. it takes two seconds before he throws the hinges wide, kicks it shut with his boot, and all but drags you onto your bed.
and you hardly even realize you’ve reached it until the cotton caresses the side of your cheek. but that feeling is quickly forgotten when simon, the gentleman that he is, leans over you - one knee braced on the mattress as his hands go to work on the laces of your boots.
your thighs tense. he notices.
“fuck, simon.” you can’t stop yourself. not even god himself could, at this point. “i’ve been into you for ages, y’know.”
he pauses. boot in hand.
“…what?”
he says it low. like a warning - like a don’t you fuckin start. but you’re too drunk to care - especially when all you smell is him and all you see are those shoulders, leaning over you while you’re flat on your back beneath him.
your lashes flutter.
“jus sayin- since, like. you’re in my room, on my bed above me like one of my codeine fever dreams.” you slur, brain sloshing. the room spins with it. “thought y’should know.”
he looks at you like you’ve hit him with a brick.
your head lolls. glassy eyes dragging up over the length of him. “used to think about it—you—when i couldn’t sleep.”
he swallows, and you watch his throat work with it. the grip he’s got on your ankle could shatter bone.
“….you tellin me y’think bout me when y’touch yourself?” he asks.
“god yes.” you don’t even realize you’ve said it. “you. your hands. bending me over the sinks. in the showers while muttering filth in my ear, tellin me to behave—“
“—fuck.” it punches out of him like it hurts.
the silence falls heavy. he doesn’t blink, breathe, or move for what feels like forty minutes, when in reality, it’s like forty seconds - just long enough for him clamp the leash back on whatever beast is tearing through him.
not fully, but enough.
you stretch like a cat, oblivious to it. arch your back. sigh. “d’you think about it?”
he doesn’t answer. not at first. then—
“only when i breathe.”
your stomach lurches. your thighs twitch. “you mean that?”
he looks at you, finally - eyes darker than the devils deal, filled with filth and heat from the fire you started without even trying.
he shakes his head, his jaw clenches with the effort of keeping the beast at bay. “i mean, if you don’t stop talkin, m’gonna fuckin’ fold.”
the alcohol in your blood just roars, at that. fuel to the flaming fire inside you.
“tell me.” you murmur. “you think about fucking me? what i’d sound like moaning your—“
before you can finish that thought, his hand is over your mouth. it swallows your face, makes you twitch in all the wrong places — and he sees it.
“enough.” it’s barely a whisper. “christ. fuck. you’re gonna make me do somethin’ stupid.”
you moan against his hand - it spills out of you, vibrates against his fingers. he curses.
“y’wanna know what stupid looks like?” he mutters, head dropping down until his lips near your jaw. “you, wakin up with my fuckin dog tags round your neck and nothin else.”
his palm silences everything but your pulse, which is roaring, at this point.
your fingers come up, shift a few of his digits until your voice finds room to leak out. “please.”
his eyes snap shut.
“y’dont know what you’re askin for, sweet’eart,” he mutters, grabbing the edge of the blanket with his free hand and yanking it over your hips. “ain’t gonna wake up with you hatin me.”
even drunk you realize he’s a man of morals.
“you think i’d regret it?” you whisper. stars in your eyes. he doesn’t respond. “simon. i just told you i’ve fantasized about fucking you. i wonder how big you are, if it’d hurt—“
his palm tightens over your lips again.
“one more fuckin’ word and i’ll forget every goddamn reason why i shouldn’t touch you right now.” he spits. “if y’even remember this tomorrow, y’come say it to me sober. promise on every grave i’ve ever stood over i’ll bend y’over on the spot and fuck the idea of regret right outta you.”
then he pulls back, moving slow like it hurts, and you smile.
“guess i’ll see you tomorrow.”
“mhm.” he hums, take a step or two toward the door. “fuckin hope you will.”
bootlicker
Sucking off a soldier but pulling away every few minutes to frown and shake my head so the audience knows I don't support the military industrial complex, I just have a thing for uniforms
simon is very, very experienced in sex and when he fucks you, he fills you up and stuffs you swollen that you swear that you could feel his cock nudging at the back of your throat.
while stumbling over your words, you tell this to him one night, your voice splintering because of your ripping euphoria, and it's not even meant to be dirty talk or to tease him, but it hits simon so hard, he just fucking cums preemptively.
"si- whu'-"
"shit," he puffs out, pressing his face on the column of your neck, heaving deeply and tensed in his sudden orgasm. "shit, i- give me a sec, hun. give-"
you feel his face heat up from where it's pressed on your skin, his warm breaths turning even more feverish, and, god, how cute. but you stay still, breathing through your mouth, because simon may not be moving but he's still so big inside of you, plugging his cum in that you wonder if you should start worrying now because it's not a safe day, then--
simon moves, a little humping motion, and you squeak, dragging your dull nails along his back at the feeling of him fucking his spunk further in you and it's so debauched and it feels so dirty but, christ, it feels good.
you don't even care that it's simon's way of distracting you from his little "embarrassing" moment -- later, you'll tell him how hot it is actually to just feel him lose it and cum prematurely but for now, you'll enjoy this dance.
it starts because you don't know when to stop.
a snide comment during debrief. a sharp suck of your teeth when you're ordered to keep second-to-last watch. enough sass throughout the day that, if you were under anyone else, it would've earned you more than a clipped warning. but you're not, and with Ghost, it's different.
he doesn't snap at you, doesn't bark. he just decides you need to learn.
his lessons are brutal.
the first one almost goes unnoticed until you feel the heavy pressure of his hand on your thigh beneath the conference table. gloves off, calloused fingers sliding higher while Price drones on at the head of the room. you stiffen, a hiss of air caught in your throat, but Ghost doesn't even look at you. he's staring ahead, mask tilted toward the screen like nothing's happening.
his fingers slip past uniform, find the damp heat already gathering where you're softest. it forces you to sit perfectly still while he works you open with slow, merciless strokes, your notebook clutched so tight your knuckles burn, your lip bitten near bloody just to keep silent. (every slide is louder to you than Price's voice.) you squirm in your seat despite yourself, thighs squeezing shut but he hooks a heavy boot around your calf and pulls. you'll be splayed open as long as he damn well pleases.
"you've got a mouth on you," he rumbles later in the corridor, his hand fisting in your collar as he steers you toward his office. "let's see if you can use it to save yourself."
the desk is cold against your hips and the door stays unlocked. his cock splits you open, and every thrust comes with the weight of his threat. make a sound, and anyone walking by will know how he's got you.
that's the real discipline. not his palm narrowing your world down, not his rank. it's the risk. (the hallways are not empty. the walls aren't thick.) it's the way your body betrays you, writhing under the drag of him, desperate for more while your throat aches with swallowed moans.
he doesn't stop until you're ruined; slick, shaking, jaw sore from clamping down on screams, and your pride in pieces.
and when he finally bends close, his breath on your ear, his voice is low, dangerous, and satisfied.
"good girl. see? learned to shut the fuck up all on your own."


