Sad short stories of a girl curled up in her shell

Jordan / 30 / PDX Borderline Personality Disorder / Ehlers Danlos Syndrome Contact me at [email protected] Instagram: @jorelishe Etsy: jorelishe YouTube: Elsieflowers666 I make music: J'espere's Soundcloud / bandcamp Almost E V E R Y T H I N G is original and tagged. Including photo's of me, my journal scans, music, etc. If you reblog something, please give me credit, and do not delete the words from photo posts. Do not plagiarize anything. I will find you.

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Spoiler alert: Don’t https://www.instagram.com/p/CUPJNAKNHSUS9bFdosOV_U2rXmLaPcOjUuube40/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Sad guitar bitch is back baby https://www.instagram.com/p/CUD5nfslTo_/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Am I wearing a raven onesie? Yes. Am I singing a fucked up nursery rhyme? Also yes. https://www.instagram.com/p/CUBVbmMrUq9/?utm_medium=tumblr

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7 years is a long time. A lot of fights, tears, laughter, and love. It’s weird when you realise that the most important person to you is someone who hasn’t always been in your life. We were talking about it yesterday, and it doesn’t feel like it’s been 7 years. But at the same time, it feels like we’ve always just been together since the beginning of time. I still get butterflies when we kiss. I still catch myself staring at him, because my brain cannot comprehend that he is real and so completely wonderful. He is an absolute saint for sticking around this long, despite my mental illnesses that don’t make things easy. I have done so much growing in the past 7 years, and I have him to thank. I feel so lucky and so blessed to know him. When I was younger, I thought I knew what love was. 7 years ago, I realised what it really meant. https://www.instagram.com/p/CT5UE-xhuXE/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Shoutout to @lindenn10 for giving me my new favourite shirt 👌🏻 https://www.instagram.com/p/CT3yOw2rTjE/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I’ve been trying to play more of my own songs, and this is probably my favourite one I’ve ever written. Don’t look at my face. https://www.instagram.com/p/CT21MajhNvB/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Gross. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTt2H9qFaM0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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The newest episodes of Rick and Morty are about crows and I literally could not be happier. But it does make me sad seeing someone else living out my dream. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTqylRCr389/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Hanging out with my BFFs. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTqD5Irvdya/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I am very rusty and my fingers hurt, but I will be emo kid at heart until the day I die. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTnnLAOFt7d/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Don’t bother me, I’m ✨disassociating✨ https://www.instagram.com/p/CTnYTgiB2Od/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Another year we can’t make it to Comic Con due to COVID. 3 years ago, we went as Jesse and Cassidy and I felt like a boss ass bitch. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTlHdlwJ5oG/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I have been making myself pick up my guitar at least once a day and remembered this gem from Bo Burnham. (Warning, it’s pretty vulgar haha) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTd-pyJnUs9/?utm_medium=tumblr

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@jokeyandthebandit left an eyelash at my house. I saw an opportunity, and took it. It is now the finest piece of art in my home. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTX_lqfBzpD/?utm_medium=tumblr

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YALL. I have been waiting for this book for literally 6 months. It’s taken so long because it’s the first edition, and I am absolutely blown away. The book has a velvet cover, it’s HUGE, and also came with prints, a booklet, even a funerary sash. It’s full of post mortem photos and information, it is so fucking beautiful. The way we deal with death is so different from how we used to. I have always said that when I die, I want post mortem photographs with all my loved ones, one last time. I have been thinking about death a lot, between so many people dying from COVID, learning a friend passed away, and my own debilitating fear that I could die at any second. This book is weirdly very comforting. It was a very expensive treat to myself, but I have zero regrets. Check out @postmortembook for more information! https://www.instagram.com/p/CTTgLZqLioG/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I have never related to a skeleton more. Bethesda bugs are truly a blessing. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTSeKzOrajI/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Tiny Bag Balm. Tinybagbalm. TINY BAG BALM. T I N Y B A G B A L M. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTRejtbHkgk/?utm_medium=tumblr