[error404vibess]

intro to my acc

heyy this is the intro about me and this account, i probably will figure out how to pin this and also probably edit this if i remember smth i want to add or change or smth

☆ I post stuff related to ed, sh, depression, so keep in mind that if you find that triggering, then maybe don't look at my acc.

☆ About me: i'm a 15year old girl, i like reading, my fav books are Dead Poets Society, and the Foxhole Court serie. Idk what else lol

☆ Stats:

162 cm

Bmi: 15.6

Sw: 52

Cw: 41

Gw: 39

Ugw: 39, cuz so that my bmi is under 15

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[slaughtered4ngel]

lore update i wanna die

[error404vibess]

Rereading the foxhole court againnn🧡🤍

[error404vibess]

i think it was water weight or smth cuz im back at 42kg!

[error404vibess]

gained a kg cuz of yesterday, im now 43 again

[messymotherfcker]

I’m getting so tired of fighting myself all the time

[error404vibess]

oh and i actually did get blood tested this morning, my mom kinda forced me, yayyy, and yeah idk i get the results back tommorrow or the day afer, idk for sure, so hopefully its good! Oh and we measured my blood pressure at home (again, my moms genius idea) and my heart rate is too slow, so now i have to eat more salt (and appearently more food in general :( but yeah now i have to eat soup everyday cuz there is alot of salt in that. But im trying to find the ones with the lowest cal so i'll update on that lol. But yeah idk tomorrow im just gonna fake it cuz of my fast, but idk what im gonna do if i dont find ones with low cal but idk, ig i'll find out lol

[error404vibess]

binged really bad today, starting a 48hr fast now

[error404vibess]

so today i stayed home from school for alot of reasons im not getting into rn, but my mom now wants me to take a blood test cuz ive been really tired and yeah thats tomorrow morninggg😫😫😫 i lwk wanna die rn i really dont want to go cuz im kinda scared they are gonna find smth thats wrong with me, or that they are gonna find nothing, my mom is already making comments that it has to do with my eating but if they dont find anything, then maybe she thinks thats the only explanation for it or smth. And i dont want that lol

This is just kinda an life update ig?? Just bcz i havent posted in a few days so idk, just an update

Update - i convinced my mom that i can go thursday! Hopefully she'll forget about it or smth

[error404vibess]

weighed myself this morning and im 42!!! Offically 10kg down from my sw and only 3 more to go

[freakoutgirl]

I don't trust anyone with my vulnerability except 10,000 strangers on Tumblr

[error404vibess]

Binged yesterday but lost 0.5kg wtf???

[error404vibess]

felt the urge to sh again for the first time in 2 months, life's getting bad againnn

(I was feeling pretty good for awhile so i just didnt do it cuz i didnt feel the need to but i did it again so ig thats over now lol

Also i binged really bad

[lovetechnique]

me at any point in time: I have got to listen to more music I have got to watch more movies I have got to read more books I have got t

[scarabies-real]

Realizing the depression is not seasonal is like: Wow! What a beautiful flower! The birds are singing! I sure do love spring! I think I am fundamentally unlovable as a person.

[error404vibess]

I was not locked in today i hate myself rn and i lowk want to stop

And also, tell me why ive been thinking about ctting again?? Like wdym i didnt feel the urge for like a month and NOW i want to do it, when summer is just around the corner wtf???