Made Brilliant. Decided Devious.

"Without fear there would be no temptation. Without temptation there would be no risk. Without risks there would be no love. Breathe deep and jump because something might just catch you as brilliant." -Bri Jane

[fearbeneathmysoul]

Am I selfish for wanting more from him? Wanting him to just be there more. Do more things. Be present in our life versus only in his. I want more from him. I want a partner not a  parasite.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

How do you know when it’s over?

[fearbeneathmysoul]

It was supposed to be forever. Forever isn’t this short.

It’s so dark. It’s so cold. But so warm. What is this. What is this feeling. It’s been so long since I felt it. Betrayal? Hurt? It’s so cold. My heart. It’s bleeding.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

It’s so dark. It’s quiet but so noisy. It’s empty but so full.

My heart hurts right down into my soul.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

It’s the end again. How many ends can you

Have until the book closes?

[fearbeneathmysoul]

If I were enough I wouldn’t feel this alone

[fearbeneathmysoul]

I wish I was better. Perfect.

Maybe even emotionless? Maybe then I’d fit the mold I need to for these relationships.

Why do I always feel this way? Why do I always end up sad. Empty. Wishing for more.

Always wishing for more.

Dear diary, I gave up on prince charming. He doesn’t exist. And it makes me sad.

I’m sad. It’s sad. This point of of life again is sad.

[sad-empty-lost]

Sadness isn’t just a mental thing, it can take over your entire body

[neckkiss]

via weheartit

[fearbeneathmysoul]

Betrayal

[i-hate-yuo]

There’s a big difference with being alive and feeling alive.

[kpopper]

are you living or are you just jumping from one obsession to the other to run away from yourself

[ivan-fyodorovich-deactivated202]

what are you the coping mechanism police or something

[whiskeypadre]

Lol

[fearbeneathmysoul]

It hurts again.

The sadness. It’s back.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

Did I do something?

It’s me... it has to be me. It’s always me. I’m toxic. People always leave because of me.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

I’m lost again.

Where is the path? Which way did it go? Why is everything so distant. It’s fading again.

Fading away.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

It’s empty again

Beating heavy, chiming a lonely tune; only I can feel it.

[fearbeneathmysoul]

I’m lost

No finding. Just loss.