I Don't Drink Pepsi, I Just Sell Coke

You tell yourself it will never be you. Suddenly you find yourself doing what you said you would never do for the drug you said you would never use. 22 | Alberta, Canada | Female | Got Clean 04/09/17 | Relapsed 10/24/17 I like snorting shit that gets me high. Uppers, Prescription Painkillers and benzos Recovery is a bitch but I'm working on it. If this blog active I probably relapsed. If you want to chat go ahead but if you start getiing sexual you aren't getting a response

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I may be a drug addict

But Brother, it's not okay for you to be a douchebag towards me. I never did this to spite you and I'm not sorry I don't fit in with you and you're douchebag friends. Your friends who do coke every weekend and smoke weed everyday but you still spend all you're time with, without judgement, but crucify me when I make a mistake.

I may be a drug addict,

But Dad, you don't have to play cop with me. I need a dad, not another policeman in my life. I need you to remember what it's like to be my age. I need you to love me.

I may be a drug addict,

But Mom, you take their sides when I get treated like shit when you should be the first person to understand me.

I may be a drug addict,

But Grandpa, this has nothing to do with you and about how the people at church see me.

I may be a drug addict,

But Grandma, it doesn't mean I am not trying in this life. A life you never had to work a day in you're life in because you had grandpa. The times have changed and I need you to, too.

I may be a drug addict,

But Non-Addict Friends and Weekend Warriar Aqcuantances, either be my friend or don't. It comes down to me having to be friends with just other addicts because at least they don't threaten to cut me out of their lives if I slip up.

I may be a drug addict,

But Everyone, I am still a fucking human being.

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Truly amazed I made it through a full 8 hour shift without dying. Had to pour atleast 600 cups of coffee and suprisingly did better than I do when I’m sober and well rested

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I didnt even do enough to get high but like i cant sleep and i work in 7 hours so like i dunno if i should just do more and stay awake or take a bunch of zzzquil and knock myself out because either way im gunna feel like shit tomorrow

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Well i was clean for 2 weeks. How the fuck was it so easy to stay clean for 8 months but now its so damn hard

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I think my boyfriend clued in that im doing drugs again. Ha oops

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Took this off facebook but literally me right now 😂😂

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Fuck it I’m just gunna take a bunch of zzquil and knock myself out for a few hours before my boyfriend gets home and I have to lie to him about what I did all day. Because at least saying I slept all day is a typical thing for sober me to do. Then I gotta try to be somewhat alive for work and dealing with family tomorrow. Ughhhh hopefully my brain doesn’t decide to stop working again

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Nothing like hanging with other tweakers to let you know you’re high enough cause you sure as fuck don’t want to be as strung out as them.

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✨ Crystals are a girls best friend ✨

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me in January: “2017 is gonna be a year of healing”

me in October: *is addicted to meth again*

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Crystal Meth

Hello.

You may or may not know me.

I destroy homes.

I tear families apart,

I’ll take your children and that is just the start.

I’m more precious than diamonds, more valued than gold.

The sorrows I bring are a sight to behold.

If you need me I’m easily found

I’m all around you in every city and every town.

I live with the rich I live with the poor.

I live down the street even next door.

I’m made in a lab just not the kind you think,

I can be made under the kitchen sink.

I can be made in the closet or in the woods.

If this doesn’t scare you to death it certainly should.

I have many names but one you’d know best

My name is Crystal meth.

My powers are awesome just try me and see.

Try me twice and your soul will belong to me.

Once I possess you, you’ll steal and you’ll lie

You’ll do what it takes just to get high.

The crimes you’ll commit for the high and fame

Will be worth millions once I get in your veins.

You’ll lie to your mom and steal from you dad,

When you see their tears you won’t even be sad.

You’ll forget your morals and how you were raised,

Once I teach you my worthless ways.

I’ll take your friends, your control, your pride,

But I’ll always be with you right by your side.

You’ll give up your friends, your family, your home,

When you run out you’ll be all alone.

I’ll take and I’ll take till there’s nothing to give,

And when I’m through you’ll be lucky to live.

You can try me for fun but I’m no game.

Giving the chance I’ll drive you insane.

I’ll give you nightmares while you lie sweating in bed.

I’ll be the evil voices inside you head.

You shouldn’t have tried me how many times were you told?

But you challenged my powers how could you have been so bold?

You couldn’t say no, and just walked away.

If you could do it all over again what would you say?

I’ll be you master you’ll be my slave.

Don’t fear being lonely I’ll walk with you to your grave.

I’ll show you more pain then your deepest betrayal

So come take my hand as I lead you to HELL.

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Old pic when I thought smoking was bad for you. Lines of ice.

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Something I’ve noticed about Meth use, is that it both IS and ISN’T all the scary things people said it would be. At the same time and in equal measure. It worries me how good it makes me feel. I almost don’t even mind the sensory overload of a bad buzz, which I’ve already experienced a few times.

The sexual side is weird, in that I get horny as hell, but rather than have actual sex I’d rather masturbate. But also, I want to serve/gratify. Lol I need to find a dom/domina I guess..

I guess I didn’t expect the tweaker community to be so…communal, I love all the little PSAs I see remind me to self care because I’ve been binging.

I’ve noticed many of the people I chose to follow are younger than me, sorry for being the creepy old dude. I promise I’m looking for community and not jailbate.

That last puddle was one too much, I think, I just went from chill zone to “they’re coming to take me away”

Anyway, there is no point to this post. Now carry on.

I’m gonna dab some indica shatter to level off.

Like some sort of haphazard fucking bush chemist.

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lookin for tweaker blogs and friends 💨💨💨

reblog if you’re a crystal blog! 💎

hype 4 that original content tho 👐

also message me 🤗

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This weekend was a really good weekend. Till it ended.

I Was sober, comedowns had mostly gone away, brain was starting to work somewhat decently again. Spent the weekend looking after my favorite kiddos just relaxing and carving pumpkins and just having fun. Then today me and my boyfriend spent the afternoon looking for halloween costumes and actually spending time together doing something besides sitting in the house. Last week was shitty times for both of us so it was good to have a day without drama or stress or fighting.

We get home and are just watching tv and my dumbass self decides to lock myself in the bathroom pretend to get ready for a shower and do a rail without my boyfriend finding out. And of course thats the one time he decides to come bother me and the doors locked so i have to hurry tf up and hide everything before unlocking the door.

Then and hour later when me and him are laying in bed im like “this didnt even hit i guess i can do a bit more” and sneakily do another rail in peace this time. Then i go back to bed watching tv and hoping he doesnt think its suspicious im obsessively playing candy crush. Which he doesnt and ends up going to sleep thank god. Since as far as he knows i havent done anything after i did some monday night.

But now its 3am and i have to drive him to work at 6 and hope he doesnt realize ive been up all night cuz he thinks i flushed all the shit i had left but I’m stupid and didnt because i didnt want to waste it. And i shouldnt have gotten high tonight cuz things were getting better and i had energy after i spent all last week feeling like shit and hating life and feeling like I had a fucking stroke or something but apparently I can know all that and still want to do more because as long as i have it accessible I cant say no. Fuck i hate addiction.

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