/ˈmeləˌdrämə/

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you and my dead uncle had the same favorite holiday

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turns out, you didn't want a Cool Girl.

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9.30.21

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november 2021.

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i am drunk on a dancefloor

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12.9.21

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[winonaryder1897]

“I don’t feel very good about myself. 
People always leave me. 
Nobody can stand me for very long. 
I wish I could cut my tongue out, 
or take out the part of my brain 
that has opinions. Or cares. 
I wish I could be simple. 
Be quiet, introverted, or shy. 
I’m half way in between a wallflower 
at a party and elvis presley. 
People love one or the other. 
In between is no place to be.”

— Taken from a one page play by Jack White, supposedly written when he was nineteen. (via notagiant)

[headlikeasteeltrap]

i suck at bowling

tonight i drank the beer you got me onto, i downed the whole pitcher and didn't think of you once.

i'm drunk enough to drown in you. i'm drunk enough to hope you're feeling okay. i'm drunk enough to wonder what you're doing at this moment. i'm drunk enough to check all your social media once or twice. but i won't do any of that.

i went bowling tonight and it was the most fun i've had since i had you. it was the most fun i've had until i lied in the last line.

(12/16/2020)

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it's the same thing over and over and over.

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february 2020

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9/18/2020

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small talk with you twists a knife in my heart that i've gotten so used to, i almost forgot it was there.

wounds open and i kind of like the pain because nothing hurts as much as not speaking to you.

you used to feel like a drug, now you just feel like a comedown.

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