heya

actually i am here.

[heyawasneverthere]

[heyawasneverthere]

HAPPY MIKU DAY

here’s Miku in that one pose(Makima posing similar to an angel in ending 3 of Chainsaw Man) for no reason other than i couldn’t get it out of my head

i wanted to draw more today because it’s the first time in a bit i’ve felt not awful and had some free time but it’s so cold my fingers really ached. that being said, i’ll probably still draw more. today’s the best excuse to do so.

Here’s some Miku recs/Miku songs I was listening to while drawing! (in no particular order)

if you’re reading this you are legally obligated to give me your favorite Miku song. i really need to listen to more Miku.

[heyawasneverthere]

i am. VERY sick right now.

it started monday with a constant, kinda just nagging headache. but later in the day, it had a really rapid spike into being so painful my eyes couldn’t completely focus. even still, i kinda just dealt with it. i’ve got a genetic migraine disorder, it’s not the most foreign of experiences. but now it’s wednesday, and that migraine, while a bit better has stayed the whole time.

yesterday morning i threw up(mostly water, still sucked). and there was a new symptom(?) of sorts, that made the area under my right shoulder blade so sore, like someone was pulling on the skin, that made it hard to stand up. there was a fair bit of soreness elsewhere too, but nowhere as bad as that.

i think it’s lightening now, but i haven’t been able to do much of anything. outside of balatro that is. because. yup. that’s what this whole post is about actually.

that’s the end result from a run last night(3 am this morning)

it was perfect. beautiful.

using the anaglyph deck, trying to unlock stuntman(last joker i needed before that part of the collection was completely unlocked)

i was running a flush five with mult/foil/red seal aces of hearts

jokers were:

hanging chad(later became polychrome)

bloodstone x2

DNA

fibonacci

because of how anaglyph is, i got 6 negative tags. so:

negative dusk

negative scholar

driver’s license

(i’ve forgotten the other three because they didn’t factor into the build at all, most were about face cards iirc)

i think by the time the run had died, through a combo of DNA and death arcana, i was at >30 aces with all the benefits

i’m gonna go back to feeling like death now. toodles.

[heyawasneverthere]

going just a little insane

people inflate Makima’s chest size a bit too much.

this isn’t the greatest(i was focusing more on her face/head) but. i’m still very proud of it.

maybe if i stopped criticizing my art, nobody would notice anywhere near as many imperfections.

have a (quick and small) stylized hand, as a treat.

[heyawasneverthere]

slight proof i’m actually doing stuff!

my stomach hates me, my headaches have been getting worse, and my spinal condition is being a lot more annoying than usual which makes it honestly kinda hard to sit at my desk sometimes, but i promise i’m still trying.

all excuses but. ultimately i feel guilty for leaving something unfinished for so long. even if nobody is paying me to finish anything.

oh and Balatro. blame Balatro. it’s got this weird thing where i sit down for a quick run and then suddenly like five hours have passed

a few notes:

-this was on a separate page to the Nayuta thing even though it’s the second part of the drawing because i noticed Nayuta’s page had started to become a bit damaged

-i can already see a few mistakes i’ve made

-this is the first thing i’m posting that was drawn without any ref! so i am proud of that.

-who was gonna tell me boobs were so hard to draw.

[heyawasneverthere]

i watched that gay hedgehog movie

there was hedgehogs

it was REALLY gay

12/10

[fortjester]

love only slightly being in fandoms. yes I've watched csm, no I haven't read it yet, yes I periodically see people blogging abt the updates and no I do not recognise a single other character that isn't denji. I have no idea what's going on but denji has a gun so I guess huge gun devil w? whatever good for denji (I hope)

[heyawasneverthere]

go read Chainsaw Man 🫵

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

[artsy-n-smartsy]

Thank you Remy for the tag! Removing the reblogs since the post is long ^^;

Anyway…the Toy Day theme from Animal Crossing: New Leaf. Agh it’s so nostalgic that it actually hurts ;-;

Tags: @tyrianluda @coolfire333 @alterkrystal @lifepaint @bittersweet-zarzamora and anyone else who wants to join in! No pressure of course ^^

[bittersweet-azzy]

thanks for tagging me artsy :D

…..y'all know 😏

tags /nf: @the-depressed-comedic-relief @reptil-enjoyer @jupejumble @daftysaph @the-jade-jester27 + open tag :3

[jupejumble]

daft punkkkkk

@laurmeow @happydachi @darkstalker1247

[darkstalker1247]

For once I don’t have a song stuck in my head

This was my most recent listen though

@jewelthenerd @wolfnxtra @blu-ish @silly-silvki @cinnamonbloom @marzisntbritish

[cinnamonbloom]

DAMN IT DARK

Odysseus from EPIC sigh

@dluebirb @janetbrown711 @randomarty @peoplepersonoaktree @br0ken-camera

[br0ken-camera]

I don’t think I had a song stuck in my head (or at least, I can’t remember it now), but I will share one of my recent listens and one that keeps getting stuck in my head

Vampire Reference In A Minor Key by Will Wood

I’m too lazy to get a link :p

Tags: @mcsm-r0ckz @fourthactdrawsstuff @ivormybeloved @ap0calypticdrag0n, or anyone can join

hi sillies

[ent0morii]

I uhh. Don’t know the name of this song but

Anywayy

@whataboutsimple (no pressure)

[whataboutsimple]

Oh.

Definitely Dizzy by MISSIO, cause this one is honestly such a fire and I can’t stop imagining Old Order Of The Stone edit with this one l o l.

@murkystarlight @basilthesnakingthing @abugsomewhere @sillysnaildraws you’re free from obligation, but if you wanttt…

[abugsomewhere]

OUGH, OKAY.

So there are actually THREE songs in my head, because for some reason my brain takes a random few songs and just mashes them together. The current songs are

Fences by Paramore

Unfinished Business by White Lies (specifically Mumford and Sons’ cover)

November by Sparkbird

All of these are swirling around in my head because they all fit either a Deltarune or Undertale animation i wanna make lmao

@dragooooo @murkystarlight if ya want!

[heyawasneverthere]

CHUCHU LOVELY

the song is so peak it warps the timeline of Chainsaw Man around itself

i loved it before getting into Chainsaw Man for the record, but my obsession has gotten a lot worse(better????) since

[heyawasneverthere]

i started watching Creature Commandos yesterday

i love him.

this is also a smaller robot in prep for drawing bigger robot. i PROMISE i’m trying to finish the stuff i started, but i’m very lazy.

god my hands are so sweaty, and you can probably tell. save me.

[heyawasneverthere]

can i talk about how much i HATE this design:

like, besides the obvious stuff about it clearly being made for the most aggressively gooner game to ever gooner game

firstly, she doesn’t look like she belongs in csm at all. i’m not sure if it’s an artstyle thing, the excessive skin exposure or what, but she just. doesn’t belong.

where’s her head chainsaw?

where does the ripcord Pochita is pulling on even connect to? why is Pochita even here, if she’s clearly become chainsaw (wo)man already?

this looks almost ai generated as well, like they got someone to touch up all the bits that were too obvious. the chainsaw in her left arm looks like it’s behind her, and it extends much further into her arm(to the elbow, it seems) than the chainsaw in her right arm. the ripcord connecting to nothing at all seems suspicious, as well as the way Pochita is biting on to it. the random flecks of yellow and black around it seem reminiscent of ai as well, especially that weird black thing near Pochita’s right paw.

the ear piercings seem weird to me, although i can’t really put my finger on why.

the bandages on her arms don’t make a ton of sense, as those should be getting ripped apart every time she pulls her ripcord and the chainsaws come out.

(this one is incredibly minor, but it still bothers me me for whatever reason) the teeth on her chainsaw facing forward as opposed to Pochita’s facing towards himself(which is how i believe chainsaw teeth are supposed to face because of how it spins?)

i’m not gonna say anything about her feeling like she would have a personality substantially different than Denji’s because it feels like the design is meant to evoke very early in the manga/anime, before everything starts going horribly for everyone all the time

i think that’s enough hating for right now, so i’m gonna list a few things i kinda like(but they’re gonna be backhanded)

the keep out tape belt is pretty neat, although i wished it actually supported pants or something even remotely resembling the public safety uniform

the belts covering her body feel like they’re meant to represent/evoke a tourniquet of some sort, which functions as a neat reference or whatever to Denji’s immortality as long as he has blood, although the choker seems unnecessary. also that’s Reze’s thing.

the shoes are incredible, no notes, 10/10(they look a bit too high-quality to be Denji’s, i’m just glad at least one thing carried over from his design to hers)

the chainsaw pin in her hair is cute, and her hairstyle is. alright.

that’s all for now, thanks for reading. don’t play this game, it seems awful.

[heyawasneverthere]

i think i’ve figured out my struggle with my Nayuta thingy

i’m pretty sure it’s a scaling thing.

i like to pose for my own references, and i did that with Nayuta. so when i took the reference pictures for the person standing behind her(gonna be Makima) and put it on paper, i scaled the width of the body and limbs with the height difference. something akin to if you were to attempt to enlarge a photo by adding the same amount to each side, rather than the by the same percentage. made it look funky!

so i’ll try to be aware of that next time

anyways, have an older hand thingy

editing this because i don’t like how much i used “so”

[heyawasneverthere]

motivation is hard(super sorry about the Nayuta thing taking so long)

here, have an eye(another older drawing. i’m kinda running out at this point.)

this is the only sketch i have a picture of(so far) that has color! i think it looks better for it, but i’m not too keen to do it again

not a CSM thing. that’s something, right?

TW for. eye stuffs.

[heyawasneverthere]

what if i figured out how to draw giant mechs

picture unrelated

[heyawasneverthere]

here’s something a bit older because finishing the Nayuta thingy is taking a lot longer than i expected

and also i kinda messed up my finger

i should probably try doodling some non Chainsaw Man stuff to prove i have a personality outside of CSM

but also Chainsaw Man is really good?

[heyawasneverthere]

here’s a part 1 of a project that was dwelling in my head for a while, but i only got it down on paper for real yesterday

i’m starting the second part now, so i might finish that either later today or tomorrow

[heyawasneverthere]

HANDS

some of this is older, some is pretty recent

i hope the image quality isn’t awful