I am Markus

My journey as an FTM transgender.

[i-am-markus]

Finally a day when the dysphoria isn't crippling... felt good and happy today. Those days are so appreciated!

[i-am-markus]

Feel so blessed to have this little dude in my life 🙏

[i-am-markus]

[i-am-markus]

This little dude are one of my favourite people. He is awesome, funny, empathic, stubborn, amazing and he teatches me something every day. I miss him the second I don’t se him or have him near me. #transdad #transgender #trans #transformation #transmotion #love #family #unconditional #unconditionallove https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn_V6d7B8YE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ax5l2s88cusp

[cosmicbrowniefan]

yet another reason i wish i was a cis guy:

i only have memories from my childhood and early teen years as a girl. and that’s not me.

[tiredfemininity]

it’s the “i really shouldn’t be running in a binder but I’m gonna fucking die if i don’t” time.

[i-am-markus]

Love my new KT-tape 😁

[justsomeantifas]

antifa: we need to stop white supremacists from advocating their hate

white supremacists, after months of hard work and counter protesting from anti fascists: we are too afraid to show our faces in public

moderates: see there never was a white supremacy problem in the first place

also white supremacists:

[spinningthehamsterwheel]

To clarify, this *just happened*, Aug 7th, 2018. This is not old news. This is from an interview after the election: —– West told the Star Thursday that he wanted to talk about his platform and suggested his recorded statements may have been taken out of context. He said he believes all men are created equal, but that he finds fault with some ideologies, such as Islam and Judaism. When asked about Jewish people in Missouri, he said, “Well, maybe they shouldn’t vote for me.” —– He literally couldn’t keep his mouth shut on his bigotry for all of 15 seconds.

[i-am-markus]

About time go get back to my workoutregime after some time with sickness. Getting too small and not at all as fit as I stribe to be! 👊💪🏻

[dididosomethingright]

not quite right

he realized something, looking in the mirror

 he didnt look quite right, did he.

    shoulders too broad,

    hips the opposite.

    jaw too strong,

   and much too muscular.

she looked away, having realized something.

[artemiswasamerf]

No offense but everything down to your hair follicles and skin flakes are either XX or XY coded. No amount of surgery, hormones, makeup, wigs, or any other altrications will change that. Your blood runs with your biological reality - I just wish people would stop feeling like they have to reject it to feel secure.

[bofa-gender]

Do you really think we don’t know this? Do you really think we go into transition under the delusion it’ll make us the opposite sex? Most people don’t go into transition with a delusion that it changes their biological sex, only their sex characteristics and social reality. I completely and totally understand I’ll always be biologically female. Transition was about using medical and other means to give the appearance of male sex characteristics. I’ve tried coping with dysphoria through other means for several years, and this is what worked. No amount of throwing facts I already knew about the reality of transition and my body changed that. I was never in denial of my femaleness, if I was, I wouldn’t have had dysphoria.

[c-the-transman]

Believe me, I’m plenty aware of my biological sex. The distressing thing is the fact that others see me as a “girl” when that is 100% not what I am. I know hormones and top surgery and phalloplasty won’t change my chromosones. Nothing can change that. But it sure as hell will bring me a lot closer to how I feel my body was supposed to be the entire time.

[archivedtdp-deactivated20240111]

*But it sure as hell will bring me a lot closer to how my brain feels my body was supposed to be the whole time.

Fixed that comment up a little bit there.

Transexuality exists because the shape of our brains didn’t develop correctly in utero so biological females ended up with a biologically male brain and vice versa. We all know we can’t change our chromosomes and we’re not delusional about that fact, but we also all know that we can’t change the shape of our brains so there’s nothing to be had except transitioning to be as close to the opposite sex as possible and living out our lives that way. It’s the only way to treat our neurological condition and to deal with it. 

[artemiswasamerf]

A quick Google search will show you that you have been lied to, “brain sex” is a myth. Females and males have what is referred to as “mixed brains”, there is no definable “female” or “male” traits in the brain it’s all just a mixing bowl of different strengths and weaknesses. “Brain sex” is a myth created by men to keep women out of schools, the workforce, and many other places. “She can’t go to school, her female brain is too weak to handle education.” It is a sexist belief that has been used to oppress women for decades. You are not trans because your “brain is developed differently” simply because that is not a viable or proven conclusion.

[archivedtdp-deactivated20240111]

No, actually, that’s not the case at all. You’re the one that’s been lied to or just not wanting to listen, so much so that you don’t even seem to understand the position of those you’re arguing against. There are male and female brain traits, yes, and indeed most people have a mix of these traits to some extent, however most have a mix that does not affect their gender identity while 0.3% (or was it 0.03%?) are not that lucky. Even with all the mixing, neurologists can still tell the difference between male and female brains at least 75% of the time (as one of my sources states, which was the result of a scientific study). 

Brain sex is not sexist - it’s a simple biological fact when it comes to humans, which are a sexually dysmorphic species. Neither male or female traits are stronger or weaker than the other - each sex just evolved to do different things during most of humanity’s evolution and existence. Males were the hunters, the providers, the warriors, and the defenders. Females were the gatherers and the caregivers. Both of these roles were vitally important to the continuation of our species, which is a clear fact otherwise we wouldn’t have kept evolving to be this way. There’s nothing wrong or sexist about the sexes being biologically different.

Here’s the newly updated/released guidelines about transexuality according to the Endocrine Society which states the following (bolding my own):

Although the specific mechanisms guiding the biological underpinnings of gender identity are not entirely understood, there is evolving consensus that being transgender is not a mental health disorder. Such evidence stems from scientific studies suggesting that: 1) attempts to change gender identity in intersex patients to match external genitalia or chromosomes are typically unsuccessful3,4; 2) identical twins (who share the exact same genetic background) are more likely to both experience transgender identity as compared to fraternal (non-identical) twins5; 3) among individuals with female chromosomes (XX), rates of male gender identity are higher for those exposed to higher levels of androgens in utero relative to those without such exposure, and male (XY)-chromosome individuals with complete androgen insensitivity syndrome typically have female gender identity6; and 4) there are associations of certain brain scan or staining patterns with gender identity rather than external genitalia or chromosomes7,8.

And here’s some more sources on brain sex:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/hope-relationships/201402/brain-differences-between-genders

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2015/01/150107082133.htm

http://www.journalofpsychiatricresearch.com/article/S0022-3956(10)00158-5/abstract

http://www.journalofpsychiatricresearch.com/article/S0022-3956(10)00325-0/abstract

https://www.newscientist.com/article/mg23230954-600-transgender-people-have-different-brain-activity-when-touched/

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2015/02/150213112317.htm

http://sitn.hms.harvard.edu/flash/2016/gender-lines-science-transgender-identity/

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/beyond-xx-and-xy-the-extraordinary-complexity-of-sex-determination/

https://thinkprogress.org/endocrine-society-transgender-health-coverage-4e0dfc96c652/

https://www.theguardian.com/science/2013/dec/02/men-women-brains-wired-differently

https://www.repository.cam.ac.uk/bitstream/handle/1810/266031/Ruigrok_2014_NBR_A%20meta-analysis%20of%20sex%20differences%20in%20brain%20structure.pdf?sequence=1

https://stanmed.stanford.edu/2017spring/how-mens-and-womens-brains-are-different.html

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4987404/#!po=12.2340

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25667367

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26637450

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/27070350

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4585501/

https://www.nature.com/articles/378068a0

http://www.sciencemag.org/news/2017/04/study-finds-some-significant-differences-brains-men-and-women

http://www.cam.ac.uk/research/news/males-and-females-differ-in-specific-brain-structures

http://www.cbc.ca/news/health/men-women-brains-difference-1.3473154

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4987404/

https://www.nature.com/articles/s41598-017-17352-8

http://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0083947

https://www.pinknews.co.uk/2011/01/26/scans-show-difference-in-transgender-brains/

https://ftmaustralia.org/resources/factsheets/brain-sex-theory-neuro-biological-sex-differentiation/

https://login.medscape.com/login/sso/getlogin?urlCache=aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cubWVkc2NhcGUuY29tL3ZpZXdhcnRpY2xlLzg0MDUzOF8z&ac=401

http://www.religioustolerance.org/why-are-some-people-transgender-3.htm

https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/pdf/10.3109/09540261.2015.1113163

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/7477289/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/20562024/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/18980961/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/24904525/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/27255307/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/10843193/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/18056697/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/19341803/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/21467211/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/23724358/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/24567168/

http://m.eje-online.org/content/155/suppl_1/S107.full

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/17765230/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/25929975/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/15724806/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/15854782/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/18962445/

http://dujs.dartmouth.edu/2010/05/sex-and-cognitive-differences-are-they-real/#.Wsg44i7wbIU

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4129348/

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/is-there-something-unique-about-the-transgender-brain/

https://digest.bps.org.uk/2017/08/21/trans-men-show-unusual-connectivity-patterns-in-brain-networks-involved-in-self-perception/

(These links are taken from this post so credit goes to these guys for compiling the list)

And here are my own:

Sex Differences in the Brain

Hormones, Sexual Dimorphism, and the Brain—A Primer

Brain Connectivity Study Reveals Striking Differences Between Men and Women

Transsexual differences caught on brain scan (and another)

Girl Brain, Boy Brain?

Neuroscience of sex differences (wikipedia but still worth a read)

Male brain versus female brain: How do they differ?

Caught Between Male and Female (When Brains Reveal the Truth About Transexuals)

Is There Something Unique about the Transgender Brain?

The Transgender Brain

A Sex Difference in the Human Brain and its Relation to Transsexuality

Structural Connectivity Networks of Transgender People

Male-to-Female Transsexuals Have Female Neuron Numbers in a Limbic Nucleus

Regional gray matter variation in male-to-female transsexualism

Study Links Brain to Transsexuality

Between the (Gender) Lines: the Science of Transgender Identity

Or in other words, I’m totally trans because my brain developed incorrectly. This is very much a viable as well as a proven fact, one that has been repeatedly proven by scientists. No offense intended here, however I’m pretty sure the people who dedicate their lives to the study and research of the human brain understand their source material better than you do.

There’s a reason why anti-vaxxers are mocked so much by pretty much everyone. That reason? For ignoring known scientific fact so that they can continue to cling to their own beliefs, sticking their fingers into their ears while screaming so they can’t hear anything else. It’s the same thing you’re doing here. Please be better than anti-vaxxers. Nobody needs to be on their level.

[beelzeboofo]

DEADASS NUKED FROM ORBIT

[ka039]

ATTENTION ALL GIRLS AND LADIES: if you walk from home, school, office or anywhere and you are alone and you come across a little boy crying holding a piece of paper with an address on it, DO NOT TAKE HIM THERE! take him straight to the police station for this is the new 'gang' way of rape. The incident is getting worse. Warn your families. Reblog this so this message can get accross to everyone.

[something-spectacular]

I will always reblog things like this, it won’t ruin your blog or the look of it, and this could potentially save a life.

PLEASE reblog this.

[nogistuneobrien-deactivated2016]

I have reblogged this about three times now and I will never not reblog it

[eyeslikeonyx]

i actually heard of this happening in atlanta not that long ago. that shit is terrifying as hell.

[nici-reads-deactivated20190926]

idc if it may ruin my blog look or whatever, if it means word gets out about these bastards then imma reblog x1000

[sunflower-flow]

reposting on my friends account

[memebone-deactivated20170524]

holy shit, that’s absolutely horrifying… definitely gonna reblog this shit, this could fucking save people’s lives.

[the-emerald-empire-deactivated2]

Maybe this will be useful to some of my followers! 

[percybluecookieheaven]

Everyone should see this, it’s really important

[maraschinobeso]

I reblog every time

[the-nightmare-gamer]

If you don’t reblog this you’re auto required to leave

[the-nightmare-gamer]

I fucking told you, auto

[supernovaenpanthera-moved]

dUDE

[ask-trans-feliciano]

hOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS IS HORRIFYING PLEASE REBLOG

[askthemisfitsgt-blog]

oh god oh god oh god

PLEASE REBLOG

I’M NOT EVEN JOKING

[sadtrashking]

WTF

[eddsworld-agent-au]

Stay alert ladies!

[anglerfish123-blog]

be warned

[rainbow-blossom247]

REBLOG!!!!!!!!!

[goddessofwaifus]

HOLY SHIT! GUYS REBLOG THE FUCK OUTTA THIS!!!

[danlop1970-blog-deactivated2022]

I’m used to not rebloging anything ………..BUT HECK YEAH I’M REBLOGING THIS!!!!!!!

[yuejo]

This is horrifying! Everyone please be careful!

[skippingseaglass]

!!!!!!!

STOP SCROLLING

PLEASE REBLOG

STOP SCROLLING

PLEASE REBLOG

[anony-phangirl]

HOLY CRAP!!! ALRIGHT ATTENTION TO THIS!! PLEASE REBLOG THIS!!! - THIS SHOULD ALSO BE A WARNING THEM GUYS!!! PLEASE!!!

[invisible7198]

Reblog

[transmed-aizawa]

he/him lesbian?? i believe you mean a

*flips pages of dictionary then adjusts glasses*

a straight male?

[witchmlm]

trans guys: don’t date someone who isn’t attracted to guys. don’t date lesbians. don’t date straight guys. don’t date someone who acts like they’re only dating you because you’re “”close enough to a girl.”” you’re not a girl in any way, and you deserve to date someone who loves you for your gender, not despite it.

[animatedtext]

[basiliskhallward]

fun tip for cis people: instead of saying “back when she was a he” or “back before [birthname] became [preferred name]”, try not being a pile of shit by saying something like “before she came out” or “before she began her transition”!

[secretsofaginger]

Pls friends and thanks.

[chokkilissa-nahollos]

“before she came out” is so easy and preserves so much dignity, PLEASE

[iamthedukeofurl]

I’ve been wondering the best way to say this. Thank you. 

[pumpkinskull]

also if their transition is irrelevant to the story, don’t bring it up! just say “when X was a kid/ younger/ in college/ etc” and carry on using their current name and pronouns.

[meeresbande]

That last point is very important! DO NOT OUT ANYONE! Do not bring up their trans status or transition unnecessarily! And you trying to look more interesting/cool/whatever by having a trans friend does not count as “neccessary”!!

[italian-love-cake]

They weren’t comfortable until they became who they are now, so I imagine it brings back memories or feelings they don’t wanna think about.

[i-am-markus]

Working out pays off, but I still feel like I am not where I want to be yet. Hopefully it will be alot better when I get to start T and get my mastectomi :)