Exhaustion
Life is exhaustive. Let me tell you something I’ve never liked about life. You’re born, fed to this system known as school and for about 16-18 years of your life you’re in this forced accelerated learning process whereby in some cases you have to do things you don’t really want to do. Then after those initial schooling years. You get a little bit more freedom. You can either continue to study or head straight into the real world thereby cementing your status as a working adult. Now this is what most people’s lives are like unless you’re super talented at something/pursue something with enough courage. Its always bothered me that the majority of people have their lives spent doing things for other people. When you ask people about why they go to school, I imagine most answers to be like “Because I have to be” or “Because I was forced to.” The same kinda rings true for a person in a full time job. It seems to me that we spend most of our lives as slaves for someone else. It feels like the system I was brought up in, yes that same schooling system I’m complaining about right now isn’t built for a student like myself to truly realise their complete potential. The current school system is just a nice precursor to the real world. You go from being a slave to the school to being a slave to a company you work for until you finally retire. Its a sad truth. The whole idea of working for someone else just never appealed to me. Maybe its because I’ve always felt like I was meant for more and I’ve never felt like I had the right support to do what I’m truly meant to. To be honest I’m not entirely sure what that is yet. But what I do know, is that there is a lot I want to try and a lot I want to accomplish yet the time I have left probably isn’t enough to accommodate all that. To me a lot of that comes down to the time I waste on things that don’t matter. I spend around 8 hours a day working for someone else, doing a task that takes little effort and is of very little use to what I really want to achieve in life. It’s exhausting because you finally get home and just lose the will to go out and do what you wanted. Those who have achieved great things and are successful are ones who challenged the system and went out of their way to make themselves great. The system won’t change passively and neither will I. So I guess what I’m trying to say is that I live a passive life and I’m exhausted. So how about I attempt to live the life I want to and started feeling more alive than ever?
VALUE
Its nice to brain dump once in a while. I literally just wrote what was on my mind in this moment and threw up all over the page. It began with some thoughts which I’ve had for a while/still have and I managed to come full circle with a self diagnosis of the problem. You should get some rest mate. Of course you’re gonna be exhausted when you chat too much shit. Also don’t make any more blog commitments. I think by now we’ve realised this ain’t your thing. You always write for a bit then disappear. Who knows when we might see you next?
Alvida














