[jaezal]

Feb 4/17

tonight I cry a quiet symphony.

[jaezal]

Jan 1/17

I was young I was thin and I loved you.

[jaezal]

December 28

I just want a real group of friends. I don’t understand my feeling but I feel alone and I just want someone to hug me and I want to cry all the time.

Those kids aren't actually my friends they're just people I know. And I don't ever want to be their friend, they're their own group and I'm just a straggler.

[jaezal]

Snuck some photos of my new friends today. Maybe it’s weird but idk I like taking pictures of friends.

[jaezal]

Nov 8/16

Welcome to the American shit show. Trump is president I am disgusted and fuck we let Bernie go!!! This is the last good day of my life. :,-)

[jaezal]

Oct 29/16

I’m a failure. I can’t turn in work and I can’t do anything right, all I do is waste time and fuck around.

[jaezal]

Oct 20/16

I hate that I tell myself I befriend people because they look alone and I don’t want them to be alone. Truthfully I befriend people because I’m alone and i think new people and more friends will make me feel better but in reality it isn’t working like that. I still feel bad.

[fruitsaladchewits-deactivated20]

The Pleasure Of

[jaezal]

Why are ads being advertised on my page?

This is sick. It's so ugly I'm fucking livid.

[jaezal]

Oct 19/16

Tomorrow’s my birthday and I’m not happy or excited- or really anything I just feel like I exist.

[slavery]

No lie I hate my fucking friends from school

[jaezal]

Oct 6/16

I don’t wanna be someone who values friendship over everything but as it turns out I am and it’s so disappointing I swear.

[jaezal]

Oct 4/16

Another night of listening to shitty music and crying in bed as airplanes fly overhead.

[jaezal]

Sep 24/16

I want some new friends. Some that get me and want to be with me not some who are with me because I’m funny or just because they’ve known me. I don’t know, it’s just besides Ivan I don’t think anyone really understands how I feel or even have anything in common with me. At least with Ivan we have a lot of common interest like music and style and skateboarding and boys… I don’t know things make sense with her.

[jaezal]

http://kaibravewood.bandcamp.com/album/spring-sounds

[jaezal]

Sep 18/16

Here’s to all the text messages I said never mind to sending…

“I’ve lost my will to live.” “Why is it so hard for people to stay consistent?” “Why can’t I stay happy.” “I think it’s better if we’re not friends anymore, I just don’t feel the same about you.” “I hate you.” “Why can’t I be happy and stay happy?”

[jaezal]

Sep 9/16

Marks not the one. There’s nothing more to him than drugs alcohol and partying. Wyatt asked me to come see him at his other job… What does this mean? Am I looking to into this..? …I am I dunno I need to chill. Alright but yeah I don't think things with him are gonna work out, there's honestly no personality to him.