He missed the sea. Of course, Washington wasn't far from an ocean, but Javier had little interest in the cold rocky bluffs around Bindlebrim, but he'd thought he might. but Standing in the midst of Deception Pass had not brought about a feeling of belonging and the roaring waves only echoed the hungry calls in his brain that demanded he return home. He took a drag of his fourth cigarette of the day, which was far more than the usual one or two. He didn't particularly enjoy smoking, but it had its uses. Â Javier was restless for home and Bindlebrim was just an eerie, unfulfilling, and horrible awry version of what he wanted. Javier lived for warm, dry, salty air with the sun beating his skin darker with every passing hour. He was used to wearing a shirt on his head to keep the sun from scalding his face when the open air grew to be too much. Here, there was a tree every other step to take shade under and the air was always dank and cold.Â
The smoke burned his throat as he exhaled, the light grey mixing into the dull horizon before he could even watch it go. Smoke should never be the same color of the sky. With a curse, Javier stomped the remainder of his cigarette into the wet sand, hardly caring if it counted as littler. Arrest him then. Deport him. Maybe then his father would send him to a decent country. Surely America wasn't the most exciting one out there and he doubted that it was easier to get into America than it was another place. America was just the only place his father wouldn't seem suspicious sending him off to. Sometimes he wondered how he'd even gotten away with kicking him out so quickly. Hopefully Alejandro didn't hate him. Hopefully Maria was still waiting for him to come back. Javier had really tried not to think about her, but it was hard to forget about his goddamn girlfriend every once in awhile. Or maybe she wasn't his girlfriend anymore--Francisco had always hung around her when Javier wasn't there. Maybe, though, she'd suspected something was wrong. Maybe his not saying goodbye was convincing her to do something. She had to be waiting for him to com back, right?
No, he thought. She wasn't.











