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olivia | she/her/hers | fifteen | trumpies dni

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summer hasnt even objectively started

i already yearn for colder days

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i don't CARE that in fall i'll be in high school and taking an honors class i would prefer that over everything in my room being warm to the touch

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summer hasnt even objectively started

i already yearn for colder days

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i'm genuinely about to turn the age i was lying about tomorrow

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i am officially now the age i pretended to be on roblox in 2021. wow. i wonder how 9/10 year old me would react to me now. i wonder how my old friends (who probably ACTUALLY didn't lie about their age) would think of me. i wonder how they're doing. i wonder if they have a job and their own apartment by now

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this heat is not making jack shit from a rat's ass better. summer is always just so happy to make my mental health a mess

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just deleted like. my 3rd tiktok account. why am i always on and off tiktok

guys just trust me i am NEVER going on tiktok EVER AGAIN this time. that is FINAL. i turn 15 in 2 hours and 15 will be the year where i lock in and stop being a mindless zombie

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me: i am going to kill myself

creates a spotify playlist titled Parmesan-Crusted Transmasc Bush with a Hot Honey Glaze 10 minutes later

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i'm genuinely about to turn the age i was lying about tomorrow

[silksheep]

i think about that one nin interview a lot where everyone is naked in the bed with the interviewer except trent who's laying on the side of the bed like a dog

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me when unwanted sick sexual thoughts every fucking day multiple times a day

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WAHOOOOO last day of school tomorrow!! time to do absolutely fucking nothing but hate myself for 3 months

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does anyone genuinely feel angry at themselves knowing just how long theyve been alive for like you mean to tell me that i've been sticking around for over 5000 days hurting everyone i see? fucked up. last time i checked i wasn't supposed to live for more than 2 weeks

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do you ever already like a song enough then you stumble upon some live version in 144p posted on youtube in 2008 by cocksucker2468 and it's just. the Best fuckjng thing to grace your ears

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i love when the artist changes up the lyrics to something ive never heard before its such a great way to explore the meaning of the song

"is she alright forever?"

"[in bed?] [embed?] tonight together?"

woah. hold on. wait. im all ears.

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do you ever already like a song enough then you stumble upon some live version in 144p posted on youtube in 2008 by cocksucker2468 and it's just. the Best fuckjng thing to grace your ears

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skinny tips:

is there a food or salad thats actually really good for you but you just can't bring yourself to eat it?

i have a solution!! listen to your favorite eerie music and shovel it in your mouth pretending you're a cannibal in a horror movie or something. you're welcome!

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seeing "in 0 sec." when i do things always cracks me the fuck up

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does anyone else feel guilty as fuck having money spent on them like i know i got all a's this semester but wow... i don't feel you need to do all that for ME out of all people

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all i've talked about since july i think has been sonic youth sonic youth sonic youth. i don't think im ok