[sclitvde-deactivated20241126]

While I suffer through not being able to reply to things despite having a lot of muse, I was SCHLAPPED with the craziest dm being like “dropping our threads 🙄 good bye” but then no block?!

It was an actually devastating block for me to make bc I really liked rping with this person. Muse has been, like many of you know, low. Just made me sad and like… annoyed. I try, besties. I know I’m annoying ooc and like am not active with muses a lot of you all followed for. I wish I could be entertaining all the time to everyone.

Also, if I break mutual without a block, it’s most likely a twitchy finger that’s responsible for it. Just let me know and I’ll re-follow. I try and make sure I’m following every rp acct that follows me that’s been active in the last year or so.

[theseunfinishedlives]

This is incredibly disappointing. You dropped two of our other threads without telling me when I was gone for a month. I had to go back through weeks of posts on your blog to find out because again, you did not let me know. You vague posted publicly that people should contact you if they want to keep the threads but again, I was gone when you posted that. I can't be around all the time to see every post you make right when you make it, and I for sure will not let you walk all over me like I'm the one who's in the wrong for cutting the ties you severed first. But the reason why I didn't block you is because I don't have a problem with you. I was excited to write with you! I was happy to be able to help you get a plot you asked for for your Ned character. I waited months with no issue for the replies. The issue only came up when you dropped the Kate and Ned threads without telling me directly that you dropped them. All I did was let you know directly that I was dropping the Ansgar thread, like that post you put up asked people to do; let you know if I wanted to keep or drop the threads. I communicated with you. You took the goodbye as something final, and hard blocked me without communicating, when if you actually bothered to read my pinned post, I don't require us to be mutuals to write. We don't have to be following each other at all, and I will still write with you. You could have talked to me in return. I could have told you this privately so you would know why, but since you want to hard block me and make this a public issue, here is why just as publicly.

Messages about dropping threads tend to come out of nowhere when people who respect their writing partners lose muse but don't want the people they're writing with to keep thinking the threads are going to get replied to. You couldn't even tell me you were dropping two of the three threads we had. If you were actually excited to write with me, you would have said something directly to me about starting up something else with my muse for your Kate, and Ned, and you didn't. So not only do you not have respect for someone you claim to be excited to write with to even let me know directly that the threads had been dropped (read back your own mind reader comment and think about it very carefully), you're very clearly a liar with no shame about it, too. Go ahead and keep me blocked because now I have a problem with you.

Also, here's the actual message in screencap format since you make it seem like I was rude about it.

[sclitvde-deactivated20241126]

While I suffer through not being able to reply to things despite having a lot of muse, I was SCHLAPPED with the craziest dm being like “dropping our threads 🙄 good bye” but then no block?!

It was an actually devastating block for me to make bc I really liked rping with this person. Muse has been, like many of you know, low. Just made me sad and like… annoyed. I try, besties. I know I’m annoying ooc and like am not active with muses a lot of you all followed for. I wish I could be entertaining all the time to everyone.

Also, if I break mutual without a block, it’s most likely a twitchy finger that’s responsible for it. Just let me know and I’ll re-follow. I try and make sure I’m following every rp acct that follows me that’s been active in the last year or so.

[theseunfinishedlives]

This is incredibly disappointing. You dropped two of our other threads without telling me when I was gone for a month. I had to go back through weeks of posts on your blog to find out because again, you did not let me know. You vague posted publicly that people should contact you if they want to keep the threads but again, I was gone when you posted that. I can't be around all the time to see every post you make right when you make it, and I for sure will not let you walk all over me like I'm the one who's in the wrong for cutting the ties you severed first. But the reason why I didn't block you is because I don't have a problem with you. I was excited to write with you! I was happy to be able to help you get a plot you asked for for your Ned character. I waited months with no issue for the replies. The issue only came up when you dropped the Kate and Ned threads without telling me directly that you dropped them. All I did was let you know directly that I was dropping the Ansgar thread, like that post you put up asked people to do; let you know if I wanted to keep or drop the threads. I communicated with you. You took the goodbye as something final, and hard blocked me without communicating, when if you actually bothered to read my pinned post, I don't require us to be mutuals to write. We don't have to be following each other at all, and I will still write with you. You could have talked to me in return. I could have told you this privately so you would know why, but since you want to hard block me and make this a public issue, here is why just as publicly.

Messages about dropping threads tend to come out of nowhere when people who respect their writing partners lose muse but don't want the people they're writing with to keep thinking the threads are going to get replied to. You couldn't even tell me you were dropping two of the three threads we had. If you were actually excited to write with me, you would have said something directly to me about starting up something else with my muse for your Kate, and Ned, and you didn't. So not only do you not have respect for someone you claim to be excited to write with to even let me know directly that the threads had been dropped (read back your own mind reader comment and think about it very carefully), you're very clearly a liar with no shame about it, too. Go ahead and keep me blocked because now I have a problem with you.

Also, here's the actual message in screencap format since you make it seem like I was rude about it.

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

The best friendships usually came from people that didn’t even try. Like her friendship with Fitzy had been completely unexpected but it was maybe one of the most true that she’d ever had in her life. “Well, something’s on your mind that’s distracting you. Everything alright?” Also leave it to Brigitte to be concerned for people she knew, a smile coming to her face again at his answer. “I’m afraid that I don’t believe you, book boy. Let me guess, you were properly trained in dance when you were younger. It’s a good thing that I don’t weigh that much if that’s the case, Sir. I’m not good at ballroom dancing, but if they start playing other music, I’d be quite certain that I’d dance circles around you.” There may have been just a second of a smirk on the brunette’s lips. “What is your name anyway? Or do you want me to keep calling you book boy? Or are you going to keep that a mystery?”

He wasn’t sure how to answer her question. Was everything alright? His thoughts seemed to be going all over the place, nothing sticking long enough to sort any out. Luckily, he had the chance to move on from that question when she mentioned not believing he could dance. “I could prove that I was trained really well, but I don’t want to do anything you wouldn’t be comfortable with. Otherwise, I’d go all Dancing with the Stars on you and show you what I know.” His talking game was strong, sure, but he had never actually been that confident in dancing. Stopping on the dance floor, Kendrick turned to his dance partner to answer her. “My name’s Kendrick. I think I might prefer book boy. Just a little. What about you? Can I know your name, or will I be made to create a nickname for you? You’ll have to help me, because I am literally the most non-creative person in the world.”

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

“Hang around with me long enough and I’ll teach you my ways,” she joked as her nose crinkled slightly. She did catch him staring and she blinked, poking his arm gently. “Did you just zone out on me? Oh yes, I think you should. I think he’s well on his way to becoming my second friend.” No, she couldn’t see his face but he could definitely see hers as she gave a playful smirk and looked at the dance floor. “Do you promise to not step on my feet?” 

“I’d like that,” Kendrick told her, stopping himself from finishing his sentence out loud. His time on leave was going to be up in less than a month. Leave it to him to form an unexpected friendship at such a time in his life. The idea that he’d be doing to Brigette what Crystin had done to him made him uncomfortable. Brigette deserved better than a one month friendship. It was then that he vowed he’d not let their friendship end up the way his had with Crystin. “No, I didn’t zone out,” he defended himself, quite weakly which even he was painfully aware of, causing him to laugh at himself. “As long as you promise to not step on mine,” Kendrick added with a wink. He probably shouldn’t have, but it was literally the only facial expression he could think to use that would be visible without taking his mask off. “I should warn you, I know how to dance. I know that doesn’t sound like it should be a warning, but I feel like it should be, if that even makes sense. By the end of this, you’ll probably be standing on my feet just to keep up. I won’t mind if you do.”

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

Brigitte just smiled, lifting her head a bit more. “I pay attention to details about people I meet, I can remember a certain thing about someone that I’ve met years ago and haven’t seen since, but I’d recognize them by some small minute detail. In your case? Your hair’s curly on the top but it smooths out towards the back. It was really just a guess but I’m glad I was right because that would have been very awkward.” She laughed and then hummed. “I don’t know, I guess one of the things we could talk about is the fact that it appears there’s book to be found. I was looking for a man reading a book this entire night!”

“I guess I’m just unobservant. I really will have to work on fixing that.” It didn’t take him much time at all to figure out where to start; her eyes. Kendrick remembered them looking much darker when he’d last seen her. Now they were an incredibly light brown, almost like a caramel colour. No one he knew had eyes like hers. Realising he was staring, he broke eye contact. “Ah, the book.” Making a show of patting his jacket pockets with his free hand, Kendrick shook his head after. “Nope. No book here. Should I help you find this book guy you’re looking for?” If she could see Kendrick’s face, she’d see a smirk forming with the teasing tone of his voice. All that was visible though were his own eyes, which seemed to sparkle mischievously.

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

While she hadn’t actively been seeking Kendrick out, she did keep glancing around every now and then for the male in the corner that would have a book to occupy his time. Though she hadn’t much luck finding him or Fitzy in the gathering, much to her disappointment. After apologizing profusely to the couple, she remembered what the woman said to her about picking up her dress a little bit and remembered this time to do so. Taking his hand, she gave a nod to the couple before groaning as they walked away. “Is that you book boy?” It was the nickname she had given him, since she never did actually get his name.

“How did you figure out who I was that quickly,” Kendrick questioned, sounding impressed. “I’m wearing a full face mask, I’m not carrying a book and I didn’t even say anything when I walked up just then. It took me nearly an hour to spot you and I had clues to help me.” He didn’t just sound impressed, he was impressed. She’d pretty much already proven the theory they’d read about correct, except in reverse. She figured out it was him with no obvious way of recognising him. “I was going to start off a conversation with that theory we talked about yesterday, but I don’t think we have to now since you’ve already proved it right. I think that only leaves dancing in silence as an option, unless you have something else on your mind you want to talk about?”

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

This was the third time that Brigitte had nearly tripped on the dress that got caught under the heel and she was done. She wanted to find somewhere to sit, somewhere to watch her brother be the social butterfly he was and enjoy the dresses and suits of everyone around her. That’s who she was, the wallflower. Making her way to the edge of the room, she tripped again and fell into someone with a wince. “Oh my God, I’m so sorry, I just - these heels and I’m -” Stopping, she smiled a bit. “I’m really sorry.”

Despite considering actually bringing a book to the event, after a couple of hours of back and forth between whether he should or not, Kendrick decided not to. It wasn’t until he saw the purple dress out of the corner of his eye that he knew why he hadn’t. Kendrick had been hoping to see her. Why, he wasn’t all that sure. He’d never found a good time to go and talk to her, so most of the night he’d been wandering around, lost in thought. He was quickly jarred out of his thoughts when the girl in the purple dress tripped into view, bumping into another person and Kendrick made a split second decision. Walking up to them, Kendrick nodded in greeting to the pair before holding his hand out to Brigette as a way of asking her if she’d like to dance with him. He silently hoped she would realise that he had witnessed the incident and that it didn’t deter him one bit.

[kendrickhowell]

olliexmorgan:

“Hmm, what do I get for keeping quiet?” Her brow perked at him before she saw him starting to stand, her hand going to his back to offer some type of support though she can’t really offer too much, she was a twig so to speak. “Think I better walk with you a little bit before I head off, don’t need it on my conscience if you pass out in the middle of traffic. And yeah, there’s a lot of stairs but look, you’re already halfway down. I won’t let you fall, or well, I should say I’ll try my best.”

“My eternal gratitude,” Kendrick asked, his eyes going wide when he spoke, clearly conveying that he didn’t think he should have to owe anything besides that to someone he’d only just met. At her offer, Kendrick tried to decline, feeling that the worst of it had gone. However he soon thought differently when he was told he’d already made it halfway down the steps. “I moved?” Forcing his focus solely on the steps, he saw that he had in fact neared the pavement. Muttering to himself, he wondered, “when did that happen? Um, if you wouldn’t mind sticking around, I think that’d be a good idea after all... Thank you.”

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

“I always figured if you really know a person, mask or not, you’d be able to figure who it is. There’s always something specific about a person, then again that could be a load of crap, I just read it in a book somewhere” Brigitte laughed, nodding her head. “Yeah, look for the girl in the purple dress with that angry, pained expression of wanting nothing more than to get out of her shoes.”

“Oh, I think I have that book. Never actually tested out that theory before. It might be a good idea at some point. Who knows, maybe you’ll be the one that helps me test it. I’ll be sure to keep a look out between chapters for an angry, pained woman in a not long purple dress and high heels.”

[kendrickhowell]

[kendrickhowell]

olliexmorgan:

“Well, I could have lied and said you didn’t but I prefer to be honest and upfront,” Ollie gave a shrug. “Ah, alright, so you’re Casper the Friendly Ghost day in and day out. Good to know. Oh but just imagine the stories I’ll get to tell my friends about the Welsh boy that nearly passed out in front of me, I can lie and say that you were so awestruck by my beauty that I made you weak.” Nice to meet you Kendrick.”

Groaning in embarrassment, Kendrick asked, “Please don’t let this get back to my unit. I’ll never live this down if they find out.” Knowing he couldn’t stay on the library steps all day, Kendrick grabbed the railing and slowly pulled himself into a standing position. “Okay, no blacking out this time. That’s a start. I just need to get down the stairs now.” His hand never left the rail. In fact his hand gripped the rail tighter until his knuckles went whiter than they already were. “God, I didn’t realise there were so many stairs.”

[kendrickhowell]

olliexmorgan:

Ollie waited, keeping an eye on him as she adusted her bag on her shoulder. “Yeah, well, no offense? But you look like you’ve seen a ghost. You have that whole pasty look going on.” She grinned down at him before moving to sit next to him. It was hard to tell if she was joking or not about the ghost comment. Extending her hand, Ollie gave a little half smirk. “I’m Ollie.”

“Thanks. Love hearing that when I feel like shit. It makes everything better,” he replied sarcastically. Except he was smiling as he said it, so it wasn’t completely sarcastic. “I wish I could say the pasty look was temporary, but I can’t. I’m Welsh.” It took a couple of seconds for Kendrick to catch on to why Ollie was holding her hand out at him, but he quickly recovered and shook her hand. “Sorry. I’m Kendrick. It’s nice to meet ya. Wish it had been under less embarrassing circumstances though.”

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

“Guess you caught me on a good day!” She joked before tilting her head at him. “Or you’ll wind up spotting someone and wanting to dance at least once with them and then hiding out and reading. Guess if I see someone doing that I’ll know it’s you now. Maybe I’ll even join you over in the corner, who knows. I don’t think my friend is going, he hasn’t mentioned it at least and being around people in mask isn’t exactly comforting.”

“How will I spot anyone I know if every one is wearing a mask?” Basically, he wouldn’t be able to. Maybe he should take a page from her friend’s book and not go either, he mused to himself as he spoke again. “Well, at least I’ll know who one person is, when I’m joined by a wobbly woman who looks like she wants to burn her shoes at the next possible moment.”

[kendrickhowell]

olliexmorgan:

“Whoa there tiger,” Ollie laughed and leaned against the railing of the stairs as she looked him over. She’d been coming out herself after a grueling study session for her design class when she saw him wobble just a little bit. “You need some help?  I can call someone for you if you want, or maybe a drink of water?”

Letting out a short laugh himself that brought on a wave of queasiness which made him close his eyes in the hopes that doing so would make the feeling go away, Kendrick didn’t risk shaking his head in response. When he was sure he could speak without possibly getting sick, he finally looked up at her and said, “I’m not sure if I can keep anything down. I think I just need a minute though. I was only a little dizzy.”

[kendrickhowell]

brigittexainsworth:

“I don’t mind, honestly, he’s the more social between the two of us, always has been.” Brigitte just accepted the fact she was the awkward turtle that no matter what, couldn’t be a social butterfly. She was oddly okay with that. “Plus, I don’t think I could do that, I don’t even hurt a spider if I see one. I’m the girl you’ll see scooping it up into a cup and putting it back outside.” The brunette smiled.”Why are you going alone though? You don’t have a partner to take? Or a friend to go with? I know a few people that are just going with friends - I’m sure you’ll fair quite alright on your own, Sir. Handsome man in a mask at a ball alone? The single people will probably flock to you.”

“If there was any truth to that, I’d be talking to him now, not you,” Kendrick stated, adding with a smile of his own, “I’m sure the spiders you’ve saved are very grateful.” Shrugging at her question, he wasn’t sure how to answer her. “I guess I just don’t have anyone I want to ask that I know would say yes. I mean, it’s a masked ball. Military and romance don’t really mix all too well. Knowing me, I’ll end up bringing a book along, get bored thirty minutes in and start reading in some corner of the room.”

[kendrickhowell]

[kendrickhowell]

Leave it to Kendrick to catch a bug when he was on leave. He’d gotten up before sunrise feeling fine, went through his usual morning routine just fine, but by the time he had wrapped up his work at the library around noon, he could barely keep his eyes open. He’d managed to put his work back in his messenger bag and make his way outside. The stairs proved trickier for him, however. One step down threw off his equilibrium completely and he nearly blacked out. “Oh, shit,” he muttered, dropping his bag as he forced himself to sit so he wouldn’t fall.