Some random thoughts...
I've finally accepted that I have a phone adiction. And it's not ok. It stops me from living. From spending quality time with my friends. Family. Even my boyfriend, whose company I enjoy so much. I miss the chance of learning a new language and reading a new book and sticking to a new series. Yes I do all of those things. But not always. Not as much as I want. Why? Because of the phone. Because I'd rather have instant dopamine than do things that will give me happiness long term. I feel like I'm not living my life. I watch people live and dream to be like them. But I'm not because I'd rather watch them than do anything else. And that's so wrong and messed up, yet I feel unable to stop.
So this is to the new me. To a new version of myself who will learn to turn off the phone when needed. To live life and enjoy it instead of living through a phone. I want to make the most of my days with my boyfriend and my friends and my family and pets. I want to remember them. I want to use my days as much as I can. Today. I'm choosing to change.









