Kiarastudies

Law student (10th semester) Polyglot in the making 🇪🇸🇷🇺🇺🇸🇨🇵 Bookworm | 22 | Lima, Peru I've got 3 dogs and 1 rabbit 🐶🐰

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Some random thoughts...

I've finally accepted that I have a phone adiction. And it's not ok. It stops me from living. From spending quality time with my friends. Family. Even my boyfriend, whose company I enjoy so much. I miss the chance of learning a new language and reading a new book and sticking to a new series. Yes I do all of those things. But not always. Not as much as I want. Why? Because of the phone. Because I'd rather have instant dopamine than do things that will give me happiness long term. I feel like I'm not living my life. I watch people live and dream to be like them. But I'm not because I'd rather watch them than do anything else. And that's so wrong and messed up, yet I feel unable to stop.

So this is to the new me. To a new version of myself who will learn to turn off the phone when needed. To live life and enjoy it instead of living through a phone. I want to make the most of my days with my boyfriend and my friends and my family and pets. I want to remember them. I want to use my days as much as I can. Today. I'm choosing to change.

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Long time no see again! I missed writing down my projects and my academic growth. So let's make an update (again).

1. I didn't finish reading Bed Bug yet, but I will and I actually have set as my goal to finish it before January ends. So yeah, I'll pretty much be running with this book, I still have 200 pages to go.

2. I'm more focused than ever on my languages. I practice pretty much every day (more imput than out tho). I got a Russian book as a gift for my birthday and it is amazing. Besides, I watch more videos in French and Russian than I did before. Today I'll study for at least 90 minutes. Also I've started dabbling burmese hehe.

3. I've trained three delegates to go to Panama to compete in HNMUNLA and now I'm training four days a week to participate in WorldMUN! I'm so excited! I'm behind my studies tho, I should be reading my Study Guide much more, yet I'm stuck in page 2 lol. I have to keep reading, prcticing and meeting with my partner.

4. I'm taking two classes at uni. Even though it is summer (and the heat is awful) I wanted to advance with some classes to take less classes during winter and spring semesters. This is because I have to look for interships. I actually applied to five or six a week ago and I'll apply for more today.

So this is how my life is going recently. I'll post more about my goals achieved and things like that on the next days. Now, some pictures from my finals week :)

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Hello everyone, comment-vas tu?

Quick update about myself. I've been lacking motivation to study anything. I had a rough week last week because one of my family members passed away. We were not too close, but I felt quite sad.

However I've been struggling with motivation even before that. In consequence I have not followed most of my habits and I've neglected my language learning and my reading habits.

So, this is what's going to happen: I am aiming for a new challenge: every day I will aim to study 5 minutes more than the day before. I begun with 30 minutes, but I exceeded it for almost 3 hours (because tomorrow I have an exam). Consequently, I will aim to study more than 35 minutes today (already exceeded that too lol). And I'll keep that rythm until I belive it's time to take a long break.

With that said, some random updates:

1. I've started my physical therapy again so I'm hoping this helps me get back on track with my excercise 🦶

2. This weekend I'll participate in USILMUN with my boyfriend (his first time competing) I'm so nervous! 🩷

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I've had a pretty lazy week because I only had one exam which was cancelled due to the riots. As a fact, we've had a lot of classes cancelled due to the constant protests. If you're wondering, I support those riots because the situation is awful, hundreds of people are been extortioned, specially bus drivers, and when they don't comply, they're killed. So far we've had more than 60 bus drivers killed only this year. So yeah, I find it pretty fair that people want to protest.

On Wednesday we didn't have classes because it was a holiday (Angamos battle day). And both Friday and Saturday I was working as a Faculty Advisor in UPNMUN.

Consequently...I didn't do much about uni this week and now I'm sooo unmotivated...so this is me trying to at least finish studying for tomorrow's exam even though my motivation is at its lowest.

Oh btw, I have virtual classes on Wednesday again due to the protests, and my exams for that day have been cancelled.

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New month new goals right? This new month looks promising! There are so many things I want to start improving and, at the same time, I'm having some big changes in my life, though I won't talk about them for now. Anyways, let's jump right into my October goals:

Language related goals:

FRE 🇫🇷: I didn't start practicing with my B2 book yet, so that's my main goal for now. Also, I want to start journaling and posting at least one post here in French every week + I want to keep listening to podcasts, watching movies and reading my fiches brevetes notebook.

RUS 🇷🇺: Same goals from last month: finish Units 4 and 5 + advance at least 2 more new grammar concepts. Also, I want to watch Masha and the Bear more often and have a little bit of Russian content every single day. Oh, and I want to keep practicing with Duolingo hehe.

Other goals:

1. Read or study in my university stuff for at least three hours every day, 4 times a week. Last month I struggled with finishing everything I had been asigned because I procrastinated, so, to avoid that, I want to be much more consistent with my studies. Also, I aim to pass all my exams!

2. Bookish goals - keep reading Cuentos de Amor, locura y muerte by Horacio Qquiroga (read in SPA 🇵🇪) which is a book I'm reading with my boyfriend and only when we're together. Additionnally, I want to keep reading Harry Potter and Prisioner of Azkaban by J.K Rowling (🇺🇸), Bed bug by Katherine Pancol (🇫🇷) and Kamil and Vincent (🇷🇺). I don't plan on finishing them soon, but I want to be more consistent with my reading habits.

3. I want to finish Stranger Things season 4 this week and watch at least 4 new movies, one of them in 🇫🇷. Besides, I want to watch some more chapters of Pretty Little Liars.

4. I want to walk more than 10 000 steps at least 15 days of the month. I will be going to my physical therapy every other day (Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays) so this should be the last month I only aim for walking as my monthly exercise. Next month I'll update my subscription to the gym!

5. I want to sleep before 11 every week day!

Let's hope I succeed with these goals, I'll keep you updated :)

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A small reflection on this month. Wow. So many things have happened lately that I still can't process it completely.

First I'm investing a lot of time on my MUN related proyects. I mean, I work almost 30 minutes everyday from Monday to Wednesday; then I have meetings all Friday and Saturday. This has forced me to neglect my other studies which resulted in some bad results. So yeah, now I'm all in trying to improve my grades.

On the other hand, I've struggled with my personal relationships. I've mentioned before that I won't use this acocunt for my feelings and stuff because I want it to be more focused on my academics and personal growth, but I'll still mention some of my stuggles. First, I barely hang out with my friends anymore. We all have our lives now and even though I understand that, it's still painful to think about all the time I used to spend with them. They were my family once I came to this city on my own.

But I've been busy too. I now spend most of my time with my boyfriend who is the most amazing man I've ever met and he's my biggest supporter and my favorite company. Besides, I'm working hard with my MUN delegation and soon I have to start looking for an internship as well...

Anyways, changing the subject, I still have to plan my goals for this month and maybe I'll post some things in French too.

Oh, and a few days ago it was my oldest dog's birthday. Her name is Raisa and as for today she's 15 years old!

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How this week has been going: so I've been lazy (I'm sorryyyyy), but I just can't seem to focus. Right now I'm so tired and I really want to wind down, but I have three more tasks to do: finish a reading (only 2 pages left), help my bf's sister with her English homework and study a little bit of Russian.

Anyways, please enjoy some pictures of how my week has been going lol (and yes I wanted to show off my painted nails lol):

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So, this tumblr has become sort of a diary for me. I may not talk too much about my feelings but there are many things I could say about them. Yet, I'd rather keep this academic and more about personal growth and goals rather than talking about my feelings.

To begin with, I've been accepted as a new organizer of one of the most important MUNs in my country. I'm so full of work, yet I'm soooo excited. Also, I'm doing a lot of paperwork for my delegation.

However, I'm nervous about working: my career requires me to work for at least one year in order to graduate. And, what scares me the most is that in the best case scenario, I'm one year and a half away from graduating. Yes, I could do one additional semester if I take part in an exchange trip, however I would not be able to work in that trip...

Also, I have not been feeling the will of studying as much. I may activate my studygram account again in order to keep myself accountable since I'm trapped in a never ending vicious circle of laziness and procrastination.

This week I have no exams and no homework so hopefully I catch up with all my pendant work. For me, these are my Hunger Games, let the games begin...

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I finished reading Brothers Karamazov! OMG, it took me almost 7 months to finish this masterpiece and I am so happy I read it this year. It was such an amazing book that led me to reflect about my own thoughts and my beliefs. My bf is going through a harder time tho, he's very Catholic and Ivan's Fiodorovich poetry had him cuestioning things for a few days. Same with me, but my faith in God is still strong. I learned so much and enjoyed it as much. I already bought another book from Dostoyevski, but I may read it next year :)

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Time to present my thesis subject to my professor for the first time, I'm literally shivering and I feel as if I'm running out of air. I don't want to present anything, omg, help!

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I have to start thinking of a thesis subject for my undergrad, help! I have no idea what I'll do, tbh I was hoping to have more time, but my teachers are already asking for my progress.

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I finally decided what I want my thesis to be about! OMG! I'm so excited yet so nervous. Where should I start? What if it doesn't work out?

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Omg I was chosen as Sub-Head delegate of my MUN delegation! It's such an honor!

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Hi! So I'm not used to posting this kind of content anymore but I'm trying to reach my best version and I believe that setting monthy goals is the best way to begin this journey.

Language related goals:

ENG 🇬🇧🇺🇸 - nothing! I enrolled in a class about Equality Law which is completely in English so that's my weekly dose of it.

FRE 🇫🇷 - I want to start again the Ego book for B2. Also I want to practice with movies and podcasts at least twice a week. For writing, I want to journal every other day and I want to read my fiches brevetes notebook.

RUS 🇷🇺 - I want to finish Units 4 and 5 and advance at least 3 more grammar concepts. Also I want watch more of Masha and the Bear and try to speak more often with the help of IA lol. I want to have at least every day a little bit of Russian imput. Oh and I want to get back to Duolingo.

Other goals:

1. First, pass all my exams and avoid procrastination! Now that I've started classes I have to read a certain amount of pages every single day to prevent falling behind + I have to attend all of my classes.

2. Bookish goals - I want to finish Brothers Karamazov by Fiódor Dostoyevski (read in SPA 🇵🇪) today or tomorrow at the latest. Then I want to read Harry Potter and the Prisioner of Azkaban by J.K. Rowling (🇬🇧), Bed Bug by Ketherine Pancol (🇫🇷) and Kamil and Vincent (🇷🇺).

3. I want to finish watching Stranger Things season 3 (we're re watching it with my bf lol) and watch some chapters of Pretty Little Liars. Also watch at least 3 more movies.

4. I want to walk more than 10 000 steps at least 20 days of the month. Even though I can't do much excercise due to my sprained ankle, walking is a great way of keeping me moving and not damaging my anke anymore.

5. Try to sleep before 11 pm EVERY SINGLE DAY, or at least most days.

With that said, let's hope I succeed! Pleas leave your own goals in the comments or if you have any advice regarding any of this matters, please feel free to write it down as well!

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I have to start thinking of a thesis subject for my undergrad, help! I have no idea what I'll do, tbh I was hoping to have more time, but my teachers are already asking for my progress.

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Right now I'm in my Labour Law class and I feel so lost. Not in what is going on in class, but more in what I want to do for my life. I always have a plan B and it was not until yesterday that I realized that my plan B about my career is because I'm not convinced I want to achieve my plan A...but I don't want to achieve plan B either...I'm not entirely sure what I want to do after I finish studying. I don't want a 9 to 5 job, I don't want to become a lawyer in the stereotypical sense...somehow I just want to keep learning, and I'm scared of change. Sometimes I even wish I died right after I graduate my MBA because ngl that's my only goal in life. I do not know where am I going and though it should be exciting, I find it frustrating and demotivating. So, what will I do? I guess I'll have to learn to balance and accept that I alredy chose this path...I have to keep on going...

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Finished reading "As long as the lemon trees grow" by Zoulfa Katour and OMG I LOVED IT. I was so tempted to cry lots of times and had to pause my reading because the scenes were so painful. It really broke my heart to know ppl are going through such awful experiences...But it did help me to value more life and everyday happiness. I feel I not only saw Salama grow, but I grew up with her... <3

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I'm so motivated to study languages again! I'm spending most of my free time listening to podcasts, watching videos in English and French and reading articles. However, time's not on my side! I can barely study Quechua and Russian, most of the time I'm too tired or busy 😔 balancing all my studies is so hard. Any advice?