Was it like this for her mother? How she even came to be? When the one her mother chose as her mate joined her, to create Deeper, was it just like this? Was there love? Did her mother, cruel thing that she was, love another? Was she satisfied? Did it feel good?
Or was it like Deeper's experience? Was it supposed to feel empty? Unfulfilling? Like it isn't even what she wanted, despite being the one to capture Flavia. Like she was chasing some delusional fantasy that maybe, just maybe, she could force someone to love her and give her the love she wanted so badly. That maybe she wasn't cursed to suffer in isolation. She grips her victim's arms tighter- she knew her strength, but Flavia was a tough girl, she would be fine. It was fine.
All Flavia would see of the Siren's face were those eyes. The eyes of a creature that couldn't hope to fathom the right way. Emotions were chemicals she could manipulate, just like the photons surrounding her in the atmosphere, or the muscles in both their bodies, forced to move in heartless motion. She studied this, she knew the process, it was supposed to go just like this. They should've achieved a perfect climax of their emotions and efforts. Her hips keep moving, Flavia clawing against her skin spurring her on. But it wasn't enough.
Instead, she hears Flavia's distorted cries, no motivation from the girl once so ever. Everything that's happening at this point is entirely because Deeper is forcing it to. This wasn't right. It wasn't supposed to be like this. She keeps moving her body, but it didn't matter to her whether or not her partner was enjoying it.
It wasn't working. It wasn't right. It was broken. Something was broken. Something is wrong. It couldn't be Flavia. She could only blame the girl beneath her, but she knew the answer already. Her mother had always been right about her, and despite her selfish, desperate attempts over and over to change her fate and the way the world looked at her, the truth remained.
Deeper was broken. A predator that couldn't kill. A daughter that couldn't be loved. A sister that was never there. She could disappear and nothing would be lost. Her concentration ebbs, darkness fading to natural light as it goes. She was, in a horrible way, worse than her mother, incapable of understanding what she was doing wrong. A well and true monst-
"D... Dee...? Deeper... what... are you doing?"
A voice calls out from the water, and it was like all the pressure in a bubble was released at once. The weight shifted, the movement stopped, excluding Deeper turning her head back-
-and seeing her dearly beloved friend, Suina, at the worst time possible.
Everything inside of her turned to ice, the most visceral sensation of horror she'd ever experienced- she didn't bother with a response. There were no words to convey. She had exactly one option.
Darkness shrouds Deeper once again, enveloping the immediate area as she hastily dismounts Flavia- the harm was done, there wasn't much more she could've done to the girl to make it worse beyond killing her. She could only make her frantic escape by obscuring herself and the underwater world, well aware that there was no coming back from this. This was far past the line of reason. Suina wouldn't be able to forgive her.
And poor Suina wouldn't understand anything in the slightest. All she recognized was the tell-tale signs of her friend, and how odd it was to see them so far away from home. Let alone the immediate worry and panic she felt seeing some poor girl left brutalized and abandoned in the sand and growing tide.
Compared to what just happened, this was incredibly gentle and soothing; the Siren's song lulled and called on the sea, saltwater rising around Flavia to move her body lightly along the sand and away from the tide. She coaxed it on, and the water obeyed, both sea monster and sea trying their best to ease the girl's misery.
"Oh goddess, you poor thing- j-just, hang in there- can you speak...? Hey, it's gonna be okay... augh, I... I just don't know any healing at all... please, if you can, is there anyone I can take you to? Someone that can aid you..."
She holds the girl's hands in her own, Suina's stress and worries reflected in her voice and expression. It didn't matter what she looked like, why Deeper was here, what was happening- all she knew was that this poor girl needed help.