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declan lynch, jeremy knox & dr. santos PR mgr gansey, mel king & shane hollander kinnie (minors dni pls!)

[mediocrgatsby]

about me

em, they/them, mid20s, audhd, bi/arospec

things I post about

heated rivalry, the raven cycle, the pitt, all for the game, six of crows, the x-files, yellowjackets, IWTV, arcane, star wars, severance, succession...

…and whatever else strikes me as interesting in the moment!

*items in blue are current obsessions I post most about (always subject to change)

sampler platters

all for the game | the raven cycle | six of crows | crossovers

links

ao3: mediocrgatsby

spotify: emnation

apple music: emnation

side blog: @vyvanse-lover

gifs by @ilyasmole

[cheaphalloweencostume]

not to be insensitive but some of the salem witch trials were so funny bitches like “i saw her at the devils sacrament!!!” girl... what were YOU doing at the devils sacrament 👀

[assiraphales]

I wanna take this electric blue shot so fucking bad I just know it’s space blue raspberry

[f180n]

freaks

[notkatniss]

taylor swift would release a 30th special edition of the tortured poets department to block the vampire lestats spot on the billboard chart and within 24 hrs travis kelce would go missing

[lieselsart]

Happy pride🎊❤️🏳️‍🌈

[aenigmatica]

luca haas probably fantasizes about getting taken home by shane and ilya the same way girls in the 2000s did about being sold to one direction

[gurlsrool]

I don't have a lot of hopes for Unrivaled, but I do hope that Shane is so fucking angry...and not just at Montreal.

I hope he struggles to look Hayden in the eyes sometimes because he can't stop thinking about that fucking video. He doesn't want to, that's his best friend and it was an honest mistake, but God, would it have killed him to watch it back? He was so close to getting to come out on his own terms. So fucking close.

I hope he's bitter about how nice the Centaurs are because how is that fair? Why didn't he get to have that in Montreal? Why was it so impossible for them to give him this? Why do the guys in Ottawa make it seem so fucking easy? Even Troy Fucking Barrett's nice here?! What the hell's in the water?

I hope he looks up at the rafters when they play Montreal and all he sees is where his jersey should have been retired and he just wants to scream. I hope when fans burn their Hollander jerseys, he's not able to laugh it off as absurd extremist homophobia. He's fucking livid.

He looks at his body, at his legs that will be shot before 50 and every bone he's broken and every injury he's played through, all to be tossed aside because, what? Because he fell in love? Because he tripped, which players do all the fucking time?

I hope he's angry and then angry at himself because this is supposed to be his happily ever after. He's supposed to be happy. Why can't he just be fucking happy? Why can't he just hold Ilya's hand and kiss him in public? Why does that still feel like a death sentence? Why can't he get his brain to understand that he's free now?

And I hope we see Ilya loving him at his most bitter self, whispering reminders that he doesn't have to move on just yet. That he's spent a decade carefully controlling every single emotion and he's allowed to feel them now, even if they're not pretty.

Though of course, to Ilya, there's nothing more beautiful than a Shane Hollander who knows he's Shane Fucking Hollander and is livid at the world for forgetting that.

[raincitygirl76]

I want to see Shane fucking Hollander reminding everybody that just because he’s polite and media trained doesn’t mean he’s a pushover. He is arguably the best hockey player of his generation, and his team of eleven years and three cups turned on him in an instant. Fans who’d cheered him for a decade burned his jersey and sent death threats. His own best friend outed him out of pure carelessness. He became a scapegoat, and that trip will be the most important footnote in his entire career after he retires.

Shane always just wanted to play hockey. He didn’t want to talk about the racial barriers he was breaking, he didn’t want to talk about the homophobic barriers he was breaking. He just wanted to be known for his hockey. And now he’ll always be known as the gay Asian hockey player who married his rival and just possibly might have thrown a game for said rival. Mud sticks.

I want him to be angry. He has every right to be. And I desperately want Ilya to support him. Yeah, the Centaurs gave him a soft landing, but it still isn’t fair that he needed one. That his team, management, and fans of a decade turned on him the very first time he did something that didn’t fit the sexless hockey robot image they’d built in their heads.

That they got outed and couldn’t control the narrative because Hayden couldn’t take two minutes to play back that stupid birthday video before sending it to fucking Brad. Brad, who posted it to fucking Twitter like Shane kissing his fiancé was the next Watergate.

Get angry, Shane. You have every right to be.

[ny-ji]

[cokezerovape]

[drmelking]

The Pitt is a comedy

[farminglesbian]

every lesbian at this hospital must have such a debilitating crush on her

[illusive-delusions]

love that they all look like they’re heading to separate functions. like. singles night on a caribbean cruise, ex’s funeral, dive bar with a mechanical bull, english department end-of-year reception, & the bus stop, respectively.

[0nlybitt3r4may]

the look of a girl who's currently trying to blow up her possible competitor/enemy with her mind mid-patient crisis (ogilvie)

[boitterfly]

i'd like for you and i to go romancing

heated rivalry x good old fashioned lover boy by queen

[becauseimamastermind]

[grabmybush]

thinking about shane hollander who never got to come out on his own terms. who was caught with ilya at the cottage by his dad. who told his team he was gay and didn’t even tell them the rest but they reacted as badly as he could’ve hoped. who was caught on camera with ilya by the whole world. shane hollander who sees scott coming out to the world in the biggest moment of his life and doesn’t even entertain the idea that that could be him. shane hollander who sees troy come out and celebrate pride night and can’t find a place for all of his anger at the world. thinking about shane hollander