In a fantasy of the night.

I am what i am.

[nightwisdom]

I alowed myself to hope and dream, and yet i find myself in the abyss yet again..

[nightwisdom]

Even after all this time, you make me feel...

[nightwisdom]

Can’t stop thinking of you, and it hurts so much.

[nightwisdom]

Oh darkness my old friend...

[nightwisdom]

You became my hopes and dreams, and then there was nothing.

[nightwisdom]

I tried to be everything you asked, yet you pushed me away

[nightwisdom]

I hear that familiar sound that i heard a million time, for a split second hope rises, but soon disappers, because it wont be you,

[nightwisdom]

It hurts, but i can’t let go. That’s how much a promise means to me.

[nightwisdom]

I go to sleep, hoping i won’t wake up

[nightwisdom]

Why have you condemed me to a life of pain?

[nightwisdom]

I’m always ready to die, but you’re killing me...

[nightwisdom]

And it hurts endlessly

[nightwisdom]

I looked at you, and with you i saw all the things i thought i would never have or be. To have a home To be a husband to be a father

[nightwisdom]

Will i ever find a home again?

[nightwisdom]

You are so beautiful it hurts I’d give my everything... To stroke that cheek to look directly into those eyes to hear your breath to kiss those lips...

[nightwisdom]

I wake up feeling anything is possible, soon i realize i am all alone, and when i go to bed, i feel empty.

[nightwisdom]

I want you in my life, yet i want life to end....