freak shit

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the sea keeps doing what it does

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i never change

different place same shit

noticing isnt enough

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ive already seen how this plays out

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always just missing the point

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THERES NO POINT IN TYPING WORDS ANYMORE IF YOU CANT SPEAK HOW CAN YOU TYPE WHEN THE DUST POURS OVER YOUR CITY BE SILENT IN A ROOM FULL OFMOUTHS WHO CAN YOU TALK TO?

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all my friends see stars

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lights are gone i cant see stars anymore

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its dumb.. and i dont want to learn anything from this..

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what would they have said? would they have done it like this?

they stop in their tracks as you gain distance. further and further. until their figure is a hazy mirage, way out there on the horizon

who is that?

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sitting on the curb outside a corner store, neither of you are talking but you both understand

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im jolted back to reality and have to quickly understand what situation im in

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obsessively drinking milk because my bones feel like styrofoam

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£8 phone

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not a metaphor

earlier this year i tried to kill myself, i bought hemlock and went to the beach (its very important the last thing i see is the sea) i was drinking myself to death and was planning on eating the hemlock before i jumped off the cliff. the same angel that told me to die sat next to me but this time she had the voice of my nana and she told me that i didnt actually know anything. ive been interpreting what im given wrong. i need to grow. but just sit stupid

i know she wasnt my nana but i wanted to hear more of her voice. i didnt want drunken babbling to deter her. she sat with me for a while without saying anything then she left. i think i know what i need to do

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fucking cold innit

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that guy dropped dead a while ago but he seemed cooler than before so we kept him around