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if you have a sister and she dies, do you stop saying you have one? or are you always a sister. even when the other half of the equation is gone? petunia evans 23

[petuniaevns]

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sirius had heard the conversation from across the three broomsticks. it was a popular draw, the only place to eat in town that didn’t look particularly shady. but until the woman had turned to leave, sirius hadn’t gotten a look at her face when she walked in. it played in a corner of his mind. a movie? a poster? …a picture. at school? in town? …at the potter house. it clicked all at once. “ey! evans!! fuck, what’s your… some fucking… daisy?? petunia!! evans!!!” he fiddled with the lock on the bar’s door, taking a few seconds to step into the main area and start walking toward her. “you’ve got my kid.”

   Petunia heard her last name but it wasn’t from a familiar voice. She turned her attention directly at who was speaking to her. She stared at the male, confused as to how he even knew her name. Petunia had never met any of Lily’s friends except for Severus. She tilted her head at the statement, “Are you talking about Harry?” She questioned him. “I wasn’t sure that Potter had family.” She was too tired to insult, she didn’t have the energy to fight right now. 

[petuniaevns]

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lily was confused by what her sister said to her, what did she mean by it? “yes, i mean, i’ve never died… or even been close to death or anything.” she said. “are you okay tuney? i thought you hated me or didn’t care for me.” not that she exactly blamed her, the two were super close and lily left petunia to go off to hogwarts.

    There were so many emotions. Anger. Regret. Resentment. All of these played through Petunia’s mind of what she should tell her. She hadn’t had time to grieve. Not her nor their parents before Harry was at her doorstep and now she wasn’t sure what to say. “No. I want to go home. I don’t belong here.” She wasn’t sure if she should tell her the truth but maybe that was too much for anyone to process. 

[petuniaevns]

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lily was expecting to hear her sister yell at her or walk away, but tearing up was not something she thought would happen. “what do you mean tuney?” she asked her using the childhood nickname lily gave her. “i mean it’s magic, there really isn’t anything impossible about it.”

   She was here and alive. How was that possible? They had told her that she had died but then again they were back in the past and it could be that she was brought here before she was killed. She hadn’t said anything for a good moment and a tear trailed down her cheek as she swallowed the lump in her throat to be able to speak. “You’re alive..” 

[albussevervspottcr]

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lily noticed the familiar woman, her sister. at first she was a little cautious to approached her, the two haven’t been close since lily left for hogwarts but she still loved her sister. once the person her sister was talking to left she went closer to her. “if you find that person can you tell me so i can get home too.”

       Petunia froze when she heard that familiar voice. Her heart sank and she suddenly started shaking slightly. She could feel the warmth drain from her whole body as she slowly turned around to look at her sister. Her vision then became blurry, “L-Lily?… That’s impossible.” Tears clouded her and suddenly it was getting harder to breathe. 

[petuniaevns]

    To her, they were speaking utter nonsense. She had no idea what they were referring to and she didn’t care either. Nia was sick and tired of people asking her things like she was part of this whole weird fiasco. She stared at them to let them know that she wasn’t in the mood and when they were done sighed, “Look, I honestly don’t know what you want from me. I didn’t understand a thing you just said, I just want to find someone who will let me go home.” 

[petuniaevns]

stcllarvm‌:

alice was on edge, even though she has been in the 1920s for a few days now, the witch was still very nervous to be here. she could still feel her body hurting from the cruciatus curse; alice had kept to herself so far, afraid that she will accidentally snap at someone while she works through how she felt. the witch was walking along the street late at night, in the dark. every little noise made the witch jump, she didn’t want to get kidnapped like in the past and she just wanted to find her husband, son, and her friends. she wanted to see someone who would tell her it’s alright and that she is finally safe. she heard footsteps behind her and snapped back with her wand drawn. “show yourself.” @hogsmeadeimportant​

Nia was roaming, scared. She noticed that most of these folk were talking nonsense like Lily used to and she had heard some similar words but she was too afraid to ask. She didn’t know where to go. She didn’t know who to ask and she wasn’t brave enough to just ask apart from that. Petunia was on the verge of a panic attack when she turned the corner to see a wand pointed at her. She screamed and put her hands up. Now she was sure that she was in Lily’s world. “Please don’t curse me! I’m just trying to find a way home!” She put her hands up to cover her face and put distance between herself and the woman in front of her. 

[petuniaevns]

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The whole being sucked back in time thing wasn’t what was primarily grinding Gabrielle’s gears. Nope; where her brain was instead was the future. Specifically, needing to make sure someone in her time knew not to overfeed her cats. If she got home and Cat-herine had developed arthritis, she was going to lose it. “If someone wanted to say… carvea message into some floorboards in the hopes it’ll still be around in ninety years, what might be the best place to do it? I mean, where around here has the best chance of surviving until then?”

   She felt like a complete outsider and she felt unsafe. Nia was exhausted and she didn’t know her Vernon would handle dealing with two infants. Harry and Dudley were not that different in age. She ran her hands down her face and then peeked over at the stranger who was speaking to her. As a child, she wanted nothing more than to come to this world with Lily but now all she felt was disgust. “How in heavens would I know? I’m not like one of you. I don’t belong here. I’ve never even been here before so I’m not sure how I ended up getting sucked up like the rest of you.”  

[petuniaevns]

{liana liberato; cisfemale; demisexual} look who just appeared in hogsmeade, it’s PETUNIA EVANS, the 23 year old MUGGLE. SHE was taken from the MARAUDERS ERA and is working as a MUGGLE UNIVERSITY STUDENT. some describe them as DETERMINED, but they can also be described as INTOLERANT.

i am so sorry this is so long but muse just just got really strong!!

Petunia Evans grew up always feeling like the unwanted child. Nothing was ever enough for mum and dad and she was always reminded of it. She could never think back to a time where her parents were legitimately proud of her but she can remember all the times that they scolded her. Her younger sister Lily was the only person who ever made Petunia feel loved and maybe that was why for the longest time, Petunia spoiled her just as much.  But then things changed and Petunia knew she was losing her sister when Severus Snape came into play. She knew that she couldn’t compare to anything that he had to offer because she wasn’t anywhere near magical like they were. The first time that Petunia’s heart broke was when Lily’s letter came and she left for most of the year. Petunia again felt alone. She tried to follow, wrote a letter and the rejection hit her harder than she liked to admit because all she wanted was to be with her sister because she didn’t want to be left alone with her parents who always reminded her how she wasn’t special in one way or another but they didn’t see a problem in making her feel ugly and uninteresting. They fed her, gave her a place to live and made sure that she had everything she needed so in their eyes, they were doing okay. 

However, their behavior turned Petunia surly and irritable from a young age and instead of letting her hurt be known to Lily, she just let it turn into anger because Petunia is not a brave person. She never had the courage to stand up for herself and question them on why they treated her such a way and instead just accepted the fact that they tolerated her. This was where her dislike for magic started to get uglier because magic took away the only person who ever made her feel loved.  Then Petunia met someone. Her name was Evelyn Jacobs. Someone else who made her feel loved and like maybe she was worth something. Petunia started to realize that she was interested in women just as much as she was men and figured perhaps her parents would be just as accepting if they could accept magic so easily. It was the only courageous thing she had done when she mustered up all her strength to tell her parents the truth. It did not go the way she had hoped. Apparently, magic is not a choice but liking women is and so they scolded her and then pretended like the conversation never occurred and so Petunia dropped Evelyn from her life and pretended like nothing happened herself and never told anyone ever again.

So then came Vernon. Someone else who showed her love and although she didn’t really feel the same, she gave in because in her mind, she was afraid that no one else would ever love her. They went to school together and then became engaged. That was when her life changed in the blink of an eye. They had to postpone their marriage to after everything was taken care of but Petunia had been pregnant with Dudley and given birth because there’s no postponing that. Her parents passed, one not long after the other, not being able to handle losing each other and Petunia being the eldest daughter, was the one who had to manage everything. She didn’t know that her sister was fighting a war where she would lose her life until the letter came along with Harry. Petunia lost three people all in a short span of time and her life had changed completely from one day to the next and her anger for magic turned into hatred because it really did take the person who she loved the most and she never got to say goodbye because of her stupid behavior and bitterness. In her time, Lily’s been dead for only a couple of days when she finds herself in a different time. She’s afraid and confused until someone tells her where she is and she isn’t quite sure how to deal with the fact that she has been brought to the place where she had wanted to go for so long as a child. She doesn’t know that Lily may have been brought there as well.