Headmate Hell

Chase (aka robbie) & Raine & whoever else use this as their shitpost place-

[pilotprogramzzz]

Main blog, expect rambles, random stuff idfk what else

#aspenarchive (archived posts from our former host and last of the 3 original headmates) #robbie was here <- main host’s “i typed this” tag #pr0gram update <- info about our system #raine was here <- second host’s “i typed this” tag #damien 🍂 <- third host’s “i typed this” tag #lovynder <- current music project posts (A LOT OF TRAUMA mentions) #$braindead$ <- current music project posts #tetrawitz <- almost finished project posts

@pil0tpr0gram (sys blog) @robbiechase-isbi (primary host’s blog aka my blog) @raineieromustdie (secondary host’s blog) @aeternum-autumn (third host’s blog) @pil0ttttpr0gramz (17+ more mature content blog, not porn or anything, but we are a lil more “adult” on this blog/also our alt that isnt a sideblog)

if ive unfollowed you its probably because i only want people i actively talk to in the following thing- (Chase)

Multifandom penis penis penis - House md (Chouse supremacy 🍂🇦🇺) - HTTYD - Regretevator - My Chemical Romance - Foster The People - Twenty One Pilots - TAWOG - Spongebob - Joxer (LSITEN TO HIS MUSIC AAHH ITS SO GOOD) - $WAGGOT - Tetrawitz (yea we’re the one fan of our own stuff) - Markiplier/Unus Annus etc - Iron Lung - Toontown Corp Clash https://pluralkit.xyz/f/vsrobh (see whos fronting)

oh yeah DNI proshitters, comshitters, transmeds, sysmeds, syscringers yadda yadda You know who you are. oh and iwc if ur name is Nova pls. as for sys discourse idrc who interacts just dont try to put your beliefs onto me (or harass us)

if youre in this dni & we have you followed on any of our socials, kindly remind us to unfollow you, we rarely check who we follow on socials. I should add- Any vent posts here will be "read more"'ed sometimes i forget cause we have horrid memory @/pil0tpr0gram Spotify @/pil0tpr0gram on artfight @/pil0tpr0gram on toyhou.se @/pil0tpr0gran on pinterest @/tetrawitz on Soundcloud @/$br41nd34d$ on soundcloud

uhhhhh Trauma-neuro-endo sys (endogenic being due to our autism in turn a few of us formed out of hyperfixation but otherwise mostly traumabased)

misc tags; #$wagmas <- pride month 2026 #music card <- musicians asks collection /silly

[pilotprogramzzz]

okay why is there catholic stuff in my feed

[its-arson-time]

type prevs url with your eyes closed in the tags

[pilotprogramzzz]

i need a pronoun pin that says “She/Her/His”

[pilotprogramzzz]

dude is there like a bpd vincian flag like how theres a bpd lesbian one

[memories]

if you took a hotdog bun and put #mtf in it, would it be a sandwich?

[memories]

these #frank ireo posts are high in protein.

[memories]

If there’s one thing I learned since I signed up on 7/9/25, 6:05:06 PM, it’s that #simon iron lung takes up too much of my time.

[memories]

I want #medical malpractice md to stomp on me.

[memories]

I’m not going to say it again: #joxer music deserves to win first place.

[memories]

The day I started posting about #transfem dr chase was the best day of my life.

[pilotprogramzzz]

real as fuck lmao

[syn4k]

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you're welcome

[mmelete]

[carby]

[pilotprogramzzz]

Love how as soon as our mum finally realised she cant control our sexuality and expression- our leather boot collection increased tenfold with the inclusion of a leather jacket

also i feel more source attached now bc of said jacket soo win for me

[pilotprogramzzz]

youre so november twenty fifth september third and you died that night in a fire that no one started.

[pcos-and-endo-awareness]

If you haven’t heard, today PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome has been renamed to Polyendocrine Metabolic Ovarian Syndrome. This change reflects that this is not a reproductive “problem” but a whole body disease.

[pilotprogramzzz]

and im sure you think you know what i mean

[pilotprogramzzz]

Big uhh uncomfortable vent post // TW mentions of SA, R word, borderline incriminating shit (not done by me), graphic-ish descriptions? also uh mentions of part of my personality that i can promise you ive never shown to any friends or anyone for that matter

i am going to go a lil in depth about why i myself despised aspen with the vitriol i do and why i hate when i am compared to her by anyone so more often than not she would just straight up sexually assault or rape me till “completion” and justify it by saying “its fine, you like this anyways” or “look its just once snd i hsve your consent!” (i didnt consent btw she manipulated me) and when i say she would do those things, it wasnt a one-time occurence. it was multiple times a day- 3-5 times at most, it was so much worse when i came out and started transitioning- she would often try to again justify her actions via “its okay we’re both trans girl pervs” (i wasnt, infact i wasnt even sexually into anyone nor did the concept of sex even remotely cross my mind) or “look im not gonna do it again :3” like it was actually fucking awful. I would be asleep and i would just feel “pressure” so to speak on my waist and wake up actually fucking terrified- middle of the fucking night, it was so damn bad itd wake up the body. for the longest time my own mind suppressed it and i just lived my life like normal, but then idfk what happened and i realised how much really happened (+ i was also told by other headmates sucj as Raine or Damien) which is why i became more emotionally cold and just all in all disconnected from my own surroundings- plus it also didnt help that i witnessed in real time aspen’s deserved downfall but i saw the disgusting shit (no pun intended) between her and “N”. and she would make me watch the conversations to “learn” from them, i saw things i shouldnt and wish i never saw- like i hold the vivid memory of the time aspen tried cutting herself as a means of sexual arousal for both her and her girlfriend- i watched aspen get into bestiality via pokeporn- i watched her get into something called “faux incest” like it was actually so awful

its why i hate the side of me that is “like aspen” i hate that i am manipulative, i hate my ego, i hate that i have that weird sporadic and random humour/bouts of aggression she had. everything that ive mentioned i share with her, i hate because it is a constant reminder of the shit she put me through.

i hate that i dont feel any emotions or anything of that nature most of the time because of how she treated me- mind you I as soon as i formed and shit was meant to be her personal protector and caretaker, but look what ended up happening, where i was supposed to protect her from others, i never knew i had to protect myself from her.