QuillKwil

[quillkwil]

Heyyo

I'm Kwil! I write for myself, and decided i might as well post it! I am so greatful when yall interact with my posts, and though i do appreciate the people who like to give constructive criticism, please dont leave it on my works. Thank yall!

[quillkwil]

you think im pretty?

you dont know pretty.

pretty was the look in her eyes when she backstabbed me

the glint in her teeth when she fed from me

the point of her nails while she

strangled me.

You think im pretty?

you dont know me really.

im filled with the darkness of my mind

consumed with this ugly desire of mine

im clinging to hopelessness

desperately,

love.

dont call me pretty.

Im not pretty.

[quillkwil]

When the fire

you lit

subsides,

youll find weve been burned

you burned us

to nothing.

[quillkwil]

without question

theres a sinner in my bed

its not you, my love.

without question

i have darkness in my head

its not you, my love.

without question

i jumped cus someone pushed me

its not you, my love.

without question

i hate everyone who's ever loved me

not you, my love

without question

i deserve nothing anyone can give me.

not even you.

not you, my love.

[quillkwil]

when the world's burning,

what is there to do

but jump in the ocean.

when the world's drowning,

what is there to do

but burn it down.

[quillkwil]

you look at my mask of scars

You'd think they were ones someone caused me.

a lover who went too far?

a parent whod used or abused me?

or a friend who id thought would bring peace,

but had left my life in these pieces?

if you'd just lift up the mask youd see

ive torn my own awful face to shreds.

[quillkwil]

Those grey streaks in the sky?

they used to mean fire

and now they mean planes

they arent too different, anymore

they both scorch the earth.

[quillkwil]

dont hand me your blades

then call me disgusting

when i use them

dont give me your hate

then call me a monster

when i snap

dont insult me with your cruel names

then call me damned

when i take them back

im not letting you call me anything anymore

im not letting anyone

hurt me

anymore

but myself

[quillkwil]

were all just fucking chemicals

how do you break my heart with these awful chemicals

how do you make me fall in love with all those glorious chemicals

were all just fucking chemicals

trying to avoid them all.

[quillkwil]

i dont deserve you

i never loved you

i wasnt ready

i never loved you

i saw you hurting

i never loved you

and i was scared

i never loved you

im gonna miss you

i never loved you

i love you.

ive never loved you.

[quillkwil]

All i want to do now

Is clear the static from my brain

so finally

i can think.

[quillkwil]

what i would give

to be able to look at the world

free from the face of the waterfall youve trapped me behind.

[quillkwil]

Before you, i couldnt comprehend the value of life

then i met you

and you became the one person i would lose it for

[quillkwil]

my mind is an ocean

an endless blue void

with pits filled with horrors

i can only avoid

there are thoughts drifting around

at the depths of this sea

and just like i fear them

they wish to never meet me

[quillkwil]

poetry is the most painful form of self expression

because every word can be so raw

so painful

so true

but they could also allude you endlessly

[quillkwil]

Your eyes

i could compare them to a million things.

the stars, the depths of the ocean, a void i can drown in

but theyll still just be your eyes

your hair

i could compare it to a million things

the rain or the sunshine, the hail or the moonlight

and it would still just be your hair

your face

i could compare it to a million things

the shine of the sun, the flicker of daybreak, the whip of crisp air on bare skin

and it will always be your face

theres a million endless similes to describe you

but none of them do you justice

Because i could say youre like anything

but nothing is as beautiful as you.

[quillkwil]

Words, by humanity, are alienated or romanticized for not determinable reason.

theres so many random words with so many random meanings

So whats so special about 'i love you?'