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Ry Update

Hi, it’s been almost 8 years since I posted something here. I know no one’s gonna read this or even see this but I’d like to keep it for myself. This is for my future self who’ll someday have the time reminisce about this account just like what I am doing today. So here’s my update. I now live in an island very far away from where I used to live and it’s been almost two years since I moved here. And yes, the girl from my previous post is still my partner. We’ve been together for 7 years and 10 months now and we recently got engaged this year. I’ve never been happier. I’m glad I was able to keep my word about keeping her. Though it wasn’t all rainbows, we hit a couple of bumps in the process(especially in the early days) but we managed to keep each other. She’s definitely a keeper and I’m very lucky to have her. Apart from my relationship, I have a job now which I am proud of and at the same time not proud of. It’s hard to explain but let’s just say it’s hard to accept corruption. I wish I could’ve updated here more but anyway, for my future self, I hope your next update is something good.

p.s I gained 20kg over the past 8 years and the photo below is us this year. (The day we got engaged)

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This is her by the way. Ain't she beautiful? Hehe

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RY UPDATE

So hey people(who happen to follow me) It’s been almost a year since I updated my shit. I want you all to know that I’m doing well with everything like my studies and friends and especially, my love life. Yes, I do have a girlfriend now and we’re almost 3 months a couple of days from now. By the way I courted her for like 5 months so yeah we’ve known each other for a fairly short amount of time and it’s funny how she didn’t like me at first and the only thing that made her stay with my company is that I made her remember a thing about her past. The bright side is I never gave up no matter and earned her trust and eventually, her heart. By the way, our relationship is legal and God was it a struggle to make things work but finally we did it. Despite everything that happened we managed to make things work. We never fought not even once yet but she does get mad at me(mostly because of her mood swings) but I understand her. She really loves me and I couldn’t be more lucky than I am right now. She understands me, she cares for me, I can tell her anything, and she’s always there. Even though her stress and mood swings get over her and she lashes it out on me, she then apologizes after like 15 or 20 minutes. She’s a good girl a good person in general. She’s adorable in every way and she’s irresistible. She doesn’t ask much and she’s considerate. I’m very lucky to have her and at some point she feels the same. We’re both blessed. And I’ll do my best to keep her. I’m very happy.

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yes that is so me hello again

Oh I never saw this message lol it's been almost a year

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[blossomfully]

At first I was mad that you didn’t try to save me. Then I realised I was a hypocrite. I didn’t try to save me either.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #261  (via blossomfully)

K.O.

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Have you ever been sad your whole life. And that you've been living your whole life hiding in a mask and that sometimes you take off that mask and look for people who would actually make you forget. Maybe the problem is that you don't actually see their efforts or maybe you're just that too sad and hopeless. And that you're trying your very best to let them know that you appreciate them but it feels paradoxical because you're wearing the mask again. And now you're tired to take it off once more and now you've been waiting for someone who would see through that frown behind your smile this whole time; wishing, i hope it's the person i love or at least the people that i hold dear but you're stuck there sitting on the well while you throw your hopes on wishes until you run out. Empty.

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And I closed my eyes. The back of your head in my face. The scent of shampoo in your hair. A beautiful silence within our space in time. But it feels like a crime. This time will never be mine.

R.S 

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How can you love me?“ she said, "You know I don’t look at you that way and I know you don’t look at me that way as well.” she added. He took a moment and with a forced smile he replied, “No. I don't just ‘look’; That’s where you’re wrong, you just look, and that’s why you do not see.

R.S. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #5

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hello, how are you today?

HI, I’m good :) (are you still that anon who’s been asking me a lot lately?)

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I look at you. I see you. I watched you count your stars and how I wish I could tell you that you were my moon. Tell you that, you are pretty just like the moon, but I loved you more than I loved the moon.

R.S. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #4

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I look at you.. And I can still remember the facade I've been holding. "I am not him. I can't make you look at me the way you look at him." And I just sat there, looking at you hurt. Oh it hurt.

R.S. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #3

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well, someone's sweeter than sweet. how long have you known her?

Well I've known her since highschool. We weren't close back then but we became close after graduating. Now we're close af.

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is r.s. the one you keep writing about? tell me about them.

Lately.. Yes. Clearly it's obvious that I am in love with her. I don't know how to describe her in a way that you will feel what I feel but to make it short, she's a beautiful soul. More than a pretty face with a heart beat. And I love her for everything that she is.

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“…was a highschool student.” so ur in college now? how's that going for you?

Yes. Am Back in college. So far so good. Made some new friends. For now, focused on school works. Adapting well. I got R.S with me so I'm good af

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Have you ever seen yourself at night? Stargazing. Looking for your own stars when you don’t realize that you were already mine.

R.S. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #2

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I'm over 'you'. But I will never get over how I felt about you. And on a random day I will remember you as the girl who left and I will remember myself as the man who won.

R.S. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write