Inside A Scorpion Mind

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Stop looking to others to fulfill your needs. Look to yourself. You KNOW what you need. You CARE about what you need. Everyone else just wants to move on with their life.

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Soul Etched

How is it that someone you talk to for years if they come and go it’s not a big deal. It’s not awkward or weird. It doesn’t make you feel bad if you go days or months without speaking because when you speak again it’s like you never left.

Then there are those few people who...you can’t let go. Can’t stop thinking about in ways you shouldn’t. Ways that no longer make sense. When they etched themselves onto your soul, it was in a deeper way that you can’t erase. No matter what they do or say...you can’t stop feeling for them in the way they were etched.

Sometimes I feel like I wish I could still meet the person, but erase how they once made me feel because to feel that now, isn’t healthy.

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I have issues with people who tell me one thing and act another. If a person makes you doubt yourself, causes you anxiety, or makes you feel unworthy...you need to remove their authority.

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What makes me need attention constantly? Am I that disconnected from myself that I can’t stand my own presence? Is it because my brain can’t function on one thing alone? Do I need constant distraction?

Whatever the reason...I need to find my center and find my focus. This is ridiculous.

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Heartbreak

I thought I knew heartbreak until today. But the pain a lover can cause holds not even a flicker of a candle to the pain caused by a child. I’m sure today is the first of many, but man oh man does it hurt.

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Tired

There are days when you ache from the soul out. Nothing you do or say seems to be enough.

This is one of those days.

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Keep Going

You are meant for greatness. You just need to stay focused. Don’t let the haters bring you down. Just keep sailing from the wind of their words. You will prevail.

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True Love

I’ve done a lot of stupid things. Made a lot of mistakes. Some days I feel I’m not worthy. But when I share a moment with my daughter, get an unexpected hug from my oldest son, or make my youngest son giggle...I realize how truly blessed I am. I have been given three of the most wonderful human beings to call my children.

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Mirror

Look at yourself in the mirror. Yes...really look. Now, make eye contact. And repeat to your reflection...

You are worthy

You are special

You are strong

You are beautiful

You are uniquely, wonderfully you

No one else can be you...don’t let them make you doubt yourself

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Opinion

You’re opinion of me does not mold me. I build myself into what I want to be.

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Leadership

Leadership should be a learning process that is never complete. With our changing world, we need to remain adaptive, attentive and inclusive. Leadership isn’t defined by the color of your skin, your sexual orientation, your gender identification or your age. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to teach my child a lesson only to be the one on the receiving end. Continue to learn, to grow, to lead...make this world a better place.

#leadershipatalllevels #nevertoooldtolearn

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Confidence

Confidence comes from within...if they under estimate you that’s on them. Maybe they won’t judge a book by its cover next time.

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The BEST YOU

You can’t be the BEST you if there is no YOU. Take care of yourself. Eliminate toxicity, focus on what brings you joy...what brings you peace. Concentrate on YOU so that you can be all the things you need to be for them.

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Loneliness is...

Kind of a gnawing horrible emptiness that claws at you when you least expect it.

When all you want to do is hide away and crawl into bed and shut off your phone and heal.

Except you can’t because even tho you’re lonely you aren’t alone. And all these people are looking to you for support and care and you have responsibilities.

So your soul cries while your body and mind works and fulfills the needs of your children and the duties as wife, and responsibilities to school and home.

Instead, you end up crawling through a week and hoping to make it to the next.

With a smile and a laugh so as not to worry those around you who really do love you.

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Get Fit

As a woman of a certain age...I need to start looking at my health. I know, I should have started that YEARS ago. But I didn’t and here I am. As middle age is in full swing, I realize that my body as it is now will not survive til I want it to. So time to make changes.

Yesterday was day one. I made my caloric goal and didn’t feel starved (YAY ME). Even tried out some new exercises. FYI for those new to tabata...if you choose a song on Musi to play to keep the rounds going, it autoplays the next song in that list. SOOOO what’s have been an intention to workout for four minutes MAY turn into a 12 minute workout before you know it.

That being said I ended my day fairly well and met my targets. Even though today, it hurts to sit on my ass and I have yet to find a purpose for my ass other than sitting. 😒

I can do it!

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Change Challenges

This has been a challenging week so far and it’s only Tuesday! Change is hard but can be worth it. Finding a new routine or a new normal is one thing when it just involves you, when it involves a family or a work unit...whoa!

Take things one day, one step st a time. Be open to the need to change perspective and tactics. Lead the change, don’t let it lead you.

If it looks like the project is taking you down a road you don’t want to go, reevaluate. Just because it’s change doesn’t mean it’s the only option.

Keep faith in yourself through the change. This may be a time to grow, it may be a time to expand or even get rid of toxins. Whatever the change you are facing is, be willing to accept yourself throughout. There is only one you. Be true to it.

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I’m pretty fkn awesome

You know what has been going through my brain today?

I’m not just ok. I’m awesome.

I watch people lose it around me, over relationships and other people’s drama...and I realize I don’t want that for me.

I’m happy with me. I am worth knowing and loving and being around. I think it’s time I stopped worrying about what other people think of me and being ok with what I think of me.

A friend of mine has been telling me this for a while. And now I see what he means. When others have opinions of you that don’t sit right, don’t feel true...don’t let it bother you.

Be true to you. The rest will work itself out.