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women 😌 little flower 🌼 🐸 i will maul your ass 👴🏼

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when you reach rock bottom, you find a shovel

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you have to face it, a weekend not wasted just is a weekend wasted. that's why when i get my pay slip, i fucking waste it. - Benny T (2022)

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i’m an adult. 

as a kid i used to be radical, about the environment, about exploration, about systemic-inequality, “How could you even think of doing something like that?” like it was all so obvious. i wondered why everyone was so nonchalant about it, like how could they not be angry all day everyday, how could they not object.

im all grown up at my old old age of 19 and yeah all the anger has washed off, its just sadness, i see something wrong and i get sad. i’ve accepted it all. I’ve accepted how small i am, and my power in this world. When i was actually small, physically small, i think all that potential got to my head, kept my head up high like a helium balloon. I thought “as an adult, i’ll do something big, something that fixes the mess.” It’s all gone now. Gotta be practical and realistic and keep pointing out fallacies and poking holes in the balloon till it’s all perfect! I am an adult now. Why did i want this as a kid again?

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“–tell me a secret. –what kind of secret? –any kind. (there is light in your eyes and dark in your soul, and i would not change a thing about you for all the treasures in the universe. your very existence is a paradox, a contradiction i could spend centuries studying without a thought to understanding.) –i don’t have any secrets. –that’s a lie. everyone has secrets. (you have haunted my thoughts and my dreams since the moment i laid eyes on you. i have memorized the slant of your brow and the wave in your hair, the sweep of your lashes and the rhythm of your steps. i would know you blind, deaf, numb, in this world or any other.) –alright, here’s a secret: i’m afraid. –of what? (eternity. oblivion. crowded rooms and authority figures and being alone too long and you, i’m terrified of you because you have the power to destroy me and you don’t even know it, you have no idea. i’m less afraid of dying than i am of losing you and that scares me too.) –spiders. –you’re joking. –no, really. it’s the legs, i think. and the eyes. –tell me another one. (i love you.)”

— things i wish you’d never asked || jph (via hellboner)

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(1 year ago, when I was preparing for an exam I didn't want to give)

I’m procrastinating right now, and I have done the same thing again and again and again. And I’ve written about the fact that I’m procrastinating right now. I’ve written it and read it, and I’ve thought about it and I was like "that’s funny" and then I do it again. You just have to study, but when you think about it, this sunken deep, deadly thought arises and you sit there rotting. I don’t know what this is. I don’t.

(Currently I studying a course I love, anD MY GOD I MISS THIS FEELING, i feel like a kid, life is flowers and sausages again)

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Did you know? the moon used to be closer to us, It grows further apart from us each year. The selenophiles of earth are expressing their love for her, while she does not reciprocate. I could learn to love the sea but I choose to love my moon.

what is it that the archaic gave you, that we cannot?

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Car seat Headrest.

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i like found family trope (i am fucked)

just a silly lil gay show (may or may not have gotten queerbaited)

manliness manly man men (rediscovering love)

liked the bulletin board scene (cried while SHOCK played in the background, twice)

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In s2 e1 of Fleabag, when Claire gets cut off by the godmother, for a spilt second Claire also looks in the camera (dissociate).

This show keeps getting better

[dogboykennedy]

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Bon Voyage

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The brightest star in the Delphinus constellation, Rotanev.

Delphinus, the dolphin sent by the Poseidon to fetch Amphitrite.

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the Sun's moon