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It’s Sunday night and I feel finally in a groove. I ate a lot less today and actually listened to my body more. Tomorrow is Monday and I hope to start my exercise routine.
I’ll have to work at it and make it happen, I have no other choice than to do what I need to do.
I have a lot of feelings and ideas, but I will talk more when I have more to say.
Hope it goes well.
-DM
(6/7/2026)
It’s been a few months since I have posted. Life is busy, as always, and I was going through a season that required a lot of my attention. And that attention was not directed to me. It’s summer now and I have focus and time to pour into myself.
It’s a challenge every day to make the changes needed to be the person I want to be. My health is on the line and I don’t understand why that isn’t enough to motivate me. I always told myself, if the time ever comes to make a change, I will do it. Well the time is here and I’m not making the changes I need.
I hope tomorrow is a better day. I cannot let the mornings slip into late afternoons, into bedtime and days flow by into weeks and months. I refuse to let that happen. I owe it to myself.
I have more feelings but not ready to put them into words.
ttyl
- DM
(06/02/2026)
It’s Friday night and I’m reflecting on the week…. It was a good one overall.
I was really mindful around planning, expecting, and preparing what I needed to do this week. It really made it a successful one. There were a few hard moments but I made it through.
On a side note, I have used food throughout my life to cope with stress. As i grew older, I used alcohol and nicotine. When I was using those two heavily to cope, I didn’t use food as much and lost some weight. As I cut those out, the weight piled on again.
I bring that up because today was so stressful and overwhelming and I wanted to go back into old habits. (Habits that needed 2+ years ago) and I didn’t. It was a small win that I wanted to highlight. O seriously considered having a drink tonight - but I owe it to myself to stay present and sober.
Anyways, the journey is tough but so am I.
- DM
(12/12/2025)
A few days later and I’m keeping the momentum going. It’s hard but I just take it one day at a time, one meal at a time.
I’m learning to be okay with hunger. I used to freak out and have major anxiety when I would feel hunger. But it would feel like an instinctual kind of hunger - a deep feeling in my chest. Now it actually feels like it’s just my stomach that is hungry.
But the past few days have been rough and I haven’t been sleeping well because of baby. But it’s okay, I am ready to get some sleep tonight (if she lets me).
Either way, I’m relying on discipline to get me through the next few weeks. It’s actually been nice to be in routines and rituals. It helps me feel calm expecting the same thing every single day. My breakfast routine has become more of a ritual and I love it. It’s easy and calming, it feels relaxing to know exactly what to expect. And I’m trying to continue this energy into my weight loss as well. I love knowing what I’m eating and what to expect from my meal prep. And I honestly don’t mind eating the same meals again and again pretty often.
I know what I like, and I love it. Weigh in is in a few days… will check in soon.
- DM
12/11/25
So I did a weigh-in this morning… I am down four pounds. I am so proud of myself. I know it will only get easier (and harder) as the days go by.
Usually the first few days/weeks of a weight loss journey can show significant losses but mostly because your body is adjusting. I have noticed so much less bloating and attribute a lot of this weight loss to it. But either way I am so happy.
Hopefully this adds motivation to my journey. I hope to continue being in a deficit, continue to move my body, and continue losing weight.
-DM
(12/8/25)
I stopped counting days but I’m still here! Maybe about a week (or two?) since I’ve posted - but I’m using the Lifesum app the past two weeks.
It’s been hard, last week I would do it for a few meals but this week I’ve stuck hard to tracking every day.
I’ve noticed my hunger actually subsided a bit. I’m trying to figure out what is causing that….so I can continue it! It’s been making tracking and eating easier when I don’t have an ungodly hunger crushing my chest.
I think it’s because since I’m tracking and am limiting my calories (within reason) I have to really build a “smart” plate. I’m focusing on volume eating since I want to eat a lot without piling on the calories. Ima also focusing on what will keep me fuller for longer. I think inadvertently, this is also ~balancing my blood sugar~ or something like that, and that’s helping my hunger as well.
Anyways, I hope I can keep it up on the weekend, since it’s easier to track and limit while I’m busy with work. But I’ll do another weigh in on Monday and update how it goes. I hope it’s good.
DM
Day 2: it’s difficult to not self-sabotage… (I need to look into this and figure out if that’s what I am actually doing to myself). What I mean by this term, is that I kept looking into the pantry when I was not hungry, thought about ordering my favorite meal from my favorite Chinese restaurant, and dreamt about food all day long.
I tried all day to do what I could with each moment. Tomorrow is thanksgiving day and I will not deprive myself. I’m technically not on a diet… I’m changing my life one day at a time. And tomorrow will not be any different - I’ll enjoy it all within reason. I can have one serving instead of two (or three). and the next day will come and it’ll be over. I won’t starve and I won’t regret eating only one serving.
I also started tracking my food with an app, Lifesum. I did this one of the times I lost 20 pounds, so hopefully it can help me now. I won’t track tomorrow, though. There’s no point in feeling guilty about one day out of the year lol.
Until next time,
DM
Day 1 is always hard - but I’m trying to keep a positive mindset. We had a date night and I enjoyed myself without overdoing it.
Tomorrow is another day and I will make it great. Will be adding in movement as much as I can.
- DM (11/25/25)
11/24/2025
So now I actually need to think about what I need to do to be successful. I want to lose weight and I need to make a specific and useful plan to get to my goals.
I have a doctors appointment in literally 43 days (42 because this day will be over in 3 hours). And that’s actually exactly six weeks when I open my eyes tomorrow morning….
I can do a lot in 6 weeks. Lots of new habits, changes in my diet and exercise. I am planning on swapping out certain foods and avoiding others.
Picking sugar-free and low to no calorie options for some things, incorporating more fruit and beans, and avoiding fried foods as much as I can. It will be difficult and I feel there will be more tears shed (did I mention I already cried today? [reference the post below….]).
I think for once in my life, I will finally just stfu and do it. I have no other choice.
It will be hard - but I must chose my hard: it’s hard to change my lifestyle and eat healthy but there is literally no downside to that. I will get more sleep, more energy, more life to life. The other choice is also hard: it will be hard to take medication every day, hard to move my body, hard to keep up with my daughter, hard to participate in my marriage.
But when looking at these two “hard” options, the answer is EASY…..
I will try to update as much as I can on a weekly basis. Here’s to next time
- DM
11/24/2025
5 years later since I started this blog and…..wow.
so much (& so little) has changed.
I am married now and have a daughter <3
And I am still trying to lose the weight. Unfortunately, there are some major changes to why and how I want to lose weight. During and after my pregnancy, my body has not been dealing well with stress. The physical toll pregnancy and overall life stresses is becoming heavy, and my body is now suffering from hypertension.
I weigh about the same as I did and have been the past few years, but my body is tired. It’s difficult to accept - but I have to. My body is begging for me to treat it well and I must listen. My daughter depends on me. She’s so little and so beautiful and so sweet and I want to spend the rest of my life loving her.
Lack of sleep, poor diet, and minimal exercise is literally causing physical stress on my body. It’s showing up as hypertension, insulin resistance, generalized anxiety, and below average mental health…. The signs are in front of me and I can no longer ignore them. I
hope to be able to focus on myself for the sake of my own life and health. I owe it to myself and my family. They need me as much as I need them.
You are going to laugh until your stomach hurts again. You're going to be in awe of a sunset. Watch your favorite show while you eat your favorite food. Find money on the street. Discover a great band you haven't heard of before. You will find your way back.
Plantasia (Back Cover Illustration) Mort Garson
when i got home after the new years celebrations last night, i took off my boots and found this pin stuck in the bottom of one of them,, a good sign for the new year perhaps ? :-)
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