Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who worries constantly that he’s too clingy. (He is. Luckily you don’t complain too much.)
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who has to always be touching you. Mainly he grabs your hand or waist in public. In private he’s got a hand on your inner thighs and or a hand on your breasts at all times
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who has to be constantly reminded that you need personal space. He knows that you need it but deep down he’s selfish because he craves your attention.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who gets somewhat territorial if anyone spends too much time with you.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace also dislikes it if a guy is talking to you too much. He doesn’t do or say anything rude to guy. However, he’ll just be staring at them for a distance waiting for them to take a hint. It doesn’t take long for the guy to realize he’s not playing. Which somewhat leads you chastising him. But he doesn’t care cause he’s so madly in love with you.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who plans on marrying you within the first month of you dating. He wants to talk about marriage right away. But he knows you’ll freak out. Instead he’s constantly dreaming about the two of you married and living in domestic bliss.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who buys you a pet only to realize he made a huge fucking mistake. You spend more time with the pet! :( They also took his spot on your lap! No he doesn’t get to have you to himself. (He makes peace with it but it takes a while.)
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who sends probably ten text messages to you without you relying. Only to realize he made a mistake because that’s too many messages! (He definitely wants to delete half of them.)
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who has only had one serious relationship… you. And is constantly worried he’s going to fuck it up.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who cooks for you and tries his best to keep his apartment clean for you. If you say you don’t mind a mess thats a huge burden taken off his shoulders.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who gets very flustered when his students ask questions about you. And ask if the two of you are married. Or going to get married.
Clingy boyfriend Ryland Grace who literally can’t sleep unless his head is on your chest. He has to hear your heartbeat in order for him to fall asleep.
“You look nice,” Ryland says, smiling a little shy, as if the compliment had just slipped out and he was supposed to be embarrassed about that.
“I uh,” You pause, swallowing thickly.
Holy fuck he looks good in a suit.
in which: You need a date to the wedding you foolishly agreed to attend, luckily your co-worker is a willing sacrifice. Extremely willing.
[warnings: eventual nsfw 18+, a bit of fluff, excessively drawn out flirting]
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Woe finds you on a Tuesday at the staffroom lunch table.
Picking apart the leftovers of a miserable thrown together attempt of fried rice that came to be after realising there were no better dinner options with the ingredients you had in the fridge two days ago and the determination to not get take out more than once a week that would surely fade come February. Alas, it is still January and all those new year resolutions are still sticking like cheap adhesive hooks that will eventually be weighed down enough to slip as time ticks on.
Eat take out once a week, maximum. Read one book a month, minimum. Sleep more. Stop turning down social invites
The last one is what leaves you particularly perturbed, as your lunch goes lukewarm and your thumb flicks about on the social media profile.
“I just… I can’t say no.” You lament. “It would be weird.”
“Weirder than going?” Margot asks, pulling her own container of lunch from the oven. It’s also leftovers, but slices of impeccably cooked roast with what looks to be red wine sauce and vegetables- no doubt made by her smokeshow of a house husband (he just works from home, she insists. You’re pretty sure the pair are sitting on a lofty investment profile because no man ‘works from home’ cooks roasts bi-weekly and buys his wife diamond earrings for her birthday).
“I don’t know. Maybe.” You manage, the next bite of fired rice tasting like loneliness packed into an over-salted flavour profile.
“What’s weird?” Ryland asks, sitting down in the chair across from you.
The staff room of E-Block is near abandoned. Of the ten-odd teachers with rooms in the little block of aging brick, most tended to eat in their classrooms. Save for you, Margot and Ryland. Occasionally there will be another visitor, but most days, it is just the three of you.
“Wedding.” Margot supplies, sitting down and shuffling her chair in with a sense of poise so rarely found in Middle-Schools. She’s older, somewhere in her early fifties, and still manages to approach the job with the same level of discipline as before ipads made their invasion into the classroom.
Ryland frowns. “You’re already married.”
He’s… well, Ryland's… actually you’re not sure how to put him into words, which is saying a lot considering the literature degree collecting mildew in the filing cabinet of your apartment.
He’s in the same boat as you in terms of finding yourselves with a teaching career. Studied something else first, got your passion and love for it soured by morons and went back to college for a second round, dishing out more cash for a masters in teaching that has you trying to tame fourteen year olds all day. Delightful, truly. Although, Ryland had certainly lasted a lot longer with that first degree than you had. A doctorate. He hates the kids knowing that though. A handful of them had called him ‘Doctor Grace’ last year, after digging about online and getting their grubby fingers on his linkedin profile.
‘Mr Grace’ as he is now known, is awkward. A little socially inept at times, but not enough to come across as anything other than endearing. Now is one such time, as he looks over the frames of his glasses at Margo, the stack of pop quizzes he’d brought to mark and keep himself occupied momentarily forgotten. His eyes darted from her face to the ring on her finger.
“Mm mm.” She hums, shaking her head as she chews, then levels her fork to point in your direction.
“You’re not getting married.” Ryland states when he turns to look at you, like it’s a scientific fact, one he’s so assured of.
“Thanks for the vote of confidence, Mr Grace.” You reply, still sort of wallowing at the photos on your phone.
His gaze flickers, a little less sure as the corner of his lips fall and, like he had with Margot, settles his eyes on your hands. Your lack of a ring. “You aren’t, are you?”
“No. My ex is, though.” You sigh, despondent. The reminder glares back at you from the overly-bright phone screen.
“Oh. That sucks.” He manages, clicking open a red pen to start circling and ticking the first sheet on his pile. “Happens to the best of us.”
The kettle rumbles away on the tiny kitchenette. You look at him for a long moment. The best of us. Like it’s happened to him. Ryland’s not one to discuss relationships beyond the occasional quip about quitting to be a house husband like Margot’s. He’s never mentioned past romances, you don’t think he’s been in a relationship in the three years since he started at Grover Cleveland Middle. It’s such a bizarre glimpse at his life, that he doesn't even seem to register what he's revealed, marking as he waits for the boiling water to cook another lunch of instant ramen.
You sit up a little straighter in your chair, weary of knocking your shoes against where his long legs sprawl under the small table. The staff room is meant for ten but is cramped even with the three of you, nothing more than a little kitchenette and big whiteboard in the corner. There’s a shelf against one wall, just far enough away from the doorframe that the door doesn't crash into it when pushed open. There’s a long window the length of the wall on the door’s other side, a good view of the eighth-grade outdoor lunch area. The other staff call it the fishbowl, it’s why they opt to eat in their classrooms, not keen on the kids' eyes on them when it is supposed to be one of the fleeting breaks during their day.
Thank god the door is closed- if the kids heard you whining about this, a wedding, they’d never let up. “I’m considering the pros and cons of skipping it.”
“You were invited?” He baulks, dropping his pen.
You try not to smile, focusing on your self pity instead of the three shoddy attempts Ryland takes to catch his pen from dropping out of his hand, rolling off the stack of paper then off the table. “I already said I’d go too.”
“Why?” Ryland sounds appalled, like that one time you’d caught him trying to explain that the five second rule is not an effective barrier against bacteria to a student.
“It’s complicated.” You say, biting at your cheek.
“Bullshit.” Margot aptly calls. Looking over with the same expression she used to call students on their bullshit. You're not a big fan of having it directed at you.
“We went out for maybe two months in college.” You sigh, setting your phone on the table face-down to stare at your lunch, contemplative. “He’s engaged to one of the girls from my sorority. We’re… friends.”
Margot watches. “With your ex or the sorority girl?”
“Sorority girl. Daisy.” That's the better option of the two at least. You think it is, not that there is much left to save you from the impending train wreck of discussing the relationship woes of your late teens and early twenties with the only two coworkers who care to eat lunch in a communal space. The company is nice, Ryalnd had said once, when you’d asked, gets me out of the classroom.
Margot screws her face up for a second, muttering it again under her breath as if the name offends her.
“You were in a sorority?" Ryland asks, face a little blank as he looks at you from across the table.
It makes you falter, the way his thoughts seem to be buffering like the school's slow wifi. “I… Yeah? That’s the interesting part?”
He shakes his head, looking down at his marking sheets and pushes his glasses up from where they’re slowly slipping down the bridge of his nose. “No, I just can’t picture it.”
You purse your lips, consider pulling up some photos from your sorority days, then remember the kind of outfits the lot of you wore and think better of it. “Well Daisy and I were roommates for a year and a half. She’s nice. Works in PR now.”
“But she’s marrying your ex?” Ryland asks, still kind of baffled.
You dismiss it with a lazy hand wave. “I mean, she asked before they went out and everything. I just think it’s a little weird. I don’t even know why I said I’d go. It’s going to be embarrassing.”
Margot tuts twice, done with her lovingly made lunch that symbolises how successful she has been in the department of marriage when you have all but failed so far. “Why is it embarrassing? Two months is nothing.”
“I was a little head over heels for this guy.” You admit, sheepish.
Ryland stands up, clears his throat as he turns away. “Yeah? How so?”
His back is to you, as he peels the lid off his cup ramen and wrestles with the flavour packet. You come to the conclusion it’s easier to confess this sort of stuff with only one set of eyes on you. “I was sort of convinced he was my soulmate. He was doing pre-law, witty too.”
“Hot?” Margot asks, always straightforward.
You feel a blush rise on your cheeks as you remember the early days of your sorority experience, flopped back on the bed as you made little love sick sighs at your ceiling. “God, his jawline. And his hair- it was so… ugh!”
The thud is dull when your forehead lands on the table, to the right of your now abandoned lunch. “I don’t even know why I said I’d go. It’s dumb.”
You hate how you sound- petulant like the kids you prod for not searching for better words in their assignments, moping like your world is ending over something so trivial. It’s not even the new years resolution that has you mulling this over so intently. You’d agreed to go months ago- six months ago- and said yes to the offered plus one, adamant to yourself that you’d have someone by then, a partner or something. Someone of importance.
Attending alone is going to be even worse than if you had just RSVP’d for yourself in the first place. It’s one thing to watch your college friend and ex-sort-of-boyfriend exchange vows alone, and a whole other monster to do it with a pointed empty seat beside you.
All of it tumbles out your lips in a hurried hurl of word vomit, followed by a few moments of silence that has you cautiously raising your head to peek over the wall of your forearms. Ryland is staring at you, cup noodles steaming in his hands where it hovers over the sink, like he’d been about to pour out the excess water. Margot is looking at you with a frown, the same one she wears when teaching senior mathematics and the children have drawn up an equation for her to solve with the foolish belief they could stump her for more than ten seconds.
And just as in class, Margot is not phased for more than a handful of moments. “Then find someone with a better jawline and better hair to go with you. You can borrow mine.”
You blink at her, mulling the words over before asking, “Are you trying to pimp your husband out to me?”
“Only for aesthetic reasons, of course. It’d be nice to have the house to myself for once. Not like you have better options.”
It would sting more if it wasn’t so true. There were very few options and with the wedding only two weeks away, that was certainly not enough time to squeeze in enough dates with someone to justify taking them to a damn wedding.
“I mean, how good is his jawline?” Ryland finally says, walking over with his little cutlery box, plastic chopsticks he washes and reuses almost everyday, to set his lunch down on the table and settle back in across from you. “Are we aiming high?”
There is no way to un-dig this hole, not now that they’ve both decided to put their two cents in. You concede with another sigh and reach for your phone, arms and chin still on the table as you fish about Instagram for a photo. It’s the one that had reminded you of this awful upcoming event, posted by Daisy. You all but toss your phone on the table between your coworkers, sinking a little lower into your folded arms, awaiting judgement.
The photos must be from a walk though of the venue, the pair of them posed together between some old marble arch where they were having the ceremony at. She was laughing, hand on his chest, showing off the ring on her finger while he looked at her, besotted. The caption made it worse. Only two weeks left till I get to marry my man on these very steps.
You like them both, you really do, but the thought of showing up by yourself, as the lonely friend who’d never found ‘it’, your own version of the love they were celebrating, well it was just nauseating.
Margot looks the photo over critically before humming in a sort of so-so tone. “You can do better.”
Ryland looks kind of at a loss. “This is your type?”
As if to emphasise the point, he lifts the phone up and turns it around to show you the image you were already being haunted by. “This is the hair that had you all…”
He doesn't find the words, just waves the hand with his chopsticks around in a messy motion, looks at you critically over the rims of his glasses.
“He slicks it back now. It used to be… I donno. Messy? Fluffy? Good to run my fingers though.” He scoffs a little to himself, dissatisfied maybe with your excuse.
The only forgiving factor is that the photo does highlight the sharp cut of his jaw, which even Ryland concedes to. “He does have a good jawline...”
Yours is better, you want to say. Immediate and impulsive, because it kind of is. Especially when the shadow of his stubble stretches a few extra days between shaves. Your ex is clean shaven- you used to think that was sexy, at least sexier than the patchy beards boys in college had back then. Now you’re kind of obsessed with the so-called ‘5-o’clock shadow’ Ryland sports on Fridays.
It’s not something you’re likely to tell him though, especially not when you glance at the clock and realise you have a duty across campus in three minutes. Saved by the bell maybe, either way you’re able to liberate your phone from the pair of them and their conspiratory whispers, bin the scraps of your lunch and haul ass out of there.
By the end of the school day, you have reached the conclusion that you will blame it on work. That some mandatory day of ‘professional development’ as it is called nowadays, has come up and you will just have to miss the wedding, truly you’re devastated about it all.
Then Ryland corners you in your classroom. The bell’s long gone, as are the students. He’s dressed like he’s on his way out, his green backpack tossed over one shoulder and bike helmet hanging by the strap in one hand. You’re halfway through explaining your plan and the wording you’re going to use in the tragic text message to Daisy when he cuts you off.
“I’ll go with you.”
He’s a little breathless with it, like he’d been saving up all his oxygen to get the words out, leaving him in one big rush as they topple though the doorway of your classroom and splatter onto the linoleum floor between you both.
“I know that I’m not Margot’s husband with a ‘better jawline and better hair’ but we can go and eat nice wedding food- If he’s a lawyer it’s gotta be fancy, right? And we can make fun of his stupid slicked back hair together and you don’t have to be alone or make an excuse and feel guilty about it.” Ryland’s big speech is as flawed as it is heartwarming
Because he does have a better jawline and better hair. And Margot looks between you both during lunch hours and staff meetings like you’re her personal romance drama, there to occupy her during the day.
But the wedding food will be good, your ex will shill out for the best and Daisy has always had a taste for the finer things in life. Ryland is the best company you can think of to have by your side and he knows you well enough to understand how guilty lying about something makes you feel, how it churns your gut.
“Yeah. Okay.” You smile, something warm and fuzzy in your chest.
His eyes don’t move, maybe widen a little before he speaks again, still a little breathless. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
It isn’t a hard thought to come around to, taking Ryland to a wedding. As a date is something that goes unsaid between the pair of you, not sure whether it could be classed as such for real, or if this is simply a favour between friends-slash-coworkers. It is certainly a date for show, to the many college friends you’re about to reunite with after a few years, for your Ex, Jack who’s obsessed with his wife, for Daisy who you’d told years ago to ‘go for it, he’s a nice guy’ working under the assumption that she’d only last a few months by his side too.
You’re not sure which answer you’d prefer, honestly; a date or a favour.
He texts you a lot- after school, on the weekend- asking about what he should wear, what you’re going to wear, how he should prepare for this sort of thing. It’s sweet, cute in a way that has little butterflies flapping around in your stomach.
“Okay, I’ll show you. Wait, hold on.” You placate, setting your phone down on the bed, screen up.
“It’s a lovely ceiling fan, but I doubt it fits the dress code.” Ryland drawls, and you can hear the smile there.
“Ha ha.” You reply, a little echo-y as you lean into your closet to pull the dress out.
He’s up in arms about what to wear, says he needs to know what you’re wearing too so he can match. The invite’s dress code called for formal attire in ‘dark colours’. On the facebook page she’d made for the event, Daisy had a full post going into more detail, about how she’d love any and all dark tones- forestry green, navy, even burgundy was fine. You had taken a firm stance against burgundy considering there’s some old wedding traditions that state wearing red indicated you’d slept with the groom. Which you had, but you were not about to advertise that.
So navy it was.
You’d sent Ryland a picture of the invite, where it was stuck to your fridge with letter magnets spelling out ‘woe’- it had felt fitting when you’d stuck it up there- and several screenshots of the lengthy dress-code post Daisy had made that went into excruciating detail. He wasn’t satisfied though.
Even your attempts to describe the dress you’d bought didn’t work well enough.
“I mean it! you expect me to know what any of those words apart from ‘floor length' means?” he bemoans from your phone speakers, face time call crackling. “I need all the data.”
“Oh listen to you, Mr. Science,” You drawl with a smile, pulling the dress out. It’s too long to hang from a door knob so you have to stretch up on your tip toes to hang the coat hook over the curtain rod of your bedroom window.
“I was thinking of changing my name. Very to the point, don’t you think?” He replies, still smiling as you collect your phone. His eyes are sparkling with something cheeky when you appear back in frame.
Ryland’s dressed down, in one of those dumb science t-shirts he wears on ‘Casual Fridays’ as it is called in staff meetings. This one’s dark blue and has the periodic table on it in worn down white transfer ink. You’ve seen it enough to know the punch line sprawled over his lower stomach even though it’s not in frame. I wear this shirt periodically. He finds an extra layer in humor that the shirt is factually correct as well, that he does in fact, wear the shirt in regular intervals as he’d explained to you during a free-period on one of those casual Fridays.
He’s at his kitchen bench, phone propped up against something, while he taps away at his laptop. You’ve not actually been to Ryland’s apartment before, but it sorta feels like you have, the cramped studio always on display in the back of video calls like this one.
It’s just one long rectangle. Kitchen by the front door, a bench, a gap that is probably intended for a kitchen table but he’s stuck a desk there instead, his bed that’s almost always unmade with a tv wall mounted across from it, and a balcony. Like this, you can see the expanse of it behind him. The stacks of paper piled up on his desk, the extra monitors and little trinkets gifted from students, the sage green sheets of his bed, peeled back on one side, sun shining in through his big glass balcony doors. Honesty, you kind of want to see the view from his apartment in person, he’s a little higher up than you are, in a better part of the city too.
Ryland’s not brushed his hair, it’s all spiked up in different directions and you wonder if the mug he’s been sipping from, periodically, is his morning cup even though it’s just past ten. He’s blinking slow behind his glasses, sitting a little too still for his brain to be fully functional yet.
“I’m sure the kids will love it. Harder to spell on their assessment sheets, though.” You can imagine it, the staff badge, the name on his board in fun bubble writing where it would stay untouched for a whole school term.
You flip the camera, showing him the dress he’s been complaining about not understanding for the last half hour over text before he gave up and called you.
It’s cute, how his head tilts and he leans towards his phone for a second before just picking it up and holding it close enough so his eyes and forehead are just about all that is in frame. “Is that velvet?”
“It’s fake satin. I think.”
“Fake satin?” He repeats, confused.
The dress was one you already owned, bought a year or so ago for another friend’s wedding that you had attended alone but not felt crappy about, even if it did seem like everyone your age was getting married nowadays. It’s got a fitted bodice, but there fabric is a little drapey, looks like it pools over the chest and down towards the fluid skirt. "Wasn't expensive enough to be real satin.”
“Okay, I know what you mean by delicate straps now.” That had been his main hang up, whining about, What do you mean delicate straps? Like they’re about to break?, swearing that the shit he was googling was just not helping the mental image considering there were about six different results for everything.
“Yeah, and here, the lace up back.” You say, stepping up to twist the dress away from where it sat flush against the curtains to show the corset style back, with thin cord lace just a little thinner than the straps.
“Isn’t that going to be a nightmare to put on?” He asks, squinting still.
“There’s a zip.” You say, dragging the little hidden zipper down, showing him how the dress fabric parts and slips open. “So it’s fairly easy to get on. The cords are about as tight as they should be anyway, it isn't hard to pull to fit.”
You fumble a little trying to get the zip back up but eventually just conceded to leave out like that until you put the dress away. When you glance down at your phone, Ryland has moved, no longer sitting down and if you had to guess, is now walking the length of his apartment instead. He looks a little distressed.
“Come on, you’ve got the easy part.” You try, a little concerned he’s about to say he shouldn’t go. “You just have to put on a suit.”
“I can’t just ‘put on a suit’.” He whines, flopping down onto his bed like the world is ending. “I’m supposed to be like, your big ‘fuck you’ to the girl who got with your ex. I’m supposed to look good with you. I don’t know if I have a suit nice enough for that dress.”
“Ryland. It’s not about saying ‘fuck you’ to Daisy, or pulling some revenge stunt. I just didn’t want to go alone like a loser when I said I was bringing someone.” You can’t really help the little breathy laugh that weaves its way though his name, because he sounds like you did four days ago acting like the world was about to end, face down on the lunch table. “You don’t have to come.”
“No, I’m coming. I just need to go through my wardrobe.” He’s cute, you decide, in a round-about sort of way. The determination to play this self elected role well, to perfect it and give it his all, like he does with everything else in his life. The whole situation was elevating your ‘aesthetic appreciation’ of Ryland that you’d been attempting to suppress, to a new sort of level.
You flop down on your own bed, roll over on your side and let him derail the conversation towards lesson planning, listen to him talk about the plans he has for the next weeks worth of classes, a couple of activities he’s got in the works. All while you consider the pros and cons of having him beside you instead.
Ryland was probably the teacher you got on best with at work, despite being from two very different teaching areas. When he’d first arrived, you’d assumed he would be a little pretentious, with his Phd and professional experience beyond the classroom. You weren't expecting him to be so awkward. The children took to him so quickly, and Ryland had told you time and time again that he doesn't understand why they think he’s cool.
Over the years you’ve found that he can be cocky, in certain bouts of confidence seemingly appearing via divine-intervention. A local bar had run trivia nights for some six odd months, and it had unleashed a beast within him.
On Monday afternoon he sent you a photo. A little black bag with a logo you’d googled, realising it was a menswear store before the second photo had come though. A tie, sleek navy like your dress, rolled up neatly with a matching pocket square beside it, both nestled in a box that screamed expensive. You’d sent back a random string of praise, imagining him lulling it over in the store. It was nearly five in the afternoon, he’d left work pretty much on the final bell. You wonder how long he spent comparing the seemingly endless ties the shop’s online store offered, considering what would match best to your dress.
It makes you a little giddy, to be honest, has you dreaming of a situation where you’d asked him to come to the wedding, or where you’d already been together long enough that it was simply a given when the invitation turned up in your mail box.
Neither of you mention it during school hours, not keen on the kids hearing whispers of you and Ryland doing anything outside work hours- students will take anything and run with it.
But he messages you about it constantly. Makes a plan; he’d come to your apartment and you would uber from there to the venue, it was a sunset ceremony and evening reception. He lived close enough that it was a brisk walk or quick bus trip. He pointedly mentions that he would not be cycling- ‘In a suit? God, never’- and makes sure you know that the uber would also drop you both back to your flat and he’d walk home or take another separate uber.
There’s talk about your ‘backstory’, which he takes as seriously as he does exam periods. You tell him it’s not super necessary, that saying you met at work is more than enough exposition for the gaggle of college friends you’d not seen in years. But he was never one to do things in halves.
“We obviously would have met at school.” He says, like it’s a given. Ryland is laid out on the reading rug at the back of your classroom, staring at the ceiling. And the fake clouds that are actually just a hobby-fill glue gunned to paper and taped to the ceiling, he’d turned the fairy lights that are threaded though them on before he’d decided the floor was his resting place. “Maybe trivia is where it happened. We liked trivia.”
“We did like trivia.” You agree, pointedly.
It’s almost impossible to not just sit there and watch him, the student folders that you’re sorting worksheets into acting as a very inefficient distraction.
He’s got a button down on, some pale blue that looks nice under his grey wool blazer. The pale wash jeans and white converse are a bit more casual, but he wears the combination well. Too well. Laid out like this, with one knee up, he looks far too attractive for you to swallow. Glasses pulled down to hang off his jaw, sitting there catching the afternoon light as it came through the windows, casting rainbow refractions onto the back wall.
“Maybe trivia was a date. What would you have done?”
“If you’d asked me to trivia as a date?” You glance up. He’s already looking at you, head tipped to the side, something soft, tentative there in his eyes.
“Yeah.” You can see the way his throat bobs when he swallows, how his chest rises with each breath.
Ryland sounds… nervous, in a way that does remind you of the first trivia night you’d gone to. He’d been dressed similarly there, you remember thinking he looked nice, polished up a little more than he did in the school day with dress shoes and what smelt like cologne. Handsome where he waited by the entrance, backlit by the bar’s warm lighting. He’d been a little twitchy for the first hour or so, but settled into himself by round two.
With the way he’s looking at you, now as he plans out the false scenario that’s beginning to sound a lot more like a confession, you’re starting to get the idea that trivia could have been a date. If either of you had put it into words.
“Enjoyed it, probably.”
“Really?” He looks shy, a bit of a flush working its way up his cheeks.
You smile at him, thinking about how nice it would have been to kiss him in that bar with a sweet cocktail on your lips, dizzy from his flattery about your trivia skills. You hum, nodding a little as you look at the folders and sheets spread out over your desk, feeling a flush rise to your own cheeks.
He knocks when you’re halfway through lacing up the back of your dress, holding the cords with one hand as you open the door. Ryland’s not been to your apartment before, something you’d failed to realise until he called you and asked during his walk over, if you’d have to buzz him in.
He was appalled to find out the front door to your building was sporting a broken lock and had been tied back with a length of rope for the last two months while the landlords procrastinated fixing it.
“See,” You say, opening the door for him, keeping it propped open with your foot as he shuffles in. “My door locks.”
“Still one less lock that you’re supposed to have.” he grumbles, stepping out of his very nice dress shoes. They look expensive- black leather shined up propper.
Actually, Ryland looks expensive.
“You look nice,” he says, smiling a little shy, as if the compliment had just slipped out and he was supposed to be embarrassed about that.
“I uh,” You pause, swallowing thickly.
Holy fuck he looks good in a suit. It’s the only thought spinning around your head. It’s a proper one, tailor made no doubt. Blazer, slacks and undershirt, all three of them a deep inky black. The navy tie he’d sent you a photo of is done up around his neck in a knot neater than you’ve ever seen him wear to work. The pocket square is folded too, fluffed up with a little volume that suggests he did so intentionally.
Suddenly you’re reminded of all those times he’d complained about all the formal conferences and charity gala’s he’d attended during his days in academia. You realise you have made a grave error.
There have always been little parts about Ryland that oozed wealth, the glasses he wore for one, that he told you were antique when you’d asked. The watch on his wrist that you thought looked like some practical sporty thing but found out was actually worth three months rent when you’d googled it out of curiosity. These little things fall out of the spotlight and become footnotes that are often ignored when he’s in his classroom, or tiny apartment.
Dressed in such a nice suit, here in you apartment definitely wearing cologne- the same from that very first trivia night, something a little warm, woodsy like oaky bourbon, sharp and contrary to the fresh nothingness he smelt like at work- Ryland seemed so far beyond you.
“You look good.” You manage, letting the door slip shut and dropping the lace of your dress, it loses its tension a little but stays in the same spot for the most part, to run a hand over the lapel of his blazer. “How long have you had this?”
“Ages. Dug it out of the back of my closet. A little tighter than when I last wore it, but it will do the trick. Right?” He tacks that last bit on, like he’s waiting with baited breath for your approval.
“I’ll say.” You slide your hand down the lapel a little bit, down over the press of his chest. The tightness just shows the subtlety of his build, lean muscle that comes from idle exercise and good diet, maybe even a splash of genetics. He’s tidied his facial hair up a little, slid the electric razor over all of it to make sure it’s the same length, no doubt. Ryalnd’s still got his glasses on, you were a little worried he might have opted for contacts and are very relieved you get to see this outfit complete with the lenses that frame his face so well.
With a realisation you might be getting a little lost in your head, you drop your hand, turning to walk further into your apartment, towards the couch where your shoes for the night sat on the floor. “Right, we'll, I'm nearly ready. The uber will be here soon.”
“Do you need a hand?” Ryland asks, and you’re about to turn, ask him, ‘with what’ when you feel his fingertips against the small of your back. It sends a jolt though your skin, he’s cold. From the outside air, where as you’ve been nice and cosy with the heat on while you’d done your hair and make up.
Goosebumps rise under his hands as they gather the ties for the back of your dress. Something low swoops in your gut, like the dip of a roller coaster, free falling as he chuckles a little behind you. “Sorry, cold fingers.”
You swallow. “It’s.. it’s okay.”
“How tight?” He asks, giving the strings a gentle tug. You almost sway with the moment, feeling a little swept off your feet already.
“Bit tighter.” You manage, as he presses a flat palm against the small of your back, over the criss-crossing cord, and gathers both ties in one hand to pull slow and firm. It tugs you back into his hand, a steadier hold than you’d expected.
“There?” He questions when the dress is pulled in to sit flush with your skin but not dig in. You get the feeling he might have done some research, when he plucks at each string to even them out and make sure none of them are too tight, on how these dresses are supposed to sit.
“Yeah, perfect.” It leaves you like a sigh, as his palm dips, brushes where the zipper sits before pulling back to tie a neat bow, tugging the cords out carefully so both loops are even.
All of it has you lightheaded, directing more effort than necessary to get yourself to the couch and pull your heels on, black mary janes that are comfortable enough to walk in. As you fiddle with the buckles, you eye him.
Ryland’s hair is tousled, intentionally a little messy, not combed or slicked back. Looks like it would be nice to run your fingers though, and you find yourself wondering if that’s why he’d opted for the style, if he’s here, dressed up as the guy with ‘better hair and a better jawline’ that Margot had pitched, unaware that he already was exactly who he’s trying to be.
He holds an arm out for you to loop yours though, walking down the stairs in steady but slowed steps. You smile. “Wow, full gentleman experience.”
“I told you, I can't just ‘put on a suit’. It’s more than that.” He chides jokingly, and you pity the version of you that didn’t realise this was an option.
He opens the door for you- the car door, the door into the building door tied back by a rope (he glares at it when you pass it)- then rounds the back of the little toyota that’s polished up to try and seem fancier than it was. You don’t talk much on your way to the venue, comfortable silence that the driver thankfully settles into.
It’s nearing sundown when you pull into the driveway, a big circular road that’s already crammed with other cars and guests climbing out.
“You can just let us out here.” Ryland says to the uber driver, unbuckling his seatbelt to hop out, then rounding the car again to open your door, hand held out like it’s necessary, when the car is nowhere near low or high enough to warrant such assistance.
You place your palm in his anyway, letting him pull you from the car, no more temperature disparity in your hands since you’ve both been in the car for fifteen minutes, but it still makes your skin tingle. He’s got cufflinks, the same pale gold as his glasses, in the shape of atoms. You flick one lightly. “I like these.”
He smiles, something a little smothered like he’s trying to stamp it down from a grin as he threads his arm though yours again, beginning the small walk to the venue's front steps. “Well I like your dress, so I think we’re even.”
It’s a ballroom, with these big stained glass windows in the room they hold ceremonies in, you’d seen some lovely shots on the venue’s website of sunset light streaming through them. Imagining Ryland in the warm sunlight has you in a good mood, he’s always suited it, even if the city’s never had much to offer.
“Not too much for our first date?” You tease.
Something like a laugh tumbles out of his lips, leaning down to whisper in your ear. “First date was trivia- and you were underdressed. Keep up.”
You flush, crowding a little closer to his side to make it through the entryway without shoulder checking anyone. Had you been? It was so long ago you could hardly remember anything other than jeans, tight ones that dug into your waist when you sat down- tight jeans hardly felt like being underdressed, they probably meant you wanted him to stare at your ass. Either way you let him have the win, as minute as it is.
Doesn't really matter what you wore back then when you’ve got him like this now.
Together you sit about halfway down on the bride’s side, the pew’s nearly empty, only someone on the other end you don’t know but looks vaguely enough like Daisy, that's you’d guess extended family.
“So why’d you like this guy so much?” Ryland asks, quiet enough for it to just stay between the two of you. He’s glancing around, but his eyes keep bouncing back to Jack at the front of the venue, where he’s talking to gaggle of similarly dressed guys, his groomsmen.
“What?”
“Him,” Ryland says, tipping his head a little to gesture at Jack. “What had you talking about soulmates? Couldn't just be the hair, tons of guys have good hair.”
“They do.” You answer, raising a hand to tangle one of the longer stands where it’s dangling over his forehead around your pointer finger and give it a light tug. Ryland’s eyes settle on you, like there’s nothing else to look at. “He made me feel like the only girl in the world.”
“That’s a cliche.” He refutes. “And a song lyric.”
You smile. “I’m serious. He’s like that with every girl he went out with. He’s like it with Daisy. He just loses sight of every other woman, so attentive.”
Ryland stays silent for a moment, eyes searching for something in yours. Maybe permission, or a want, for him to keep digging, it’s almost as if he’s scared what he might find. “What'd he do? To make you feel like that?”
It’s cute, how nervous he is, despite the fact it feels as though all week, the pair of you have been laying this ground work, a path to follow that will lead you somewhere inevitable, like a trivia date, or the messy sprawled sage green sheets or Ryland’s bed. You smile at him, wondering if he’s thought about you in them. You wonder if he knows how easily you could be, that you might just follow him to the edge of the universe.
Still, you answer his question, offering a peek into your brain, the way you used to operate when teenage giddiness was closer than adult yearning. "Took me dancing. Kissed me slowly, cared about how I wanted things to go. It was like he just couldn’t stop looking at me, for me. It was intoxicating.”
“I can’t.” Ryland blurts out, all reckless abandon, and he’s looking at you like you’ve already kissed him breathless just by being here. You let your leg shift to press the length of your thigh against his, warm even through the layers of fabric.
You breathe in deep through your nose, the scent of his cologne sticking dizzyingly to the air, a scent you think is enough to get drunk on even without the assistance of wedding champagne. "Can't what?”
“Stop looking at you.” He clarifies, eyes darting down to your lips. “I can do the other things though.”
A flutter knocks about your chest, unsteady and uncoordinated. “Yeah, you like dancing Doctor Grace?”
“If it’s with you.” He amends.
“And slow kissing? You like that too?”
“Yeah I do.” He’s not even trying to hide it now, gaze settled on the dusty pink line of your lips, his own a little slick with spit when he darts his tongue out to trace one quick line along them.
You almost asked him to prove it, but in your peripherals, down the aisle and pausing at the sight of you, was Macey, another one of your college friends, smiling. So you place a hand on Ryland's thigh, just above his knee. “Good. Really good.”
Ryland looks dizzy with the praise, like it’s all rushed straight to his head.
“Hey Macey, good to see you.” You greet, using your hand on Ryland's knee to tip his legs towards you, making room for Macey to shuffle into the pew.
“Oh my god, good to see you too! It's been awhile, hasn’t it?” She leans down a little awkwardly to wrap you in a hug as you half stand, and it’s good to see someone after so long, to look at them and remember times when things were simpler and you were allowed to be a little stupid, a little dangerous. It’s nice to see her here, for her to sit next to you- Macey’s always encouraged you to be a little wild, and with the way Ryland’s been looking at you all night, you might need her ego-bosting tonight.
“I’m Macey, nice to meet you.” She extends a hand to Ryland over your lap and he shakes it curtly, offering his own introduction.
There’s a big rock on her finger, and you remember seeing it on an instagram post, some dreamy forest scenery with a ‘coming soon to a theatre near you’ caption under it.
“I suppose it will be your wedding next then,” You tease, “Where’s Jamie?”
“Oh she had a work trip, couldn't avoid it. She wanted to come though.” Macey waves off. Her and her fiance met on some film set, both camera operators, at the time, although you faintly recall reading something about Jamie’s name working its way up to director for some upcoming project, amongst the throws of social media posts from people who once knew everything about you and now you only see once every few years.
“So Ryland,” Macey starts with a glimmer in her eyes, something evil and mischievous that throws you back to seeing her in the living room with a bottle of tequila and monopoly board. “How’d you two meet?”
“We teach at the same school,” He grins, a hand sliding to your knee, just along the inside of it, where your dress fabric hangs low with slack, enough for his palm to press there, thumb drawing slow lines back and forth. “A little cliche but I don’t mind.”
Macey smiles, fans her face a little like that’s just soooo romantic. “What do you teach?”
“Science, opposites attract I guess.”
“Please tell me you used that line.” She practically swoons.
Ryland huffs a little laugh. “No, the kids threw that one at me actually.”
“Really?” You question, a raised eyebrow because that was not part of the backstory he’d been cooking up all week.
“Oh yeah. You should hear them. “Mr. Grace, you and Miss are ,like perfect for each other. You should ask her to the spring dance. They’re relentless, I swear.”
He pitches his voice a little, lazy tones and improper grammar leaking out in the way it did when he did impressions of your students and you can’t help but giggle a little.
“Their heads might explode when they find out.” Macey laughs too, then like a stroke of inspiration, slaps her hand against your arm a few times in pure, unrestrained excitement. “God- remember when we found out Professor Morisaki and Professor Collins were married? Holy shit it was like our heads exploded.”
You bark a laugh, muffling it under your hand considering the rather low level of idle chatter in the venue. “Oh my god, I forgot about that.”
“Professors of yours?” Ryland asks, this soft smile spread across his lips still.
“Yeah, we were doing a car-wash fundraiser! They were kissing in the background of one of our photos!” Macey still whispers gossip like she did in college, like your students do now.
Ryland looks a little red in the face when he asks. “A car wash fundraiser?”
Macey smirks, always too good at picking things up from others' words and you kind of want to stomp your heel over her toes to tell her off before you remember how this evening had been going so far. “Oh? Don’t you know? We were a little wild in college.”
You scoff. “A little?”
“Okay, a lot.” She corrects. “The car wash was an annual thing. White tshirts, bikinis. There’s definitely pictures. I have pictures.”
“Macey.” You scold, mostly joking.
She shrugs, straightens up and sits to face the fronts, pointedly not looking at you with a smirk on her face. “Hey- I’m just reminiscing on good times. Don’t you remember the kissing booth we ran? Of course you do you were the most requested-”
Now you stomp your foot onto hers, although she doesn’t do anything but laugh to herself.
Ryland is back to that dazed look, like he’s on some far off planet in his mind, when he murmurs, "Kissing booth?”
You glare at Macey, for a sharp moment. Before patting one hand on Ryland’s chest, leaning in close when you say, loud enough for Macey to hear. “Tell you about it later, handsome.”
He ducks his head a little close to you, a tiny little movement that stops as soon as it starts. His cheeks are the reddest you’d ever seen, looking a lot like he’s about to kiss you now, when there’s a music cue somewhere further up the aisle and a hush falls over everyone. He doesn't look away at first, eyes glued to yours for a long second before he bites his lower lip, to stop himself saying something and reaches a hand up to lace his fingers together with yours over his chest. He pulls it gently to his lap, smothering it in between his warm palms, fiddling with your fingers as the ceremony starts.
It’s beautiful, truly. The light lowered through the stained glass windows, reflecting and casting colour across the whole room, gentle music and teary vows. Picturesque really, and it reminded you of that time you’d all made ‘vision boards’ as a bonding activity, and Daisy had a little corner on hers that outlined the life she’d like to live, from a small sunset ceremony to the little white picket fence outside a cottage. You’re happy she’s finally arrived there, that she has a man who’s willing to give her everything she’d dreamed of.
You tell her as much, when you catch the pair of them in the reception hall. A warm hug for each of them and a firm hand shake between Jack and Ryland. It’s a lot less daunting than you had thought it would be, seeing them with the knot tied, no bad blood lingering or awkwardness about what once was. Just contentedness, with where your lives had led you each.
The food is good and the atmosphere is better, seeing people from a previous life chapter all reunited, laughing and catching up. The reception is held in a ball room, with gorgeous polished hard wood floors and lovely low lighting that hangs from the ceiling in delicate chandeliers. There’s a classical band, a memento board for people to take polaroids and write well wishes on them, a corner with photos from Both Daisy and Jack’s lives, in albums and tacked up on walls, showing where they meet and things bleed together into their future. All of it’s beautiful.
It’s heading into the later part of the night, when some people have excused themselves and cake has been cut, a hefty supply of the champagne depleted, that a nice slow song comes on.
You aren’t really paying that much attention to it, until you see Ryland shift beside you, rising and holding out one hand, palm up, towards you. “Care to dance?”
Something warm spreads over your face, a flush probably, as you lay a hand in his and he ever so gently pulls you to your feet, right in close to him. He leans down again, lips pressing feather-light to your temple before he leads you towards the dance floor.
It’s littered with other couples, celebrating the love they have for each other as well as the bride and groom.
All of it has you a little dizzy, settling a hand on Ryland’s shoulder as his palm slides around your waist, fingers slowing around the lace up back of your dress, pressing into your skin with gentle intent. He’s warm, firm against you, breath fanning across your cheek as you look up at him. “I know this isn’t the kind of dancing you meant, but it’s the best I can do for now.”
You humm, feet shifting in time with his, a slow waltz you weren’t even aware he knew. “I think I prefer this kind of dancing nowadays.”
Ryland’s lips tick up into a smile. “Yeah?”
He looks as good in the warm lamp light as he does in sunlight, kissing across his tanned skin and stubble, showing off the highlights of his hair. You want to run your hands through it, press a kiss to the scruff of his jaw. You settle on talking instead, worried he’s not one for such public displays of affection. “Left my wild nights behind in college.”
He sighs, like this is a devastating blow, hanging his head slightly, glasses slipping a smidge down his nose. “A shame. I was looking forwards to an appearance.”
You purse your lips, lifting the hand from his shoulder to cup his jaw, tilting his head back up a little, the pad of your thumb pressing his glasses back up to where they're supposed to sit. “Might do a private showing. Just for you.”
“You going to wash my car?” He asks, teasing. Eyes following the movement of your hand as it slips back down into place on his shoulder.
Your forehead falls, pressing against his collar bone as a furious blush blooms over your face, the worst it has been all night, murmuring, “You don’t have a car.”
He must have known what you were going to say, or some semblance of it because you certainly weren’t speaking loud enough for him to catch all of it, but he still sighs, a little dramatic. “Guess we’ll have to go with the kissing booth then.”
You lift your head a little, to look up at him where he’s smiling down, mirth dancing about in his eyes. “Oh, what a shame.”
The drawl has him crack a grin, cheeks flushed as he looks away. Fingers dancing slowly along the skin of your back, between the cords he’d tied up so perfectly for you.
For you, all of it. His nice suit he’d dug out from the back of his closet, the smart shoes nudging against yours with every step of the waltz. Ryland would do a lot for you, the realisation comes a little late, considering everything. You lean forwards a little, resting your cheek on his chest, as the song slows right down, indulgent.
“You got plans after this?” You ask, and it sounds so cheesy, so bland once it’s left your lips.
Still, when he answers, the smile is audible in Ryland’s voice. “Thought I was getting a private show. Is that offer off the table?”
“Think I can manage it,” You murmur, listening to the final few chords echo about the ball room, basking in the way his voice had rippled and rumbled through his chest, low against your cheek.
He lingers for a few seconds in the quiet, holding you close against his chest. You wonder if he, too, is basking in it. The closeness, the idea of having something that you’ve both been pretending couldn’t happen, wasn’t there in the air of exhaled breaths and weighted stares.
When he pulls back, there is nothing but adoration in his eyes, hand that holds yours falling low, but not releasing it, palm soft against your waist, almost as if he doesn't want to let you go just yet. “Wanna get out of here?”
“Bit forward, Ryland,” You tease, “we’ve not even taken photos yet.”
His eyes follow yours to the polaroid board in the corner, considers it for a moment before he’s pulling you gently by the grasp of his hand around yours, towards it.
The polaroid camera is a little hand held thing, there’s a stand for it, and poster board instructions on how to set a timer delay.
Ryland insists on taking one of just you, and while you’re grinning, trying to convince him to join you against the black fabric backdrop, the shutter goes off.
He rolls his eyes, but lets you drag him in beside you for the next photo. The timer is set, and just as you’re preparing to smile, something a little sweet and knowing, he gets one hand around the small of your back, knocks one of those very smart shoes against your heel and tilts you into a dip. It leaves you a little breathless, as he smiles, nose almost touching yours, shutter flashing off to the side.
He lets you choose which photo goes on the memo board. “Whichever one you don’t put up there, I’m keeping.”
You look a little silly in both, at least you think as much, caught off guard, and laughing a little out of breath. Ryland insists you look amazing in both. Something a bit selfish pulls at your gut, as you apprise both photos, and eventually, hand the one of you and Ryland to him- liking the idea of getting to see it again, of having a physical reminder of the night you two have spent together.
He grins like he’s won something, pulling his wallet out from his jacket pocket- a crisp brown leather that looks worn but well cared for- and to your mortification, tucks the photo into the clear slot. The one most people put their licences, or photos of loved ones, like heart-shaped lockets back in the old days. Ryland says nothing on the matter and he folds his wallet back up and slides it back into his pocket, waiting for you to write your message on the other polaroid’s back.
You scrawl some comment about happy endings and humble crazy beginnings, Signing your name on the bottom under the image of your laughter, and tack it up on the board next to the one Macey’s left.
Ryland’s got his arm out, hooked there for you to loop yours through again.
You manage to catch Daisy by the bar on your way out, and give her a tight hug, telling her again how beautiful the wedding has been, how happy you were for her.
The night air is crisp and the second you’re outside, waiting for the uber that’s just a few minutes away, Ryland strips off his suit jacket, draping it over your shoulders with a lack of hesitation that makes it seems as if he’s been waiting to do it all night.
You look at him and raise a brow, but don’t say anything when you catch sight of his pleased smile. It’s almost devastating to realise he looks even better in just the black button down and tie than he did in the full suit.
Again, the drive is mostly silent, but you notice pointedly, that you’re not going back to your apartment. And when you tilt Ryalnd’s phone and tap the screen awake, you recognise his street name in the trip’s destination.
“Presumptious.” You smile.
He grins back, lets a warm palm wander to the curve of your knee, fingers curling around it then venturing to settle a little higher around your thigh. “How are you going to wash my car if we don’t go to my place?”
“You don’t have a car.” You repeat, curious where all this teasing confidence has come from, if perhaps your very clear signals have finally given Ryland the means to throw out all of that unnecessary nervousness and doubt.
“Right,” He hisses, patting his other hand on his leg, as if to say ‘drat, there goes that plan’. Then he leans in close, whispers to you, “What was the back up plan again?”
“You are much bolder after a few glasses of champagne.”
He hums, a considering sort of sound that rumbles in the minimal air between you. “More so when I know I'm right.”
“And what, pray tell, are you right about?”
“That you like-like me.” He teases, like a child on the playground and if you were a little less level-headed, you might have kissed him right there, leant across the middle seat to lock lips with him in an uber.
But you don’t want the first time you kiss him to be viewed through a rear view mirror by a driver who looks very unimpressed by the conversation happening in the back seat. “You gonna prove that hypothesis in your apartment?”
“That’s very forwards of you.” He teases, head tipping down like he is going to kiss you.
Expect you turn your head, and his lips brush against your cheek, as you tut. “All scientists say experiments are supposed to be conducted in controlled environments.”
He leans back, still close enough for his warm breath to fan across your face. “You’ve been seeing other scientists? I’m heartbroken.”
“Give yourself some credit, your classes are very interesting.”
“Earsdropping, huh? Didn’t think you were the type.” He looks far too pleased by the idea that you’ve listened to him teach, like he doesn't know that when you come for something during class hours that you linger by the door and wait for him to finish whatever he’s saying, as if you could look at anything else when he was so captivating.
“I’ll Tell you exactly what type I am in,” You glance down to tap his phone awake, checking the ride estimate. “four minutes.”
He nods and you wonder if he’d get that head-rush distant expression on his face if you praised him for the patience. It’s something you want to save for later, you decide, for private. Just for you.
Ryland manages to wait, even keep his hands to himself, once you’re both out of the car, leading you though his building with a sort of reverent silence, that you get the impression wouldn’t return once broken. You stand across from each other in the elevator. With both his hands braced on the bar at hip height, Ryland fixes you with a look that echoes in the space, though the mirrors surrounding you and over the idle hum of machinery. You’re still wearing his jacket, over your shoulders, a slight barrier between the handrail and the curve of your back, as you stand with your arms crossed smiling at him.
The giddiness that bubbles up and about inside you, as you huddle in close behind him through the hallway, as he unlocks his door and lets you squeeze in past him, is something you’ve not felt in a long time. There’s not much room for childish excitement in the modern dating landscape, it feels as though everyone is in a rush, trying to get where they want to be with a relationship before it’s too late.
Ryland though, he’s here. You watch him latch the door, before he turns, standing there to let his eyes run up you again.
“Soooo,” He says, pursing his lips and tangling his hands together in front of him, like he’s suddenly nervous.
“So?” You ask, taking a few steps forwards to run your hand down the plane of his chest again, feeling it under your palm just like you did when he’d turned up at your apartment that afternoon.
“It’s been four minutes.” He swallows, and this close you can see how his adams apple bobs. Your other hand reaches up to scratch feather light against the stubble of his jaw, hand on his chest catching on the silky soft fabric of his tie, the one he’d picked out just for you.
Rylands hands are slow, one moves to the dip of your waist, landing where it had during your waltz, if not a little more firm as it presses you close against him. He catches his jacket by the collar, lets it slide back off your shoulders and hang from his grip as it slides to settle on the curve of your hip.
“It has.” You lick your lips.
Tuggin on his tie was not supposed to be a demanding thing, more so a gentle tease like you have been doing all night, stepping around that first move like it was a pitfall trap you’d never make it out of. Expect he pitches forwards much easier than you expected and Ryland's lips are pressed against yours.
Soft and still a little honeyed by the champagne, he moves slowly against you. He takes one step back, then another, pulling you with him and not letting his lips leave yours as he backs himself up against his apartment door.
Your teeth catch on his bottom lip, and a sharp inhale escapes him, almost a gasp, before he melts into the wood at his back, parting his lips and slipping his tongue up against yours.
It’s slow kissing, it’s dizzying and it’s want. Everything he’d promised you hours ago, in the afternoon sun of that venue, looking like a dream come true.
For what could be hours, you stay there, pressed up against him, kissing at his skin, until he shifts his legs, just slightly, enough to press one somewhere between yours, a soft presence halted by the fabric of your dress.
Breathless, you break the kiss and he lays a sweet peck against your temple, an echo of earlier, before he begins to nose at the line of your jaw, your neck. Kissing then sucking at the divot along your collar while you pant. “Ryland,”
He says your name, just as breathless against your skin, his hand dropping the jacket to pull at the chord of your dress.
“Is your doorway where you take all the girls?”
“There are no other girls.” He murmurs like a confession, far more earnest than you’d been prepared for.
“Just me?”
He pulls back, pupils blow wide and face flushed blotchy and red. “Yeah.”
Ryland leans forwards, crowds impossibly close until your feet begin to shuffle, back, back, back into his studio apartment. It passes in a blur as he presses in to kiss your lips again, glued to them until he deems it’s been enough backwards paces and presses another kiss to your jaw. Using his grip on your sides, Ryland turns you around, folds in around behind you.
His bed’s unmade, messy sheets splayed out in front of you, a pile of sage green cotton that feels like a promise, a sight you’ve dreamed about far too many times.
There’s pressure there, against your ass, a hard length that’s tight against his slacks and it makes your stomach swoop to know he’s so turned on by the slow kissing you’d been thinking about all night. His shuddering breath rushes like wind by your ear, as his fingers pull at the bow he’d tied himself. “Been thinking about this for too long.”
“Yeah?” You shudder when his lips find their place against your neck, sucking and biting at the skin there in a way that will probably result in a lasting reminder. “Since you laced it up?”
“Since you showed me this zipper." He pulls at it and the fabric gives, parting to sit low on your hips. Ryland kisses at the juncture of your throat, biting, and nipping.
The dress doesn’t fall, not with the straps still hanging loosely from your shoulders, but it’s a damn near thing. One of Ryland’s hands winds around your waist, dragging you back against him as he presses up with one slow grind that has him choking on a groan. His cock, still trapped in his slacks, drags between the zip and against your underwear in a tease that’s maddening with far too much still left to your imagination.
You try to turn but he’s got you wrapped up so firmly in his arms that it’s not plausible, so instead you reach a hand back, over your shoulder to tug at the knot of his tie, fingers slipping against the silky marital, catching in the bulk to it to tug. A particularly hard tug has him whining.
“Okay,” You huff out as he sucks a little harder just under your jaw that will definitely result in a hickey if you let him continue for much longer. “Come on, don’t you wanna fuck me?”
You punctuate this by groping around between you both until you get a hand over his cock, giving it a gentle squeeze.
“Need to remember this bit.” He mumbles, hand around your waist retreating to slip inside your dress from behind, curving back around so his fingers can skate over the soft skin of your stomach, tips slipping just under the waistband of your panties.
It has you clenching down on nothing and you become actually aware of how uncomfortably wet you’re beginning to get. You squeeze your thighs together, squirming in his grasp.
“Next time, Ry-” He splays his hand over your stomach, using it to press you back into him. “Ryland, come on. Need you.”
It tumbles out in a breathy whine, and it’s like you’ve said the magic words. He’s turning you around in his grasp, hands reaching up to slip the straps off your shoulders and marvel at the sight.
He swallows as you reach for his tie again, loosening it gently now you can get your fingers into the knot properly. Ryland’s hands hover nervously before settling against your rib cage, fingers brushing anxiously against the underside of your breasts.
Your dress was not one that lent itself to a bra, so you’d gone without. You had assumed that he’d figured that one out, given how he’d both laced and un-laced the back of it, but now that it’s out of the way, he’s looking at your chest like he hadn’t expected to see it so quickly.
“You mean it?” He manages, sounding all tongue tied as you pry the tie off, letting it fall onto the floor, blending into the puddle of your dress- a perfect shade match. “I.. I get a next time?”
“Yeah.” You breathe, working on his shirt buttons, one after the other, coming apart as easily as Ryland did under your gaze. “As many as you want.”
When you get to the bottom of his shirt and reach for the belt buckle, Ryland’s hands move from where they’ve been gently nudging your breasts, to your wrists, snagging them gently as he pulls them back. His shoes nudged against yours, another one of those silent signals to step back that you didn’t know you understood so well until tonight.
“Let me.” He says, one hand coming to your hip to push you gently back and down onto his bed.
You land softly, mattress springing underneath you as you shuffle back, leaning on your elbows to gaze up at him as he toes off his shoes and pulls off his socks, a little off balance like the whole path from the door has altered his centre of gravity.
Ryland is a sight, heaven-sent.
His hair’s spiked out in six different directions, and you want to scratch at his scalp and pull at the strands all over again. He slides his glasses down his nose and sets them on the nightstand. The skin of his chest is just as tanned as his arms, a wide expanse that’s begging to be marked up with your teeth and nails.
The belt buckle clinks softly in the empty air as he slips it open, unbuttoning his slacks before he shrugs the black dress shirt off. God, you want to bite his shoulders.
Your teeth clamp down on your tongue at the thought, kind of wishing the tie was in the picture so you could pull him down on top of you. Just when you’re about to reach up, aiming for his shoulder or maybe even his cheek, Ryland surprises you by taking a knee.
His fingers are a little clumsy as they wrap around the heel of your left shoe, pulling it up onto his bent knee as he fumbles with the buckle. He’s gentle with it, more careful than he was with his own shoes that are certainly worth more than your cheap pair, right shoe, then the left.
Still, it has your stomach tied up in knots to witness with just how much reverence he’s treating you. And the sight of Ryland between your legs is certainly one you could get used to.
He presses a kiss to the inside of your knee before blinking up at you. “Are you… Can I-”
Ryland cuts himself off and that same unwarranted nervousness from before takes over his face, fingers curling tightly around your ankle, as if to ground himself. You smile at him, something that feels a little too giddy and a little too much like your 20 year-old self from college, fumbling and laughing your way to bed. “What is it Ry? You’ve already got me on your bed, no need to be shy.”
He bites his bottom lip, rolling it between his teeth as he considers the words. “If you say so.”
Then he gently leads your leg, by the ankle that’s still gripped tightly in his palm, off his propped leg as he drops it to kneel, and hooks it over his shoulder. Ryland kisses a path up your calf and along the inside of your leg and with an overwhelming flood of realisation, you fall back against the bed, bracing for the moment where he presses a soft kiss on your clit, through the fabric of your underwear.
Despite his earlier hesitance, Ryland does not dilly-dally. Once he hears your shuddering breath that sounds more like a moan than anything else, he hooks a thumb though the crotch of your panties, pulls them to the side and presses another slow kiss against you.
It’s maddening, has you gasping out his name as he licks a stripe up your cunt, sighing into it like it’s the best thing he’s ever tasted. He’s been teasing you long enough that when he presses two fingers along your folds, teasing the resistance of it, they sink in easily. He hooks them up, pressing up against the spongy wall and pulls another moan from your lips.
You're not sure how long Ryland spends between your legs with your hands in his hair and name on your lips, but it’s got you dizzy, clenching around his fingers as he strokes them inside you, languid and slow as he lays gentle kisses over your clit. His stubble scratches against your thighs in a way you’d expected to hate, but are getting rather fond of.
It’s a slow build that crests with you moaning his name and clenching around his fingers as his tongue slows, your hips twitching a little with overstimulation post-orgasm. He moves his kisses to the inside of your thigh, the one not hooked over his shoulder as you catch your breath and it’s highly plausible that he’s leaving another hickey there.
When he does pull back, Ryland is just as breathless as you. Cheeks flushed and chest stuttering as he licked his lips clean. His pupils are blown wide, so much so you can hardly see the blue as he gazes up at you. “You said I could fuck you, right?”
“Yeah,” you swallow, throat scratchy and dry. “You can.”
With your head still spinning from the attention and care he’s taking with you, it’s a moment before you realise his hands are back at your hips as he shuffles you around the bed, up until he can fit his palm behind your head and lift it onto a pillow that smells like him.
Ryland’s above you, propped up on one elbow and a knee to keep his weight off your body. You can feel each heavy exhale on your cheek. “Like this?”
“Just like this.” You say, nodding hand reaching up for his cheek to pull him down into another slow, languid kiss.
He leans in close, whining against your mouth as you part your legs for him to set his between and get a hand on the small of his back, pressing until he gets the hint and grinds downs. It has you both moaning and panting against each other.
You’re getting impatient, and while he must have ditched the pants somewhere between eating you out and repositioning you right side up on the mattress, he’s still got his briefs on and you’re still wearing your underwear.
“Off,” You grunt, hand pulling at the waistband of his briefs.
Ryland’s head drops to the space beside yours, just above your shoulder as he reaches a hand down to pull his underwear down over his cock and down his legs, kicking them off somewhere at the end of the bed.
He gasps, a shaky exhale hitting your skin as you wrap your hand around the length of him.
Warm and heavy in your palm, he’s bigger than you’d expected. When you slide your hand up, swiping a thumb over the head of his dick, there’s so much precum that it pools on your thumb pad. You give him a slow pump, slide eased by the wetness.
Ryland mouths at the skin of your shoulder, and the hand he’s not using to keep himself above you finds its way to your hip, slipping under your panties, pulling at them.
“Condoms. I need-” He cuts himself off with another groan, biting into your skin then kissing it softly like an apology. “I need a condom.”
His hand slips out from your underwear and he gets his knees up either side of your hips to reach over, straining for the nightstand. You take the moment to kiss along his collarbone, using the hand that’s not wrapped around him to tug your panties down, wriggling them off and down your legs.
It doesn’t go unnoticed, and he drops the condom wrapper somewhere beside your head as his gaze whips back to your face. “I was going to do that.”
He sounds a little bit thrown, like he’d really been looking forwards to pulling your panties off.
“You were also going to fuck me.” You prod, giving his cock another languid stroke, watching his face contort with pleasure as he groans. He eases himself back over you, legs between yours and his weight pressing down in a way that has you sighing in contentment.
“Not fair.” He pants, forehead dropping against yours. A hand, so gentle and far too tender comes up to brush the hair by your temple, away from your eyes. “Next time, you let me take my time, okay?”
You press a kiss to the corner of his mouth. “We’ll take turns.”
The condom wrapper crinkles in your fingers and you pinch the edge of it between your teeth and rip the corner off, splitting it open with your thumb. Ryland whines, louder and needier than you’d heard him all night, when you roll it over his dick, hips bucking into your hand and cock bumping against your stomach.
He gets his hand down between your bodies, runs three of his fingers through your folds, making your breath hitch. Then he nudges your hand out of the way and runs his cock though them next. You whine, high pitched and stuttered.
It’s a slow steady push when he slips inside you, one that draws out a long moan from your lips. Ryland moans your name, panting and kissing at your throat.
“God,” he pants. “You feel so good, baby.”
A broken whine sneaks past your lips, one hand reaching up to slide around the back of his neck, to lead his face back to yours so you can kiss him all over again.
This type of slow kissing might have been your new favorite, Ryland’s tongue teasing the seam of your lips before you slip them apart, tracing the line of his teeth with your own tongue. He rolls his hips, grinding down in a slow motion. The curve of his cock drags along your walls, along that spongy spot before bumping so deep inside that it must hit your cervix.
You hook a leg up around his waist and it has his stomach pressing up against your clit when he moves again. Moaning into his mouth, you see stars. “Fuck, that’s perfect- so good.”
Your fingers tangle in the hair at the nape of his neck, pulling in a way that earns you a whine and a jerky thrust of his hips. “Y-yeah?”
“Yeah Ry- perfect. Feel so full.” The praise kicks him into gear and his slow occasional grinds turn into a building pace, hips pushing against yours and he buries himself to the hilt with every thrust.
You kiss at the line of his jaw, mouthing and biting at the stubble there. He moans, sharp exhale hitting your cheek. “‘M not gonna last much longer, sw-swetheart.”
“S’okay. Let go, baby.” You murmur by his ear, free hand slipping down to press against your clit.
The pressure alone is almost enough to tip you over the edge, pussy spasming around him. Ryland groans, loud and unrestrained, his rhythm falling apart as you do.
When he does come, he manages a couple more thrusts, shallow as they nudge up against that perfect spot inside you. Ryland whines, shaking a little with over stimulation.
“Couple more.” You moan, fingers winding tight little circles over your clit. “Almost there.”
Your spine goes stiff and a drawn-out whine slips out as you cum, clenching around the weight of him. Ryland stills inside, buried deep as he pants.
Slowly, he eases himself down over you, the gentle pressure of his weight relaxing. Ryland only takes a few moments there though, before sliding an arm under you and around your waist, slowly rolling you both, so he’s sprawled out with his back on those sage green sheets with you draped over him.
He kisses your temple, mumbling your name like a prayer. “‘S a good kissing booth. Might be a repeat customer.”
You push up a little to look at him, hands either side of his chest, and a hitched breath sputters out of his lips as you shift, his cock still inside you. “Might? What happened to ‘next time’?”
He smiles at you, hands reaching for your hips as he draws slow lines up and down your skin with his thumbs. “Well, I don’t wanna push my luck.”
“You’re not pushing anything.” You murmur, leaning back down to kiss him proper.
Once the aftershocks of your orgasm have faded and the idea of being empty no longer pulls painfully at your chest, you raise your hips up and let Ryland’s now soft cock slip out. He exhales heavily, and you lay beside him, eyes on the slow spinning ceiling fan.
He sits himself up not long after, slips the condom off and wanders off to the tiny door that you now know is his bathroom. He comes back with a damp cloth, smiling at you shyly as he cleans you up, gentle swipes over your core and along the inside of your thighs.
Ryland walks over and pulls some boxers on, then returns to the bed to slide a pair over your hips too. “You want a shirt?”
You bite your bottom lip in a poor attempt to smother a grin. “Only if it’s one of your nerdy ones.”
He kisses the smile off your lips and wanders back over to his wardrobe, throws a shirt in your general direction then goes about fixing the sheets.
You admire the sight. It had never occurred to you how nice his arms were, you want them around you again. He pulls the sheets straight, then up over you before he crawls in beside you.
“This okay?” He asks, pulling you over to lay up against him.
“More than okay.” You snuggle closer, cheek pressed against the warm plane of his chest. “Been thinking about this.”
The confession slips out in a rush of endorphins, like you’re so happy to be wrapped up in his arms and sheets, smelling like him, that you just can’t help but let him know.
You can hear the confusion in his voice when he speaks. “Having sex with me?”
No. You almost say, even though you had. It wasn’t where you were trying to go with this though. “Sleeping in your bed. With you.”
The rise and fall of his chest, of a heavy exhale, moves beneath you. “Oh.”
“I think our next date should be trivia.” You declare, a quiet sort of smile on your lips as his fingers trace slow little circles on your back between the waistband of your borrowed boxers and the ridden up hem of the shirt. “So we can get it right this time.”
“Deal.”
[ Masterlist ]
baby's first Goose fic? more proabaly on the way, although next fic published will proabaly be an oc one, with either Ryland Grace or Holland March from the nice guys.
Oral fixation Grace anyone? No? Well buckle up anyways you’re listening.
Ryland always had something in his mouth. Gum, the lid of his pen, chewing on his lips. He always found something to do with it, and you were next on his to do list.
He was subtle when you guys first started dating, not wanting to freak you out. Kisses that linger for a few seconds more than usual, kissing your neck, collarbone, shoulders, not exactlyyy trying to get you shirtless, but just enough to feel that he was experimenting. Testing the waters, yet too scared to go through with it.
The first time you guys had sex, it wasn’t too obvious, maybe he thought so. But the amount of time he spent worshipping your breasts (just kissing around the area and squeezing, god knew he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable) and proceeded to eat you out for longer than he even lasted. He could use the excuse that, people just prefer when men do that, which he isn’t wrong, but still.
You had your suspicions. And you were determined to help him get out of his shell.
Ryland came back from a long day at school, exhaustion evident in the way he shrugged off his layers, loosing the tie around his neck with the help of his fingers. And you, the sweet partner you are, helped him decompress, kissing his jaw slowly, making your way up to his lips. His hands found your waist, steadying himself against you, slowly pinning you against the wall of your living room. The make out was getting heated, messes of tongues and sloppy noises between the both of you, he’s whining into it, grounding his clothed hips against your own, his boner incredibly hard to miss.
He wastes no time in getting your shirt (his shirt) off of you, the lack of a bra evident when he threw the fabric that covered you seconds ago across the floor, waiting to be picked up tomorrow. He stared in awe, as if he hasn’t seen this view dozens of times before, but there was something there. His hands wandered up to cup them gently, not doing much, but the cogs in his smart brain were turning.
That suspicion in you, was only confirmed with the way he was looking at you, wanting to ask, not knowing how, but he didn’t have to. You leaned up and kissed the skin below his ear.
“You wanna suck em?” You whispered into his ear with that sultry tone you only use with him, pressing your bare chest against the rough material of his button up shirt. Ryland nods quickly, the speed of it making him dizzy but he didn’t care.
“God please. You gon’ let me make you feel good right, pretty?”
And like that, he wastes no time in wrapping your legs around his waist, bringing you to the couch, kissing at your chest. When he sat down, you on his lap, his eyes met yours, not breaking the contact when he latched onto your nipple and sucked and watching your face contorting into sweet bliss, delicate fingers tangling into his locks.
He could get off on your pleasure alone.
This is so messy guys, I wanted to make it a full fic but can you tell i cant write smut *pink giggle emoji*
𝑴𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑻 1 — FULL! FOR NEW CONTENT HEAD TO MASTERLIST 2
COLLECTIVE GOSLING POSTS:
Cockwarming — Colt, Holland, Driver, Ryland, & Lars| Puppy reader — puppy!lars and owner!ryland | Remote Vibe — Lars, Court, Driver, Holland, Ryland, Colt | Eating Pussy — Lars, Holland, Court, Driver, Ryland | Volume — Holland, Colt, Ryland, Lars | More munch headcanons — Holland, Colt, Ryland, Lars, Driver, Court | Period hcs — Court, Colt, Ryland, Lars, Driver, Holland | Goosegang + their scents | Goosegang + Secret kinks | Holland + Colt + Bad periods | Oblivious!Reader | Aftercare | Threesome with Coltland
P!LINKS — All but Ryland
RYLAND GRACE:
Soft!Dom!Roommate!Ryland — fucking out of the roommates phase | Soft!Dom!Ryland — condescending!ry | Ryland x reader — space sex drabble | Dom!Ryland headcanons — Pt.1 | Dom!Jealous!Ryland — clubbing | Sub!Puppy!Ryland — cumming without touch | Ryland had a wet dream of you | Roommate!Ryland — Walking in on him | Ryland the munch hcs | Pussy!Drunk!Ryland | Pathetic!Jealous!Ryland my sweet boy | Bush lover Ryland eating you outtt... | Feral!Sub!Ryland hcs | Pegging Ryland Hcs | Ryland x Chubby reader hcs | D1 muncher ryland again lol | Ryland x english-major!reader | Ryland x Brat!reader | Ryland x beefy!reader | Ryland x reader pilot seat | Soft!D ryland cant keep up the act | Ryland being painfully oblivious | Headlock w Ry | Masochist Ryland & Biting | Ryland & dirty talking | neighbor!stoner!reader x ryland | Dry Humping & Twister | PussyDrunk!Ry fucking you | Ryland all tied up | Dry humping and sucking Ry's fingers | Ryland on a leash | Ry fucking his younger crew member | Ryland and impact play | Ryland edging bratty reader | Ry fucks chubby!reader's tits & tummy | Fucking you while he's fully clothed | Misc Owner!Ry x Pup!Reader | Ryland's cologne | Touching to his voice | Punishing Puppy!reader | Walking in on Roomie Ry pt.2
RYLAND GRACE P!LINKS
Dirty Latte — Ryland x CAMSTAR!Reader
HOLLAND MARCH:
Holland's kinks | Holland x mommy!reader | Holland loves your feet | Holland likes to be used | Modern!Holland + stockings | Chubby!gf and Holland | GunPlay | Flustering Holland | Panty theif Holland | Stalker!Holland gets caught | DARKFIC — Stalker!Holland | Pegging Holland | Age aint nothing but a number | Dry humping in his kitchen
LARS LINDSTROM:
perv!reader & Lars drabble | pussy smacking with Lars | Afab!Lars fucking you with a strap | Perv!Stalker!Lars | Lars chasing you in the woods | Stalker!Neighbor!Lars x Stalker!Neighbor!Reader | He loves kissing your tummy after eyo | FLUFF! — Lars x Touchy reader
DRIVER (DRIVE 2011):
Riding Driver's gloved fingers | Driver fucking you through your tears | Driver and your scars (ANGSTY SMUT) | Driver w a Prince Albert | Sub!Driver + Muzzle | Stalker!Driver | Sub!Driver | Hickeys with Driver | Owner!Driver | General Dom!Driver Hcs | Car sex + just his jacket | He calls you "Pretty Baby" | He knows everything about you | He hunts you down
COLT SEAVERS:
Hike sex w/Colt | Colt Seavers loves to be hit | Colt seavers + gunplay | Colt is a messy kisser |
COURTLAND GENTRY
Inexperienced!Court + discovering he's a switch | sex with neighbor!court
↬depicts: colt seavers, holland march, lars lindstrom, and ryland grace
↬warning: nothing serious. mild mentions of alcohol abuse and dangerous stunts. no spoilers for project hail mary either
↬notes: this is my first time writing anything in a year.. be nice. hoping that this'll push me to be more consistent with writing
𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒
• you know how little kids will beg you to turn around and watch them do a cool trick, only to show you a three inch jump off the ground? yeah, that's colt. only those three inch jumps are more like dangerous, life threatening stunts.
• he tries sooooo hard to impress you. not because he needs to, but because he loves the look on your face after when you're hitting him on the shoulder with a poorly contained smile and asking what the fuck is wrong with him.
"whattt, you can't tell me that wasn't a good shot! come on, i did, like, three rolls in that car and barely have a scratch! that's *got* to get some sort of recognition." colt wraps an arm around your shoulder, peering down at you with a much-too-excitable expression for your taste. it made pretending to be annoyed with him pretty hard— his ultimate goal at the end of the day, you knew that by now.
"yeah, that's ignoring the bruise on your side the size of texas, you adrenaline junkie." you snarked back, barely managing to push down a smile at his antics. it didn’t matter, colt knew you well enough to sense your amusement no matter how well it was masked.
"you, my friend, need to get new insults." he huffs playfully. "do you know how many times i've heard that? it's practically recycled material at this point—! i didnt take you for a plagiarist.." he leans in closer to your face with a proud smile before pulling back moments later. you notice a flush spreading to his ears, and silently avert your eyes with a small grin of your own.
"you know you've got about three minutes to meet ryder in his trailer for a stunt revision, right?"
"...shit—" is all he colt says before taking off, leaving a small cloud of proverbial dust in his wake.
• being a crew member constantly surrounded by moving parts and very loud, very demanding split-second decisions made it hard to get any real socializing done, but somehow colt had found a way to worm himself into your routine. it was like he'd just showed up on set in front of you one day, all messy hair and a teasing glint in his eyes, leaning down to smirk "watch this" into his walkie talkie.
• you'd be lying if you said you didn't enjoy it.
• thats why when he glances at you for a little too long, or smiles at you when he thinks you won't notice, you dont mention it. not the way he always seems to be hovering around you the second he's got a moment away from the scene, nor how his voice cracks when he says your name more than anyone else's (okay, thats a lie, you do mention that last part, but if only to tease him for the momentary high note).
• theres a part of both of you that is afraid to take the next step. to push your playful arguing into something more serious: more unexplored. not to mention the amount of explaining you'd have to do to your parents around dating a stuntman— rather than some secure, tight lipped businessman like they'd always imagined. and god, the paperwork surrounding workplace relationships alone was enough to have you retreating back into that old rhythm of push and pull with colt... never too much to break the seal, but never enough to satisfy the ache in your chest. you were sure he felt the same way, but it was better to stick with what you had. the both of you knew that.
• er, at least, you did. colt's search history said differently. "movie themed pickup lines," "love song playlist," "best food in town," "cheapest food in town," the list went on.. modern problems require modern solutions, okay?
𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇
• get ready to have a grown man pinning after you like a middle schooler, because holland march is a force of nature with a penchant for stupidity, and then some.
• how on earth you captured his attention is beyond me. there are simply too many places you could have caught the detectives eye— promptly saddling himself up by your side with a five o'clock shadow and a grin that screams trouble. that's almost assuredly what happens.
• the minute you ignore him to greet holly instead, holland knew it was over for him. someone who didn't roll over at his shit and liked kids??? label him as successfully whipped, for he just found his favorite new thing to daydream about. and a little more, if you know what i mean.
• god he wants to look cool in front of you so bad. boasting about cases that he's solved (and ones that he hadn't..) is his favorite way to pass the time around you— at least until holly calls him out for it, grumbling that "no self respecting adult wants to hear about the time you lost a suspect in downtown traffic."
• he neglects to mentioned failed cases from that point forward.
• when holland is sober, he's far more easily riled up by you than anything else. he has penchant for calling you his "secret weakness," even if its anything but a secret with the way he's practically tripping over himself to catch up to you at any point.
• on the rare occasion that he had enough money to spend on something other than food, bills, or booze, holland takes a trip down to the local radioshack in order to make a mixtape. whether or not he realizes it, a lot of the songs he puts on there are ones that bring the thought of your smile to his mind. holly notices a change in the type of music playing the next few times she's in the car, but she doesn't say a thing.
• drunk holland is a different story, but when is he ever not?
• healy can barely stand to be around him when he's drunk after you enter the picture. if he had to sit through one more drunken, hiccup-y monolog about how goddamn beautiful you are, he swore that he would give up drinking (a boldfaced lie, sure, but that's how fed up he had gotten with holland's blubbering).
• you definitely get more than a few payphone calls from holland, the detective doing his best to sound coherent as he giggles into the receiver how sweet you are, and that you should come over to... whatever street he happened to be standing on that night.
• on the rare occasion that you show up its always to get him back home safely. not that he remembers much other than the smell and interior of your car
"y'er sho good to me. i ever told y'that?" holland mumbled into the upholstery lf your backseat, face smooshed against the fabric unabashedly. you were sure there'd be a drool puddle by the time you got to his place.
"yes. almost every time we do this actually." the sight that follows your sentence carries a feeling of pity with it. mostly for holly for having to deal with them when you got him home, but also for holland. things had been starting to make more and more sense ever since healy let it slip about his wife (rest her soul).
the car makes a slow right turn into a cul-de-sac as holland shuffles around in the backseat, fighting with a seat belt for a moment before leaning up into the front seat.
"you smell like a bar." he giggles as your nose scrunches up at the scent, and despite yourself you feel your heart seize a fraction. "sit back and buckle up before you fly through the windsheild, march."
"y'sound sho nice when you say my name." he either ignores you or just doesn't register your words; either possibility could be true when he's in this state.
"sit back." you twist briefly to shove holland into your backseat, cheeks flushing with heat when you accidentally make content with his exposed chest instead of his shoulder. since when did he take his tie and jacket off?
"button your shirt up before we get inside." you demand, killing the engine and slipping out of the car to walk over to the door holland was currently using for support. your expression remained unchanged as you opened it, watching his frame spill out onto the sidewalk below.
"hi." came a toothy grin as he looked up at you from his spot on the floor. you had one hell of a time trying not to smile down at him.
"just— get indoors before the neighbors see you ass."
"whatever y'say partnerrr."
• god he was a mess. unfortunately, you happened to like that
𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐌
• ohhhh baby you're in for a treat... a very sweet, very awkward treat in the shape of one lars lindstrom.
• you probably met him through work or karin and gus. new to town, more likely than not, and new face for the rural wisconsin residents to welcome and usher around. it's almost like being surrounded by excitable toddlers in elderly church-going bodies— every one of them more excited than the last to show off their home (and, apparently, a few matchmaking skills of their own).
• besides visiting the chappel every sunday (sometime wednesdays!) lars doesn't really make much of an effort to show up around town. bianca helped with that some, but it's still a slow process. it's not impossible to get ahold of him, per se, just very... rare. even rarer to capture his attention longer than an initial meeting— at least according to his family, the likes of which had practically begged the two of you to meet just a month into your move.
• lars can't remember what he liked about you at first.
• no really, he couldn't even if you asked. he was too busy trying to turn in the opposite direction of the diner at the time. unfortunately, karin's bruising grip on his parka had long since decided his fate.
"they're nice lars! everyone has been telling them about you since they've got here," came karins encouraging whisper as she comandered lars into the warm embrace of a diner "they're excited!"
her crackling voice, while normally familiar and comforting, was instead sending lars' brain into overdrive. he'd been promised a nice calm trip to the thrift store, not an ambush.
he blinked in rapid sucession, doing his best to look he wasn't literally being dragged into a nightmare scenario. the intense fidgeting of his mittens and self-soothing sway to his stature broke that illusion almost immediately.
a desperate look was tossed gus's way, but his brother returned it with a sigh and a shrug as if to say "what can you do?"
"a lot, actually." lars' mind whispered back traitorously.
"lars.. just give them a shot." karin's tone sounds heavy with something he can't place, so he turns around to get a better look. he's unsettled to find that she's using her pleading face. she knows how lars feels about that.
"please, buddy?" gus finally steps in, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly. he looks at something over lars' shoulder. "just this one time, okay?"
lars swallows thickly.
against his better judgement, he nods, and that's that.
• maybe it was your unabashed smile or the way that you included him in nearly every conversation, waiting patiently for lars to put in his (brief) two cents before speeding along, that has lars sitting in the booth longer than just a few minutes. whatever the case, he found himself unable to look away from you, even if his line of sight was fixed on the slope of your nose rather than your own cheerful gaze. baby steps.
• gus and karin did most of the talking on lars behalf that day, but by the time the two of them had driven lars home from the diner and said their goodbyes, he couldn't help but feel like your attention had been on him the whole time.
• he could be imagining things...
• ...but he could be right. and that thought was more exciting than anything else.
• hope you're ready to have a shadow. any chance he gets to cross paths with you from that point on, and lars is nervously asking you to visit, always for a new reason or another.
• it starts out with helping him collect firewood while he hacks away— innocent enough, even if the thoughts running through your head as you watch him are anything but —to coming over anytime karin and gus had leftovers, taking walks down by the lake for "vitamin d", and, eventually, borrowing extra sweaters that lars just so happened to have "lying around." the both of you know that's not really the case, but you wear them anyway, and come back smelling like him the next day. a fact lars can't seem to handle without a few dozen blinks to reset his brain.
• he knows it's a crush. you know it's a crush. karin and gus know it's a crush. hell, lars wouldn't be surprised if his local office creep and cubicle buddy kurt knew he had a giant, head over heels crush on you. the photo of you smiling at him behind the camera sitting on his work desk was proof enough. he really was just that obvious; especially when his ears happen to turn fire engine red at the mention of your name. every. single. time.
• one day he'll ask you out, theres no doubt about it in lars mind. mostly because he knows if he doesn't do it, the rest of the town will for him
• but for now, lars is content enough to take you to his tree house and help you up the ladder every step of the way— even if you don't need it. he's content to send you home with a sweater smelling like detergent and firewood, especially when you lean forward to whisper your thanks like its a cheeky secret between the two of you, breath ghosting across the shell of his ear like a phantom touch.
• yeah, lars lindstrom is content alright. as long as he has you to look forward to.
𝐑𝐘𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐄
• depending on the situation, he's either the most obvious man on the planet about it, or avoiding everything to do with his feelings. possibly a fine mixture of both.
• part of ryland grace is alight with excitement at the tell-tale signs of a crush (rapid heart rate whenever you're around, an increased flush to his cheeks, and severe loss of speech capabilities, just to name a few), but another, much louder part of him, wants to ignore it completely.
• he was afraid, simple as that. it's stupid, sure, but what if you didn't like him? thought his interests were dorky? what if he said something embarrassing?? or worse, cringe (as ryland's class so often described him). there were simply too many variables for his scientific brain to handle.
• unfortunately, avoidance wasnt an option when he happened to run into you at his diner nearly every week (well, not his diner, but it may as well have been with how often he showed up every morning, wallet already set out and stomach grumbling).
ryland always took the booth in the corner of the room. he liked to made sure that he could peer out the window at san francisco's rolling fog while he waited for his coffee— same as every morning. it was soothing. familiar.
so why was he currently sitting on a rickety bar stool at the counter, anxiously bobbing his knee up and down?
simple: you.
"nice shirt."
the force of ryland's knee hitting the underside of the counter caused a nearby salt shaker to spill over with a clatter, turning a few heads his way.
"uh— what?" his voice came out higher than usual, a breathy laugh tapered onto the end that sounded far too nervous for rylands taste.
"your shirt—" you had turned from your spot two seats down, fork poised in front of you with a bite of egg teetering on it. he'd noticed you by now, of course he had, but the sudden conversation had caught him severely off guard. he hoped you couldn't see how sweaty his palms were.
"i said it was nice. very science-y." the last bit of your sentence was punctuated with a playful wiggle of your fingers
ryland looked down at his chest, past the knit cardigan drapped over his shoulders. the cheery words 'i wear this shirt periodically!' stared back at him.
"thanks." his laugh is full of nerves, glasses sliding down his nose unhelpfully as he desperately tried to pretend your attention isn't pinning him to the spot. "my students say they're cheesy, but, uh, i might be the only one keeping the science pun buisness in tact so..." he trailed off, unsure how much more he should say.
"not the only one." you cracked a smile, tilting your head slightly. you'd set your fork down at this point, and ryland felt a jolt of electricity run through his spine at the knowledge that all your attention was on him. "i'm pretty sure my cousin has a whole collection at home of geology themed shirt-puns. not the same as—" you squinted closer at his shirt before pulling back, thankfully unaware of the flush spreading across ryland's neck. "—chemistry, but still!"
"well, good to know someone out there appreciates a good joke just as much as me." ryland gives you a boyish smile of his own, gaze meeting yours for a second too long before flitting away nervously.
you hum at him happily and turn back to eggs, spotting the approaching waitress by his side before he did.
"coffee?" she asks helpfully, and ryland does his best to sound thankful at the delivery instead of grumpy that she'd inturrupted a very rare moment for him. if only she'd come a few seconds later, maybe he would have built up the courrage to ask you more about yourself.
by the time the coffee had stopped pouring and his server had left to attend to someone else, you were gone. he hadn't even heard you get up and leave.
"darn it."
• the next time ryland sees you, you're wearing a science shirt with one more coffee than usual in hand. you seem to be just as nervous as him, if not more. it has a small smile tugging at the corner of the middle-school teachers lips as he approaches you, sitting down for what he hoped was another conversation.
• who knew stupid shirts could help you make friends in l.a? much less with diner-crushes that he'd been trying to talk to for weeks. now that was just a bonus.
I need this out of my head and on paper, so sorry, I’ve been obsessed with this movie and that stupid biologist I need him in my bed giving him little kisses
This is not proof red and it’s just a short horny Drabble and its 2 am currently sorgy if it’s bad, anyaways enjoy teehee
Warnings: Smut??? some sensual stuff, mentions of hard ons and make outs. established relationship. Before PHM, no gender specified for reader
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Ryland Grace is needy.
You knew this going into a relationship with him, but there are still times where he takes you by surprise with how needy he can be, specially when he’s sleepy.
It’s not always you find yourself returning home late, but after being out all day, the only thing you wanted is to be in your bed, with Rylands arms wrapped around you, where you both could drift off to sleep, peacefully.
The moment you open the door to your shared room, guilt swarms your chest and rests on the Pitt of your stomach at the sight.
Ryland, now hugging your pillows has his head buried on it, you promised him you wouldn’t arrive to late, yet here you are, the small digital clock on the nightstand shinning in number “2:30” only making you feel worse.
You come closer to the bed, clothes being shed in the meanwhile, and by the time you reach it, you have only your underwear on and a random shirt of his you stole from the shared closet. You try your damn best to do as little noise in order to not wake him, slipping bellow the covers with him, while you rest your head on the pillow, scoot as close as you could to him and close your eyes, drifting into sleep.
Or at least you would of, if it weren’t for him
Warm, large hands slip under your shirt and paw at your waist as he tries his best to pull you closer with clumsy movements and in a blink of an eye, he’s on you, head buried on your neck, whispering sweet words.
The gentle warm words “Missed you” are whispered into your skin as he leaves a kiss on its wake, and before you can respond, his hand cradles your jaw, guiding your face gently towards his.
His soft lips find yours in the darkness, leaving gentle little pecks in them. Then two, then three… until he tilts his head, molding his lips into yours properly.
The kiss is clumsy, yet slow, sensual, the way he knows you like it, as if he’s trying his darn best to convey how much he missed you throughout the day.
Once he breaks it, you finally respond, with a small, quiet chuckle. “I missed you too, Ry—“
“Don’t say that.” His warm breath on your lips interrupts your words, as he returns his other hand around your waist and his face goes back to your neck, you feel him moving his body closer to yours, scooting his way closer and fitting his hips against yours, between your thighs.
“What? Wh—“ You begin, but are shortly interrupted again by the feeling of something hardening against your thigh, a warm breath escapes him.
“no, actually, say it again, please?” His voice comes out in a cracked, sultry whine, almost shaking at the prospect of a single sliver of praise coming from your mouth, and just like that, he’s like putty in your hands, sleep deprived putty. You wagered it was the reason for his behavior.
“Yeah?” You finally whisper in his ear, your hand coming up to gently pet the back of his hair. “you have work tomorrow, baby” You get another short whine in response and a press of his hips agains your thigh.
“Please…” His hands shift against your now warm skin, exploring below the shirt, crawling up your tummy, ribs, chest, then back down, his lips finding purchase on the skin of your shoulder. “Just for a little while.” Following his words, he lets one of his hands drift bellow, trailing all the way down to the waistband of your underwear, tracing the fabric carefully, knowing damn well this was affecting you already.
With a small, reluctant breath, you nod.
“Just for a little while…” You whisper against his temple, leaving a small kiss on his skin, prompting him to slip a finger cautiously around the edge of your underwear, not taking it off, but pulling it aside— he actually sighs once his fingers slip down, only teasing you.
“Thank you… just a little while”
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Yippieee have fun I haven’t written anything in a long WHILE haha, this is probably bad LMAO
Walk with me... Roleplay with Ryland.. Wanting more fun to your sex life so its proposed as a test run and what easier kind of scene to do than him being your professor/teacher 🤤🤤
Oh hell yes 😛
Bear with me if this is weird or written badly cause papa is still sick and barely functioning rn but I wanted to write for this so badly….
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It’s not as if you didn’t like what you already had going on with Ryland, I mean, it was the best sex you’ve had in your entire life…it was just more vanilla than you want to try.
When you first proposed the idea, he was taken aback, as he had no idea you were into something like that. But the more he thought about it, the more he got really, really, into it. Just to make sure this was something both of you want, you decided to try it out just a little on a Friday afternoon, after all the students had left.
He sits at his desk, nervous and waiting for whatever you planned to do. He taps the pencil along his forehead, trying to focus as hard as he could to try and grade these papers, but the excitement keeps taking his attention away from it.
You knock at his door, causing him to startle. He clears his throat, sitting up straight and taking a once over in the reflection of his laptop to check his appearance.
“Come in!”
You open the door and take in the sight of your boyfriend, sitting at his desk. You notice he’s changed out of his regular middle school lanyard and has the name tag from the brief time he worked as a professor.
The realization he’s taking this as seriously as you are makes your heart swirl, but you can’t dwell on that just yet, you have other motives you need to explore first.
You step forward, your shoes clicking against the ground as he takes in your figure. You’ve dressed up in a sweater of yours that sits off the shoulder, leaving your unblemished skin vulnerable to the air. Your skirt sits perilously short, just enough to make the man in front of you gulp.
“Dr. Ryland, are you busy at all?” You ask, holding the notebook, which was a empty one you bought at the store earlier that day, in your hands.
Snapping into character, Ryland clears his throat once more. “Not at the moment, what could I do for you?” He asked, peering at you from over his glasses where you stood in front of his desk.
You bite your lips nervously, hoping your acting is somewhat convincing, before continuing, “My grade for this class is just below passing, is there any extra credit I could do?”
Beneath the desk, his leg bounces out of anticipation for what’s to come, but he tries to play it off. He sighs and shakes his head.
“I’m afraid not. I mean, if I give anyone extra credit then it’ll be unfair to everyone.” He explains, his hand continuing to fidget with the pen.
“But I’m not just anyone Dr. Grace…” you say slyly, walking slowly around the edge of his desk, trailing your finger along your path.
He looks up at you, his face heating up at the notion you’re suggesting. He keeps his eyes on your finger, watching it drag along the desk. He finally looks back up at your eyes, staring into them once you’ve stopped right in front of him.
“Please Dr. Grace, I’ll do anything it takes to pass this class.” You plead from above him. He struggles to pay attention at the words you say, moving his hands up to graze against the supple skin of your thighs.
“Anything…?” He mumbles, the rumbling tone in his voice sending shivers through your body. He continues to stare at the skin he’s touching, before finally looking back up at you over the glasses.
You lean down and grab onto the arm rests of his office chair, essentially trapping the man. You lean down towards his face, your warm body emmanating against his.
“Anything.”
The flood gates burst open as he quickly pushes his lips against yours, closing his eyes, and gathering you into a heated kiss. You easily reciprocate, closing your eyes as well and relishing in the feeling of his lips. His slight stubbles rubs against your face as you both capture the others lips.
His eyebrows furrowed in concentration, both hands moving up on your body and going beneath your sweater. One hand stays at your hip, while the other continues upwards, before reaching the small of your back and he pulls you down onto his lap. You instinctively wrap your arms around his neck.
You guys get closer to one another, soft moans and groans muffled against the other’s lips as you engage in the heated makeout session.
You break away from the kiss, a string of saliva between you two as you depart, in order to catch your breath.
“Will this count as extra credit, sir?” You ask teasingly, your fingers playing with the hairs along his nape.
The word ‘Sir’ send an electrical shock through his body, a jolt of pleasure shooting down to his hardening cock.
“Yes-…Fuck, yes it will…” He stammers, his self-created censor slipping from the pleasure. He moves his head towards your neck and kisses at the sensitive skin. He’s not gentle by any means, but he’s definitely not rough. He’s just right in the intensity and sensuality of it.
Before you’re able to continue any further, the sound of jingling keys down the hallway makes both of you freeze instinctually.
The sound of trash bags and rolling trash cans can be heard in the distance. You and Ryland move to give each other a panicked look, before scrambling to look professional.
You scramble off of Ryland’s lap and move your hair to cover the marks on your neck. You try and tug down your skirt just a tad, just as it’s so short.
He simply just wiped his face of the slobber created from the heated makeout session, before quickly changing the name tag back to his middle school lanyard.
Just as Ryland finishes smoothing his hair out, the janitor enters. You sit, pretending to be helping grade the exams that were on the desk.
The janitor pays no mind to either of you? Barely looking up and quickly leaves the room after gathering the trash.
Once you’re sure the janitor is far enough away, the heat rushes through your body as an idea hits you.
“Dr Ryland, do you want to continue this back at your place? I think I’d like some more extra credit, if you have any left to offer.”
Grabbing his bag he smirks, moving closer to hold his hand against the small of your back and guiding you out of the room and towards the parking lot.
The sun pours through the windows like spilt orange juice. It’s really bright, and you feel just the tiniest bit warmer from where it touches your skin.
The sun has a special effect on people. You soak it up through the layers and layers of flesh and it provides you vitamins for your body— the same goes for plants. It gives you that heat to feel warm and comfortable.
But right now the special effect it has on Grace is that it makes him look beautiful.
He always looks beautiful, but right now there’s just a certain type of beauty when the sun shines across his skin.
Hair askew and his face lax with no thoughts behind those docile eyes. Sleeping looks good on him. The morning sun just brings it out better.
You want to move to snap a picture, so perfect snuggled up against the sheets and your body. But as soon as your hand descends for the side table, Ryland stirs.
Sucking in a big breath the sun makes his eyes squint, gaining his bearings after a minute and peeking his eyes open to find you laying in his bed, a smile just comes naturally.
“Morning.” Ryland stretches. Arms going far behind his back and showing off those perfect biceps. Perfect, perfect, perfect.
“Good morning.” Your hand travels into his hair first, just to brush it out of the way. But the dirty blond color reminds you of sun beams chasing away shadows into a corner.
Ryland smiles wide, finally relaxing back into himself and laying next to you. Not minding if he put his face in your stomach or right on your chest. It doesn’t matter, you can make room for wherever he wants to rest against you.
“S’today the day?” Ryland asked innocently.
Your fingers keep carding through his hair. Up and out. “Day for what?”
“You know…”
His bottom half moves. Right up against your leg and oh. You can feel it. Like a ball of fire in his abdomen that sparked his morning wood. His dick warm and burning for attention at the sound of your voice.
“The day.”
There’s a tug at your lips, Ryland is needy and apparently impatient. That’s how he got into this mess in the first place, not knowing when to stop bugging versus teasing.
And he was teasing.
Late night dinner party with some friends, Ryland’s hand slipped under the table. Nothing scandalous— but just enough to drive you crazy.
His hand slowly moving back up and down your thigh, touching softly it had a sharp shiver running up your spine. He wouldn’t stop. Just the fingertips trailing across sensitive skin. Like feather light walking on top of a cloud.
Then there was the carless whispers. A small snide comment like, “can we leave soon or what?” Ryland’s impatience tended to make his mouth loose. He would let every thought that crossed his mind get whispered into your precious ears while doing the most innocent of things like eating pasta.
“I wish we were at home, in bed…” He would say with a whine. It didn’t take a genius to expand on that though.
“Wanna get under your dress so bad…” He whispered right as you were done fake laughing at your friend.
“Can we please leave? I’ll do whatever you want.” His pleading voice always swayed you.
So on those days, you would do what you wanted with him. Because he had said whatever. And what you wanted was to edge him every day for at least three days. If Ryland likes being needy at the wrong moments, you’d train him to be patient. Wait for that orgasm to finally rush over him.
So that’s what the day is. Finally three days of constant edging to at last be tipped over that sweet and welcoming edge to spill everything out that he’s been holding back. He’d held back and obeyed you because he wanted so desperately to be good.
You hum. Fingers lowering to scratch at his nape where all the short hair was, soft against your hand.
“I don’t know…”
Ryland’s whine is immediate, shoving his nose into the crook of your arm and torso. He wants it bad. It’s like solar flares that have been building and building and finally need to release all the pent up hot energy that accumulated.
“Please…”
His arms hold tight around your waist. Aching and begging for what you know he wants. He’s adorable.
“Ry, you haven’t shown me that you’ve learned your lesson.”
“I have.” His voice sounds desperate, looking up into your eyes to show off the glow of his sweet, warm, and pleading blue irises. “I have learned, I’ve been so good— please I’ll do anything. I just— I need too…”
His hips roll against your leg once more. You think he must be taking notes from the kids in his class because he begs like a child. Big, wet puppy eyes on display and negotiation skills turning on.
He’s the most tempting trap you’ve ever fallen into.
And ‘fallen’ is the right word. You think you’ve caught a glimpse of what Icarus must have seen when falling from the sky. The picture-perfect sun too beautiful not to be corrupted with our wrongs.
And you desperately wanted to corrupt Ryland.
You wanted to fly high into his warm arms and give him everything he wants and needs.
But it’s fun to watch the moon rise too. A push and pull between the night and day. It’s only a treat to see the sun because the moon comes every night.
“Please, I’ve learned. I swear I have. And— and I’m sorry. For what I did at the restaurant. But I’ve learned my lesson. Please it hurts.”
Your other hand slides down, shifting just a little to reach under the blankets and inside his boxers. Quickly grabbing at his hard, achy, and apparently hurting cock. Poor boy.
“Oh my fucking— yes.”
It’s always a surprise when Ryland swears, since he only does it when you manage to catch him off guard. You try so hard to catch him off guard too because it’s so hot when he swears low and desperate like this.
Ryland throws his head back into the hand you have in his hair, even though all you’re doing is spreading the wetness around the tip of his dick with your thumb, soft velvet skin getting wetter by the second leaving his dick a leaky faucet in your hand.
“You—” he grabs at your soft shirt, grips it tight like you’re his lifeboat, leaving your shirt to get scrunched up to reveal more of your cleavage. “You have no idea how good this feels.”
“Yeah?” You egg him on. Bringing your hand back up quickly to your mouth to spit in it. Saliva coating his cock and doing long slow pumps. “Tell me about it”
It’s hard to focus on actual speaking when you’re teetering on a cliff. Ryland’s body frustrated and pent up leaving his mind affected.
“Can you just go a little faster?”
“Nuh uh, just this.”
“Yeah okay— sorry.”
Despite it not being enough, having anything feels better than having nothing. Your hand squeezes hard at the base of his dick and his hips jolt forward before you continue.
“It feels good.”
With his eyes fluttering closed, you can still see the pure pleasure etched onto his face. “And… and crazy. I think I’m… I’m gonna go crazy if you don’t—” his hips jolt again and you really can’t blame him. Now you’re the one being the tease, but only because he started it. “Pick up the pace or do something more. Please?”
He’s breathless even at your moderate pace on his cock. He finally opens his eyes and is delightedly met with the view of your bunched up shirt with exposed cleavage. It doesn’t take another second for him to bite his teeth into the soft flesh of your tits. Small nibbles to keep him grounded.
Finally you give him mercy. Speeding up the thrusts of your hand that he’s been pleading for since the very beginning. The moans slip out of his mouth and just a slight whimper every few seconds.
Ryland doesn’t notice because he has a lot on his plate, but his teeth bite down just a little harder and hands on your hips squeeze more, bracing himself.
Sweat drips from his hairline, the sun making a delicious shine across his face. You feel his cock twitch in excitement in the palm of your hand. Ryland comes up, lips puffy from sucking and biting.
“I… I wanna cum, please, please let me cum this time. It’s… it’s so much.”
His thighs tense and twitch. Face twisted with pleasure. It’s a sight far more beautiful than a sunset itself.
“I’m just— I’m just so close. Fuck.”
Throaty moans slip past his plush lips and you kiss his forehead. Maybe an apology for when you shift again, practically flipping on-top of him and edging him just once more. Boxers astray in a weird position and hands now on his chest, cock twitching with what could have came.
“No—”
Ryland’s brows furrow in frustration and his lips close in a tight line. Hands holding onto your waist grasping like fresh air. “No, no please don’t do this…”
“Ryland…” Your sweet voice rings out over his thumping heart. Coming down from what should have been a good orgasm.
You cup his jaw, making him look right at you, his little backstabber. You see his big teary eyes, betrayal written all across with every action he takes. “Hey, look at me.”
He does, with much reluctancy because maybe he did finally learn his lesson.
“How long does it take for sunlight to reach the earth?”
Ryland’s brows furrow. Your teasing has his brain lagging. A typically easy and simple question he asks in the classroom constantly has him closing his eyes and throws his head against the headboard of your bed to try to remember.
“Uh…” he whispers breathlessly. “About eight minutes and twenty seconds because the speed of light is about 186,000 miles per second...”
“Yeah.” You nod. He’s coming back, mind forgetting of the inevitable torture. Hand sneaking back down to pull his boxers all the way down and grab at his dick again. “And how long do you think it takes from the feeling in your dick to start before coming? Is there a lag time of eight minutes do you think?”
“No.” he shakes his head, back and forth and jaw clenches like he’s trying not to bite something. “It’s not that long… I can show you if you just—”
Hips lifting from underneath you, trying to gain any friction again. “Just let me cum…”
Finally with a big smile on your face and because the sun is so bright and nice today, your hand starts rubbing fast against his tip.
“Okay, Doc.” With a slight murmur you watch his face go lax again against the warm rays of light.
Who else is a part of the "Ryland Grace locks tf in" squad?
I'm talking:
Ryland who is a blushing, stuttering mess when you first start flirting with him
You've been flirting with him for months now but he's just now realizing it (he agonizes over this every night btw. Even far into the relationship.)
When you first kiss him, his brain stops- trying to remember how to move his lips against someone else's. You just laughed and pulled him closer, sighing contently he comes to his senses and starts reciprocating.
He slowly gets more confident in the kiss. Moving even closer and cupping your jaw with his hand, angling his head and parting his lips to explore your mouth with tongue.
His lips are soft and warm and his tongue caresses every inch of your mouth with expert precision, leaving a trail of shared spit between you.
Like any good scientist, he learns and adapts to your body over time. The way you huff silently and moan into his mouth when he angles himself perfectly. The way you whine when he bites down softly on your bottom lip before pulling away.
Everything that makes you tic, he's analyzed it and stored it for later. Surprising you each and every time with how well he knows your body.
But when his lips trail lower, the anxiety returns with the uncharted territory.
It's been so long since he's kissed someone, let alone had sex with them.
But he does the same thing he always does- learn and adapt and overcome.
What spots on your neck make your body writhe underneath his deliciously.
The exact pressure of his teeth and tongue on your skin and nipples that make your fingers grip his hair even tighter- something that sends spikes of electric heat burning down his spine.
He starts to rut into you pathetically at that, especially. Desperately seeking the friction he's denied himself for years. He's embarrassingly close to coming at just the feeling of your hands in his hair. Something he refuses to ever admit.
When you first give him a blow job- he's in heaven.
He doesn't know where to put his hands at first. He just grips around onto the blankets erratically, looking for purchase as his hips rut into your mouth- all while he apologizes and cries out profusely.
He settles on your hair of course. Lightly pulling at the strands and guiding your head along his cock- just the way he likes it.
He returns the favor of course. Face burning with embarrassment as he lowers himself to his knees in front of you. Fingers trailing your supple hips and thighs before he parts your knees- exposing you to him.
He's never done this before. Ever. And he makes sure you know that as he kisses the inside of your thighs before taking you into his mouth with feigned confidence.
He's shy at first, licking and sucking as he analyzes every sound and thrust that you give him.
When he finds that spot that makes you see heaven, he focuses on it, leaning impossibly closer as he hums and moans into your body. He pulls you by your hips, forcing your legs to wrap around his head as he finds a home in your body.
He becomes obsessed being on his knees for you. The way you taste, the way you moan, the way you move. Everything about it is a drug to him and he would stay for eternity there.
The first time you have sex, Ryland genuinely shuts off at first. Not knowing where he should be: on his back or on top of you???
He settles with being on the bottom at first. Thinking that maybe it'll be easier if you lead and ease him into it.
His entire body shakes when you sink down onto his cock slowly. His brain short circuiting at how wet and warm you are, at how perfectly your hole sucks him in. His head slams down onto the bed as his hands shoot to your hips.
He holds you there for a second, hands grasping and kneading at your thighs as he whimpers and whines before he slowly shifts you back and forth on top of him. Forcing you to grind down onto his length.
He almost cums right then and there, especially when you bounce on top of him for the first time. But he holds it in, biting his lip so tightly he swears he can taste his own blood.
When the friction is no longer enough- when he decides he needs more. He sits up, you still on top now chest to chest with him. He grabs your hips even tighter and starts fucking up into you. Pistoning his hips as he pulls you closer by your back, locking your lips in a messy, hot open-mouthed kiss.
He doesn't know what takes over him, but all he knows his how you feel against him and how tight and how hot you are around his cock.
summary: Ryland comes back from an educational conference, and he's missed you deeply.
authors note: so so sorry i’ve been m.i.a for about a week but i got back home and immediately started working. have some ideas for you guys that im writing and i hope you enjoy them!
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You sat in bed, reading your book, a true crime documentary quietly playing in the background for some noise. You huffed out, setting your book down, and picked up your phone.
No new messages.
Ryland was away at a teacher's conference in Sacramento, and you missed him. It was only for three days, but man, these were the longest days of your life. You knew his day ended somewhere around 5 p.m, but his colleagues would drag him out to dinner or possibly even drinks tonight, so it would be another few hours before you heard anything from him. You closed your book, placing it on the nightstand, and grabbed one of Ryland's pillows to cuddle with.
You checked your phone again, huffing out another sad little breath. It's the last night, you reassured yourself. Ryland would be back tomorrow, and you'd see him when you got home from work. Your body itched to have him next to you. You squeezed the pillow tighter. The smell of him was slowly fading, but it was the only thing that brought you comfort, aside from his cat shirt that you wore.
Honestly, you felt pathetic. No one has ever had this effect on you before. You weren't the most comfortable with commitment. You were so avoidant when it came to talking about your feelings- especially romantic ones. But it’s like your systems crashed when it came to Ryland.
He took his time with you. Reassured you there was no need to rush anything, and that whatever pace you wanted to move at was fine with him. He made you feel seen and loved in a way that brought out this softer version of you.
You didn't remember drifting off to sleep, but you woke up to light tapping on the bedroom door. You sat up, way too fast, a blurry human-shaped figure at the door.
"Ry?" You asked, rubbing your eyes? He got closer, the glow of the TV lighting up his face.
"Sorry to wake you, sweetheart. I didn't think you would be in bed so early. " Ryland smiles, making his way over to your side of the bed. You looked at the time on the clock: 8:00 p.m.
He crawls on top of you, slotting himself between your legs. He pulls you into a deep kiss. Your hands travel up his back, to his hair, pulling at the hairs at the base of his neck. He moans into the kiss.
"What? You missed me or something?" He says, smirking at you. “Look at you. So pretty in my clothes.”
"Of course, I did." He kisses down your neck to your sternum.
“I missed you, too, sweetheart. So much." He lays his head on your chest.
"I thought you weren't coming home until tomorrow?" you say, running your fingers through his hair. He lets out a little yawn. Ryland doesn't necessarily love to be social and talk, so to have him network and attend conferences for 3 days straight, you know he's exhausted.
"Mmm, I left right after our last mixer. Had my stuff ready in the mornings, so I just had to check out of the hotel, and got on the next train." His hand slips underneath your shirt, running back and forth on your stomach. His fingers barely grazing underneath your breasts.
"You could've told me. I would've had something ready for you to eat, when you got home.” you’re now rubbing his back.
Ryland has now lifted your shirt, leaving a trail of soft little kisses along your stomach. You can feel his smirk growing on his face.
“That’s okay sweetheart. I already know what i want” He says leaving a small kiss just right on the waistline of your shorts.
He hooks his fingers into the waistband of your shorts, pulling them down your legs.
“I missed you so so much, baby” he’s now kissing his way up your thigh. Your breath hitches when he stops close to your pussy.
“ry, please,” your whine, and he places one more kiss at the top of your mound.
“such a pretty pussy, baby,” he says, before licking the entirety of your cunt. your hips buck into his face, and he takes the opportunity to hook his arms under your legs, and pull you in closer. his nose bumps your clit, and you whine.
“hmm i think my girl missed me while i was gone,” he moans into you before sucking on your clit. your hands immediately reach into his hair, pulling just a little.
“you have no idea, how much,” your words are shaky as ryland eats you like a man starved.
“you have no idea, how much,” your words are shaky as ryland eats you like a man starved. he ruts into the mattress at the taste of you. and the sounds of your moans and praise is sending him over the edge.
“such a sweet fucking girl. can’t ever get enough of you,” ryland groans before bringing two fingers, teasing you before slipping them inside of you. he begins pumping them in and out at a painfully slow pace.
“that’s it. gotta get you ready for me,” he curls his fingers up inside of you while his tongue continues drawing circles on your clit.
“ryland, i’m gunna,” you cry out and ryland looks up at you from in between your legs, glasses completely fogged up.
“yeah? you’re gonna cum on my fingers like a good fucking girl?” you moan at his lewd words. ryland never curses, and when he does it sounds so deliciously beautiful.
“i got you baby, cum for me.” he lets go of one of your legs, reaching his hand under your shirt, kneading one of your tits.
you ride out your high on his fingers, crying out ryland’s name as you cum. he takes his fingers out, looking at you as he sticks his fingers in his mouth. moaning as he sucks them clean.
“so fucking sweet. like candy,” he says, leaning down to kiss your lips. the kiss is needy, and you still taste yourself on him. you run your hand down the front of him, reaching the bulge in his pants. you give him a soft squeeze, and ryland whines
“you gonna let me take care of you,” you say against his lips. you unbutton his pants, slipping a hand inside in boxers, stroking him.
“baby, wait-“ he groans, grabbing your hand. you look up at him and he could cum from how innocent you look at him with his cock in your hand.
“i need to be inside of you. please, ive been dreaming about you for days.” you nod and watch in awe as ryland stands up,undressing himself. you sit up, bringing him into another kiss and guiding him to sit on the bed. you straddle him, grinding yourself down into his cock.
“baby, please,” ryland whines breaking away from the kiss. he grabs the hem of your shirt, helping you lift it over your head. you lift youself from him, before grabbing his throbbing cock in your hands. you give him a few pumps before, you line yourself up with him.
you sink yourself down slowly on him, and rylands hands immediately find your waist.
“you feel so good. so perfect just for me,” ryland moans into your chest. he takes one your nipples in your mouth, sucking and grazing it lightly. you arch your back, pushing your chest further into his face. ryland could die happily right here.
your babbling at the feeling of him deep inside of you. “look at you. falling apart on my cock, huh.” one of his hands reach down to toy with your clit. your breath catches in your throat, and you throw your head back.
“ryland, i’m so close.” you whine, wrapping your arms around ryland shoulders.
“you need me to take over?” ryland coos, peppering your jaw and neck in kisses. you nod your head, unable to form any words.
“i got you baby. i’ve always got you.” ryland grabs your hips and lifts you a little and begins fucking up into you. it’s rough, and sloppy, and you’ve missed being completely full with him. you can feel the coil in your lower belly build, ready to be released.
“ry. need you to cum inside of me,” you pull at the hairs at the base of his neck, and ryland’s hips stutter.
“my girl wants to be full of me? such a naughty girl,” he ryland moans. he can feel you squeezing around his cock.
“cum for me, baby. cum all over my cock.” his words pushed you over the edge. you let out a loud moan, laying your head on ryland shoulders. your thighs shake as you ride it out, and ryland cums inside you at the sight.
he rub your back, giving you a guys a second to catch your breath.
“it’s good to have you home, ry.” you say, looking up at him. he can tell the sleepiness is getting to you already. he laughs to himself, before kissing your forehead. “i know honey. i’m glad to be home too.”
Hi mootie....this was in my drafts i toss it over to you 👀💙
Dry humping Ryland, making him cum in his pants over and over again just from that friction until he's having nothing but dry orgasms. BRAINROT 🤤
HI MOOTIE!!! HI!!! :DDD
FUCK YES I LOVE THIS IM ACTUALLY SCREAMING I need him in a biblical way it’s crazy. Also I lowkey started falling asleep while writing at the end so if it’s fucked up ignore it and I’ll fix it sometime during the day LMAO
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“Mmph!”
His moan against your lips echoes throughout you and Rylands living room.
While on the weathered yet plush couch, you sit atop his lap, thigh slotted between his legs. His cock, hard, hot, and throbbing underneath his denim jeans, ruts against your thigh absentmindedly during your wet and sensual kissing.
His eyes are closed shut in pleasure, glasses askew, his skin a flushed shade of pink. Your fingers tangle within his locks, eliciting another delicious moan from his mouth against yours.
You tug his head back, pausing the heated makeout session you were just entangled in, a string of spit connecting both of your swollen lips.
He whines are the loss of your lips against his, but is quickly replaced with a long and drawn out groan as your thigh begins to grind against his clothed crotch, matching the rutting he was doing earlier.
His hands snake up from where they sat upon your hips and slide up underneath your shirt, resting at the curve of your sensitive waist.
You lean your head down at his exposed neck, hand still in his hair, leaving sloppy and wet, open mouth kisses along the area of skin along his jugular.
“Hmn!” He whines, bucking his hips up into your thigh, hands squeezing around your waist instinctively as you suck a particularly dark purple spot along his neck.
“Hah- I’m gonna…gonna cum-“ he warns, hips stuttering as he can feel his climax approaching. You smirk against his neck, trailing your kisses up towards his ear. Deep and sensual, you whisper in his ear.
“Go on, come for me Ry…”
His eyes pinch closer shut than before, mouth agape and open out of pleasure. No noise is concealed, whines and whimpers leaving him. His hands grip you with such strength that it surely will leave a bruise in the morning.
Finally, a long and steady groan comes from the depths of his throat as he cums in his jeans from the dry humping.
Before he can even grasp and relish in the final feeling of cumming, he’s distracted by the way he realizes you haven’t stopped moving your thigh against his limp cock at all.
Overstimulation immediately begins to set in. He whines out in protest, hips thrashing as he barely attempted to get away from your hold. His hands move from your waist, going any which way to try and ground himself.
“W-Wait pleasepleaseplease I can’t-“ he begs out, hands finally stopping, giving a death grip into the couches arms.
His waterlines begin to fill, overwhelmed by the sensations he was getting.
His cock begins to push itself back to life underneath your leg, a twitch from it heavy against your thigh.
“No, you can take it, can’t you? You did so good for me earlier, surely you can take another Ryland.”
A singular tear falls down his cheek as his hips jerk against you even harder, the familiar sensation of an orgasm building in his gut so soon after the last one.
“No-no please I can’t I need hah-, more!” He begs.
“No, you’re going to take what I give you and be appreciate about it like a good boy, alright?”
A choked out sob leaves his mouth, nodding his head, as whimpers galore fill the room and the pleasured feeling continues to fold over on itself until it’s too much to handle.
His pants already had a dark spot on them from his earlier orgasm, and you wanted to see them soaked.
“Come on, go on and show me you can do it. Be a good boy, I know you can Ry.”
Your words take him over, as his hips let out a final jerk before the dark spot on his jeans continues to spread due to second orgasm in his pants.
You pause for a moment and he’s relived your finally done, but he is quickly interrupted by the continued pressure of your thigh against his crotch.
This continues for multiple more rounds, all of them having him cum in his pants. You tried to count, you think you’ve made him come maybe 2 more times, before finally, you get what you were looking for.
He’s leaning in towards you, head buried in the junction where your neck is connected. He sobs into you, tears streaming down his face and drool dripping from the corner of his mouth.
His hips continued to stutter, practically jumping off the couch with each rut.
“Pleasepleasepleaseplease Fuck! Fuck fuck I can’t to this, hah, I cant it’s too much, it’s too fucking much-“
His hiccuping and muffled cries are said into your neck, the hot air sending goosebumps down your skin.
His jeans have been ruined at this point, after cumming so much inside them you kind of have to throw them away.
You can feel the way it throbs underneath your thigh, an indicator his orgasm is quite near.
Finally, he practically screams out with whines and whimpers as he cums for the final and last time of the evening. At least, so you thought.
You could tell by the lack of new, wet spots in his jeans, nothing had changed after this last orgasm earlier in the evening.
He came dry.
“Wow babe…I didn’t realize that could actually happen in real life.” You say deadpan, moving your thigh away from his crotch as you let him come down from his high.
Before you can even ask anything about it, you look over and realize that he had fallen asleep after that last orgasm.
You help lay him down along the couch, before laying on top of him in a simple embrace on the couch.
Both of you glow in your post-nut haze, before ultimately falling asleep in one another’s arms.
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