💭 (jacob & absinthe)
"I struggle sometimes to understand the way you cling to the way things used to be- the world we inhabit is different and yet you are as classically a man of the cloth as I could have known. The church was my only respite when I arrived all that time ago and in taking over I. Made changes that were radical in the face of unprecedented times. You backed me each time and as a stranger with no mind about me that meant more than it ever could. I am jealous. Of the way you embrace your principles when I have always played so loosely with mine. And sometimes I see you looking at me with something similar in your eye."
"I'd like to tell you that my freedom was hard fought- that I am a killer bred to hunt who sought a gentler world when the one I woke in was so vicious and new. I'd like to promise that it's not all it's cracked up to be, to defy the throne and know love, loss, wild and maniacal joy."
"But that would make me a liar. And I wish you knew too that to sin is human- we are taught that God forgives. I wish you could forgive yourself- for whatever weight it is you're carrying, Father."