3. do you think your parents would be proud of you right now?
it’s hard, because it’s a mixed bag. her relationships with her dads has always been kind of varied, but it’s just the nature of riley not only being her father, but her mentor and teacher and director and so on. it’s always been a lot easier really truly know that andre was proud of her, because his standards were different. so long as she stayed determined, and fundamentally kind, and resilient, and did what made her proud, he would be proud of her. but the way she sees it, riley’s pride in her is directly related to her success. sure, he loves her and wants her to be happy and all that, but having those extra levels to their relationship provides an additional strain. it’s hard to separate what he wants from her as her dad and what he wants from her as someone who’s living vicariously through her, with such a personal, vested interest in making sure she has the career he never did. she tries not to dwell on it much, because it’s a bummer, but when the thought crosses her mind, she definitely worries about if she’s ever going to pull through and make riley really truly proud.
19. what was your biggest fear(s)? do you still fear those things now?
on like, a deep existential level, one of sabrina’s biggest fears has always been regret. her parents always emphasized the importance of living with intention, and she’s always had a little bit of gnawing anxiety of wondering if she makes the right decisions, or if one day she’ll be miserable for some reason or another and be able to pinpoint it back to one choice she’ll regret til the end of time. she still fears this now as she realizes the thing she’s been one-track focused on her entire life may not come as easy as she thought. on a smaller level, she has always and will always hate bugs, specifically bees. she’s never been stung and she’s hoping to keep that up her entire life because in her 21 years she’s managed to work it up into something worth being terrified of.
27. if you could give your younger self one piece of advice, what would it be?
she doesn’t have a lot of Answers to the things that younger sabrina was torn up about. i think she’d give her younger self advice about not letting the haters get her down and being herself unapologetically because she doesn’t really realize that was never her problem. she’s got internalized issues that she pins on everyone else and she won’t really know how to effectively advise her younger self and move on from that until she confronts it. literally no one would have cared if she just spent all her time in high school loitering around the theater NOT being a nuisance, but she would have beat herself up over missing Classic High School Experiences or just generally not being the kind of outspoken girl boss she thinks she has to be to get by. her real advice would need to be something in that vein: don’t be so hard on yourself, trust that what needs to happen will happen, etc.
35: what is your favorite memory from childhood?
a lot of her favorite childhood memories seem to be tied to halloween. her dads loved it too, so growing up it was fun for them to all get did up in matching family costumes and go trick-or-treating together. then as she got older, around middle school, they started letting her invite her friends over for a halloween party every year. they’d set up out in front of the house to mingle with the neighborhood adults and hand out candy, leaving sabrina + co with, what felt like at the time, free reign of the house. the tradition carried into high school, until she realized perhaps a front door away was too close of proximity to her parents to really have a fun time at a party, but she still remembers it really fondly.
