Over the years, I always felt I needed to do some practice writing before I tackle a big, ambitious project. 'The Wanderer' isn't novel length, but it is the longest piece I've written in a few years (passing the 8,000+ word mark, close to 20 pages), and required going into very dark, depressing, and emotional corners of the room. A few readers that had test-run 'The Wanderer' has told me that they admired the story and that it had left them emotional (which is the highest praise any writer could get - when a story affects a reader's emotion - the essence of art). I can assure all, writing it was both a joy and hell (I got very emotional myself a few late nights writing). Before I was comfortable enough going down that road of creative outlet, I felt I needed to get 'The Knife' out of my system first.
'The Knife' is an intense short story that gets right to the point and doesn't let up. Not my best (or favorite) attempts by any means - but - after writing this story, I felt confident enough to write 'The Wanderer.'
'The Knife' and 'The Wanderer' are two completely different stories (and timelines)- but they both tackle the touchy subject of suicide, they both are pretty damn dark, and they both have the voice of a female narrator.
Not often will you hear me say something positive about myself (those that know me well can agree on that point) - but I am actually quite proud of my writing. Compare this piece (or 'The Wanderer') to my earlier pieces - I have come far. I still have a long journey to go of learning/experimenting/and writing.
'The wanderer still wanders' as the writer still writes. 8-)