#aysetalks

[aysbes]

war is over, lapidot confession + ayse blind reaction

[aysbes]

this is the only footage i have of it but heres my blind reaction to peridot falling in love with lapis at first sight

(with english subtitles because i was originally recording for my turkish friend)

(pls be ignore my vulgar language i have been working very hard this week and finally got to do this at 2 am)

if asked for i also have thr video of their second interraction which i can share!

[aysbes]

can someone remind me in like a day or two in advance of lapidot week i really wana participate but im very busy and days go past very quickly so i will likely forget

LAPIDOT 💙💚

[aysbes]

i am visiting my family for the holidays and last night my little sister asked if we could do watercolor and i forgot i was painting with my 8yo sister

as i study engineering art is something i "left behind" aka dont have any art supplies except a drawing tablet i got back at 8th grade and free spaces on my notebooks

I tried to leave art behind so so many times to focus on my studies and work but i just never could i always found a way to do it again it was like an addiction i couldnt drop

last night was the first watercolor i did since uuh,, middle school if not elementary

it was really fun

the only color i experience is digital and last night i was allowed to have it on paper

i really wish i could run away from everyone and everything and pursue my dreams of becoming an artist and so many other things

nowondays i slack from my studies and work to do silly drawings which im grateful but later i have to work overtime to make up for it

i wish i was free to do art to my hearts content without having to pay for it

[aysbes]

im so upset we didnt get a song from peridoot when she was in her depressed era it was the perfect opportunity!!!! ughhh!!!!!!!!

[aysbes]

outside with my nail polish no one knows itd so special to me sjjsjsjs just living it within myself also yes im alt yes im muslim yes im queer keep scrolling

[aysbes]

omg im gonna put on nailpolish! i havent worn it since i was a kid (i think elementary) and i decided i will!!! i picked out bitter brown and im doing my cuticles rn im so excited but also very scared bevause i have VERY shaky hands sjjsjsj my little sister rasked me to put on her first and i struggled so much sjjsjsjjs im gonna liveblog abt this bcuz im sooo excited this is so big for me

[aysbes]

i finally got tomodachi living the dream running on my ubuntu and i made all my friends and then i decide oh ill make lapidot, for fun

THEY FALL IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?!

Second interraction and they both have feelings for eachother

somebody sustain me