Feelin like absolute crap for no discernible reason. Just wanna cry and sleep. Been a long time since I’ve felt like this.
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Feelin like absolute crap for no discernible reason. Just wanna cry and sleep. Been a long time since I’ve felt like this.
Sometimes ya gotta post art you DONT like so you can post art you are proud of.
Even when doing a comic.
Especially when doing a comic.
Not every page is gonna be perfect, not every art piece is gonna be perfect, churn it out!! When it comes to improving your art, it is a tested fact that quantity is superior over quality. Make as much art as you can, while testing new techniques and studying to improve, stop erasing the whole thing I SEE YOU ERASING, just turn the page or get a new piece of paper and TRY AGAIN. You don’t HAVE to show people, but you will ALWAYS make a better piece later.
In my opinion its better to show your progression as an artist than to try and make every piece you post Your Best Work Ever. You do you, but the fact is that you will always be getting better, there will always be older pieces that show that you’re a better artist now. Why be ashamed of that when you can be proud of how far you’ve come?
You can even just be proud of the fact that you’ve made a bunch of art! That’s work!! That’s an accomplishment!! Even if, in your eyes, you haven’t improved AT ALL, making a lot of art is still good work and you have every right to be proud of that.
Also, slight sidenote but relevant: your feelings about your art are not necessarily a reflection of their true quality, ESPECIALLY if you have an anxiety disorder, anything similar to that, or even are just insecure. You are seeing your art through the filter of your own emotions, and that’s not a bad thing, but be cautious about letting that dictate how you treat your art. Treat the things you create with respect because even if you consider it the most horrible thing you’ve ever made, you still made it, and even if it was made in poor faith or is a bad take or is something that needs to be treated differently on a moral basis (harmful stereotypes or misinformation), THAT is what determines how you treat it. Try to view your art objectively or find someone you trust to help you.
This got very rambly and I acknowledge that I may have made some points in a strange, poorly-worded, or misinformed way, but I did do my best to speak in a generally applicable way. There are almost always exceptions and it’s important to acknowledge that.
PSA to all my fellow plus size/big folk out there:
You are not required to be “sexy” to be attractive. If thats what you want to be, more power to you!
But you can also be cute, or mysterious, or elegant, or funky, or anything that makes you feel comfortable and happy in your clothes.
I personally would much rather be cute than “sexy”. My size is not infantalizing. I do not need to make up for it.
Everything is Stress and Bad Times
Nearly paralyzed myself by thinking about cancel/callout culture.
Weirdly, I’m not that worried about being “canceled” myself?
I’m more worried about the things I love, things that I’ve attached myself to through fanart and projects, being canceled.
My biggest project besides OBMP has been in progress for over two years, and it’s for a youtuber, and those are dropping like flies. It feels like drama is just around the corner and I’m afraid I’ll be obligated to drop a project that I’ve poured myself into for so long, so deeply.
I guess it’s safer to do original work. Better to get canceled based on your own merit, I guess.
I guess I’m not done talking about this.
The people who fuel cancel culture the most arent the bullies who dig up old dirt. Its the well-meaning people who say “oh they did that? That’s awful!” And reblog the callout post, leave the disapproving comment, post their disappointed tweet, and even those who say “at least you acknowledge that you were wrong <3” (because that still validates the accusation) without critical thought, without checking facts, without getting context.
Here’s a challenge for you: dont reblog any kind of informative post or callout post or even discourse without fact checking. Look for primary sources. Stop backing bullies and cynics who think people cant change and anyone who’s ever done anything wrong in their life must be subject to a public thrashing to atone for it.
These “influencers” are human beings that you. Don’t. Know.
They arent your family or friends or even aquaintences.
Can they have a positive or negative effect on your life? Sure! So can literally anything else in the world. But they’re easy targets. Theyre vulnerable. They can be taken down with a single word, a well-placed comment, and an army of people who mean well but don’t check their facts.
I know I’ve been guilty of both condemning and defending people that maybe I shouldnt. But why do we have to do either? We don’t know them. If there are victims of their abuse we can support them. But otherwise, it isnt justice to bully someone. Its bullying. Full stop.
Please, check your facts. Think about whether its really worth it to spread something about someone who makes dumb videos for a living, especially if you dont know the context or even if it’s true.
Don’t be quick to reblog something that makes you angry. In fact, question those kinds of posts the most.
When we say “be critical of the things you read”, that means other critics, as well.
When i get my diploma or heck, even when i just finish this class, I think I might have myself a good long cry.
Here’s to you, all you meltdowns and stress and severe anxiety. You made me seek out counseling and a diagnosis when I’ve needed it my whole life.
You may not be gone for good, but I’m ready for you now.
To cry or not to cry
On one hand, crying sometimes helps feel better
On other hand, crying always makes feel worse