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i’m not ashamed of my softness anymore. i would rather be too soft than too hard. too kind than too cruel. this is not weakness. 

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my voice is soft but my words are loud. it’s not my fault you ignore them.

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my hands shake, my voice stumbles, but your presence stills them. 

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when the parasocial obsession relationship hits just right

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i’m trapped here so my outside world is formed from snippets of the internet, and when that’s taken away from me i have nothing...

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don’t look at me with your rough gaze. i’m too soft today. i’ll crumble in your eyes.

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remade because the side account with the original blog got deleted. unfortunately i didn’t save any of those texts, which is a double-edged sword: i’m glad the writings based on my own toxic relationship with an fp aren’t viewable, & yet... those writings were really special & dived into billy in a way i haven’t in my fics. i did a Lot of writing there & now it’s all gone. : (  i wish i had the foresight to back everything up. but... we start again, in some form. 

[ghosthierophant]

oof my old side account got terminated thus RIP all those sideblogs : /

thank god i combed thru some of them literally yesterday