#c.memes

[r0lem0delbay]

i assume you have feelings for someone here

Feelings like friendship? Sure, I feel for all my friends but romantically? Too busy! 🤷🏻‍♀️

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💭 cyan / val

"I'm glad you're my best friend, and through it all, I'm thankful for it. But part of me worries that all this, the me that you, and Sissy, and Gia worked so hard for before this year is just a cover for the kind of shit Hunter brought down on our heads. I didn't believe in this for a second when I showed up. It took being nearly torn to shreds to convince me you all weren't... crazy. And now, going on three years in I- worry. That I'll wake up one day and you'll realize I'm a dick. That Sissy'll work out that I'm the kind of terrible that sorry doesn't fix and then I'm alone again. Then I remember how hard you tried for Hunter when he kept trying to prove you wrong and I realize maybe that was dumb."

"If anybody's gotta be my ride or die, I'm glad it's you, V."

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💭 mo /cyan

"I wish you'd talk to some of us you know. We're your friends, and I better than most know this place is a hellhole. You don't have to be the happy-faced, ever-drinking partier all the time- you can just be Mo. I get the feeling there's something under the surface, waiting to break. I wish you knew that I was here for you if it ever does, I'm just... pretty terrible, at saying as much."

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💭 Cyan - Felix

"I always thought mom liked you better. I know now that was my dad, pitting me against you because he had something to prove about his ego, that I was the 'better' child she had and the heir to some tech empire. And I let him trick me into believing it. I was horrible, to you. All you ever wanted to do was hang out with me and I was shitty every time it happened. Sometimes I wonder if you remember that my idea of spending time together after I had my license when Mom insisted I hang out with you was making you watch for cops while I bought my next fix or if you blocked that out. I'm sorry it took me coming here to realize the kind of shitty, awful person I was. The version of me you grew up with is as good as a stranger to me, too. I'm just sorry I let him treat you like shit for so long, because your only crime was wanting to be my friend. And mine was thinking I was too good to know you. I'm sorry, Felix. But I won't say that- because the words'll ring empty, compared to everything else I said."

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💭 Cyan @ Josie

"Thank you. Maybe that's a stupid thing to say, but thank you. For being patient with G. I know you and I are more alike than we want to admit, a silent, unspoken history that means we never thought this was our outcome. But it was, and I'm grateful that it... all seems to have worked out. You two drive me insane, but I guess Sissy and I do that to other people, too. G's good people- you're good people, even if you don't think so. This place will eat you alive if you let it, and I nearly let it, after Gia. But I know it was better to have known her and hurt the way I do now, than to have never felt that at all. Not a lot of people extend their affection to the dead. I'm... Just thankful you decided the ghost that stuck around was worth the legwork like the rest of us did."

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💭 cyan and gia >.>

"I think about you a lot. I don't think I'll ever stop. I'm haunted by what-ifs. I hope you're okay, wherever you are. I hope uh. I hope there's some universe where none of this happened and we're still talking late into the morning on the computer. That naming my firstborn after you if they're a girl is... just a joke, and not something me and Sissy have dedicated ourselves to. We miss you- Thank you- I don't. think I'd be home here without you, Gia."

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📝 cyan/xavier

Their first impression: "I can't tell if this person is crazy or a godsend for giving me a place to stay, I hope I don't fuck this up, man- And I hope this isn't secretly a ploy for them to kill me and wear my skin."

Their current impression: "I owe Xavier big time, it's bittersweet moving away after 2 years, but I'll make sure to show up and put one red sock in their whites while I'm high once in a while to make sure they don't miss me too terribly."

What they like the most about your muse: That Xavier took a risk on him when nobody else was willing to, a stranger dressed oddly clearly addicted to something wasn't the usual first choice for a roommate- and Cyan knows that.

What they dislike the most about your muse: Sometimes Xavier makes very questionable life decisions about their shared space and the people they bring into them. Also he can't be sure but he's pretty sure they're moving all the furniture slightly to the left every two days so Cyan stubs his toe.

What your muse is for them ( Friend, lover, rival ecc.): a friend, and soon to be former roommate.

A general opinion of their relationship: Cyan values Xavier, and wants to see them do well, not just survive Huntsville but be happy here, safe- as much as possible.

If applicable, something they wish to reveal: "I was the one who was eating all the pita chips. I'm sorry. I lied because you looked really upset about it. Also I'm probably moving for real in a couple weeks, I also lied about moving the desk to the Boone place. I was not storing it there. I live there sometimes.... Sorry you just have this look on your face whenever I do something slightly out of the norm that feels like I'm kicking a baby."

[ruethedcyarchive]

“i don’t think i can let go” ( nora to mary lou )

“Then don’t..” mary lou encouraged, grabbing her lover’s hand; holding it in a loving interlock. “we’ve spent too many YEARS together to simply let go, my love... “ she told in a heavy breathed tone, “-we haven’t had NEARLY enough time.. nora- I love you too much.. and that’s never going to change..” she offered a smile, despite the eyes she felt on her; the possible hatred she’d get.. she leaned in and gave her a kiss; her lips smashing into the other’s.