#carmcake posts

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i think carmilla will always have a part of my heart. it’s been years and i still think of this community so fondly. who knew such a tiny, quirky, low-budget web series with 5 minute episodes would steal all of our hearts

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i miss the feeling of going absolutely feral with y’all and dropping everything to watch and liveposting our keysmashes whenever a new carmilla episode got released 

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elise and natasha are such very different people and it’s confusing because i’m literally in love with both of them at the same time

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today i finally came out to one of my best friends and i just feel so relieved and so full

watching carmilla for the first time in high school was the turning point in exploring my sexuality and it helped me realize for certain that i was not straight (i’d like to thank natasha negovanlis especially)

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this little web series gave me the courage to explore myself and start making strides to love myself and my identity fully. i’m still working on myself and still not open about my sexuality but i’m getting there and it’s largely due to this community

so thank you. thank you to everybody who has kept following this blog and supporting me despite my odd quirks and sporadic activity, and thank you to everyone involved with the production of this wonderful, little web series that helped make it possible for me to muster up the courage to love myself today

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every now and then i take a break from carmilla stuff and don’t see what’s up but then i’ll see a new picture of natasha negovanlis and i feel like i’m back in middle school seeing my crush in the halls when my heart starts beating rly fast and i get all hot inside because i swear she keeps getting more beautiful..natasha is gonna give me a heart attack one day

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there’s a gifset i once made from a video by gwc where natasha’s mouth is stuffed with marshmallows and it was marked as nsfw by tumblr i’m screaming

i’m slightly confused but congrats natasha for somehow making something as unattractive as a full mouth of half soggy marshmallows sexy enough to be marked nsfw by tumblr

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guys i miss hollstein and i miss carmilla and i miss this vibrant community and experience that changed my life. i can’t wait until the movie comes out so we can all reunite and rejoice with new gifs and general creampuff bliss. i love y'all

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do u ever just remember how natasha and elise are actually vastly different people of different general dispositions and interests and then wonder how ur simultaneously in love with both of them bc I do