🕸️ @cervile [ . . . ] continued from here ♡ .ᐟ.ᐟ
one of them is a 𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐛𝐚𝐥 , and it isn’t angel dust ━━━━ yet alastor’s aversion to even the 𝗣𝗢𝗧𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗔𝗟 for an 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 with him could nearly be construed as 𝑓𝑒𝑎𝑟 from certain angles , certain 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑔𝘩𝑡 . it elicits a 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 at angel’s core ; the kind that usually precedes his bright , nasally cackle ( his true laugh , as opposed to the 𝐒𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐑𝐘 𝐆𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐋𝐄𝐒 he’s rehearsed to perfection for the sake of maintaining an allure that 𝗕𝗘𝗖𝗞𝗢𝗡𝗦 unsuspecting men into 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 than he’d ever actually give them ) , but angel’s lips 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝑤𝑖𝑡𝑐𝘩 into a crooked smile while an 𝐚𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐮𝐟𝐟 gusts past his nares ; muted amusement .
the pursuit of 𝐬𝐨𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐲 has proved to be as easy as 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀 𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 with cinderblocks bound to his back , but angel has never known a comfortable life . thus , through the 𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 & 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐧𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐚 , he carries himself through a semblance of a daily routine with a grace he has 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 , wielding the wit that has thus far rendered him a 𝗦𝗨𝗥𝗩𝗜𝗩𝗢𝗥 amid a literal hellscape , 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ . still , that doesn’t make it easy . there are some days where he wants to 𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒘 𝒉𝒊𝒎𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒌𝒊𝒏 , where the desire to be 𝐍𝐔𝐌𝐁 to the searing ache of his laundry list of troubles manifests like a gaping wound at his core , a bludgeoning fist tearing through him that 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐫 into his viscera with each passing second .
𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗩𝗘𝗡 𝗞𝗡𝗢𝗪𝗦 he’ll probably relapse the moment he drags himself back to that stupid fucking studio . but he 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 , as embarrassing and unflattering and 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐄 as it feels . he has eternity to keep falling flat on his face , but if he manages to get 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑎 𝑐𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑟 closer to bettering his situation , to finally gaining 𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗧𝗥𝗢𝗟 over his 𝐰𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐮𝐬𝐞 for an existence , it must amount to something .
eyes that had been 𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 for most of the evening flicker with the tiniest sparkle of vitality at alastor’s words . he’d been expecting 𝗢𝗨𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 𝗥𝗘𝗝𝗘𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡 ( it’s almost a game they play , at this point : angel invites alastor 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑟 and alastor takes another 𝗧𝗘𝗡 𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗣𝗦 𝗔𝗪𝗔𝗬 , and angel really 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕 , because it’s harmless , familiar ) , thus , when the other man actually appears to be 𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐚 , when he actually takes his hand , angel’s mismatched eyes nigh on 𝑑𝑜𝑢𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑖𝑧𝑒 .
then , he giggles , face softening with an amusement that is 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒖𝒊𝒏𝒆 , somewhere near the placidity of 𝗖𝗢𝗥𝗗𝗜𝗔𝗟 𝗙𝗢𝗡𝗗𝗡𝗘𝗦𝗦 . “ i may not be a 𝑠𝑡𝑢𝑏𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑛 𝑜𝑙’ 𝑓𝑜𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑙 like you , al , ” he teases , gloved fingers slotting between those hosting alastor’s 𝒓𝒂𝒛𝒐𝒓 - 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒑 𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒘𝒔 with ease , “ but i been 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 nearly as long as yer 𝒓𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒏 ’𝒂 𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓 . ’t’s been awhile since i danced this way , sure , but i ain’t forget how . ” i never could , though that part remains unspoken . “ 𝑏’𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑡 ’𝑎 𝑛𝑜𝑡 , i danced real classy wit’ plenty gentlemen back in those days . ”
and there were other dances that 𝗪𝗘𝗥𝗘𝗡’𝗧 𝗦𝗢 𝗖𝗟𝗔𝗦𝗦𝗬 , but that’s 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 . regardless , some of the 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 were had in or around the context of a dance , and while much of that long - lost world from a 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐀𝐆𝐎 has 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐮𝐬𝐭 , there are shards of it he’ll 𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑖𝑛 ℎ𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 forevermore .
“ ya mus’ be in a 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒅 , smiles , ” remarks angel , 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 & 𝐬𝐨𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 as he follows alastor’s lead , less than worried about whatever awkwardness may come with his 𝗧𝗢𝗪𝗘𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗛𝗘𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 . he holds onto him gently , but not timidly ━━━━ more 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑒 than anything else , even if making 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧 squirm ( even if just internally ) is 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓 𝐅𝐔𝐍 for 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒍’𝒔 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒍 . “ charlie’s a 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑟 , ain’t she .ᐣ.ᐣ eitha’ that , or ya must 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐬 . ”