I NEED to hear your transfem Darry hcs/thoughts. Actually wait Darbit headcanons too. STAT. I will eat up anything & everything rattling around in your skull
- thegetou 🐞🍀
My modern AU trans fem Darry headcanons are way lighter than the ones that are in the canon time period so I’ll just start with those.
I feel like Darry would really like Kim Possible, and once she starts letting herself dress more feminine she accidentally starts to dress like her.
For reference:
And Two-But definitely realized once he sat down to watch the show with her, he just kinda glanced at her.
I feel like Darry would stress about needing to you the restroom in public, even if it’s just to wash her hands. Due to where they live and just the general fear of being scene as “a man in the woman’s bathroom” (very realistic fear)
The idea of Darry really wanting to dress fem for a long time, even before they knew they were trans, but they would just stare at their frame and say “I don’t wanna get hate crimed 🫤” Then dropping the idea for a whole week, tickles my brain.
Darry likes the movie “Perfect Blue” (I kinda had a fic idea based of chase scene at the end of the movie I don’t wanna say to much so I don’t spoil the movie)
In my head Darry coming out (to Two-Bit at least) was completely accidental. Like they could’ve been playing a video game or something, and Two-Bit asks:
“Why do you always pick the female characters?”
“I like, wanna be a woman but like… it’s too hard to come out and stuff.”
“Did you just…?”
“Did I what?”
“…”
“I didn’t say— fuck.”
I don’t have as many ones for the canon time period of the novel, but they’re all pretty much angst.
Darry watched the movie “Some Like it Hot” (The movie where 2 men dress in drag to escape the mob) at the drive in when they were 15. They realized something about themselves at that point.
Used to paint their toenails and just always wore socks until summer rolls around.
When her hair got long enough she’d look in the bathroom mirror and comb it down till it looked like she always wore her hair that way. She’d do it when she felt more dysphoric than usual.
I feel like at 17 Darry would try to come out Paul when they were feeling really dysphoric, and Paul would say something like “You’re a transvestite?” And Darry immediately felt like they were faking what they felt. Later in the relationship the two would probably have a fight about how Paul was so distant from them, and that they were worried about their relationship straining even more. Paul ends up telling Darry to “Shut up, and that *he* wasn’t a woman anyway, because if *he* was then *he* wouldn’t be yelling at him” That shatters Darry’s sense of self for months.
I didn’t mean to write parry angst (or at least not that much)
One time Soda said that he and could pass for a broad if time ever came, and said that he was lucky he wasn’t built like Darry. (Soda said that in a joking manner to Steve, not knowing about Darry) Darry cried a lot that night.
I’m gonna end up making myself cry, so let’s talk about my Dar-Bit headcanons with trans fem Darry in a modern AU (because the one the headcanons that take place in the 60s will also make me cry)
I feel like Darry really likes bunnies so whenever Two-Bit has something to tell her they would end up going to a pet store where you can hold the bunnies. Kinda like that scene in psych.
For reference (again):
Darry would pick something up with absolute glee if it’s an animal or from a franchise she likes, but acts like it was something that looked mildly interesting to them. Two-Bit, paying attention to the way Darry feels about feels about buying things for herself will randomly gift her things she really liked but didn’t buy for herself.
Darry and Two-Bit have wildly different video game preferences. Darry would enjoy cozy game genres and rpgs (I’m projecting onto her) While Two-Bit would probably play online shooters.
These Two remind me of Darry and Two. (It’s not hard to figure out which is which
Okay so re: Darry as the captain in a sound of music AU. This is just one possible route that I thought up last night and typed out while I couldn’t sleep
It’s the type of AU where we steal beats and plot points from TSOM and transfer them into the outsiders, because not being rich is very important to why Darry is the way he is (also for reasons I outline below I made Two-Bit Maria and that man is never even going to think about becoming a religious career man)
And also I don’t actually know when he and Two-Bit would end up together because with some of the changes I made I couldn't make it work within the main plot, so it would have to be in an event bit taken from TSOM. So it’s not in the bullet points
anyway I'll put the bullet points I typed up in an hour at midnight yesterday below the cut because it’s long but I will admit. this one kind of got away from me
- okay so Darry is the captain. Obv
- High school & football take the place of the navy
- Racked my brain for a bit and I think Two-Bit is Maria?? Like I said I don’t really go in for outsiders ships anyway so I cross-referenced usual Darry LIs and general characters and he was the only one who was age-appropriate and also could have a Maria vibe (is able to find the light in life, willing to poke at a cold figure until it shows emotion, gets along with the brothers in canon)
- Soda & Pony are aged down because otherwise this wouldn’t make any sense — Soda is 14 going on 15 and Pony’s 12
- (Steve and Johnny are also aged down to match their respective buddies so the boys can still have friends I think. I haven’t decided what to do with Dally yet in this AU — I would put him as Max with a personality transplant but I don’t know if I can see Dally being chill with Darry’s attempt to. Play into respectability politics essentially)
- Darry’s infinitely more stressed supporting two more needy kids on his meagre income alone. Soda does odd jobs but nothing full time
- This manifests in him being colder / less outwardly affectionate than in the book to Soda as well as Pony
- Furthermore he’s desperately trying to ensure their futures, which means he disapproves of them being too outwardly greaser, both for separation reasons and for respectability reasons down the line
- However being 12 and 14 means they’re less able to control their emotions and understand Darry. So the guy from the state comes down and sees them and says you need to spend more time with these kids man. They’re not loved
- Shit.
- Two-Bit, meanwhile, is living an unluckier life than the book
- After his father left his mother was only able to choose one kid to be able to support, and because he was older and more self sufficient, Two-Bit had to go
- He grows up bouncing around from orphanage to foster home to foster home to orphanage etc, erasing his family out of his mind because it hurts too much and Two-Bit Mathews does not like to dwell on things that hurt him
- Upon turning 18, he’s out of the system and despite his nature is forced to get a job to survive
- He does odd jobs around and scrounges enough money to pay for a shitty shitty motel
- Meets Marcia through these jobs, and they strike up a friendship
- However most of these odd jobs are a lot of labour and very unstable so he’s looking for better & easier work
- He starts thinking and he thinks of his own childhood. If there had been someone else around to watch him, maybe his mother wouldn’t have had to give him away
- And then he has one too many encounters with the bugs in his motel and decides fuck it. I’m putting an ad in the paper
- Darry’s reading the news as he does one night when he sees what may very well be God’s gift to the Curtis family
- There’s someone willing to work for — well, he can’t afford that, just like he can’t afford any of the other prices he’s seen on nannies and babysitters and watchers — but he’s also willing to work for pretty much nothing if he gets lodging
- Soda & Pony are still bunking together for nightmare reasons, and Darry’s sleeping in his own room, so he sits Soda down and asks him if he’s okay with someone else using his old room
- If he’s not, Darry will have to move into their parents’ room, but thank God he is
- So Darry contacts Two-Bit who is surprised that he’s a man and not a single mom but agrees readily
- Darry’s wary of Two-Bit’s manner but monetarily he’s desperate
- Two-Bit meanwhile takes one look at the Curtis house and is like damn no one ever has any fun within these walls. I’ve gotta change that
- Instead of making new clothes for them, Two-Bit teaches them how to grease their hair
- (Darry was away working on a house a little out of the city — it’s a placing he’d normally have had to decline because of the kids, but because of Two-Bit he’s able to accept and get a slightly higher pay)
- Darry is of course furious but Two-Bit argues back, saying that kids need self-expression and haven’t you noticed how happy they are about their hair, and besides, you know damn well grease is more than just what you put in your hair, Curtis. You think Socs can’t take one look at those boys and see exactly what they came from? Exactly what they are? You’re out of your mind.
- We probably tie Maria’s impassioned “please, love all of them” speech to here — then again it’s been a while so maybe somewhere else is better we’ll have to see
- Two-Bit especially throws accusations at him about how Ponyboy thinks his brother doesn’t even love him, and if he’s not going to prove he cares about them then maybe they all would be better off without each other
- He thinks Darry might punch him for that but instead he staggers back like he’s been hit
- Darry remembers what this whole thing was for and resolves to be better
- In showing more of his love for his brothers he also shows more of his personality to Two-Bit, who wasn’t expecting to like this guy as much as he does
- He looks at how hard he fights to keep his family together when his own fell apart for very similar reasons and his heart hurts
- Also Sandy is Rolf (Ralf?? Whatever Liesl’s nazi boytoy’s name is)
- Except we are cutting the nazis because there is no not-grossly insensitive way to do the nazis
- We might have to cut the music theme too? Which is a SHAME, but none of Darry’s hobbies work. So we may just make him dig out his dad’s old guitar or we’ll just ignore that because the music theme, as far as characters go, isn’t as important in this AU. Or maybe music = the greaser lifestyle
- Anyway, life continues and it’s as good as can be, bla bla, somehow Dally is there, without realizing Two-Bit and Darry are catching feelings for each other
- One day, Ponyboy and Soda make some innocent remark about Two-Bit being in love with their brother, and he bluescreens
- Because. Oh shit. He’s in love with their brother.
- And the class difference & pre-existing engagement as reasons they can’t be together in the original is replaced with good old fashioned homophobia in this one, and Two-Bit denies and gets the hell out of there before anyone, let alone Darry notices
- He uses his meagre savings to return to the shitty motel, until finally he talks with Marcia and she’s like what the heck. Why did you leave a dream job to go back to the crummiest motel imaginable
- He dodges and denies but one of the things that drew him to her in the first place is that she’s sharp
- Marcia figures it out, or at least something very close to the truth, and while she’s too aware of 60s homophobia to actually urge him back, she does half-convince him through sneaky means like calling him a scaredy-cat who can’t even tell a few lies until the situation passes
- He goes back to the motel and thinks hard about the situation and remembers how much happier the kids were with someone to keep them company when they were done running around before Darry got home
- He thinks about how Darry was able to get better pay with him there and how much that helped give the family breathing space
- He thinks about how it really didn’t even feel like a job, which is a big draw to someone as disinclined to work as Two-Bit
- And he also thinks about how truly shitty the motel is. And decides to go back
- It’s for the good of the family, he convinces himself, telling himself he does not miss them at all
- He returns, no one says anything about him being in love with anyone, because the boys have learned that when they point it out their new brother leaves, and they’re not about to risk that again
- Darry & Two-Bit have a reunion with a lot of unspoken feelings and they do NOT get together because neither of them are willing to risk outing themselves for the sake of a one in a million chance
- Instead they do a lot of prolonged longing eye contact and are too busy looking at each other to notice Soda and Ponyboy sharing confirming glanced themselves
- So things continue kind of like they were before but with more pining, and also Austria is replaced by the Curtis house, which they’re in danger of losing
- Both Darry and Two-Bit are terrified the boys are going to end up following their respective paths, and they end up having a lot of talks about their futures that turn into co-parenting discussions that turn into heart-to-hearts about themselves
- Darry learns that Two-Bit never found his family again, and does some digging and asks some old school friends and lo and behold, they’re still in town, and here’s their address.
- Two-Bit, who has managed to convince himself that he made up being in love with Darry, sees this man who has every right to drop all three of the people in the house like a hot potato and chase the dreams he’s determined and ambitious and intelligent enough to get, pouring every ounce of his being into care for others, who takes hard times and instead of drinking them away or giving up pushes himself past the edge and comes out swinging, and realizes that he is still in love with Darry. And maybe he will never not be in love with Darry.
- Unfortunate!
- He came back determined to never run away again, and he’s sticking by that, even though it’s never been harder to live under the same roof as Darry and not Do something about his feelings
- (Also, at some point Soda gets jumped, and together with Two-Bit he fights them off. When they all talk about it later at some point in the Curtis home, someone makes an offhand comment about how Two-Bit is basically family and then he really resolves to not leave unless Darry chases him out with a broom)
- Maria and Liesl’s Sixteen Going On Seventeen Reprise is replaced with Two-Bit and Soda having a talk about Sandy, during which Two-Bit talks about being in love like he’s experienced it, which of course he has, but Darry overhears and it puts a lot of stupid hope into his heart because to his knowledge Two-Bit’s never gone steady with someone, and some of his descriptions sound awful familiar…..
- But he crushes those thoughts because he’s learned by now that Darry Curtis does not get lucky breaks
- And if he does confess and it goes wrong, which it will, it could mean his brothers getting taken away
- But he watches Two-Bit joke around with his brothers and sees someone who takes everything life throws at him and inexplicably grins back at it, who is just as intelligent as Darry is but in a way that takes its time to make itself understood, and who cares about his brothers as much as he does, and it’s stupid and hopeless, but he wants. Heaven help him, he wants so badly
- Meanwhile, he’s gotten a job offer. It’s a good job offer too, it means they could maybe afford to spend extra money on new clothes or nicer groceries
- And it’s an office job, someone who heard of him through the bookkeeping he does as his second job for his roofing company, which means fewer hours and more time with the people he cares about
- There’s a recreational football league in the area he’s never had time to join, or Two-Bit’s suggested coaching a younger team too, so he can return to workouts he likes rather than workouts that make his body ache like a man of 40 instead of 20
- It’s pretty much perfect. But it’s halfway across the city and it means they’d have to move out of their parents’ home
- (Yes this is Switzerland. It’s a lot harder to replicate without pre-WW2 Europe)
- He’s conflicted, Two-Bit thinks he should go for it but is also convinced he’s going to be left behind in the move
- Soda & Pony don’t want to leave but they do want Darry to work less so they’re also conflicted
- Two-Bit is listing out reasons for the move and one of them is that they’d be able to cut his cost since Darry’d be home more
- Darry looks at him and carefully says, “you wouldn’t be coming with us?”
- Two-Bit, with a raised eyebrow masking his heart starting to hope, says “well, do you want me there?”
- Darry is too stressed and tired and conflicted to mince his words when he replies, “of course.” like it’s a given, like they’re maybe something more than what they pretend
- But he still doesn’t want to move, until one day they have no choice: if they don’t get out of there, they’re going to lose the house. It’s just not in suitable shape for growing boys, says the state. They don’t have enough money to pay for renovations but Darry is going to rebuild the entire thing himself if he has to, damn it all, until Two-Bit asks him to talk and convinces him to move on
- “Your parents live on in your brothers more than in this house. Your parents live on in you more than in this house. You want to keep their memory alive? Start by doing what they would want you to do, and let yourself have an easy break for once.”
- And so they pack up and Darry takes the offer, but before they leave, Two-Bit visits his family
- It goes… well. Sort of. After seeing Darry run himself into the ground he’s forgiven his mother, and his sister is open to the idea of having a brother
- Their lives were better off than they would’ve been if he’d stayed but his was not and that hurts
- But he remembers the three people who now view him as their own like he was always there, and somehow the pain eases, and when his mother makes him promise to visit again, he actually means it when he agrees
- They gather to say one last good bye to the Curtis home, and despite facing the most unknowns since any of them can remember, they’re together, and that’s enough
The end <3 this is just one possible route that I thought of, I truly have no idea if this is cooking or if the kitchen is burning down
♡- Fluff ♢- Angst ♧- Mulitchaptered ♤- Smut ☆- Au ✎- Series
These fics are sorted oldest to newest, I will be adding onto this as I continue to write.
Non Ship Fics
Change In Plans (♡) - Tim and Paul decide to go to the lake and Darry's dragged along.
Harsh (♢) - Sodapop thinks about Darry
Get It (♡) - Johnny's dropping out and he's told everyone. Almost everyone, that is.
Get Used To This (♡♢♧) - Just little fics abt The Mandalorian and The Child
Ship Fics
[Dar-Bit]
Missed Chances (♢) - Two-Bit has some regrets.
Heart Broken (♢) - N/A
Icy Roads (♢) - It's a few days before Darry's birthday and he gets a call.
It’s Okay (♢♡) - He was shaking like a leaf and Two-Bit was trying to keep him from floating away.
Nightmare (♡♢) - Darry has a nightmare, and Two-Bit hears him.
Blue (♢♡) - "And suddenly, blue was his favorite color again."
But you and I, we burn like a fire (♢☆) - “Tell me what's more beautiful; How the moon lets the sun shine throughout the day or the way the sun lets the moon glimmer at night?”
Maybe We Could Sleep In (♡) - Make you banana pancakes/Pretend like its the weekend now/We could pretend it all the time
Hoping To Hit You Somewhere Vital (♢☆♡♧) - and when i miss, you come and kiss me with a smile
Darrel Curtis’ Notebook (♢☆♡✎) - Darry has a notebook, and Two-Bit just so happens to find it.
[Tarry]
Bath Time (♡) - Tim and Darry take a bath together what else do you want me to say
I Got Everything (♡) - At my fingertips/How can I resist/When it feels like this?
I loved you as Icarus loved the sun- (♡♢) - Too close, Too much.
I was an island (♢♤) - Before you came along
Hoping To Hit You Somewhere Vital (♢☆♡♧) - and when i miss, you come and kiss me with a smile
[Stevepop]
Heavy (♢) - It's kinda shit but uhhhhh Steve and Soda gay lol
[Purly]
Weird Noises And Love Confessions (♡) - Ponyboy wakes up in middle of the night to a weird noise.
[Marcia x Sylvia]
please never fall in love again (♡) - could've been one lonely night/just like the others/but you lit up my life/this is what it's like to be lovers
[Daul]
Why do you build me up buttercup baby (♢) - Just to let me down and mess around/And then worst of all you never call baby/When you say you will, but I love you still
[PazDin]
when my time comes around (♡) - lay me gently in the cold dark earth/no grave can hold my body down/i'll crawl home to her
Tigaanur (♡♢♧♤) - Tigaanur (tee-GAH-noor); Touch
I Found Love (Where It Wasn’t Supposed To Be) (♡♢♧) - And I'll use you as a focal point/So I don't lose sight of what I want
Cyare’se (♢☆♡✎) - Fics about Paz and Din
[Destiel]
I’ve Been Thinking About You (♡) - Dean thinks about Castiel a lot and finally does something about it.
[Merthur]
A narrative waste of patches and light (♡♢) - We grew up in the suburbs then we cut all our ties/Now just take a look at this through Gwyllian eyes/You're wrong my friend, the road, it bends a bit to the right
Lungs (♡♢) - He tried to push through, to make his aching lungs take in more air and keep going, he couldn’t.
[Merlin/Lancelot]
Wasn’t it love soon as we knew each other properly? (♡) - Livin' 'bout half right 'til a certain person got to me/Nothin' is secret, everythin's sacred, how it ought to be/Under the moonlight on a clear night
Multifandom
[Romeo and Juliet, Merlin, Original Work]
Whether by accident or fortune (♡♢♧) - You and I/We are matter/And it matters Multifandom collection of ficlets. I'll add to this sporadically.
