#didshit

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*wearing a shirt that says 'dont talk to me unless ur going to come to my funereal' because im too exhausted to explain social anxeity to every person i meet*

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ppl point out these things that i do that i call social tics which like. i find a word and fixate on it to the point where its in every sentence i say. like, it was 'cute' recently, but now its 'relateable', and i get the feeling ppl think im just trying to Make A Catchphrase but i actually cant stop it and its  a w f u l

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doooooooont judge me i am so starved for attention its not even funny my life is falling apart and my finals are this/next week yaaaaas

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i love how depression is heralded as the neurodivergent gold standard. people can easily identify that depression and sometimes adhd are Mental Disorders, and treatment for them is widely recognised + accepted, even if people don't agree with the fact that they exist theyrre still recognised (and, as an added bonus, people are usually more accepting of them because its so normalised)

but god forbid you have some sort of disassociative disorder. god forbid you be autistic. people know what these are, but put them into a subgroup. were subhuman, now. were the 'crazies'

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ive been rly disassociated recently i think!!! but not in a bad way like it used to be!! i just dont feel like myself to the point where i look at myself and see a different person. i dont recognise the person i see as me! thats very strange. i dont feel like my thoughts are mine thats even stranger

its not bad tho just. odd

i get health insurance for the first time in 2 years on dec 4th im going to get a phys and psych eval i think 

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(Who is Quinn and who is Lyra???)

lyra is tumblr user moonharp and is the sweet person alive omg. it used to date quinn, an alter of mine, who has deleted their blog (their url was haircute but they didnt blog that much)

go send lyra some cute messages omg

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is quinn still active? their blog's gone. (please don't feel pressured to answer this if you don't want to, and my apologies if this is an invasive question.)

they. dont have as much of. an active role anymore. they were rly only around for lyra and i mean. they still talk w/ lyra but.

yh they deleted their blog. 

its not invasive dont worry. better me than lyra omg

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