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Episode 11 notes

I reccomend reading the episode right before reading this, otherwise it might be a little confusing.

THESE NOTES WILL HAVE SPOILERS UP TO EPISODE 147!!!

GENERAL NOTES:

Y'know, as R&M are in the football team with Day and Exer, I wonder how close they actually are. Or how close each of them think they are. Exer clearly hates R&M. But Day's and R&M might be a little more complicated than that? Idk, the first scene abt the chocolate seemed like sth only close ppl would do to each other. Maybe Day's and R&M's relationship is the toxic version of that

Look at this:

We have a pannel of ppl commenting on Ron's height, then a close up of Ron's face thinking to himself and then a flashback of Jackson calling him "Frankenstein" and being scared of him.

Ron's clearly feeling off place; he's a foreign student in a new country and, to top it off, he has an unusual height that makes him stand out a lot. He must be having a huge cultural shock too.

Also, I've never seen anyone point out that in the Halloween party he dressed as Frankenstein: (IMG: Episode 55)

It's a way to represent him embracing his differences with everybody else.

And also, it is very romantic that Tim fell for Ron when he was being himself at the fullest

Also related to the Frankenstein scene; Jackson sometimes acts impulsively and then regrets it, just like when he yelled at the resolution of the skirt arc

This is also linked to the fight: Jackson impulsively goes and starts a fight with Exer. Like sometimes he has a burst of emotions and acts based on them without even able to stop and think what he's doing. Probably why he started bottling up his emotions: he felt unable to control himself, so he tried to supress his emotions to regain control.

Jackson sometimes thinks in Spanish and says "Ay" instead of "Ow". Meaning he's really influenced by the language. That's a good learning method if you want to get better at a language. But what's most interesting to me is how much effort he puts into understanding and being closer to Carol, only for then not to call her "Tía". He longs for her trust but at the same time feels like he can't trust her.

Ron is definitely feeling bad for the cultural barrier, and Jackson is the one who Ron understands the least and the one who understands Ron the least. So he's really affected by his comments and is irritated when being with him

"Our favourite song"??? I can't say that I'm a Dexer fan (I'm not a hater either. Just neutral) but I can't deny they had chemistry before being affected by the Diary

If Exer was controlling the skirt from afar all this time, why didn't he went looking for him before lunch?

EXTRA NOTES:

There's a chromatic aberration when Jackson and Ron meet eyes in the end of the episode.

September 14th

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Episode 3 notes

I reccomend reading the episode right before reading this, so it makes a little more sense

THESE NOTES WILL HAVE SPOILERS UP TO EPISODE 146!!!

GENERAL NOTES:

Exer ability to lie without hesistation and without giving any hint of lying just proves is not the first nor one of the few times he's already done it

Exer waiting for Jackson just to stare at him angrily seems like kind of a way to tell Jackson to "back off" imo. Kind of trying to show his popular-kid power

Jackson talks to himself in second person a lot. Talking to yourself in second person is pretty common and normal, but knowing what happens next... maybe this is an early sign of Jackson's dissociation?

Exer was basically testing Jackson with the whole sink, the principal and the green eyes thing. I'm 99% sure

And also stealing his schedule?? That man was already trying to know where Jackson would be or what?? Maybe he was just teasing him but I'm also 99% sure he read his schedule before giving it back to Jackson

Hello, I'm Present Jack adding some stuff I've noticed that Past Jack missed:

Weird how in Jackson's memory Exer doesn't have green eyes

Following Episode 7's note about Jackson's eyes' green glow idea: As Jackson's eyes were glowing green in episode's 1 scene, maybe this means Exer's messing with Jackson's memories (kind of making him see the green and then making him forget it?) That'd be rather... odd. Idk, I'm not sure abt this. + there's no green aura in the memory. Maybe that memory is just some seconds after seeing exer with green eyes. It's even shown on Episode 2 that his green eyes last a short moment

EXTRA NOTES:

It's September 4th 1989

The black aura now is when Exer is glaring at Jackson

No greenish aura around Jackson in the bathroom scene, even if he was angry at R&M

His eyes have a green glow again when he meets up with Exer

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Episode 10 notes

I reccomend reading the episode right before reading this, otherwise it might be a little confusing.

THESE NOTES WILL HAVE SPOILERS UP TO EPISODE 147!!!

GENERAL NOTES:

Looks like Exer expected Jackson to "get into trouble" but not actually take someone's skirt. Maybe he really did think that Jackson was a pervert here. He hates Jackson so it makes sense that he expects the worst of him

David falling for every new guy he meets is so me coded. I fall for every person I meet at first, and then just realize my feelings are platonical

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Jackson has never used his mouth right from day 0. Just look at this scene:

Jacskon has a good reasoning as to why not give David the skirt! Now, all he needs to do is tell him what he thinks and then we're all goo-

Nevermind, onto misscommunications we go!

No matter how distant he seems to be with Carol and Frank by not calling them "Tía" and "Tío", Jackson does feel safe with them. He does feel like his home is a safe space where he can relax, and his found family people he can rely on

Until his home is "intruded" by someone else and Carol and Frank break his trust

And this is very interesting to keep note of, especially in the latest episodes. Jackson's home is not a safe space anymore (Ron is a gossiper who can listen to him), his family are not reliable anymore (he can't tell them what he's going through bc he knows it's crazy and unbeliable, he has abandoment issues and believes that if he's "weak" or "dumb" they could abandom him, he's had hallucinations of Carol and Frank having creepy eyes (ik it was Diary's doing but the point is that Carol and Frank can't protect Jackson and can be influenced by Diary)) and now his OWN head is not safe anymore! Diary can listen to some of Jackson's thoughts, can see whatever Jackson sees and can CONTROL him against his will!! Jackson's lost all kind of privacy and not having ppl that he can 100% trust is not helping either

Also look at this, this is very heartbreaking:

"Can't even trust yourself"

HE CAN'T EVEN TRUST HIMSELF! He's been betrayed by EVERY SINGLE PERSON (but Elijah ig) in his life and now his own body and head is betraying him too!!!

EXTRA NOTES:

Black bg twice, but I think both instances black was used to show emotion and not sth magical... though jackson's magic is very linked to his emotions. idk

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Episode 4 notes

I reccomend reading the episode right before reading this, so it makes a little more sense

THESE NOTES WILL HAVE SPOILERS UP TO EPISODE 146!!!

GENERAL NOTES:

I can't be the only native Spanish speaker who gets annoyed when Paola randomly skips the opening exclamation/question marks (¡¿)

Ik that Jackson "froze up" when he saw Exer but there was no green anything, so I don't think Exer makes him "freeze up". This is not the last time he does this and the way his mind goes elsewhere to the point he doesn't hear his surroundings is odd. This must be a sign of something. Probably dissociation? Maybe (I'm nothing close to a psychologist and I don't want to assume anything)

Jackson says a bunch of stuff he likes to do but it's never shown later in the comic. Probably because it's not relevant to the story, but maybe Jackson couldn't find time to do his hobbies due to school + ig magical bullying drains the inspiration to do anything

NOW exer is starting to get jealous. In the previous episode he was just setting boundaries (sth like "this is MY girl, new kid"), now he is starting to see Jackson as some kind of competition of popularity

Exer can read other people's minds??

Ricky and Marty are a reference to Rick and Morty btw

The scene of Ricky and Marty shows that Jackson is not the only one who is a victim of Exer's bully magic. Exer's been harassing Ricky and Marty even before the start of the comic, as shown in Pam's flashback (IMG: Episode 42)

(and ik that it some people might say "they deserve it" or "they had it coming" but bullying is NEVER justified. I'll definitely make some "analysis" or sth later abt this)

Also, Exer is clearly testing how much Jackson can see. And probably also teasing him. Though the most surprising thing for me abt this is how Exer is acting while doing this; he is looking at Rick and Mary but is clear that he's listening and paying attention to what Jackson is doing bc he keeps a poker face until Jackson starts panicking, then he laughs in a mocking way (and probably laughs abt Jackson and not R&M)

I wonder if Exer consciously made Jackson think it was his fault at the beggining or just a coincidence. Bc Exer looking at Jackson before playing with R&M makes me lean to the former.

Hello, I'm Present Jack and I'll add some things Past Jack missed that I think are interesting:

I think Exer purposefully made his eyes green and made like a mist around him to tease Jackson later. In Episodes 1-2, only his irises are glowing green and there's no green mist (just the greenish aura), but this time it was much more exaggerated:

I think Exer did this to reduce Jackson's suspicious of him; he denies what Jackson's saying in such a natural way that it really seems like Jackson's the one losing it. In fact, I think the whole thing was pre-meditated (Teasing R&M, taking Jackson's schedule) to put up that act. Which would link to Episode 2's first scene: Exer practicing to put up an act

EXTRA NOTES:

There's a green mist around Jackson before Rick and Marty start getting bullied by magic. But again, must be a narrative way of keeping new readers confused.

Times Jackson has "frozen up": 2 (both related to Exer, but none seemed due to his magic)

Also I forgot to mention it before, but there's a chromatic aberration in the title

There's also a green mist in the flashback of the previous episode

There's a black aura when Jackson's seeing what's happening to R&M