Tagged by the wonderful @serenpedac to list five songs that I like! I've introduced a few new ones into my rotation recently (well, not actually new but new to me haha):
1. 'free' by Florence + the machine (I listened to this on repeat today, haha!)
2. Hold me Down - The Happy Fits (I've been listening to this band quite a lot this year, they are my peppier band! Channeling the energy, haha. This is my current fave, but I also like 'the garden', and 'sailing' is a Tobi/Adam song!!)
3. I had to include a Sleeping at Last song (I'm seeing them live super soon I am so!!! Excited!!). Let's go with Overture - it just feels like it lifts, opens (I normally follow it up with 'earth' and then 'taste') ('wave after wave' is another song in my Tobi playlist!)
4. I'm gonna keep with the peppy theme (mostly) - last summer, one of my besties gave me this song because I was listening to too much Blanco: Mille, by Fedez. IT'S SO FUN (but Blanco is really fun to dance around to okay)
5. Mouthpiece by Dan Mangan, because I've listened to this guy for years and this song is still so much fun to dance around to, a lil angsty as it is.
That was really fun, thanks seren...!! Tagging a few people - @ejunkiet @agentnatesewell @nat-seal-well @garglyswoof @carry-the-sky @nerdierholler @thee-morrigan @pretty-haunted
First, I hope you're doing okay. Sending love and hugs your way!
Second - for your lil ask game!
1- a song that makes you happy
26- what movie would you want to live in?
No pressure - mostly just saying hey and sending love xo
Thank you, lovely person!! I've been reading and even writing again a little, it's been a better week :) and tomorrow gonna do a little exploring in a nearby city, so it should be a good weekend...!
I've had the Hadestown "wait for me" stuck in my head for two days! This version! I reblogged it two days ago and keep listening to it, and now whenever I lie down, I start humming it again...!
A song that makes me happy though - I'm still on my Sleeping at Last kick (it's been 4 years)
26. A movie I'd want to live in... that's a great question. The 1992 Orlando (if I get to be Orlando hahaha)
I've been tagged by wonderful people (thank you!) and have actually got a few of my wips Going Again, so here's the active list (TWC):
The truth wills out
the first death of adam du mortain
limbo
you as you were (I might finish it; I'm toying with the thought, but it is Not A Priority-)
Tagged by the wonderful @serial-chillr (and technically also @nat-seal-well hehehe)
Tagging: ahh, no pressure with this tag, it's mostly an open one to YOU, Reading This, but also - @carry-the-sky @garglyswoof @pretty-haunted @ejunkiet @serenpedac @kirnet
GREAT QUESTION I stayed up last night watching dog videos can't lie... One was about giving a Samoyed puppy it's first grooming session so 1. Samoyed, hehehe
2. Boxers!!! Boxer mutts! Just, big but not too big dogs that are super playful and loveable <33333
3. Vizsla - I would never have the energy to own one myself but I love my aunt's dog, she's called Winnie (the pooh) and when I dog sit we go for lovely long walks in the countryside and I set her loose in a fenced off field where I don't have to try and keep up, haha. Best way to walk her: go with two people, run in opposite directions so she loops around the both of you, it's great. That said, early this year she found a freakin' dear leg while we are walking and me chasing her to make her put it down was a fantastic game... For her... But it had been snowing, and so it was pretty while I ran after her like a mad woman/slowly herded her into a corner until I could grab her doggy coat and wrestle it free...!
4 + 5 my friend's dogs that I also dog sat this year (see a trend here). They are the sweetest, well trained dogs, glorious mutts, and the puppy especially is still so soft!!!
I have to ask about Tobi again. For the weirdly specific asks: 4, 10, and 45 please!
You are wonderful, and I am hilarious - so, I couldn't find the original ask game (didn't tag it correctly on my blog) so I tried Google Tumblr more widely and found what I thought was the meme! I screenshot'ed it so I wouldn't forget and could noodle on it on the train or something
I've just properly looked at what I screenshot'ed:
HILARIOUS. I will totally answer for Tobi --
4. Mythical creature he believes is real:
Selkies is the easy answer hahaha but I think - he is also fascinated/interested in like a ghost ship being real, or some deep sea leviathan. He never, never wants to encounter them himself, haha, but it's quite a thought!
10. On a plane, he would ask for orange juice hahahaha. But enjoying the journey is a large part of the point and if he can sail somewhere, he will! And on board Nessie/the reliant, he's got everything (he went through a long phase of wellness smoothies...)
There isn't a 45 so I'll do 20 and 25 because I CAN
20 Favourite Disney princess movie - oooh, he liked Hercules (a lil scary when he was lil and a lot of heart and gods and fun - also herc is a hunk). And Treasure Planet! Because ....ships.... But also, a really great cast of characters (I've gotta rewatch that myself actually)
25 he would say that he has a fair taste in music; he doesn't invest too much time in it though. He's got some cheesy romantic pop songs on there, club music that's mainly heavy beats for working out to. Some glass animals? Europop, some french, some Italian - he thinks Blanco is mad but his songs have great energy for their slight nihilism. A song for Tobi to jump around too:
This is a great question- hmmmmm I'm going to say 19th century lit because I've been audiobooking them; I've read a few physical books, but not as many as I might like! Trying to make time again now.
6. Was there anything you meant to read, but never got to?
So many things, haha, I had to migrate my book stack off of my nightstand because it was getting too precarious! If books I am half way through count, then Ive been meaning to finish Fingersmith, since it's lovely. Also Station 11 which I am also loving and a third of the way into. In the not started stack, I wanted to try and dig into Jonathan Strange (it's exactly my genre, and I did read and love Piranesi this year!). Also, All the Light We Cannot See which my dad gave me two years ago. I'll pick them up soon!
16. What is the most over-hyped book you read this year?
Haha, I'm not sure I've read one this year! Had a very ecclectic reading list :D
22. What’s the longest book you read?
Hmmmm looking through my books I suspect it was... How about one I had to start again, and am now only just teaching where I was - a Tale of Two cities haha!
I'd like to swap an Ori fact for a Dinah fact if you please!
For Ori -- the reason she had to eventually get rid of the zippy little red car is because it kept getting broken into U_U. The last time, it got carjacked and totaled by the person who stole it and she decided it wasn't worth it trying to get it replaced!
Oh Ori!!! Her poor car! Reason for entering law enforcement, haha? Ahh, is she a detective?
A Dinah fact <3333 thank you for asking:
Dinah like to dance -- she used to regularly attend a variety of classes in the city, and while the Wayhaven offerings are much reduced, she has kept it up. She goes running as well, in the mornings, when the mist still clings to the bridleways. But when she has the chance she escapes to the city and can be found in a salsa bar, dancing until her feet might fall off, haha.
Bloody Nose, Bloody Mouth, as I am obsessed with the way you write Tobi and Adam's relationship??
Ohhh, so I do love the idea of this wip even though I'm not sure I have the energy to write everything I had planned for it. Essentially: Adam POV, Tobi and Rebecca go together to the auction, they get caught anyway - both of them this time - and so instead of Bobby or Dougie getting accosted it's... rebecca. Which is a lot of fun. But anyway, the meeting was always a trap/the human traffickers get tipped off about the plan by circumstances outside of Tobi's control, Rebecca breaks cover to try and save him, they both get taken, and UB is left in their mobile-telecoms unit, miles away, listening to static as Adam tries frantically to raise them both on the comms.
Tobias— is the last they hear, a gasp from Agent Rayne’s line. Tobi’s line remains silent
Tobias? Tobias! Tobi!
Adam’s hands are shaking as he stares at the small screen, the static of the comms filling his thoughts and his head.
The blip that is Agent Rayne is moving, running to follow. Rebecca, Nate says, falteringly. He is as wide-eyed and frozen as Felix is. Please, don't —
A burst of noise, a scuffle, confrontation, and then another burst of static before Rebecca’s line also goes dead.
Shit, mason snarls, kicking his seat back and rising from the console. Shit, shit, shit—
So UB go in (Adam fraying and desperate but now of all times he must keep a handle on himself, he must plan as well as act, he must get them back) - and they enter as the auction begins (Tobi on his knees and spitting blood after being tazed for his lack of cooperation) and Adam's carefully held onto control almost breaks. Because this is a room full of supernaturals that are all hungry. Cue a saving your beloved/reincarnated lover from the hands of your enemies scene that makes you really FEEL the desperation and the fear there and the lengths a very old, very powerful being will go for the ones they love. Chaos erupts. It was going to erupt anyway, and despite how frantic adam was, they were entering with a plan, and Tobi and Rebecca's precautionary nifty little magic tattoos has led the agency to exactly what they were looking for. Technically, the mission is a success.
Anyway, in the ensuing mayhem, Adam has Tobi, and they are both fighting their way out--battle couple feelings to the max- and they descend into the basement following Anwir and searching for the others find the cages, most of the stolen still present. And then Tobi is once again asking Adam to leave him again, to save and protect the others, to find Rebecca (now revealed to have been injected in Dougie's stead- heck yeah she survives it, too - how cool an element would this have been??). And Adam --- Adam had just almost lost him. (Don't make me leave you. Not again.)
So they end up staying together (Tobi is barely staying on his feet, anyway) and Anwir gets away, but they get the stolen out. They get Rebecca out (still unconscious, head lolling in Adam's arm, as limp as a puppet with its strings cut. She has never seemed so small to Tobi, before). (something something annunaki something I haven't decided everything--)
and in the aftermath, there is a moment of quiet. A breath, before the next thing they will be needed for, the next action. They are bloodied and beaten (physically, emotionally) And Adam, who has been holding himself together with pritstick and odd ends of string, allows himself to succumb to relief.
There is no 'I shouldn't have tried to stop you' conversation afterwards, because that conversation before the mission went down differently. Instead, it's relief, and the need for touch, and be touched, to hold, to feel. A maelstrom of emotion that is all encompassing and all too much, and so Adam breaks away, because he wants this but he can't, he still can't do this. He sounds hoarse, a little broken, ineloquent and far less controlled. But he doesn't pull away. Not at first. And Tobi takes a breath that shakes in the small space between them, and lets him go.
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Of what I've actually WRITTEN of all of this, there is currently 2.5k of the conversation surrounding their initial divising of the plan to send Tobi and Rebecca in, and parts of the conversation that followed, when Adam accompanies Tobi to his room to change into the suit. The focus is on what Adam trusts himself to say and not to say (at this point, very little, he's remarkedly silent when the conversation is going on). Adam is torn, because if it were anyone else volunteering to enter the belly of the beast and give them their best shot at finally locating the auction, Adam would have agreed to it. The thing is, it's not anyone else. It's Tobi. And that knowledge fills him with a fear so strong that it would immobilise him if he let it.
So he follows Tobi to his room, and helps him get ready. Satisfies himself with only this: this moment, brief touches, this act.
He is scared, Adam can see it in the trembling of his hands. And yet he still does up the buttons, tweaks the collar in the floor length mirror in the corner of the room. He tugs the red tie around his throat and pulls the knot too tight. Wrestles with the cufflinks, the cuff of the ironed shirt flashing ivory over tanned skin.
Adam has kissed him on that wrist, just the once. Over the faint impression of the scar there. The lamplight like moonlight and the warm smell of worn leather and fog and Tobi, and Tobi's hand in his own, warm beneath his lips. Forgive me, Adam had wanted to say, into that quiet dark. I promise that next time, I will keep you safe. I will keep you safe.
Adam's feet carry him across the room and he sees Tobi look up as he reaches forward, pausing before he touches his shoulder.
May I, he asks, his voice low in his throat.
Tobi nods, watching him in the mirror. He turns, swallowing as Adam reaches gently for the tie and begins to undo it, his fingers grazing the warmth of his shirt beneath.
Be safe. Please.
I… will do my best.
Will I finish the entire story? I doubt it - but I do want to finish what I've already written. I might skip ahead as well to that final scene; however, I'm treading pretty similar ground in terms of the kidnapping scene with You as You Were, and I have too many projects and write too slowly to mock this up properly either.
Ahhh, fun scenario to think about though, and definitely Book 3!Tobi's canon.
