I’m having a rollercoaster of a day
#ended up not having to cover my coworkers shift because I literally just started and am not confident in my closing abilities nor have I#ever opened#(which I shared only for my other coworker to drop off her key and tell me I can do it and wish me good luck#she isn’t available today and dropped off the key right before leaving)#*only* for sick coworker to call me and let me know she will work today despite being sick and we agreed for me#to be on standby if she needs it#but now I feel bad because she sounded horrible#like genuinely feel awful#I’m not the type of person who wants to just try something#no I need to see it a few times before I am confident in the ability to do it myself#or do it under guidance#man this sucks#I gotta postpone some stuff as well#because if she calls me I want/need to be ready asap#I’m sorry I just don’t want to open and stand by myself when I haven’t even worked a handful of times#applauding those who can and want to but that’s not me#just spent 10min in queue for a phone call and hung up because there’s other things#called my gp to reschedule an appointment I won’t have for weeks#but I’m available earlier and that’s sorta needed lol#only for them not to be able to call back for another few hours#+ I’m volunteering for something and the people I’m working with are a few years younger and I’m not fond of the way they’re handling#things 😭 like brother I wish I could just tell them ‘okay you made a bad decision’ or ‘no we have or should do this’#but like it’s volunteer stuff and I don’t want to be mean#as in why bother if I’m not paid and I also don’t want to be mean#today has me feeling like a fool#was mostly looking forward to going to the gym but now I’ll wait till the work day ends just in case#I was gonna go to the gym and then clean up at home and treat myself to lunch in town#but now I don’t even want to show my face in town in case my coworker sees me :/#which I shouldn’t feel bad about because again it’s my day off and I couldn’t come in because I have never opened nor been there during#opening so I genuinely have no idea what to do