#final vent

[suminomiyyas]

[thenextchapterbegins]

you know this is the last ill say on my venting

ive never proclaimed to be a good person

im a bit of meme but im no saint

ive had conflicts

ive had arguments

ive had disagreements

ive said things i regret

and things i dont.

ive lost friends and ive been in drama

I have shadows that follow me from my past misdoings and some shadows that cling even tho i do hope i am better then when those incidents occurered.

ive tried to move on, to forget, to let it go, to let the past be buried where it is.

Some people cant be convinced.

some will burn defending a friends honor.

some cant believe a friend could do wrong so the other must be a cruel person.

i understand all these things.

i only wish i could explain my side more. 

issues arent black and white

most of them are very grey. 

ill admit in drama or fights ive probably said mean things, but i dont also engage in drama for funsies ive only done it for causes i thought were extremely nessecary.

some people cant admit they did wrong on their side its easier to blame the other and make them out to be a victim

i get it i was like that once too but it doesnt help, all it does is hurt the other person maybe you feel like they deserve it but with only so many handfuls of years on this earth is it really needed to bash and brutalize someone forever? Because of a misunderstanding

or an argument

or a disagreement on rping

ideaology

timing

etc.

i dont really think so.

i only hope myself that i can show through my words that if able i will always explain my side but ill never claim to be some saint either. 

and hopefully one day when this site is done picking sides and can listen to the offender of the situation maybe all this petty bullshit can end.

that would be nice

it wont get better till we can as a tumble society be willing to listen to the other and hear there words before making judgement.

else we will continue in this cycle of whoever tells the story is the victim and those its against is the brutalizer, the one who hurt them. No one really likes to admit “yeh we had drama we were both dicks but they were more of a dick”

XD if more stories were told like that maybe we wouldnt be so keen to picking sides in things.

[voice-of-illogical-sense]

I had a bit of a shit day Saturday morning... I was gonna write a long post about it and then put this GIF at the end. I doubt many of my followers would have gotten the reference.

[ukuleledeathnote]

One day moreeeeeeee

[principe-haim]

[tormod]

its like im finally getting proud of myself and stuff im doing and i m just really happy with all the little things im managing to do which for like ever my familew  been wanting me to do that but now i am and suddenly its not "enough" is the right word

idk 

i feel like ive been having to tread carefully all month and its kinda ridonk 

[ifonlywecouldfly]

Kamen Rider Ouja is a badass.

[shelter-as-we-go]

I find it weird that we might be thinking the exact same thing as each other, feeling the same way, but we'll carry on not knowing that, and at this rate, there's no doubt that in a few years time we won't even remember each other. Just that thought aches me through to my fucking bones… Ah life.