tom riddle x death eater!reader.
cw: set in 1981 during christmas, inaccurate portrayal of the first wizarding war (tom is not physically voldemort), grief, depression.
1981. your first christmas after the end of the first wizarding war. the dark mark burned on your skin like a living worm, and you felt lost. your body felt like a black hole, swallowing and devouring every scrap of light that tried to approach. depression hollowed your bones, leaving your blood so cold you felt as though hypothermia would claim your soul at any moment.
your old friends had vanished into thin air, victims of the darkest magic any wizard had ever wielded. the death eaters had taken absolute, unrestricted power, and even though you stood on the winning side of the war, you felt irreparably defeated. what was the point of walking around with victory branded on your arm if your best friends—former members of the order of the phoenix—were all dead? what was the purpose of christmas if not to spend it beside the ones you loved?
the only one left was tom.
the scent of masculinity and fresh books wrapped around you as riddle’s tall figure settled beside you on the weathered wooden bench, tucked away in a forgotten corner by the edge of the black lake. it was a private place, rarely visited due to the difficult access made worse by the untrimmed, neglected grass. you loved it. it was calm and offered an incredible view of hogwarts and the mountains that isolated it—it was yours. the old bench creaked as tom’s weight settled beside yours. he was the only one you had left, and the reason the war had existed at all. leader of the death eaters, tom had proven himself cruel and merciless, kidnapping and torturing—physically and psychologically—anyone who dared oppose his ideology, and carrying out a “cleansing” of the world, as he coldly called it.
despite all of that, he still seemed to like you, for some reason you couldn't understand.
“i’ll admit,” he said without greetings, the british accent precise and clear on his tongue, “the last place i expected to find you on christmas was here.” he paused. “shouldn’t you be in hogsmeade, buying presents?” the question came out... surprisingly gentle.
you didn’t look at him, your feet—hidden inside black boots—swinging anxiously, betraying your unease. “i don’t have anyone to buy for,” you replied quietly.
from the corner of your eye, you saw one dark eyebrow lift. his gray eyes swept over you, taking in your warm clothes that hid the spectacular mark on your arm—unfortunately, he thought—and your elegant scarf. you looked beautiful with your reddened nose and cheeks.
“well,” he began again, “i did.”
one pale, veined hand slipped into his large ebony wool coat, pulling out a small, elegant black velvet box. awkwardly—almost as if he were embarrassed by the gesture and was hesitant—he extended it towards you. “for you.”
you eyed his skeletal fingers warily before taking it, as though a cockroach might leap out at any second and kill you. you never knew what to expect from tom. “for me?”
“yes,” he replied simply.
your fingers brushed against his as you accepted the gift. inside, a silver arm cuff bracelet gleamed against the cloudy winter day, a snake adorning its center. it was beautiful. refined. “i know you’ve been... unwell, lately,” he said. “not that it particularly concerns me. this is just a christmas present mixed with a simple and insignificant gratitude for your contributions during the war." he added coolly. "you may also think of it as my futile and superfluous attempt to pull even the smallest smile from you.”
a small, fragile but sincere smile spread across your depressed features, cutting the heaviness that has been there for months. you didn’t mind him saying he didn’t care about your feelings—the gesture was enough for you to know that, in his black heart, there might be some gray corner that stood out in that darkness and sheltered you. for a fraction of a second, your blood seemed to warm at tom’s gesture.
finally, your eyes met his. tom’s blue eyes stared back at you without wavering, clearly waiting for you to say something. it was almost as if he were… anxious. you couldn’t recall ever hearing of or seeing anyone receive a gift from tom, and by his slightly restless posture—something your sharp eyes would never miss—you knew your theory was right.
“thank you,” you said, your voice hoarse from disuse. “it’s beautiful. truly.”
tom acknowledged your gratitude with a simple nod, finally looking away, his icy gaze settling on the black lake, now frozen solid. you followed his gaze, watching the snow fall softly in a quiet veil, the bracelet warm in your hand.
he broke the silence, as cold as the weather.
“you know,” he began, “you did the right decision. leaving your friends, i mean.” his voice was composed, any trace of earlier embarrassment gone. “they were on the wrong side of the history. they did wrong choices. you did not." his voice was "you were always on the right side of the conflict. and i imagine this must be difficult for you, but their end was the natural consequence of their recklessness.” he looked at you. “you’ll survive this.”
his attempt at comfort fell short. you didn’t agree with his words, but for now, the idea that he had at least tried to help was somewhat comforting—even if not enough. tom didn’t do feelings. sometimes you even thought he didn’t have any; so the fact that he took what must have been a shot in the dark and tried to comfort you in the middle of a hurricane of grief and sadness was, ironically, sweet by tom riddle’s standards.
“thank you, tom,” you replied softly, offering another wan smile.
as the two of you stared at the frozen lake, watching the thin crust of snow slowly form over the water and hide any trace of mystical fishes, tom’s presence was welcome. it wouldn’t be fair to say he treated you the way he treated others. for some reason, there was a less cruel version of him that only you could see—and you were grateful for it.
amid the sorrow of loss, the victory of a war, and a christmas devoid of colorful lights, gingerbreads and music, you whispered, “merry christmas, tom.”
it felt like an absurd joke. you had lost everything—family, friends, colleagues, acquaintances. there was nothing happy about a day that had once been magical.
still, unable to recognize happiness—because it was not a language tom riddle spoke—he replied quietly, “merry christmas, doll.”