"Don't Say It"
Home, to Remy, means something a little different than it does to other people. It’s because Remy learned what it was like to have a home only when he was ten, plucked off the streets to live with the Thieves Guild. Home is a little unsettling and a little challenging, but there’s food there. Food he doesn’t have to pay for, but does have to share. Home is safe, but sometimes it doesn’t feel that way.
Living with Logan is like that, and for a long time Remy doesn’t mind. Dinner with Logan is good, and so is sleeping with him and waking up next to him and cooking him breakfast. It's better than it ever has been with anyone else, because Logan knows that Remy's a filthy thief and doesn't mind, but eventually Remy has to admit to himself that sometimes it's also worse than it's ever been before. He can't go on with the relationship indefinitely, no matter how much he'd like to.
Logan must know it’s coming. He’s a tactless asshole, sometimes, and more willing to punch people than to listen (and Remy can relate, honest) but Logan isn’t stupid or oblivious. Remy’s been trying to put it off, to hide it, but as good as Remy is at lying he’s never been able to keep from flinching. Logan must known it’s coming, but they’ve been ignoring it. Maybe because Remy is hiding enough that Logan doesn’t think it’s out of the ordinary. Maybe because they’re both optimistic. If a relationship with the Wolverine could ever be considered to have a honeymoon period, Remy supposes that they might still be in it, after all.
It must seem like Remy is afraid of Logan. He’s not, not really, not since Logan became his partner, and then his partner. You can’t work with a hitter you don't trust, and Remy’s never been the kind of fool to fall into bed with someone who scares him, but…
It’s the claws.
From the moment Logan first unsheathed them to threaten Remy into helping him investigate Logan’s past, Remy has been unable to look at them without remembering Sabretooth. Not just because the sight of them makes Remy smell sewage and blood, but because Logan has the same violent, feral edge to him that Sabretooth had. Maybe there is and maybe there isn’t a solid link between Logan and Sabretooth — it’s not as if Remy is ever going to bring Sabretooth up in conversation with Logan, after all.
Logan was stubborn, and Remy considered himself dedicated. They could probably work it out. But eventually Logan would find out that Remy had been on a crew with Sabretooth, and what that crew had been hired to do. Remy would prefer that he and Logan were on strictly business terms by the time Logan learns the truth, because Remy prefers being stabbed by business partners rather than bed partners.
"Took a job in Moscow," Remy says, finally, when they've just finished wrapping up their latest job together. "Alone. Figured dat we could use a break."
